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The Hunger Games Book 2 
Suzanne Collins 



I clasp the flask between my hands even though the 
warmth from the tea has long since leached into the 
frozen air. My muscles are clenched tight against the 
cold. If a pack of wild dogs were to appear at this 
moment, the odds of scaling a tree before they attacked 
are not in my favor. I should get up, move around, and 
work the stiffness from my limbs. But instead I sit, as 
motionless as the rock beneath me, while the dawn 
begins to lighten the woods. I can't fight the sun. I can 
only watch helplessly as it drags me into a day that I've 
been dreading for months. 

By noon they will all be at my new house in the 
Victor's Village. The reporters, the camera crews, even 
Effie Trinket, my old escort, will have made their way 
to District 12 from the Capitol. I wonder if Effie will 
still be wearing that silly pink wig, or if she'll be 
sporting some other unnatural color especially for the 
Victory Tour. There will be others waiting, too. A staff 
to cater to my every need on the long train trip. A prep 

team to beautify me for public appearances. My stylist 
and friend, Cinna, who designed the gorgeous outfits 
that first made the audience take notice of me in the 
Hunger Games. 

If it were up to me, I would try to forget the Hunger 
Games entirely. Never speak of them. Pretend they 
were nothing but a bad dream. But the Victory Tour 
makes that impossible. Strategically placed almost 
midway between the annual Games, it is the Capitol's 
way of keeping the horror fresh and immediate. Not 
only are we in the districts forced to remember the iron 
grip of the Capitol's power each year, we are forced to 
celebrate it. And this year, I am one of the stars of the 
show. I will have to travel from district to district, to 
stand before the cheering crowds who secretly loathe 
me, to look down into the faces of the families whose 
children I have killed... 

The sun persists in rising, so I make myself stand. All 
my joints complain and my left leg has been asleep for 
so long that it takes several minutes of pacing to bring 
the feeling back into it. I've been in the woods three 
hours, but as I've made no real attempt at hunting, I 
have nothing to show for it. It doesn't matter for my 
mother and little sister, Prim, anymore. They can afford 
to buy butcher meat in town, although none of us likes 

it any better than fresh game. But my best friend, Gale 
Hawthorne, and his family will be depending on today's 
haul and I can't let them down. I start the hour-and-a- 
half trek it will take to cover our snare line. Back when 
we were in school, we had time in the afternoons to 
check the line and hunt and gather and still get back to 
trade in town. But now that Gale has gone to work in 
the coal mines — and I have nothing to do all day — I've 
taken over the job. 

By this time Gale will have clocked in at the mines, 
taken the stomach-churning elevator ride into the 
depths of the earth, and be pounding away at a coal 
seam. I know what it's like down there. Every year in 
school, as part of our training, my class had to tour the 
mines. When I was little, it was just unpleasant. The 
claustrophobic tunnels, foul air, suffocating darkness on 
all sides. But after my father and several other miners 
were killed in an explosion, I could barely force myself 
onto the elevator. The annual trip became an enormous 
source of anxiety. Twice I made myself so sick in 
anticipation of it that my mother kept me home because 
she thought I had contracted the flu. 

I think of Gale, who is only really alive in the woods, 
with its fresh air and sunlight and clean, flowing water. 
I don't know how he stands it. Well ... yes, I do. He 

stands it because it's the way to feed his mother and two 
younger brothers and sister. And here I am with buckets 
of money, far more than enough to feed both our 
families now, and he won't take a single coin. It's even 
hard for him to let me bring in meat, although he'd 
surely have kept my mother and Prim supplied if I'd 
been killed in the Games. I tell him he's doing me a 
favor, that it drives me nuts to sit around all day. Even 
so, I never drop off the game while he's at home. Which 
is easy since he works twelve hours a day. 

The only time I really get to see Gale now is on 
Sundays, when we meet up in the woods to hunt 
together. It's still the best day of the week, but it's not 
like it used to be before, when we could tell each other 
anything. The Games have spoiled even that. I keep 
hoping that as time passes we'll regain the ease between 
us, but part of me knows it's futile. There's no going 

I get a good haul from the traps — eight rabbits, two 
squirrels, and a beaver that swam into a wire 
contraption Gale designed himself. He's something of a 
whiz with snares, rigging them to bent saplings so they 
pull the kill out of the reach of predators, balancing logs 
on delicate stick triggers, weaving inescapable baskets 
to capture fish. As I go along, carefully resetting each 

snare, I know I can never quite replicate his eye for 
balance, his instinct for where the prey will cross the 
path. It's more than experience. It's a natural gift. Like 
the way I can shoot at an animal in almost complete 
darkness and still take it down with one arrow. 

By the time I make it back to the fence that surrounds 
District 12, the sun is well up. As always, I listen a 
moment, but there's no telltale hum of electrical current 
running through the chain link. There hardly ever is, 
even though the thing is supposed to be charged full- 
time. I wriggle through the opening at the bottom of the 
fence and come up in the Meadow, just a stone's throw 
from my home. My old home. We still get to keep it 
since officially it's the designated dwelling of my 
mother and sister. If I should drop dead right now, they 
would have to return to it. But at present, they're both 
happily installed in the new house in the Victor's 
Village, and I'm the only one who uses the squat little 
place where I was raised. To me, it's my real home. 

I go there now to switch my clothes. Exchange my 
father's old leather jacket for a fine wool coat that 
always seems too tight in the shoulders. Leave my soft, 
worn hunting boots for a pair of expensive machine- 
made shoes that my mother thinks are more appropriate 
for someone of my status. I've already stowed my bow 

and arrows in a hollow log in the woods. Although time 
is ticking away, I allow myself a few minutes to sit in 
the kitchen. It has an abandoned quality with no fire on 
the hearth, no cloth on the table. I mourn my old life 
here. We barely scraped by, but I knew where I fit in, I 
knew what my place was in the tightly interwoven 
fabric that was our life. I wish I could go back to it 
because, in retrospect, it seems so secure compared 
with now, when I am so rich and so famous and so 
hated by the authorities in the Capitol. 

A wailing at the back door demands my attention. I 
open it to find Buttercup, Prim's scruffy old tomcat. He 
dislikes the new house almost as much as I do and 
always leaves it when my sister's at school. We've 
never been particularly fond of each other, but now we 
have this new bond. I let him in, feed him a chunk of 
beaver fat, and even rub him between the ears for a bit. 
"You're hideous, you know that, right?" I ask him. 
Buttercup nudges my hand for more petting, but we 
have to go. "Come on, you." I scoop him up with one 
hand, grab my game bag with the other, and haul them 
both out onto the street. The cat springs free and 
disappears under a bush. 

The shoes pinch my toes as I crunch along the cinder 
street. Cutting down alleys and through backyards gets 

me to Gale's house in minutes. His mother, Hazelle, 
sees me through the window, where she's bent over the 
kitchen sink. She dries her hands on her apron and 
disappears to meet me at the door. 

I like Hazelle. Respect her. The explosion that killed 
my father took out her husband as well, leaving her 
with three boys and a baby due any day. Less than a 
week after she gave birth, she was out hunting the 
streets for work. The mines weren't an option, what 
with a baby to look after, but she managed to get 
laundry from some of the merchants in town. At 
fourteen, Gale, the eldest of the kids, became the main 
supporter of the family. He was already signed up for 
tesserae, which entitled them to a meager supply of 
grain and oil in exchange for his entering his name 
extra times in the drawing to become a tribute. On top 
of that, even back then, he was a skilled trapper. But it 
wasn't enough to keep a family of five without Hazelle 
working her fingers to the bone on that washboard. In 
winter her hands got so red and cracked, they bled at 
the slightest provocation. Still would if it wasn't for a 
salve my mother concocted. But they are determined, 
Hazelle and Gale, that the other boys, twelve -year-old 
Rory and ten-year-old Vick, and the baby, four-year-old 
Posy, will never have to sign up for tesserae. 

Hazelle smiles when she sees the game. She takes the 
beaver by the tail, feeling its weight. "He's going to 
make a nice stew." Unlike Gale, she has no problem 
with our hunting arrangement. 

"Good pelt, too," I answer. It's comforting here with 
Hazelle. Weighing the merits of the game, just as we 
always have. She pours me a mug of herb tea, which I 
wrap my chilled fingers around gratefully. "You know, 
when I get back from the tour, I was thinking I might 
take Rory out with me sometimes. After school. Teach 
him to shoot." 

Hazelle nods. "That'd be good. Gale means to, but he's 
only got his Sundays, and I think he likes saving those 
for you." 

I can't stop the redness that floods my cheeks. It's 
stupid, of course. Hardly anybody knows me better than 
Hazelle. Knows the bond I share with Gale. I'm sure 
plenty of people assumed that we'd eventually get 
married even if I never gave it any thought. But that 
was before the Games. Before my fellow tribute, Peeta 
Mellark, announced he was madly in love with me. Our 
romance became a key strategy for our survival in the 
arena. Only it wasn't just a strategy for Peeta. I'm not 
sure what it was for me. But I know now it was nothing 

but painful for Gale. My chest tightens as I think about 
how, on the Victory Tour, Peeta and I will have to 
present ourselves as lovers again. 

I gulp my tea even though it's too hot and push back 
from the table. "I better get going. Make myself 
presentable for the cameras." 

Hazelle hugs me. "Enjoy the food." 

"Absolutely," I say. 

My next stop is the Hob, where I've traditionally done 
the bulk of my trading. Years ago it was a warehouse to 
store coal, but when it fell into disuse, it became a 
meeting place for illegal trades and then blossomed into 
a full-time black market. If it attracts a somewhat 
criminal element, then I belong here, I guess. Hunting 
in the woods surrounding District 12 violates at least a 
dozen laws and is punishable by death. 

Although they never mention it, I owe the people who 
frequent the Hob. Gale told me that Greasy Sae, the old 
woman who serves up soup, started a collection to 
sponsor Peeta and me during the Games. It was 
supposed to be just a Hob thing, but a lot of other 
people heard about it and chipped in. I don't know 
exactly how much it was, and the price of any gift in 

the arena was exorbitant. But for all I know, it made the 
difference between my life and death. 

It's still odd to drag open the front door with an empty 
game bag, with nothing to trade, and instead feel the 
heavy pocket of coins against my hip. I try to hit as 
many stalls as possible, spreading out my purchases of 
coffee, buns, eggs, yarn, and oil. As an afterthought, I 
buy three bottles of white liquor from a one-armed 
woman named Ripper, a victim of a mine accident who 
was smart enough to find a way to stay alive. 

The liquor isn't for my family. It's for Haymitch, who 
acted as mentor for Peeta and me in the Games. He's 
surly, violent, and drunk most of the time. But he did 
his job — more than his job — because for the first time 
in history, two tributes were allowed to win. So no 
matter who Haymitch is, I owe him, too. And that's for 
always. I'm getting the white liquor because a few 
weeks ago he ran out and there was none for sale and he 
had a withdrawal, shaking and screaming at terrifying 
things only he could see. He scared Prim to death and, 
frankly, it wasn't much fun for me to see him like that, 
either. Ever since then I've been sort of stockpiling the 
stuff just in case there's a shortage again. 

Cray, our Head Peacekeeper, frowns when he sees me 
with the bottles. He's an older man with a few strands 
of silver hair combed sideways above his bright red 
face. 'That stuffs too strong for you, girl." He should 
know. Next to Haymitch, Cray drinks more than anyone 
I've ever met. 

"Aw, my mother uses it in medicines," I say 

"Well, it'd kill just about anything," he says, and slaps 
down a coin for a bottle. 

When I reach Greasy Sae's stall, I boost myself up to 
sit on the counter and order some soup, which looks to 
be some kind of gourd and bean mixture. A 
Peacekeeper named Darius comes up and buys a bowl 
while I'm eating. As law enforcers go, he's one of my 
favorites. Never really throwing his weight around, 
usually good for a joke. He's probably in his twenties, 
but he doesn't seem much older than I do. Something 
about his smile, his red hair that sticks out every which 
way, gives him a boyish quality. 

"Aren't you supposed to be on a train?" he asks me. 

"They're collecting me at noon," I answer. 

"Shouldn't you look better?" he asks in a loud 
whisper. I can't help smiling at his teasing, in spite of 
my mood. "Maybe a ribbon in your hair or something?" 
He flicks my braid with his hand and I brush him away. 

"Don't worry. By the time they get through with me 
111 be unrecognizable," I say. 

"Good," he says. "Let's show a little district pride for 
a change, Miss Everdeen. Hm?" He shakes his head at 
Greasy Sae in mock disapproval and walks off to join 
his friends. 

"I'll want that bowl back," Greasy Sae calls after him, 
but since she's laughing, she doesn't sound particularly 
stern. "Gale going to see you off?" she asks me. 

"No, he wasn't on the list," I say. "I saw him Sunday, 

"Think he'd have made the list. Him being your cousin 
and all," she says wryly. 

It's just one more part of the lie the Capitol has 
concocted. When Peeta and I made it into the final eight 
in the Hunger Games, they sent reporters to do personal 
stories about us. When they asked about my friends, 
everyone directed them to Gale. But it wouldn't do, 
what with the romance I was playing out in the arena, to 

have my best friend be Gale. He was too handsome, too 
male, and not the least bit willing to smile and play nice 
for the cameras. We do resemble each other, though, 
quite a bit. We have that Seam look. Dark straight hair, 
olive skin, gray eyes. So some genius made him my 
cousin. I didn't know about it until we were already 
home, on the platform at the train station, and my 
mother said, "Your cousins can hardly wait to see you!" 
Then I turned and saw Gale and Hazelle and all the kids 
waiting for me, so what could I do but go along? 

Greasy Sae knows we're not related, but even some of 
the people who have known us for years seem to have 

"I just can't wait for the whole thing to be over," I 

"I know," says Greasy Sae. "But you've got to go 
through it to get to the end of it. Better not be late." 

A light snow starts to fall as I make my way to the 
Victor's Village. It's about a half-mile walk from the 
square in the center of town, but it seems like another 
world entirely. 

It's a separate community built around a beautiful 
green, dotted with flowering bushes. There are twelve 

houses, each large enough to hold ten of the one I was 
raised in. Nine stand empty, as they always have. The 
three in use belong to Haymitch, Peeta, and me. 

The houses inhabited by my family and Peeta give off 
a warm glow of life. Lit windows, smoke from the 
chimneys, bunches of brightly colored corn affixed to 
the front doors as decoration for the upcoming Harvest 
Festival. However, Haymitch's house, despite the care 
taken by the grounds-keeper, exudes an air of 
abandonment and neglect. I brace myself at his front 
door, knowing it will be foul, then push inside. 

My nose immediately wrinkles in disgust. Haymitch 
refuses to let anyone in to clean and does a poor job 
himself. Over the years the odors of liquor and vomit, 
boiled cabbage and burned meat, unwashed clothes and 
mouse droppings have intermingled into a stench that 
brings tears to my eyes. I wade through a litter of 
discarded wrappings, broken glass, and bones to where 
I know I will find Haymitch. He sits at the kitchen 
table, his arms sprawled across the wood, his face in a 
puddle of liquor, snoring his head off. 

I nudge his shoulder. "Get up!" I say loudly, because 
I've learned there's no subtle way to wake him. His 
snoring stops for a moment, questioningly, and then 

resumes. I push him harder. "Get up, Haymitch. It's tour 
day!" I force the window up, inhaling deep breaths of 
the clean air outside. My feet shift through the garbage 
on the floor, and I unearth a tin coffeepot and fill it at 
the sink. The stove isn't completely out and I manage to 
coax the few live coals into a flame. I pour some 
ground coffee into the pot, enough to make sure the 
resulting brew will be good and strong, and set it on the 
stove to boil. 

Haymitch is still dead to the world. Since nothing else 
has worked, I fill a basin with icy cold water, dump it 
on his head, and spring out of the way. A guttural 
animal sound comes from his throat. He jumps up, 
kicking his chair ten feet behind him and wielding a 
knife. I forgot he always sleeps with one clutched in his 
hand. I should have pried it from his fingers, but I've 
had a lot on my mind. Spewing profanity, he slashes the 
air a few moments before coming to his senses. He 
wipes his face on his shirtsleeve and turns to the 
windowsill where I perch, just in case I need to make a 
quick exit. 

"What are you doing?" he sputters. 

"You told me to wake you an hour before the cameras 
come," I say. 

"What?" he says. 
"Your idea," I insist. 

He seems to remember. "Why am I all wet?" 

"I couldn't shake you awake," I say. "Look, if you 
wanted to be babied, you should have asked Peeta." 

"Asked me what?" Just the sound of his voice twists 
my stomach into a knot of unpleasant emotions like 
guilt, sadness, and fear. And longing. I might as well 
admit there's some of that, too. Only it has too much 
competition to ever win out. 

I watch as Peeta crosses to the table, the sunlight from 
the window picking up the glint of fresh snow in his 
blond hair. He looks strong and healthy, so different 
from the sick, starving boy I knew in the arena, and you 
can barely even notice his limp now. He sets a loaf of 
fresh-baked bread on the table and holds out his hand to 

"Asked you to wake me without giving me 
pneumonia," says Haymitch, passing over his knife. He 
pulls off his filthy shirt, revealing an equally soiled 
undershirt, and rubs himself down with the dry part. 

Peeta smiles and douses Haymitch's knife in white 
liquor from a bottle on the floor. He wipes the blade 
clean on his shirttail and slices the bread. Peeta keeps 
all of us in fresh baked goods. I hunt. He bakes. 
Haymitch drinks. We have our own ways to stay busy, 
to keep thoughts of our time as contestants in the 
Hunger Games at bay. It's not until he's handed 
Haymitch the heel that he even looks at me for the first 
time. "Would you like a piece?" 

"No, I ate at the Hob," I say. "But thank you." My 
voice doesn't sound like my own, it's so formal. Just as 
it's been every time I've spoken to Peeta since the 
cameras finished filming our happy homecoming and 
we returned to our real lives. 

"You're welcome," he says back stiffly. 

Haymitch tosses his shirt somewhere into the mess. 
"Brrr. You two have got a lot of warming up to do 
before showtime." 

He's right, of course. The audience will be expecting 
the pair of lovebirds who won the Hunger Games. Not 
two people who can barely look each other in the eye. 
But all I say is, "Take a bath, Haymitch." Then I swing 
out the window, drop to the ground, and head across the 
green to my house. 

The snow has begun to stick and I leave a trail of 
footprints behind me. At the front door, I pause to 
knock the wet stuff from my shoes before I go in. My 
mother's been working day and night to make 
everything perfect for the cameras, so it's no time to be 
tracking up her shiny floors. I've barely stepped inside 
when she's there, holding my arm as if to stop me. 

"Don't worry, I'm taking them off here," I say, leaving 
my shoes on the mat. 

My mother gives an odd, breathy laugh and removes 
the game bag loaded with supplies from my shoulder. 
"It's just snow. Did you have a nice walk?" 

"Walk?" She knows I've been in the woods half the 
night. Then I see the man standing behind her in the 
kitchen doorway. One look at his tailored suit and 
surgically perfected features and I know he's from the 
Capitol. Something is wrong. "It was more like skating. 
It's really getting slippery out there." 

"Someone's here to see you," says my mother. Her 
face is too pale and I can hear the anxiety she's trying to 

"I thought they weren't due until noon." I pretend not 
to notice her state. "Did Cinna come early to help me 
get ready?" 

"No, Katniss, it's — " my mother begins. 

"This way, please, Miss Everdeen," says the man. He 
gestures down the hallway. It's weird to be ushered 
around your own home, but I know better than to 
comment on it. 

As I go, I give my mother a reassuring smile over my 
shoulder. "Probably more instructions for the tour." 
They've been sending me all kinds of stuff about my 
itinerary and what protocol will be observed in each 
district. But as I walk toward the door of the study, a 
door I have never even seen closed until this moment, I 
can feel my mind begin to race. Who is here? What do 
they want? Why is my mother so pale? 

"Go right in," says the Capitol man, who has followed 
me down the hallway. 

I twist the polished brass knob and step inside. My 
nose registers the conflicting scents of roses and blood. 
A small, white-haired man who seems vaguely familiar 
is reading a book. He holds up a finger as if to say, 

"Give me a moment." Then he turns and my heart skips 
a beat. 

I'm staring into the snakelike eyes of President Snow. 


In my mind, President Snow should be viewed in front 
of marble pillars hung with oversized flags. It's jarring 
to see him surrounded by the ordinary objects in the 
room. Like taking the lid off a pot and finding a fanged 
viper instead of stew. 

What could he be doing here? My mind rushes back to 
the opening days of other Victory Tours. I remember 
seeing the winning tributes with their mentors and 
stylists. Even some high government officials have 
made appearances occasionally. But I have never seen 
President Snow. He attends celebrations in the Capitol. 

If he's made the journey all the way from his city, it 
can only mean one thing. I'm in serious trouble. And if I 
am, so is my family. A shiver goes through me when I 
think of the proximity of my mother and sister to this 
man who despises me. Will always despise me. 
Because I outsmarted his sadistic Hunger Games, made 
the Capitol look foolish, and consequently undermined 
his control. 

All I was doing was trying to keep Peeta and myself 
alive. Any act of rebellion was purely coincidental. But 
when the Capitol decrees that only one tribute can live 
and you have the audacity to challenge it, I guess that's 
a rebellion in itself. My only defense was pretending 
that I was driven insane by a passionate love for Peeta. 
So we were both allowed to live. To be crowned 
victors. To go home and celebrate and wave good-bye 
to the cameras and be left alone. Until now. 

Perhaps it is the newness of the house or the shock of 
seeing him or the mutual understanding that he could 
have me killed in a second that makes me feel like the 
intruder. As if this is his home and I'm the uninvited 
party. So I don't welcome him or offer him a chair. I 
don't say anything. In fact, I treat him as if he's a real 
snake, the venomous kind. I stand motionless, my eyes 
locked on him, considering plans of retreat. 

"I think we'll make this whole situation a lot simpler 
by agreeing not to lie to each other," he says. "What do 
you think?" 

I think my tongue has frozen and speech will be 
impossible, so I surprise myself by answering back in a 
steady voice, "Yes, I think that would save time." 

President Snow smiles and I notice his lips for the first 
time. I'm expecting snake lips, which is to say none. 
But his are overly full, the skin stretched too tight. I 
have to wonder if his mouth has been altered to make 
him more appealing. If so, it was a waste of time and 
money, because he's not appealing at all. "My advisors 
were concerned you would be difficult, but you're not 
planning on being difficult, are you?" he asks. 

"No," I answer. 

"That's what I told them. I said any girl who goes to 
such lengths to preserve her life isn't going to be 
interested in throwing it away with both hands. And 
then there's her family to think of. Her mother, her 
sister, and all those ... cousins." By the way he lingers 
on the word "cousins," I can tell he knows that Gale 
and I don't share a family tree. 

Well, it's all on the table now. Maybe that's better. I 
don't do well with ambiguous threats. I'd much rather 
know the score. 

"Let's sit." President Snow takes a seat at the large 
desk of polished wood where Prim does her homework 
and my mother her budgets. Like our home, this is a 
place that he has no right, but ultimately every right, to 
occupy. I sit in front of the desk on one of the carved, 

straight-backed chairs. It's made for someone taller than 
I am, so only my toes rest on the ground. 

"I have a problem, Miss Everdeen," says President 
Snow. "A problem that began the moment you pulled 
out those poisonous berries in the arena." 

That was the moment when I guessed that if the 
Gamemakers had to choose between watching Peeta 
and me commit suicide — which would mean having no 
victor — and letting us both live, they would take the 

"If the Head Gamemaker, Seneca Crane, had had any 
brains, he'd have blown you to dust right then. But he 
had an unfortunate sentimental streak. So here you are. 
Can you guess where he is?" he asks. 

I nod because, by the way he says it, it's clear that 
Seneca Crane has been executed. The smell of roses 
and blood has grown stronger now that only a desk 
separates us. There's a rose in President Snow's lapel, 
which at least suggests a source of the flower perfume, 
but it must be genetically enhanced, because no real 
rose reeks like that. As for the blood ... I don't know. 

"After that, there was nothing to do but let you play 
out your little scenario. And you were pretty good, too, 

with the love-crazed schoolgirl bit. The people in the 
Capitol were quite convinced. Unfortunately, not 
everyone in the districts fell for your act," he says. 

My face must register at least a flicker of 
bewilderment, because he addresses it. 

"This, of course, you don't know. You have no access 
to information about the mood in other districts. In 
several of them, however, people viewed your little 
trick with the berries as an act of defiance, not an act of 
love. And if a girl from District Twelve of all places 
can defy the Capitol and walk away unharmed, what is 
to stop them from doing the same?" he says. "What is 
to prevent, say, an uprising?" 

It takes a moment for his last sentence to sink in. Then 
the full weight of it hits me. 'There have been 
uprisings?" I ask, both chilled and somewhat elated by 
the possibility. 

"Not yet. But they'll follow if the course of things 
doesn't change. And uprisings have been known to lead 
to revolution." President Snow rubs a spot over his left 
eyebrow, the very spot where I myself get headaches. 
"Do you have any idea what that would mean? How 
many people would die? What conditions those left 
would have to face? Whatever problems anyone may 

have with the Capitol, believe me when I say that if it 
released its grip on the districts for even a short time, 
the entire system would collapse." 

I'm taken aback by the directness and even the 
sincerity of this speech. As if his primary concern is the 
welfare of the citizens of Panem, when nothing could 
be further from the truth. I don't know how I dare to say 
the next words, but I do. "It must be very fragile, if a 
handful of berries can bring it down." 

There's a long pause while he examines me. Then he 
simply says, "It is fragile, but not in the way that you 

There's a knock at the door, and the Capitol man 
sticks his head in. "Her mother wants to know if you 
want tea." 

"I would. I would like tea," says the president. The 
door opens wider, and there stands my mother, holding 
a tray with a china tea set she brought to the Seam when 
she married. "Set it here, please." He places his book on 
the corner of the desk and pats the center. 

My mother sets the tray on the desk. It holds a china 
teapot and cups, cream and sugar, and a plate of 

cookies. They are beautifully iced with softly colored 
flowers. The frosting work can only be Peeta's. 

"What a welcome sight. You know, it's funny how 
often people forget that presidents need to eat, too," 
President Snow says charmingly. Well, it seems to relax 
my mother a bit, anyway. 

"Can I get you anything else? I can cook something 
more substantial if you're hungry," she offers. 

"No, this could not be more perfect. Thank you," he 
says, clearly dismissing her. My mother nods, shoots 
me a glance, and goes. President Snow pours tea for 
both of us and fills his with cream and sugar, then takes 
a long time stirring. I sense he has had his say and is 
waiting for me to respond. 

"I didn't mean to start any uprisings," I tell him. 

"I believe you. It doesn't matter. Your stylist turned 
out to be prophetic in his wardrobe choice. Katniss 
Everdeen, the girl who was on fire, you have provided a 
spark that, left unattended, may grow to an inferno that 
destroys Panem," he says. 

"Why don't you just kill me now?" I blurt out. 
"Publicly?" he asks. "That would only add fuel to the 

"Arrange an accident, then," I say. 

"Who would buy it?" he asks. "Not you, if you were 

"Then just tell me what you want me to do. I'll do it," 
I say. 

"If only it were that simple." He picks up one of the 
flowered cookies and examines it. "Lovely. Your 
mother made these?" 

"Peeta." And for the first time, I find I can't hold his 
gaze. I reach for my tea but set it back down when I 
hear the cup rattling against the saucer. To cover I 
quickly take a cookie. 

"Peeta. How is the love of your life?" he asks. 
"Good," I say. 

"At what point did he realize the exact degree of your 
indifference?" he asks, dipping his cookie in his tea. 
"I'm not indifferent," I say. 

"But perhaps not as taken with the young man as you 
would have the country believe," he says. "Who says 
I'm not?" I say. 

"I do," says the president. "And I wouldn't be here if I 
were the only person who had doubts. How's the 
handsome cousin?" 

"I don't know ... I don't ..." My revulsion at this 
conversation, at discussing my feelings for two of the 
people I care most about with President Snow, chokes 
me off. 

"Speak, Miss Everdeen. Him I can easily kill off if we 
don't come to a happy resolution," he says. "You aren't 
doing him a favor by disappearing into the woods with 
him each Sunday." 

If he knows this, what else does he know? And how 
does he know it? Many people could tell him that Gale 
and I spend our Sundays hunting. Don't we show up at 
the end of each one loaded down with game? Haven't 
we for years? The real question is what he thinks goes 
on in the woods beyond District 12. Surely they haven't 
been tracking us in there. Or have they? Could we have 
been followed? That seems impossible. At least by a 
person. Cameras? That never crossed my mind until 
this moment. The woods have always been our place of 
safety, our place beyond the reach of the Capitol, where 
we're free to say what we feel, be who we are. At least 
before the Games. If we've been watched since, what 

have they seen? Two people hunting, saying treasonous 
things against the Capitol, yes. But not two people in 
love, which seems to be President Snow's implication. 
We are safe on that charge. Unless ... unless ... 

It only happened once. It was fast and unexpected, but 
it did happen. 

After Peeta and I got home from the Games, it was 
several weeks before I saw Gale alone. First there were 
the obligatory celebrations. A banquet for the victors 
that only the most high-ranking people were invited to. 
A holiday for the whole district with free food and 
entertainers brought in from the Capitol. Parcel Day, 
the first of twelve, in which food packages were 
delivered to every person in the district. That was my 
favorite. To see all those hungry kids in the Seam 
running around, waving cans of applesauce, tins of 
meat, even candy. Back home, too big to carry, would 
be bags of grain, cans of oil. To know that once a 
month for a year they would all receive another parcel. 
That was one of the few times I actually felt good about 
winning the Games. 

So between the ceremonies and events and the 
reporters documenting my every move as I presided and 
thanked and kissed Peeta for the audience, I had no 

privacy at all. After a few weeks, things finally died 
down. The camera crews and reporters packed up and 
went home. Peeta and I assumed the cool relationship 
we've had ever since. My family settled into our house 
in the Victor's Village. The everyday life of District 
12 — workers to the mines, kids to school — resumed its 
usual pace. I waited until I thought the coast was really 
clear, and then one Sunday, without telling anyone, I 
got up hours before dawn and took off for the woods. 

The weather was still warm enough that I didn't need a 
jacket. I packed along a bag filled with special foods, 
cold chicken and cheese and bakery bread and oranges. 
Down at my old house, I put on my hunting boots. As 
usual, the fence was not charged and it was simple to 
slip into the woods and retrieve my bow and arrows. I 
went to our place, Gale's and mine, where we had 
shared breakfast the morning of the reaping that sent 
me into the Games. 

I waited at least two hours. I'd begun to think that he'd 
given up on me in the weeks that had passed. Or that he 
no longer cared about me. Hated me even. And the idea 
of losing him forever, my best friend, the only person 
I'd ever trusted with my secrets, was so painful I 
couldn't stand it. Not on top of everything else that had 

happened. I could feel my eyes tearing up and my 
throat starting to close the way it does when I get upset. 

Then I looked up and there he was, ten feet away, just 
watching me. Without even thinking, I jumped up and 
threw my arms around him, making some weird sound 
that combined laughing, choking, and crying. He was 
holding me so tightly that I couldn't see his face, but it 
was a really long time before he let me go and then he 
didn't have much choice, because I'd gotten this 
unbelievably loud case of the hiccups and had to get a 

We did what we always did that day. Ate breakfast. 
Hunted and fished and gathered. Talked about people in 
town. But not about us, his new life in the mines, my 
time in the arena. Just about other things. By the time 
we were at the hole in the fence that's nearest the Hob, I 
think I really believed that things could be the same. 
That we could go on as we always had. I'd given all the 
game to Gale to trade since we had so much food now. 
I told him I'd skip the Hob, even though I was looking 
forward to going there, because my mother and sister 
didn't even know I'd gone hunting and they'd be 
wondering where I was. Then suddenly, as I was 
suggesting I take over the daily snare run, he took my 
face in his hands and kissed me. 

I was completely unprepared. You would think that 
after all the hours I'd spent with Gale — watching him 
talk and laugh and frown — that I would know all there 
was to know about his lips. But I hadn't imagined how 
warm they would feel pressed against my own. Or how 
those hands, which could set the most intricate of 
snares, could as easily entrap me. I think I made some 
sort of noise in the back of my throat, and I vaguely 
remember my fingers, curled tightly closed, resting on 
his chest. Then he let go and said, "I had to do that. At 
least once." And he was gone. 

Despite the fact that the sun was setting and my 
family would be worried, I sat by a tree next to the 
fence. I tried to decide how I felt about the kiss, if I had 
liked it or resented it, but all I really remembered was 
the pressure of Gale's lips and the scent of the oranges 
that still lingered on his skin. It was pointless 
comparing it with the many kisses I'd exchanged with 
Peeta. I still hadn't figured out if any of those counted. 
Finally I went home. 

That week I managed the snares and dropped off the 
meat with Hazelle. But I didn't see Gale until Sunday. I 
had this whole speech worked out, about how I didn't 
want a boyfriend and never planned on marrying, but I 

didn't end up using it. Gale acted as if the kiss had 
never happened. 

Maybe he was waiting for me to say something. Or 
kiss him back. Instead I just pretended it had never 
happened, either. But it had. Gale had shattered some 
invisible barrier between us and, with it, any hope I had 
of resuming our old, uncomplicated friendship. 
Whatever I pretended, I could never look at his lips in 
quite the same way. 

This all flashes through my head in an instant as 
President Snow's eyes bore into me on the heels of his 
threat to kill Gale. How stupid I've been to think the 
Capitol would just ignore me once I'd returned home! 
Maybe I didn't know about the potential uprisings. But I 
knew they were angry with me. Instead of acting with 
the extreme caution the situation called for, what have I 
done? From the president's point of view, I've ignored 
Peeta and flaunted my preference for Gale's company 
before the whole district. And by doing so made it clear 
I was, in fact, mocking the Capitol. Now I've 
endangered Gale and his family and my family and 
Peeta, too, by my carelessness. 

"Please don't hurt Gale," I whisper. "He's just my 
friend. He's been my friend for years. That's all that's 

between us. Besides, everyone thinks we're cousins 

"I'm only interested in how it affects your dynamic 
with Peeta, thereby affecting the mood in the districts," 
he says. 

"It will be the same on the tour. Ill be in love with 
him just as I was," I say. 

"Just as you are," corrects President Snow. 

"Just as I am," I confirm. 

"Only youll have to do even better if the uprisings are 
to be averted," he says. "This tour will be your only 
chance to turn things around." 

"I know. I will. Ill convince everyone in the districts 
that I wasn't defying the Capitol, that I was crazy with 
love," I say. 

President Snow rises and dabs his puffy lips with a 
napkin. "Aim higher in case you fall short." 

"What do you mean? How can I aim higher?" I ask. 

"Convince me" he says. He drops the napkin and 
retrieves his book. I don't watch him as he heads for the 
door, so I flinch when he whispers in my ear. "By the 

way, I know about the kiss." Then the door clicks shut 
behind him. 


The smell of blood ... it was on his breath. 

What does he do? I think. Drink it? I imagine him 
sipping it from a teacup. Dipping a cookie into the stuff 
and pulling it out dripping red. 

Outside the window, a car comes to life, soft and quiet 
like the purr of a cat, then fades away into the distance. 
It slips off as it arrived, unnoticed. 

The room seems to be spinning in slow, lopsided 
circles, and I wonder if I might black out. I lean 
forward and clutch the desk with one hand. The other 
still holds Peeta's beautiful cookie. I think it had a tiger 
lily on it, but now it's been reduced to crumbs in my 
fist. I didn't even know I was crushing it, but I guess I 
had to hold on to something while my world veered out 
of control. 

A visit from President Snow. Districts on the verge of 
uprisings. A direct death threat to Gale, with others to 
follow. Everyone I love doomed. And who knows who 
else will pay for my actions? Unless I turn things 

around on this tour. Quiet the discontent and put the 
president's mind at rest. And how? By proving to the 
country beyond any shadow of a doubt that I love Peeta 

/ can't do it, I think. I'm not that good. Peeta's the 
good one, the likable one. He can make people believe 
anything. I'm the one who shuts up and sits back and 
lets him do as much of the talking as possible. But it 
isn't Peeta who has to prove his devotion. It's me. 

I hear my mother's light, quick tread in the hall. She 
can't know, I think. Not about any of this. I reach my 
hands over the tray and quickly brush the bits of cookie 
from my palm and fingers. I take a shaky sip of my tea. 

"Is everything all right, Katniss?" she asks. 

"It's fine. We never see it on television, but the 
president always visits the victors before the tour to 
wish them luck," I say brightly. 

My mother's face floods with relief. "Oh. I thought 
there was some kind of trouble." 

"No, not at all," I say. "The trouble will start when my 
prep team sees how I've let my eyebrows grow back 
in." My mother laughs, and I think about how there was 
no going back after I took over caring for the family 

when I was eleven. How I will always have to protect 

"Why don't I start your bath?" she asks. 

"Great," I say, and I can see how pleased she is by my 

Since I've been home I've been trying hard to mend 
my relationship with my mother. Asking her to do 
things for me instead of brushing aside any offer of 
help, as I did for years out of anger. Letting her handle 
all the money I won. Returning her hugs instead of 
tolerating them. My time in the arena made me realize 
how I needed to stop punishing her for something she 
couldn't help, specifically the crushing depression she 
fell into after my father's death. Because sometimes 
things happen to people and they're not equipped to 
deal with them. 

Like me, for instance. Right now. 

Besides, there's one wonderful thing she did when I 
arrived back in the district. After our families and 
friends had greeted Peeta and me at the train station, 
there were a few questions allowed from reporters. 
Someone asked my mother what she thought of my new 
boyfriend, and she replied that, while Peeta was the 

very model of what a young man should be, I wasn't old 
enough to have any boyfriend at all. She followed this 
with a pointed look at Peeta. There was a lot of laughter 
and comments like "Somebody's in trouble" from the 
press, and Peeta dropped my hand and sidestepped 
away from me. That didn't last long — there was too 
much pressure to act otherwise — but it gave us an 
excuse to be a little more reserved than we'd been in the 
Capitol. And maybe it can help account for how little 
I've been seen in Peeta's company since the cameras 

I go upstairs to the bathroom, where a steaming tub 
awaits. My mother has added a small bag of dried 
flowers that perfumes the air. None of us are used to the 
luxury of turning on a tap and having a limitless supply 
of hot water at our fingertips. We had only cold at our 
home in the Seam, and a bath meant boiling the rest 
over the fire. I undress and lower myself into the silky 
water — my mother has poured in some kind of oil as 
well — and try to get a grip on things. 

The first question is who to tell, if anyone. Not my 
mother or Prim, obviously; they'd only become sick 
with worry. Not Gale. Even if I could get word to him. 
What would he do with the information, anyway? If he 
were alone, I might try to persuade him to run away. 

Certainly he could survive in the woods. But he's not 
alone and he'd never leave his family. Or me. When I 
get home I'll have to tell him something about why our 
Sundays are a thing of the past, but I can't think about 
that now. Only about my next move. Besides, Gale's 
already so angry and frustrated with the Capitol that I 
sometimes think he's going to arrange his own uprising. 
The last thing he needs is an incentive. No, I can't tell 
anyone I'm leaving behind in District 12. 

There are still three people I might confide in, starting 
with Cinna, my stylist. But my guess is Cinna might 
already be at risk, and I don't want to pull him into any 
more trouble by closer association with me. Then 
there's Peeta, who will be my partner in this deception, 
but how do I begin that conversation? Hey, Peeta, 
remember how I told you I was kind of faking being in 
love with you? Well, I really need you to forget about 
that now and act extra in love with me or the president 
might kill Gale. I can't do it. Besides, Peeta will 
perform well whether he knows what's at stake or not. 
That leaves Haymitch. Drunken, cranky, 
confrontational Haymitch, who I just poured a basin of 
ice water on. As my mentor in the Games it was his 
duty to keep me alive. I only hope he's still up for the 

I slide down into the water, letting it block out the 
sounds around me. I wish the tub would expand so I 
could go swimming, like I used to on hot summer 
Sundays in the woods with my father. Those days were 
a special treat. We would leave early in the morning 
and hike farther into the woods than usual to a small 
lake he'd found while hunting. I don't even remember 
learning to swim, I was so young when he taught me. I 
just remember diving, turning somersaults, and 
paddling around. The muddy bottom of the lake 
beneath my toes. The smell of blossoms and greenery. 
Floating on my back, as I am now, staring at the blue 
sky while the chatter of the woods was muted by the 
water. He'd bag the waterfowl that nested around the 
shore, I'd hunt for eggs in the grasses, and we'd both dig 
for katniss roots, the plant for which he named me, in 
the shallows. At night, when we got home, my mother 
would pretend not to recognize me because I was so 
clean. Then she'd cook up an amazing dinner of roasted 
duck and baked katniss tubers with gravy. 

I never took Gale to the lake. I could have. It's time- 
consuming to get there, but the waterfowl are such easy 
pickings you can make up for lost hunting time. It's a 
place I've never really wanted to share with anyone, 
though, a place that belonged only to my father and me. 

Since the Games, when I've had little to occupy my 
days, I've gone there a couple of times. The swimming 
was still nice, but mostly the visits depressed me. Over 
the course of the last five years, the lake's remarkably 
unchanged and I'm almost unrecognizable. 

Even underwater I can hear the sounds of commotion. 
Honking car horns, shouts of greeting, doors banging 
shut. It can only mean my entourage has arrived. I just 
have time to towel off and slip into a robe before my 
prep team bursts into the bathroom. There's no question 
of privacy. When it comes to my body, we have no 
secrets, these three people and me. 

"Katniss, your eyebrows!" Venia shrieks right off, and 
even with the black cloud hanging over me, I have to 
stifle a laugh. Her aqua hair has been styled so it sticks 
out in sharp points all over her head, and the gold 
tattoos that used to be confined above her brows have 
curled around under her eyes, all contributing to the 
impression that I've literally shocked her. 

Octavia comes up and pats Venia's back soothingly, 
her curvy body looking plumper than usual next to 
Venia's thin, angular one. 'There, there. You can fix 
those in no time. But what am I going to do with these 
nails?" She grabs my hand and pins it flat between her 

two pea green ones. No, her skin isn't exactly pea green 
now. It's more of a light evergreen. The shift in shade is 
no doubt an attempt to stay abreast of the capricious 
fashion trends of the Capitol. "Really, Katniss, you 
could have left me something to work with!" she wails. 

It's true. I've bitten my nails to stubs in the past couple 
of months. I thought about trying to break the habit but 
couldn't think of a good reason I should. "Sorry," I 
mutter. I hadn't really been spending much time 
worrying about how it might affect my prep team. 

Flavius lifts a few strands of my wet, tangled hair. He 
gives his head a disapproving shake, causing his orange 
corkscrew curls to bounce around. "Has anyone 
touched this since you last saw us?" he asks sternly. 
"Remember, we specifically asked you to leave your 
hair alone." 

"Yes!" I say, grateful that I can show I haven't totally 
taken them for granted. "I mean, no, no one's cut it. I 
did remember that." No, I didn't. It's more like the issue 
never came up. Since I've been home, all I've done is 
stick it in its usual old braid down my back. 

This seems to mollify them, and they all kiss me, set 
me on a chair in my bedroom, and, as usual, start 
talking nonstop without bothering to notice if I'm 

listening. While Venia reinvents my eyebrows and 
Octavia gives me fake nails and Flavius massages goo 
into my hair, I hear all about the Capitol. What a hit the 
Games were, how dull things have been since, how no 
one can wait until Peeta and I visit again at the end of 
the Victory Tour. After that, it won't be long before the 
Capitol begins gearing up for the Quarter Quell. 

"Isn't it thrilling?" 

"Don't you feel so lucky?" 

"In your very first year of being a victor, you get to be 
a mentor in a Quarter Quell!" 

Their words overlap in a blur of excitement. 

"Oh, yes," I say neutrally. It's the best I can do. In a 
normal year, being a mentor to the tributes is the stuff 
of nightmares. I can't walk by the school now without 
wondering what kid I'll have to coach. But to make 
things even worse, this is the year of the Seventy-fifth 
Hunger Games, and that means it's also a Quarter Quell. 
They occur every twenty-five years, marking the 
anniversary of the districts' defeat with over-the-top 
celebrations and, for extra fun, some miserable twist for 
the tributes. I've never been alive for one, of course. But 
in school I remember hearing that for the second 

Quarter Quell, the Capitol demanded that twice the 
number of tributes be provided for the arena. The 
teachers didn't go into much more detail, which is 
surprising, because that was the year District 12 f s very 
own Haymitch Abernathy won the crown. 

"Haymitch better be preparing himself for a lot of 
attention!" squeals Octavia. 

Haymitch has never mentioned his personal 
experience in the arena to me. I would never ask. And if 
I ever saw his Games televised in reruns, I mustVe been 
too young to remember it. But the Capitol won't let him 
forget it this year. In a way, it's a good thing Peeta and I 
will both be available as mentors during the Quell, 
because it's a sure bet that Haymitch will be wasted. 

After they've exhausted the topic of the Quarter Quell, 
my prep team, launches into a whole lot of stuff about 
their incomprehensibly silly lives. Who said what about 
someone I've never heard of and what sort of shoes they 
just bought and a long story from Octavia about what a 
mistake it was to have everyone wear feathers to her 
birthday party. 

Soon my brows are stinging, my hair's smooth and 
silky, and my nails are ready to be painted. Apparently 
they've been given instruction to prepare only my hands 

and face, probably because everything else will be 
covered in the cold weather. Flavius badly wants to use 
his own trademark purple lipstick on me but resigns 
himself to a pink as they begin to color my face and 
nails. I can see by the palette Cinna has assigned that 
we're going for girlish, not sexy. 

Good. I'll never convince anyone of anything if I'm 
trying to be provocative. Haymitch made that very clear 
when he was coaching me for my interview for the 

My mother comes in, somewhat shyly, and says that 
Cinna has asked her to show the preps how she did my 
hair the day of the reaping. They respond with 
enthusiasm and then watch, thoroughly engrossed, as 
she breaks down the process of the elaborate braided 
hairdo. In the mirror, I can see their earnest faces 
following her every move, their eagerness when it is 
their turn to try a step. In fact, all three are so readily 
respectful and nice to my mother that I feel bad about 
how I go around feeling so superior to them. Who 
knows who I would be or what I would talk about if I'd 
been raised in the Capitol? Maybe my biggest regret 
would be having feathered costumes at my birthday 
party, too. 

When my hair is done, I find Cinna downstairs in the 
living room, and just the sight of him makes me feel 
more hopeful. He looks the same as always, simple 
clothes, short brown hair, just a hint of gold eyeliner. 
We embrace, and I can barely keep from spilling out 
the entire episode with President Snow. But no, I've 
decided to tell Haymitch first. He'll know best who to 
burden with it. It's so easy to talk to Cinna, though. 
Lately we've been speaking a lot on the telephone that 
came with the house. It's sort of a joke, because almost 
no one else we know owns one. There's Peeta, but 
obviously I don't call him. Haymitch tore his out of the 
wall years ago. My friend Madge, the mayor's daughter, 
has a telephone in her house, but if we want to talk, we 
do it in person. At first, the thing barely ever got used. 
Then Cinna started to call to work on my talent. 

Every victor is supposed to have one. Your talent is 
the activity you take up since you don't have to work 
either in school or your district's industry. It can be 
anything, really, anything that they can interview you 
about. Peeta, it turns out, actually has a talent, which is 
painting. He's been frosting those cakes and cookies for 
years in his family's bakery. But now that he's rich, he 
can afford to smear real paint on canvases. I don't have 
a talent, unless you count hunting illegally, which they 

don't. Or maybe singing, which I wouldn't do for the 
Capitol in a million years. My mother tried to interest 
me in a variety of suitable alternatives from a list Effie 
Trinket sent her. Cooking, flower arranging, playing the 
flute. None of them took, although Prim had a knack for 
all three. Finally Cinna stepped in and offered to help 
me develop my passion for designing clothes, which 
really required development since it was nonexistent. 
But I said yes because it meant getting to talk to Cinna, 
and he promised he'd do all the work. 

Now he's arranging things around my living room: 
clothing, fabrics, and sketchbooks with designs he's 
drawn. I pick up one of the sketchbooks and examine a 
dress I supposedly created. "You know, I think I show a 
lot of promise," I say. 

"Get dressed, you worthless thing," he says, tossing a 
bundle of clothes at me. 

I may have no interest in designing clothes but I do 
love the ones Cinna makes for me. Like these. Flowing 
black pants made of a thick, warm material. A 
comfortable white shirt. A sweater woven from green 
and blue and gray strands of kitten-soft wool. Laced 
leather boots that don't pinch my toes. 

"Did I design my outfit?" I ask. 

"No, you aspire to design your outfit and be like me, 
your fashion hero," says Cinna. He hands me a small 
stack of cards. "You'll read these off camera while 
they're filming the clothes. Try to sound like you care." 

Just then, Effie Trinket arrives in a pumpkin orange 
wig to remind everyone, "We're on a schedule!" She 
kisses me on both cheeks while waving in the camera 
crew, then orders me into position. Effie's the only 
reason we got anywhere on time in the Capitol, so I try 
to accommodate her. I start bobbing around like a 
puppet, holding up outfits and saying meaningless 
things like "Don't you love it?" The sound team records 
me reading from my cards in a chirpy voice so they can 
insert it later, then I'm tossed out of the room so they 
can film my/Cinna's designs in peace. 

Prim got out early from school for the event. Now she 
stands in the kitchen, being interviewed by another 
crew. She looks lovely in a sky blue frock that brings 
out her eyes, her blond hair pulled back in a matching 
ribbon. She's leaning a bit forward on the toes of her 
shiny white boots like she's about to take flight, like — 

Bam! It's like someone actually hits me in the chest. 
No one has, of course, but the pain is so real I take a 
step back. I squeeze my eyes shut and I don't see 

Prim — I see Rue, the twelve-year-old girl from District 
11 who was my ally in the arena. She could fly, 
birdlike, from tree to tree, catching on to the slenderest 
branches. Rue, who I didn't save. Who I let die. I 
picture her lying on the ground with the spear still 
wedged in her stomach... . 

Who else will I fail to save from the Capitol's 
vengeance? Who else will be dead if I don't satisfy 
President Snow? 

I realize Cinna's trying to put a coat on me, so I raise 
my arms. I feel fur, inside and out, encasing me. It's 
from no animal I've ever seen. "Ermine," he tells me as 
I stroke the white sleeve. Leather gloves. A bright red 
scarf. Something furry covers my ears. "You're 
bringing earmuffs back in style." 

/ hate earmuffs, I think. They make it hard to hear, 
and since I was blasted deaf in one ear in the arena, I 
dislike them even more. After I won, the Capitol 
repaired my ear, but I still find myself testing it. 

My mother hurries up with something cupped in her 
hand. "For good luck," she says. 

It's the pin Madge gave me before I left for the 
Games. A mocking] ay flying in a circle of gold. I tried 

to give it to Rue but she wouldn't take it. She said the 
pin was the reason she'd decided to trust me. Cinna 
fixes it on the knot in the scarf. 

Effie Trinket's nearby, clapping her hands. "Attention, 
everyone! We're about to do the first outdoor shot, 
where the victors greet each other at the beginning of 
their marvelous trip. All right, Katniss, big smile, you're 
very excited, right?" I don't exaggerate when I say she 
shoves me out the door. 

For a moment I can't quite see right because of the 
snow, which is now coming down in earnest. Then I 
make out Peeta coming through his front door. In my 
head I hear President Snow's directive, "Convince me." 
And I know I must. 

My face breaks into a huge smile and I start walking 
in Peeta's direction. Then, as if I can't stand it another 
second, I start running. He catches me and spins me 
around and then he slips — he still isn't entirely in 
command of his artificial leg — and we fall into the 
snow, me on top of him, and that's where we have our 
first kiss in months. It's full of fur and snowflakes and 
lipstick, but underneath all that, I can feel the steadiness 
that Peeta brings to everything. And I know I'm not 
alone. As badly as I have hurt him, he won't expose me 

in front of the cameras. Won't condemn me with a 
halfhearted kiss. He's still looking out for me. Just as he 
did in the arena. Somehow the thought makes me want 
to cry. Instead I pull him to his feet, tuck my glove 
through the crook of his arm, and merrily pull him on 
our way. 

The rest of the day is a blur of getting to the station, 
bidding everyone good-bye, the train pulling out, the 
old team — Peeta and me, Effie and Haymitch, Cinna 
and Portia, Peeta's stylist — dining on an indescribably 
delicious meal I don't remember. And then I'm swathed 
in pajamas and a voluminous robe, sitting in my plush 
compartment, waiting for the others to go to sleep. I 
know Haymitch will be up for hours. He doesn't like to 
sleep when it's dark out. 

When the train seems quiet, I put on my slippers and 
pad down to his door. I have to knock several times 
before he answers, scowling, as if he's certain I've 
brought bad news. 

"What do you want?" he says, nearly knocking me out 
with a cloud of wine fumes. 

"I have to talk to you," I whisper. 

"Now?" he says. I nod. 'This better be good." He 
waits, but I feel certain every word we utter on a 
Capitol train is being recorded. "Well?" he barks. 

The train starts to brake and for a second I think 
President Snow is watching me and doesn't approve of 
my confiding in Haymitch and has decided to go ahead 
and kill me now. But we're just stopping for fuel. 

"The train's so stuffy," I say. 

It's a harmless phrase, but I see Haymitch's eyes 
narrow in understanding. "I know what you need." He 
pushes past me and lurches down the hall to a door. 
When he wrestles it open, a blast of snow hits us. He 
trips out onto the ground. 

A Capitol attendant rushes to help, but Haymitch 
waves her away good-naturedly as he staggers off. "Just 
want some fresh air. Only be a minute." 

"Sorry. He's drunk," I say apologetically. "I'll get 
him." I hop down and stumble along the track behind 
him, soaking my slippers with snow, as he leads me 
beyond the end of the train so we will not be overheard. 
Then he turns on me. 


I tell him everything. About the president's visit, about 
Gale, about how we're all going to die if I fail. 

His face sobers, grows older in the glow of the red 
tail-lights. 'Then you can't fail." 

"If you could just help me get through this trip — " I 

"No, Katniss, it's not just this trip," he says. "What do 
you mean?" I say. 

"Even if you pull it off, they'll be back in another few 
months to take us all to the Games. You and Peeta, 
you'll be mentors now, every year from here on out. 
And every year they'll revisit the romance and 
broadcast the details of your private life, and you'll 
never, ever be able to do anything but live happily ever 
after with that boy." 

The full impact of what he's saying hits me. I will 
never have a life with Gale, even if I want to. I will 
never be allowed to live alone. I will have to be forever 
in love with Peeta. The Capitol will insist on it. I'll have 
a few years maybe, because I'm still only sixteen, to 
stay with my mother and Prim. And then ... and then ... 

"Do you understand what I mean?" he presses me. 

I nod. He means there's only one future, if I want to 
keep those I love alive and stay alive myself. I'll have to 
marry Peeta. 


We slog back to the train in silence. In the hallway 
outside my door, Haymitch gives my shoulder a pat and 
says, "You could do a lot worse, you know." He heads 
off to his compartment, taking the smell of wine with 

In my room, I remove my sodden slippers, my wet 
robe and pajamas. There are more in the drawers but I 
just crawl between the covers of my bed in my 
underclothes. I stare into the darkness, thinking about 
my conversation with Haymitch. Everything he said 
was true about the Capitol's expectations, my future 
with Peeta, even his last comment. Of course, I could 
do a lot worse than Peeta. That isn't really the point, 
though, is it? One of the few freedoms we have in 
District 12 is the right to marry who we want or not 
marry at all. And now even that has been taken away 
from me. I wonder if President Snow will insist we 
have children. If we do, they'll have to face the reaping 
each year. And wouldn't it be something to see the child 
of not one but two victors chosen for the arena? Victors' 

children have been in the ring before. It always causes a 
lot of excitement and generates talk about how the odds 
are not in that family's favor. But it happens too 
frequently to just be about odds. Gale's convinced the 
Capitol does it on purpose, rigs the drawings to add 
extra drama. Given all the trouble I've caused, I've 
probably guaranteed any child of mine a spot in the 

I think of Haymitch, unmarried, no family, blotting 
out the world with drink. He could have had his choice 
of any woman in the district. And he chose solitude. 
Not solitude — that sounds too peaceful. More like 
solitary confinement. Was it because, having been in 
the arena, he knew it was better than risking the 
alternative? I had a taste of that alternative when they 
called Prim's name on reaping day and I watched her 
walk to the stage to her death. But as her sister I could 
take her place, an option forbidden to our mother. 

My mind searches frantically for a way out. I can't let 
President Snow condemn me to this. Even if it means 
taking my own life. Before that, though, I'd try to run 
away. What would they do if I simply vanished? 
Disappeared into the woods and never came out? Could 
I even manage to take everyone I love with me, start a 

new life deep in the wild? Highly unlikely but not 

I shake my head to clear it. This is not the time to be 
making wild escape plans. I must focus on the Victory 
Tour. Too many people's fates depend on my giving a 
good show. 

Dawn comes before sleep does, and there's Effie 
rapping on my door. I pull on whatever clothes are at 
the top of the drawer and drag myself down to the 
dining car. I don't see what difference it makes when I 
get up, since this is a travel day, but then it turns out 
that yesterday's makeover was just to get me to the train 
station. Today I'll get the works from my prep team. 

"Why? It's too cold for anything to show," I grumble. 

"Not in District Eleven," says Effie. 

District 11. Our first stop. I'd rather start in any other 
district, since this was Rue's home. But that's not how 
the Victory Tour works. Usually it kicks off in 12 and 
then goes in descending district order to 1, followed by 
the Capitol. The victor's district is skipped and saved 
for very last. Since 12 puts on the least fabulous 
celebration — usually just a dinner for the tributes and 
a victory rally in the square, where nobody looks like 

they're having any fun — it's probably best to get us out 
of the way as soon as possible. This year, for the first 
time since Haymitch won, the final stop on the tour will 
be 12, and the Capitol will spring for the festivities. 

I try to enjoy the food like Hazelle said. The kitchen 
staff clearly wants to please me. They've prepared my 
favorite, lamb stew with dried plums, among other 
delicacies. Orange juice and a pot of steaming hot 
chocolate wait at my place at the table. So I eat a lot, 
and the meal is beyond reproach, but I can't say I'm 
enjoying it. I'm also annoyed that no one but Effie and I 
has shown up. 

"Where's everybody else?" I ask. 

"Oh, who knows where Haymitch is," says Effie. I 
didn't really expect Haymitch, because he's probably 
just getting to bed. "Cinna was up late working on 
organizing your garment car. He must have over a 
hundred outfits for you. Your evening clothes are 
exquisite. And Peeta's team is probably still asleep." 

"Doesn't he need prepping?" I ask. 

"Not the way you do," Effie replies. 

What does this mean? It means I get to spend the 
morning having the hair ripped off my body while 

Peeta sleeps in. I hadn't thought about it much, but in 
the arena at least some of the boys got to keep their 
body hair whereas none of the girls did. I can remember 
Peeta's now, as I bathed him by the stream. Very blond 
in the sunlight, once the mud and blood had been 
washed away. Only his face remained completely 
smooth. Not one of the boys grew a beard, and many 
were old enough to. I wonder what they did to them. 

If I feel ragged, my prep team seems in worse 
condition, knocking back coffee and sharing brightly 
colored little pills. As far as I can tell, they never get up 
before noon unless there's some sort of national 
emergency, like my leg hair. I was so happy when it 
grew back in, too. As if it were a sign that things might 
be returning to normal. I run my fingers along the soft, 
curly down on my legs and give myself over to the 
team. None of them are up to their usual chatter, so I 
can hear every strand being yanked from its follicle. I 
have to soak in a tub full of a thick, unpleasant-smelling 
solution, while my face and hair are plastered with 
creams. Two more baths follow in other, less offensive, 
concoctions. I'm plucked and scoured and massaged 
and anointed until I'm raw. 

Flavius tilts up my chin and sighs. "It's a shame Cinna 
said no alterations on you." 

"Yes, we could really make you something special," 
says Octavia. 

"When she's older," says Venia almost grimly. 'Then 
he'll have to let us." 

Do what? Blow my lips up like President Snow's? 
Tattoo my breasts? Dye my skin magenta and implant 
gems in it? Cut decorative patterns in my face? Give me 
curved talons? Or cat's whiskers? I saw all these things 
and more on the people in the Capitol. Do they really 
have no idea how freakish they look to the rest of us? 

The thought of being left to my prep team's fashion 
whims only adds to the miseries competing for my 
attention — my abused body, my lack of sleep, my 
mandatory marriage, and the terror of being unable to 
satisfy President Snow's demands. By the time I reach 
lunch, where Effie, Cinna, Portia, Haymitch, and Peeta 
have started without me, I'm too weighed down to talk. 
They're raving about the food and how well they sleep 
on trains. Everyone's all full of excitement about the 
tour. Well, everyone but Haymitch. He's nursing a 
hangover and picking at a muffin. I'm not really hungry, 
either, maybe because I loaded up on too much rich 
stuff this morning or maybe because I'm so unhappy. I 
play around with a bowl of broth, eating only a 

spoonful or two. I can't even look at Peeta — my 
designated future husband — although I know none of 
this is his fault. 

People notice, try to bring me into the conversation, 
but I just brush them off. At some point, the train stops. 
Our server reports it will not just be for a fuel stop — 
some part has malfunctioned and must be replaced. It 
will require at least an hour. This sends Effie into a 
state. She pulls out her schedule and begins to work out 
how the delay will impact every event for the rest of 
our lives. Finally I just can't stand to listen to her 

"No one cares, Effie!" I snap. Everyone at the table 
stares at me, even Haymitch, who you'd think would be 
on my side in this matter since Effie drives him nuts. 
I'm immediately put on the defensive. "Well, no one 
does!" I say, and get up and leave the dining car. 

The train suddenly seems stifling and I'm definitely 
queasy now. I find the exit door, force it open — 
triggering some sort of alarm, which I ignore — and 
jump to the ground, expecting to land in snow. But the 
air's warm and balmy against my skin. The trees still 
wear green leaves. How far south have we come in a 
day? I walk along the track, squinting against the bright 

sunlight, already regretting my words to Effie. She's 
hardly to blame for my current predicament. I should go 
back and apologize. My outburst was the height of bad 
manners, and manners matter deeply to her. But my feet 
continue on along the track, past the end of the train, 
leaving it behind. An hour's delay. I can walk at least 
twenty minutes in one direction and make it back with 
plenty of time to spare. Instead, after a couple hundred 
yards, I sink to the ground and sit there, looking into the 
distance. If I had a bow and arrows, would I just keep 

After a while I hear footsteps behind me. It'll be 
Haymitch, coming to chew me out. It's not like I don't 
deserve it, but I still don't want to hear it. "I'm not in the 
mood for a lecture," I warn the clump of weeds by my 

'Til try to keep it brief." Peeta takes a seat beside me. 
"I thought you were Haymitch," I say. 

"No, he's still working on that muffin." I watch as 
Peeta positions his artificial leg. "Bad day, huh?" "It's 
nothing," I say. 

He takes a deep breath. "Look, Katniss, I've been 
wanting to talk to you about the way I acted on the 
train. I mean, the last train. The one that brought us 

home. I knew you had something with Gale. I was 
jealous of him before I even officially met you. And it 
wasn't fair to hold you to anything that happened in the 
Games. I'm sorry." 

His apology takes me by surprise. It's true that Peeta 
froze me out after I confessed that my love for him 
during the Games was something of an act. But I don't 
hold that against him. In the arena, I'd played that 
romance angle for all it was worth. There had been 
times when I didn't honestly know how I felt about him. 
I still don't, really. 

"I'm sorry, too," I say. I'm not sure for what exactly. 
Maybe because there's a real chance I'm about to 
destroy him. 

"There's nothing for you to be sorry about. You were 
just keeping us alive. But I don't want us to go on like 
this, ignoring each other in real life and falling into the 
snow every time there's a camera around. So I thought 
if I stopped being so, you know, wounded, we could 
take a shot at just being friends," he says. 

All my friends are probably going to end up dead, but 
refusing Peeta wouldn't keep him safe. "Okay," I say. 
His offer does make me feel better. Less duplicitous 
somehow. It would be nice if he'd come to me with this 

earlier, before I knew that President Snow had other 
plans and just being friends was not an option for us 
anymore. But either way, I'm glad we're speaking again. 

"So what's wrong?" he asks. 

I can't tell him. I pick at the clump of weeds. 

"Let's start with something more basic. Isn't it strange 
that I know you'd risk your life to save mine ... but I 
don't know what your favorite color is?" he says. 

A smile creeps onto my lips. "Green. What's yours?" 

"Orange," he says. 

"Orange? Like Effie's hair?" I say. 

"A bit more muted," he says. "More like ... sunset." 

Sunset. I can see it immediately, the rim of the 
descending sun, the sky streaked with soft shades of 
orange. Beautiful. I remember the tiger lily cookie and, 
now that Peeta is talking to me again, it's all I can do 
not to recount the whole story about President Snow. 
But I know Haymitch wouldn't want me to. I'd better 
stick to small talk. 

"You know, everyone's always raving about your 
paintings. I feel bad I haven't seen them," I say. 

"Well, I've got a whole train car full." He rises and 
offers me his hand. "Come on." 

It's good to feel his fingers entwined with mine again, 
not for show but in actual friendship. We walk back to 
the train hand in hand. At the door, I remember. "I've 
got to apologize to Effie first." 

"Don't be afraid to lay it on thick," Peeta tells me. 

So when we go back to the dining car, where the 
others are still at lunch, I give Effie an apology that I 
think is overkill but in her mind probably just manages 
to compensate for my breach of etiquette. To her credit, 
Effie accepts graciously. She says it's clear I'm under a 
lot of pressure. And her comments about the necessity 
of someone attending to the schedule only last about 
five minutes. Really, I've gotten off easily. 

When Effie finishes, Peeta leads me down a few cars 
to see his paintings. I don't know what I expected. 
Larger versions of the flower cookies maybe. But this is 
something entirely different. Peeta has painted the 

Some you wouldn't get right away, if you hadn't been 
with him in the arena yourself. Water dripping through 
the cracks in our cave. The dry pond bed. A pair of 

hands, his own, digging for roots. Others any viewer 
would recognize. The golden horn called the 
Cornucopia. Clove arranging the knives inside her 
jacket. One of the mutts, unmistakably the blond, 
green-eyed one meant to be Glimmer, snarling as it 
makes its way toward us. And me. I am everywhere. 
High up in a tree. Beating a shirt against the stones in 
the stream. Lying unconscious in a pool of blood. And 
one I can't place — perhaps this is how I looked when 
his fever was high — emerging from a silver gray mist 
that matches my eyes exactly. 

"What do you think?" he asks. 

"I hate them," I say. I can almost smell the blood, the 
dirt, the unnatural breath of the mutt. "All I do is go 
around trying to forget the arena and you've brought it, 
back to life. How do you remember these things so 

"I see them every night," he says. 

I know what he means. Nightmares — which I was no 
stranger to before the Games — now plague me 
whenever I sleep. But the old standby, the one of my 
father being blown to bits in the mines, is rare. Instead I 
relive versions of what happened in the arena. My 
worthless attempt to save Rue. Peeta bleeding to death. 

Glimmer's bloated body disintegrating in my hands. 
Cato's horrific end with the muttations. These are the 
most frequent visitors. "Me, too. Does it help? To paint 
them out?" 

"I don't know. I think I'm a little less afraid of going to 
sleep at night, or I tell myself I am," he says. "But they 
haven't gone anywhere." 

"Maybe they won't. Haymitch's haven't." Haymitch 
doesn't say so, but I'm sure this is why he doesn't like to 
sleep in the dark. 

"No. But for me, it's better to wake up with a 
paintbrush than a knife in my hand," he says. "So you 
really hate them?" 

"Yes. But they're extraordinary. Really," I say. And 
they are. But I don't want to look at them anymore. 
"Want to see my talent? Cinna did a great job on it." 

Peeta laughs. "Later." The train lurches forward, and I 
can see the land moving past us through the window. 
"Come on, we're almost to District Eleven. Let's go take 
a look at it." 

We go down to the last car on the train. There are 
chairs and couches to sit on, but what's wonderful is 
that the back windows retract into the ceiling so you're 

riding outside, in the fresh air, and you can see a wide 
sweep of the landscape. Huge open fields with herds of 
dairy cattle grazing in them. So unlike our own heavily 
wooded home. 

We slow slightly and I think we might be coming in 
for another stop, when a fence rises up before us. 
Towering at least thirty-five feet in the air and topped 
with wicked coils of barbed wire, it makes ours back in 
District 12 look childish. My eyes quickly inspect the 
base, which is lined with enormous metal plates. There 
would be no burrowing under those, no escaping to 
hunt. Then I see the watchtowers, placed evenly apart, 
manned with armed guards, so out of place among the 
fields of wildflowers around them. 

"That's something different," says Peeta. 

Rue did give me the impression that the rules in 
District 11 were more harshly enforced. But I never 
imagined something like this. 

Now the crops begin, stretched out as far as the eye 
can see. Men, women, and children wearing straw hats 
to keep off the sun straighten up, turn our way, take a 
moment to stretch their backs as they watch our train go 
by. I can see orchards in the distance, and I wonder if 
that's where Rue would have worked, collecting the 

fruit from the slimmest branches at the tops of the trees. 
Small communities of shacks — by comparison the 
houses in the Seam are upscale — spring up here and 
there, but they're all deserted. Every hand must be 
needed for the harvest. 

On and on it goes. I can't believe the size of District 
1 1 . "How many people do you think live here?" Peeta 
asks. I shake my head. In school they refer to it as a 
large district, that's all. No actual figures on the 
population. But those kids we see on camera waiting for 
the reaping each year, they can't be but a sampling of 
the ones who actually live here. What do they do? Have 
preliminary drawings? Pick the winners ahead of time 
and make sure they're in the crowd? How exactly did 
Rue end up on that stage with nothing but the wind 
offering to take her place? 

I begin to weary of the vastness, the endlessness of 
this place. When Effie comes to tell us to dress, I don't 

I go to my compartment and let the prep team do my 
hair and makeup. Cinna comes in with a pretty orange 
frock patterned with autumn leaves. I think how much 
Peeta will like the color. 

Effie gets Peeta and me together and goes through the 
day's program one last time. In some districts the 
victors ride through the city while the residents cheer. 
But in 1 1 — maybe because there's not much of a city 
to begin with, things being so spread out, or maybe 
because they don't want to waste so many people while 
the harvest is on — the public appearance is confined to 
the square. It takes place before their Justice Building, a 
huge marble structure. Once, it must have been a thing 
of beauty, but time has taken its toll. Even on television 
you can see ivy overtaking the crumbling facade, the 
sag of the roof. The square itself is ringed with run- 
down storefronts, most of which are abandoned. 
Wherever the well-to-do live in District 11, it's not here. 

Our entire public performance will be staged outside 
on what Effie refers to as the verandah, the tiled 
expanse between the front doors and the stairs that's 
shaded by a roof supported by columns. Peeta and I will 
be introduced, the mayor of 1 1 will read a speech in our 
honor, and we'll respond with a scripted thank-you 
provided by the Capitol. If a victor had any special 
allies among the dead tributes, it is considered good 
form to add a few personal comments as well. I should 
say something about Rue, and Thresh, too, really, but 
every time I tried to write it at home, I ended up with a 

blank paper staring me in the face: It's hard for me to 
talk about them without getting emotional. Fortunately, 
Peeta has a little something worked up, and with some 
slight alterations, it can count for both of us. At the end 
of the ceremony, we'll be presented with some sort of 
plaque, and then we can withdraw to the Justice 
Building, where a special dinner will be served. 

As the train is pulling into the District 11 station, 
Cinna puts the finishing touches on my outfit, switching 
my orange hairband for one of metallic gold and 
securing the mockingjay pin I wore in the arena to my 
dress. There's no welcoming, committee on the 
platform, just a squad of eight Peacekeepers who direct 
us into the back of an armored truck. Effie sniffs as the 
door clanks closed behind us. "Really, you'd think we 
were all criminals," she says. 

Not all of us, Effie. Just me, I think. 

The truck lets us out at the back of the Justice 
Building. We're hurried inside. I can smell an excellent 
meal being prepared, but it doesn't block out the odors 
of mildew and rot. They've left us no time to look 
around. As. we make a beeline for the front entrance, I 
can hear the anthem beginning outside in the square. 
Someone clips a microphone on me. Peeta takes my left 

hand. The mayor's introducing us as the massive doors 
open with a groan. 

"Big smiles!" Effie says, and gives us a nudge. Our 
feet start moving forward. 

This is it. This is where I have to convince everybody 
how in love I am with Peeta, I think. The solemn 
ceremony is pretty tightly mapped out, so I'm not sure 
how to do it. It's not a time for kissing, but maybe I can 
work one in. 

There's loud applause, but none of the other responses 
we got in the Capitol, the cheers and whoops and 
whistles. We walk across the shaded verandah until the 
roof runs out and we're standing at the top of a big 
flight of marble stairs in the glaring sun. As my eyes 
adjust, I see the buildings on the square have been hung 
with banners that help cover up their neglected state. 
It's packed with people, but again, just a fraction of the 
number who live here. 

As usual, a special platform has been constructed at 
the bottom of the stage for the families of the dead 
tributes. On Thresh's side, there's only an old woman 
with a hunched back and a tall, muscular girl I'm 
guessing is his sister. On Rue's ... I'm not prepared for 
Rue's family. Her parents, whose faces are still fresh 

with sorrow. Her five younger siblings, who resemble 
her so closely. The slight builds, the luminous brown 
eyes. They form a flock of small dark birds. 

The applause dies out and the mayor gives the speech 
in our honor. Two little girls come up with tremendous 
bouquets of flowers. Peeta does his part of the scripted 
reply and then I find my lips moving to conclude it. 
Fortunately my mother and Prim have drilled me so I 
can do it in my sleep. 

Peeta had his personal comments written on a card, 
but he doesn't pull it out. Instead he speaks in his 
simple, winning style about Thresh and Rue making it 
to the final eight, about how they both kept me alive — 
thereby keeping him alive — and about how this is a 
debt we can never repay. And then he hesitates before 
adding something that wasn't written on the card. 
Maybe because he thought Effie might make him 
remove it. "It can in no way replace your losses, but as 
a token of our thanks we'd like for each of the tributes' 
families from District Eleven to receive one month of 
our winnings every year for the duration of our lives." 

The crowd can't help but respond with gasps and 
murmurs. There is no precedent for what Peeta has 
done. I don't even know if it's legal. He probably 

doesn't know, either, so he didn't ask in case it isn't. As 
for the families, they just stare at us in shock. Their 
lives were changed forever when Thresh and Rue were 
lost, but this gift will change them again. A month of 
tribute winnings can easily provide for a family for a 
year. As long as we live, they will not hunger. 

I look at Peeta and he gives me a sad smile. I hear 
Haymitch's voice. "You could do a lot worse. " At this 
moment, it's impossible to imagine how I could do any 
better. The gift ... it is perfect. So when I rise up on 
tiptoe to kiss him, it doesn't seem forced at all. 

The mayor steps forward and presents us each with a 
plaque that's so large I have to put down my bouquet to 
hold it. The ceremony's about to end when I notice one 
of Rue's sisters staring at me. She must be about nine 
and is almost an exact replica of Rue, down to the way 
she stands with her arms slightly extended. Despite the 
good news about the winnings, she's not happy. In fact, 
her look is reproachful. Is it because I didn't save Rue? 

No. It's because I still haven f t thanked her, I think. 

A wave of shame rushes through me. The girl is right. 
How can I stand here, passive and mute, leaving all the 
words to Peeta? If she had won, Rue would never have 
let my death go unsung. I remember how I took care in 

the arena to cover her with flowers, to make sure her 
loss did not go unnoticed. But that gesture will mean 
nothing if I don't support it now. 

"Wait!" I stumble forward, pressing the plaque to my 
chest. My allotted time for speaking has come and 
gone, but I must say something. I owe too much. And 
even if I had pledged all my winnings to the families, it 
would not excuse my silence today. "Wait, please." I 
don't know how to start, but once I do, the words rush 
from my lips as if they've been forming in the back of 
my mind for a long time. 

"I want to give my thanks to the tributes of District 
Eleven," I say. I look at the pair of women on Thresh's 
side. "I only ever spoke to Thresh one time. Just long 
enough for him to spare my life. I didn't know him, but 
I always respected him. For his power. For his refusal 
to play the Games on anyone's terms but his own. The 
Careers wanted him to team up with them from the 
beginning, but he wouldn't do it. I respected him for 

For the first time the old hunched woman — is she 
Thresh's grandmother? — raises her head and the trace 
of a smile plays on her lips. 

The crowd has fallen silent now, so silent that I 
wonder how they manage it. They must all be holding 
their breath. 

I turn to Rue's family. "But I feel as if I did know Rue, 
and she'll always be with me. Everything beautiful 
brings her to mind. I see her in the yellow flowers that 
grow in the Meadow by my house. I see her in the 
mockingjays that sing in the trees. But most of all, I see 
her in my sister, Prim." My voice is undependable, but I 
am almost finished. 'Thank you for your children." I 
raise my chin to address the crowd. "And thank you all 
for the bread." 

I stand there, feeling broken and small, thousands of 
eyes trained on me. There's a long pause. Then, from 
somewhere in the crowd, someone whistles Rue's four- 
note mocking-jay tune. The one that signaled the end of 
the workday in the orchards. The one that meant safety 
in the arena. By the end of the tune, I have found the 
whistler, a wizened old man in a faded red shirt and 
overalls. His eyes meet mine. 

What happens next is not an accident. It is too well 
executed to be spontaneous, because it happens in 
complete unison. Every person in the crowd presses the 
three middle fingers of their left hand against their lips 

and extends them to me. It's our sign from District 12, 
the last good-bye I gave Rue in the arena. 

If I hadn't spoken to President Snow, this gesture 
might move me to tears. But with his recent orders to 
calm the districts fresh in my ears, it fills me with 
dread. What will he think of this very public salute to 
the girl who defied the Capitol? 

The full impact of what I've done hits me. It was not 
intentional — I only meant to express my thanks — but I 
have elicited something dangerous. An act of dissent 
from the people of District 1 1 . This is exactly the kind 
of thing I am supposed to be defusing! 

I try to think of something to say to undermine what 
has just happened, to negate it, but I can hear the slight 
burst of static indicating my microphone has been cut 
off and the mayor has taken over. Peeta and I 
acknowledge a final round of applause. He leads me 
back toward the doors, unaware that anything has gone 

I feel funny and have to stop for a moment. Little bits 
of bright sunshine dance before my eyes. "Are you all 
right?" Peeta asks. 

"Just dizzy. The sun was so bright," I say. I see his 
bouquet. "I forgot my flowers," I mumble. 'Til get 
them," he says. "I can," I answer. 

We would be safe inside the Justice Building by now, 
if I hadn't stopped, if I hadn't left my flowers. Instead, 
from the deep shade of the verandah, we see the whole 

A pair of Peacekeepers dragging the old man who 
whistled to the top of the steps. Forcing him to his 
knees before the crowd. And putting a bullet through 
his head. 

The man has only just crumpled to the ground when a 
wall of white Peacekeeper uniforms blocks our view. 
Several of the soldiers have automatic weapons held 
lengthwise as they push us back toward the door. 

"We're going!" says Peeta, shoving the Peacekeeper 
who's pressing on me. "We get it, all right? Come on, 
Katniss." His arm encircles me and guides me back into 
the Justice Building. The Peacekeepers follow a pace or 
two behind us. The moment we're inside, the doors 
slam shut and we hear the Peacekeepers' boots moving 
back toward the crowd. 

Haymitch, Effie, Portia, and Cinna wait under a static- 
filled screen that's mounted on the wall, their faces tight 
with anxiety. 

"What happened?" Effie hurries over. "We lost the 
feed just after Katniss's beautiful speech, and then 
Haymitch said he thought he heard a gun fire, and I said 
it was ridiculous, but who knows? There are lunatics 

"Nothing happened, Effie. An old truck backfired," 
says Peeta evenly. 

Two more shots. The door doesn't muffle their sound 
much. Who was that? Thresh's grandmother? One of 
Rue's little sisters? 

"Both of you. With me," says Haymitch. Peeta and I 
follow him, leaving the others behind. The 
Peacekeepers who are stationed around the Justice 
Building take little interest in our movements now that 
we are safely inside. We ascend a magnificent curved 
marble staircase. At the top, there's a long hall with 
worn carpet on the floor. Double doors stand open, 
welcoming us into the first room we encounter. The 
ceiling must be twenty feet high. Designs of fruit and 
flowers are carved into the molding and small, fat 
children with wings look down at us from every angle. 
Vases of blossoms give off a cloying scent that makes 
my eyes itch. Our evening clothes hang on racks against 
the wall. This room has been prepared for our use, but 
we're barely there long enough to drop off our gifts. 
Then Haymitch yanks the microphones from our chests, 
stuffs them beneath a couch cushion, and waves us on. 

As far as I know, Haymitch has only been here once, 
when he was on his Victory Tour decades ago. But he 

must have a remarkable memory or reliable instincts, 
because he leads us up through a maze of twisting 
staircases and increasingly narrow halls. At times he 
has to stop and force a door. By the protesting squeak 
of the hinges you can tell it's been a long time since it 
was opened. Eventually we climb a ladder to a 
trapdoor. When Haymitch pushes it aside, we find 
ourselves in the dome of the Justice Building. It's a 
huge place filled with broken furniture, piles of books 
and ledgers, and rusty weapons. The coat of dust 
blanketing everything is so thick it's clear it hasn't been 
disturbed for years. Light struggles to filter in through 
four grimy square windows set in the sides of the dome. 
Haymitch kicks the trapdoor shut and turns on us. 
"What happened?" he asks. 

Peeta relates all that occurred in the square. The 
whistle, the salute, our hesitation on the verandah, the 
murder of the old man. "What's going on, Haymitch?" 

"It will be better coming from you," Haymitch says to 

I don't agree. I think it will be a hundred times worse 
coming from me. But I tell Peeta everything as calmly 
as I can. About President Snow, the unrest in the 
districts. I don't even omit the kiss with Gale. I lay out 

how we are all in jeopardy, how the whole country is in 
jeopardy because of my trick with the berries. "I was 
supposed to fix things on this tour. Make everyone who 
had doubted believe I acted out of love. Calm things 
down. But obviously, all I've done today is. get three 
people killed, and now everyone in the square will be 
punished." I feel so sick that I have to sit down on a 
couch, despite the exposed springs and stuffing. 

'Then I made things worse, too. By giving the 
money," says Peeta. Suddenly he strikes out at a lamp 
that sits precariously on a crate and knocks it across the 
room, where it shatters against the floor. 'This has to 
stop. Right now. This — this — game you two play, 
where you tell each other secrets but keep them from 
me like I'm too inconsequential or stupid or weak to 
handle them." 

"It's not like that, Peeta — " I begin. 

"It's exactly like that!" he yells at me. "I have people I 
care about, too, Katniss! Family and friends back in 
District Twelve who will be just as dead as yours if we 
don't pull this thing off. So, after all we went through in 
the arena, don't I even rate the truth from you?" 

"You're always so reliably good, Peeta," says 
Haymitch. "So smart about how you present yourself 
before the cameras. I didn't want to disrupt that." 

"Well, you overestimated me. Because I really 
screwed up today. What do you think is going to 
happen to Rue's and Thresh's families? Do you think 
they'll get their share of our winnings? Do you think I 
gave them a bright future? Because I think they'll be 
lucky if they survive the day!" Peeta sends something 
else flying, a statue. I've never seen him like this. 

"He's right, Haymitch," I say. "We were wrong not to 
tell him. Even back in the Capitol." 

"Even in the arena, you two had some sort of system 
worked out, didn't you?" asks Peeta. His voice is 
quieter now. "Something I wasn't part of." 

"No. Not officially. I just could tell what Haymitch 
wanted me to do by what he sent, or didn't send," I say. 

"Well, I never had that opportunity. Because he never 
sent me anything until you showed up," says Peeta. 

I haven't thought much about this. How it must have 
looked from Peeta's perspective when I appeared in the 
arena having received burn medicine and bread when 

he, who was at death's door, had gotten nothing. Like 
Haymitch was keeping me alive at his expense. 

"Look, boy — " Haymitch begins. 

"Don't bother, Haymitch. I know you had to choose 
one of us. And I'd have wanted it to be her. But this is 
something different. People are dead out there. More 
will follow unless we're very good. We all know I'm 
better than Katniss in front of the cameras. No one 
needs to coach me on what to say. But I have to know 
what I'm walking into," says Peeta. 

"From now on, you'll be fully informed," Haymitch 

"I better be," says Peeta. He doesn't even bother to 
look at me before he leaves. 

The dust he disrupted billows up and looks for new 
places to land. My hair, my eyes, my shiny gold pin. 

"Did you choose me, Haymitch?" I ask. 

"Yeah," he says. 

"Why? You like him better," I say. 

"That's true. But remember, until they changed the 
rules, I could only hope to get one of you out of there 

alive," he says. "I thought since he was determined to 
protect you, well, between the three of us, we might be 
able to bring you home." 

"Oh" is all I can think to say. 

"You'll see, the choices you'll have to make. If we 
survive this," says Haymitch. "You'll learn." 

Well, I've learned one thing today. This place is not a 
larger version of District 12. Our fence is unguarded 
and rarely charged. Our Peacekeepers are unwelcome 
but less brutal. Our hardships evoke more fatigue than 
fury. Here in 1 1 , they suffer more acutely and feel more 
desperation. President Snow is right. A spark could be 
enough to set them ablaze. 

Everything is happening too fast for me to process it. 
The warning, the shootings, the recognition that I may 
have set something of great consequence in motion. 
The whole thing is so improbable. And it would be one 
thing if I had planned to stir things up, but given the 
circumstances ... how on earth did I cause so much 

"Come on. We've got a dinner to attend," says 

I stand in the shower as long as they let me before I 
have to come out to be readied. The prep team seems 
oblivious to the events of the day. They're all excited 
about the dinner. In the districts they're important 
enough to attend, whereas back in the Capitol they 
almost never score invitations to prestigious parties. 
While they try to predict what dishes will be served, I 
keep seeing the old man's head being blown off. I don't 
even pay attention to what anyone is doing to me until 
I'm about to leave and I see myself in the mirror. A pale 
pink strapless dress brushes my shoes. My hair is 
pinned back from my face and falling down my back in 
a shower of ringlets. 

Cinna comes up behind me and arranges a 
shimmering silver wrap around my shoulders. He 
catches my eye in the mirror. "Like it?" 

"It's beautiful. As always," I say. 

"Let's see how it looks with a smile," he says gently. 
It's his reminder that in a minute, there will be cameras 
again. I manage to raise the corners of my lips. "There 
we go." 

When we all assemble to go down to the dinner, I can 
see Effie is out of sorts. Surely, Haymitch hasn't told 
her about what happened in the square. I wouldn't be 

surprised if Cinna and Portia know, but there seems to 
be an unspoken agreement to leave Effie out of the bad- 
news loop. It doesn't take long to hear about the 
problem, though. 

Effie runs through the evening's schedule, then tosses 
it aside. "And then, thank goodness, we can all get on 
that train and get out of here," she says. 

"Is something wrong, Effie?" asks Cinna. 

"I don't like the way we've been treated. Being stuffed 
into trucks and barred from the platform. And then, 
about an hour ago, I decided to look around the Justice 
Building. I'm something of an expert in architectural 
design, you know," she says. 

"Oh, yes, I've heard that," says Portia before the pause 
gets too long. 

"So, I was just having a peek around because district 
ruins are going to be all the rage this year, when two 
Peacemakers showed up and ordered me back to our 
quarters. One of them actually poked me with her gun!" 
says Effie. 

I can't help thinking this is the direct result of 
Haymitch, Peeta, and me disappearing earlier in the 
day. It's a little reassuring, actually, to think that 

Haymitch might have been right. That no one would 
have been monitoring the dusty dome where we talked. 
Although I bet they are now. 

Effie looks so distressed that I spontaneously give her 
a hug. "That's awful, Effie. Maybe we shouldn't go to 
the dinner at all. At least until they've apologized." I 
know she'll never agree to this, but she brightens 
considerably at the suggestion, at the validation of her 

"No, I'll manage. It's part of my job to weather the ups 
and downs. And we can't let you two miss your dinner," 
she says. "But thank you for the offer, Katniss." 

Effie arranges us in formation for our entrance. First 
the prep teams, then her, the stylists, Haymitch. Peeta 
and I, of course, bring up the rear. 

Somewhere below, musicians begin to play. As the 
first wave of our little procession begins down the 
steps, Peeta and I join hands. 

"Haymitch says I was wrong to yell at you. You were 
only operating under his instructions," says Peeta. "And 
it isn't as if I haven't kept things from you in the past." 

I remember the shock of hearing Peeta confess his 
love for me in front of all of Panem. Haymitch had 

known about that and not told me. "I think I broke a 
few things myself after that interview." 

"Just an urn," he says. 

"And your hands. There's no point to it anymore, 
though, is there? Not being straight with each other?" I 

"No point," says Peeta. We stand at the top of the 
stairs, giving Haymitch a fifteen-step lead as Effie 
directed. "Was that really the only time you kissed 

I'm so startled I answer. "Yes." With all that has 
happened today, has that question actually been preying 
on him? 

"That's fifteen. Let's do it," he says. 

A light hits us, and I put on the most dazzling smile I 

We descend the steps and are sucked into what 
becomes an indistinguishable round of dinners, 
ceremonies, and train rides. Each day it's the same. 
Wake up. Get dressed. Ride through cheering crowds. 
Listen to a speech in our honor. Give a thank-you 
speech in return, but only the one the Capitol gave us, 

never any personal additions now. Sometimes a brief 
tour: a glimpse of the sea in one district, towering 
forests in another, ugly factories, fields of wheat, 
stinking refineries. Dress in evening clothes. Attend 
dinner. Train. 

During ceremonies, we are solemn and respectful but 
always linked together, by our hands, our arms. At 
dinners, we are borderline delirious in our love for each 
other. We kiss, we dance, we get caught trying to sneak 
away to be alone. On the train, we are quietly miserable 
as we try to assess what effect we might be having. 

Even without our personal speeches to trigger 
dissent — needless to say the ones we gave in District 
1 1 were edited out before the event was broadcast — you 
can feel something in the air, the rolling boil of a pot 
about to run over. Not everywhere. Some crowds have 
the weary-cattle feel that I know District 12 usually 
projects at the victors' ceremonies. But in others — 
particularly 8, 4, and 3 — there is genuine elation in the 
faces of the people at the sight of us, and under the 
elation, fury. When they chant my name, it is more of a 
cry for vengeance than a cheer. When the Peacekeepers 
move in to quiet an unruly crowd, it presses back 
instead of retreating. And I know that there's nothing I 
could ever do to change this. No show of love, however 

believable, will turn this tide. If my holding out those 
berries was an act of temporary insanity, then these 
people will embrace insanity, too. 

Cinna begins to take in my clothes around the waist. 
The prep team frets over the circles under my eyes. 
Effie starts giving me pills to sleep, but they don't work. 
Not well enough. I drift off only to be roused by 
nightmares that have increased in number and intensity. 
Peeta, who spends much of the night roaming the train, 
hears me screaming as I struggle to break out of the 
haze of drugs that merely prolong the horrible dreams. 
He manages to wake me and calm me down. Then he 
climbs into bed to hold me until I fall back to sleep. 
After that, I refuse the pills. But every night I let him 
into my bed. We manage the darkness as we did in the 
arena, wrapped in each other's arms, guarding against 
dangers that can descend at any moment. Nothing else 
happens, but our arrangement quickly becomes a 
subject of gossip on the train. 

When Effie brings it up to me, I think, Good. Maybe it 
will get back to President Snow. I tell her we'll make an 
effort to be more discreet, but we don't. 

The back-to-back appearances in 2 and 1 are their 
own special kind of awful. Cato and Clove, the tributes 

from District 2, might have both made it home if Peeta 
and I hadn't. I personally killed the girl, Glimmer, and 
the boy from District 1 . As I try to avoid looking at his 
family, I learn that his name was Marvel. How did I 
never know that? I suppose that before the Games I 
didn't pay attention, and afterward I didn't want to 

By the time we reach the Capitol, we are desperate. 
We make endless appearances to adoring crowds. There 
is no danger of an uprising here among the privileged, 
among those whose names are never placed in the 
reaping balls, whose children never die for the 
supposed crimes committed generations ago. We don't 
need to convince anybody in the Capitol of our love but 
hold to the slim hope that we can still reach some of 
those we failed to convince in the districts. Whatever 
we do seems too little, too late. 

Back in our old quarters in the Training Center, I'm 
the one who suggests the public marriage proposal. 
Peeta agrees to do it but then disappears to his room for 
a long time. Haymitch tells me to leave him alone. 

"I thought he wanted it, anyway," I say. 

"Not like this," Haymitch says. "He wanted it to be 

I go back to my room and lie under the covers, trying 
not to think of Gale and thinking of nothing else. 

That night, on the stage before the Training Center, 
we bubble our way through a list of questions. Caesar 
Flickerman, in his twinkling midnight blue suit, his 
hair, eyelids, and lips still dyed powder blue, flawlessly 
guides us through the interview. When he asks us about 
the future, Peeta gets down on one knee, pours out his 
heart, and begs me to marry him. I, of course, accept. 
Caesar is beside himself, the Capitol audience is 
hysterical, shots of crowds around Panem show a 
country besotted with happiness. 

President Snow himself makes a surprise visit to 
congratulate us. He clasps Peeta's hand and gives him 
an approving slap on the shoulder. He embraces me, 
enfolding me in the smell of blood and roses, and plants 
a puffy kiss on my cheek. When he pulls back, his 
fingers digging into my arms, his face smiling into 
mine, I dare to raise my eyebrows. They ask what my 
lips can't. Did I do it? Was it enough? Was giving 
everything over to you, keeping up the game, promising 
to marry Peeta enough? 

In answer, he gives an almost imperceptible shake of 
his head. 

In that one slight motion, I see the end of hope, the 
beginning of the destruction of everything I hold dear in 
the world. I can't guess what form my punishment will 
take, how wide the net will be cast, but when it is 
finished, there will most likely be nothing left. So you 
would think that at this moment, I would be in utter 
despair. Here's what's strange. The main thing I feel is a 
sense of relief. That I can give up this game. That the 
question of whether I can succeed in this venture has 
been answered, even if that answer is a resounding no. 
That if desperate times call for desperate measures, then 
I am free to act as desperately as I wish. 

Only not here, not quite yet. It's essential to get back 
to District 12, because the main part of any plan will 
include my mother and sister, Gale and his family. And 
Peeta, if I can get him to come with us. I add Haymitch 
to the list. These are the people I must take with me 
when I escape into the wild. How I will convince them, 
where we will go in the dead of winter, what it will take 

to evade capture are unanswered questions. But at least 
now I know what I must do. 

So instead of crumpling to the ground and weeping, I 
find myself standing up straighter and with more 
confidence than I have in weeks. My smile, while 
somewhat insane, is not forced. And when President 
Snow silences the audience and says, "What do you 
think about us throwing them a wedding right here in 
the Capitol?" I pull off girl-almost-catatonic-with-joy 
without a hitch. 

Caesar Flickerman asks if the president has a date in 

"Oh, before we set a date, we better clear it with 
Katniss's mother," says the president. The audience 
gives a big laugh and the president puts his arm around 
me. "Maybe if the whole country puts its mind to it, we 
can get you married before you're thirty." 

"You'll probably have to pass a new law," I say with a 

"If that's what it takes," says the president with 
conspiratorial good humor. 

Oh, the fun we two have together. 

The party, held in the banquet room of President 
Snow's mansion, has no equal. The forty-foot ceiling 
has been transformed into the night sky, and the stars 
look exactly as they do at home. I suppose they look the 
same from the Capitol, but who would know? There's 
always too much light from the city to see the stars 
here. About halfway between the floor and the ceiling, 
musicians float on what look like fluffy white clouds, 
but I can't see what holds them aloft. Traditional dining 
tables have been replaced by innumerable stuffed sofas 
and chairs, some surrounding fireplaces, others beside 
fragrant flower gardens or ponds filled with exotic fish, 
so that people can eat and drink and do whatever they 
please in the utmost comfort. There's a large tiled area 
in the center of the room that serves as everything from 
a dance floor, to a stage for the performers who come 
and go, to another spot to mingle with the flamboyantly 
dressed guests. 

But the real star of the evening is the food. Tables 
laden with delicacies line the walls. Everything you can 
think of, and things you have never dreamed of, lie in 
wait. Whole roasted cows and pigs and goats still 
turning on spits. Huge platters of fowl stuffed with 
savory fruits and nuts. Ocean creatures drizzled in 
sauces or begging to be dipped in spicy concoctions. 

Countless cheeses, breads, vegetables, sweets, 
waterfalls of wine, and streams of spirits that flicker 
with flames. 

My appetite has returned with my f desire to fight back. 
After weeks of feeling too worried to eat, I'm famished. 

"I want to taste everything in the room," I tell Peeta. 

I can see him trying to read my expression, to figure 
out my transformation. Since he doesn't know that 
President Snow thinks I have failed, he can only assume 
that I think we have succeeded. Perhaps even that I 
have some genuine happiness at our engagement. His 
eyes reflect his puzzlement but only briefly, because 
we're on camera. 'Then you'd better pace yourself," he 

"Okay, no more than one bite of each dish," I say. My 
resolve is almost immediately broken at the first table, 
which has twenty or so soups, when I encounter a 
creamy pumpkin brew sprinkled with slivered nuts and 
tiny black seeds. "I could just eat this all night!" I 
exclaim. But I don't. I weaken again at a clear green 
broth that I can only describe as tasting like springtime, 
and again when I try a frothy pink soup dotted with 

Faces appear, names are exchanged, pictures taken, 
kisses brushed on cheeks. Apparently my mockingjay 
pin has spawned a new fashion sensation, because 
several people come up to show me their accessories. 
My bird has been replicated on belt buckles, 
embroidered into silk lapels, even tattooed in intimate 
places. Everyone wants to wear the winner's token. I 
can only imagine how nuts that makes President Snow. 
But what can he do? The Games were such a hit here, 
where the berries were only a symbol of a desperate girl 
trying to save her lover. 

Peeta and I make no effort to find company but are 
constantly sought out. We are what no one wants to 
miss at the party. I act delighted, but I have zero interest 
in these Capitol people. They are only distractions from 
the food. 

Every table presents new temptations, and even on my 
restricted one-taste -per-dish regimen, I begin filling up 
quickly. I pick up a small roasted bird, bite into it, and 
my tongue floods with orange sauce. Delicious. But I 
make Peeta eat the remainder because I want to keep 
tasting things, and the idea of throwing away food, as I 
see so many people doing so casually, is abhorrent to 
me. After about ten tables I'm stuffed, and we've only 
sampled a small number of the dishes available. 

Just then my prep team descends on us. They're nearly 
incoherent between the alcohol they've consumed and 
their ecstasy at being at such a grand affair. 

"Why aren't you eating?" asks Octavia. 

"I have been, but I can't hold another bite," I say. 
They all laugh as if that's the silliest thing they've ever 

"No one lets that stop them!" says Flavius. They lead 
us over to a table that holds tiny stemmed wineglasses 
filled with clear liquid. "Drink this!" 

Peeta picks one up to take a sip and they lose it. 

"Not here!" shrieks Octavia. 

"You have to do it in there," says Venia, pointing to 
doors that lead to the toilets. "Or you'll get it all over 
the floor!" 

Peeta looks at the glass again and puts it together. 
"You mean this will make me puke?" 

My prep team laughs hysterically. "Of course, so you 
can keep eating," says Octavia. "I've been in there twice 
already. Everyone does it, or else how would you have 
any fun at a feast?" 

I'm speechless, staring at the pretty little glasses and 
all they imply. Peeta sets his back on the table with 
such precision you'd think it might detonate. "Come on, 
Katniss, let's dance." 

Music filters down from the clouds as he leads me 
away from the team, the table, and out onto the floor. 
We know only a few dances at home, the kind that go 
with fiddle and flute music and require a good deal of 
space. But Effie has shown us some that are popular in 
the Capitol. The music's slow and dreamlike, so Peeta 
pulls me into his arms and we move in a circle with 
practically no steps at all. You could do this dance on a 
pie plate. We're quiet for a while. Then Peeta speaks in 
a strained voice. 

"You go along, thinking you can deal with it, thinking 
maybe they're not so bad, and then you — " He cuts 
himself off. 

All I can think of is the emaciated bodies of the 
children on our kitchen table as my mother prescribes 
what the parents can't give. More food. Now that we're 
rich, she'll send some home with them. But often in the 
old days, there was nothing to give and the child was 
past saving, anyway. And here in the Capitol they're 
vomiting for the pleasure of filling their bellies again 

and again. Not from some illness of body or mind, not 
from spoiled food. It's what everyone does at a party. 
Expected. Part of the fun. 

One day when I dropped by to give Hazelle the game, 
Vick was home sick with a bad cough. Being part of 
Gale's family, the kid has to eat better than ninety 
percent of the rest of District 12. But he still spent about 
fifteen minutes talking about how they'd opened a can 
of corn syrup from Parcel Day and each had a spoonful 
on bread and were going to maybe have more later in 
the week. How Hazelle had said he could have a bit in a 
cup of tea to soothe his cough, but he wouldn't feel 
right unless the others had some, too. If it's like that at 
Gale's, what's it like in the other houses? 

"Peeta, they bring us here to fight to the death for their 
entertainment," I say. "Really, this is nothing by 

"I know. I know that. It's just sometimes I can't stand 
it anymore. To the point where ... I'm not sure what I'll 
do." He pauses, then whispers, "Maybe we were wrong, 

"About what?" I ask. 

"About trying to subdue things in the districts," he 

My head turns swiftly from side to side, but no one 
seems to have heard. The camera crew got sidetracked 
at a table of shellfish, and the couples dancing around 
us are either too drunk or too self-involved to notice. 

"Sorry," he says. He should be. This is no place to be 
voicing such thoughts. 

"Save it for home," I tell him. 

Just then Portia appears with a large man who looks 
vaguely familiar. She introduces him as Plutarch 
Heavensbee, the new Head Gamemaker. Plutarch asks 
Peeta if he can steal me for a dance. Peeta's recovered 
his camera face and good-naturedly passes me over, 
warning the man not to get too attached. 

I don't want to dance with Plutarch Heavensbee. I 
don't want to feel his hands, one resting against mine, 
one on my hip. I'm not used to being touched, except by 
Peeta or my family, and I rank Gamemakers 
somewhere below maggots in terms of creatures I want 
in contact with my skin. But he seems to sense this and 
holds me almost at arm's length as we turn on the floor. 

We chitchat about the party, about the entertainment, 
about the food, and then he makes a joke about 
avoiding punch since training. I don't get it, and then I 
realize he's the man who tripped backward into the 
punch bowl when I shot an arrow at the Gamemakers 
during the training session. Well, not really. I was 
shooting an apple out of their roast pig's mouth. But I 
made them jump. 

"Oh, you're one who — " I laugh, remembering him 
splashing back into the punch bowl. 

"Yes. And you'll be pleased to know I've never 
recovered," says Plutarch. 

I want to point out that twenty-two dead tributes will 
never recover from the Games he helped create, either. 
But I only say, "Good. So, you're the Head Gamemaker 
this year? That must be a big honor." 

"Between you and me, there weren't many takers for 
the job," he says. "So much responsibility as to how the 
Games turn out." 

Yeah, the last guy's dead, I think. He must know about 
Seneca Crane, but he doesn't look the least bit 
concerned. "Are you planning the Quarter Quell Games 
already?" I say. 

"Oh, yes. Well, they've been in the works for years, of 
course. Arenas aren't built in a day. But the, shall we 
say, flavor of the Games is being determined now. 
Believe it or not, I've got a strategy meeting tonight," 
he says. 

Plutarch steps back and pulls out a gold watch on a 
chain from a vest pocket. He flips open the lid, sees the 
time, and frowns. "Ill have to be going soon." He turns 
the watch so I can see the face. "It starts at midnight." 

"That seems late for — " I say, but then something 
distracts me. Plutarch has run his thumb across the 
crystal face of the watch and for just a moment an 
image appears, glowing as if lit by candlelight. It's 
another mockingjay. Exactly like the pin on my dress. 
Only this one disappears. He snaps the watch closed. 

"That's very pretty," I say. 

"Oh, it's more than pretty. It's one of a kind," he says. 
"If anyone asks about me, say I've gone home to bed. 
The meetings are supposed to be kept secret. But I 
thought it'd be safe to tell you." 

"Yes. Your secret's safe with me," I say. 

As we shake hands, he gives a small bow, a common 
gesture here in the Capitol. "Well, I'll see you next 

summer at the Games, Katniss. Best wishes on your 
engagement, and good luck with your mother." 

"I'll need it," I say. 

Plutarch disappears and I wander through the crowd, 
looking for Peeta, as strangers congratulate me. On my 
engagement, on my victory at the Games, on my choice 
of lipstick. I respond, but really I'm thinking about 
Plutarch showing off his pretty, one-of-a-kind watch to 
me. There was something strange about it. Almost 
clandestine. But why? Maybe he thinks someone else 
will steal his idea of putting a disappearing mockingjay 
on a watch face. Yes, he probably paid a fortune for it 
and now he can't show it to anyone because he's afraid 
someone will make a cheap, knockoff version. Only in 
the Capitol. 

I find Peeta admiring a table of elaborately decorated 
cakes. Bakers have come in from the kitchen especially 
to talk frosting with him, and you can see them tripping 
over one another to answer his questions. At his 
request, they assemble an assortment of little cakes for 
him to take back to District 12, where he can examine 
their work in quiet. 

"Effie said we have to be on the train at one. I wonder 
what time it is," he says, glancing around. 

"Almost midnight," I reply. I pluck a chocolate flower 
from a cake with my fingers and nibble on it, so beyond 
worrying about manners. 

'Time to say thank you and farewell!" trills Effie at 
my elbow. It's one of those moments when I just love 
her compulsive punctuality. We collect Cinna and 
Portia, and she escorts us around to say good-bye to 
important people, then herds us to the door. 

"Shouldn't we thank President Snow?" asks Peeta. 
"It's his house." 

"Oh, he's not a big one for parties. Too busy," says 
Effie. "I've already arranged for the necessary notes and 
gifts to be sent to him tomorrow. There you are!" Effie 
gives a little wave to two Capitol attendants who have 
an inebriated Haymitch propped up between them. 

We travel through the streets of the Capitol in a car 
with darkened windows. Behind us, another car brings 
the prep teams. The throngs of people celebrating are so 
thick it's slow going. But Effie has this all down to a 
science, and at exactly one o'clock we are back on the 
train and it's pulling out of the station. 

Haymitch is deposited in his room. Cinna orders tea 
and we all take seats around the table while Effie rattles 

her schedule papers and reminds us we're still on tour. 
'There's the Harvest Festival in District Twelve to think 
about. So I suggest we drink our tea and head straight to 
bed." No one argues. 

When I open my eyes, it's early afternoon. My head 
rests on Peeta's arm. I don't remember him coming in 
last night. I turn, being careful not to disturb him, but 
he's already awake. 

"No nightmares," he says. 

"What?" I ask. 

"You didn't have any nightmares last night," he says. 

He's right. For the first time in ages I've slept through 
the night. "I had a dream, though," I say, thinking back. 
"I was following a mockingjay through the woods. For 
a long time. It was Rue, really. I mean, when it sang, it 
had her voice." 

"Where did she take you?" he says, brushing my hair 
off my forehead. 

"I don't know. We never arrived," I say. "But I felt 

"Well, you slept like you were happy," he says. 

"Peeta, how come I never know when you're having a 
nightmare?" I say. 

"I don't know. I don't think I cry out or thrash around 
or anything. I just come to, paralyzed with terror," he 

"You should wake me," I say, thinking about how I 
can interrupt his sleep two or three times on a bad night. 
About how long it can take to calm me down. 

"It's not necessary. My nightmares are usually about 
losing you," he says. "I'm okay once I realize you're 

Ugh. Peeta makes comments like this in such an 
offhand way, and it's like being hit in the gut. He's only 
answering my question honestly. He's not pressing me 
to reply in kind, to make any declaration of love. But I 
still feel awful, as if I've been using him in some 
terrible way. Have I? I don't know. I only know that for 
the first time, I feel immoral about him being here in 
my bed. Which is ironic since we're officially engaged 

"Be worse when we're home and I'm sleeping alone 
again," he says. 

That's right, we're almost home. 

The agenda for District 12 includes a dinner at Mayor 
Undersee's house tonight and a victory rally in the 
square during the Harvest Festival tomorrow. We 
always celebrate the Harvest Festival on the final day of 
the Victory Tour, but usually it means a meal at home 
or with a few friends if you can afford it. This year it 
will be a public affair, and since the Capitol will be 
throwing it, everyone in the whole district will have full 

Most of our prepping will take place at the mayor's 
house, since we're back to being covered in furs for 
outdoor appearances. We're only at the train station 
briefly, to smile and wave as we pile into our car. We 
don't even get to see our families until the dinner 

I'm glad it will be at the mayor's house instead of at 
the Justice Building, where the memorial for my father 
was held, where they took me after the reaping for 
those wrenching goodbyes to my family. The Justice 
Building is too full of sadness. 

But I like Mayor Undersee's house, especially now 
that his daughter, Madge, and I are friends. We always 
were, in a way. It became official when she came to say 
good-bye to me before I left for the Games. When she 

gave me the mockingjay pin for luck. After I got home, 
we started spending time together. It turns out Madge 
has plenty of empty hours to fill, too. It was a little 
awkward at first because we didn't know what to do. 
Other girls our age, I've heard them talking about boys, 
or other girls, or clothes. Madge and I aren't gossipy 
and clothes bore me to tears. But after a few false starts, 
I realized she was dying to go into the woods, so I've 
taken her a couple of times and showed her how to 
shoot. She's trying to teach me the piano, but mostly I 
like to listen to her play. Sometimes we eat at each 
other's houses. Madge likes mine better. Her parents 
seem nice but I don't think she sees a whole lot of them. 
Her father has District 12 to run and her mother gets 
fierce headaches that force her to stay in bed for days. 

"Maybe you should take her to the Capitol," I said 
during one of them. We weren't playing the piano that 
day, because even two floors away the sound caused 
her mother pain. 'They can fix her up, I bet." 

"Yes. But you don't go to the Capitol unless they 
invite you," said Madge unhappily. Even the mayor's 
privileges are limited. 

When we reach the mayor's house, I only have time to 
give Madge a quick hug before Effie hustles me off to 

the third floor to get ready. After I'm prepped and 
dressed in a full-length silver gown, I've still got an 
hour to kill before the dinner, so I slip off to find her. 

Madge's bedroom is on the second floor along with 
several guest rooms and her father's study. I stick my 
head in the study to say hello to the mayor but it's 
empty. The television's droning on, and I stop to watch 
shots of Peeta and me at the Capitol party last night. 
Dancing, eating, kissing. This will be playing in every 
household in Panem right now. The audience must be 
sick to death of the star-crossed lovers from District 12. 
I know I am. 

I'm leaving the room when a beeping noise catches 
my attention. I turn back to see the screen of the 
television go black. Then the words "UPDATE ON 
DISTRICT 8" start flashing. Instinctively I know this is 
not for my eyes but something intended only for the 
mayor. I should go. Quickly. Instead I find myself 
stepping closer to the television. 

An announcer I've never seen before appears. It's a 
woman with graying hair and a hoarse, authoritative 
voice. She warns that conditions are worsening and a 
Level 3 alert has been called. Additional forces are 

being sent into District 8, and all textile production has 

They cut away from the woman to the main square in 
District 8. I recognize it because I was there only last 
week. There are still banners with my face waving from 
the rooftops. Below them, there's a mob scene. The 
square's packed with screaming people, their faces 
hidden with rags and homemade masks, throwing 
bricks. Buildings burn. Peacekeepers shoot into the 
crowd, killing at random. 

I've never seen anything like it, but I can only be 
witnessing one thing. This is what President Snow calls 
an uprising. 

A leather bag filled with food and a flask of hot tea. A 
pair of fur-lined gloves that Cinna left behind. Three 
twigs, broken from the naked trees, lying in the snow, 
pointing in the direction I will travel. This is what I 
leave for Gale at our usual meeting place on the first 
Sunday after the Harvest Festival. 

I have continued on through the cold, misty woods, 
breaking a path that will be unfamiliar to Gale but is 
simple for my feet to find. It leads to the lake. I no 
longer trust that our regular rendezvous spot offers 
privacy, and 111 need that and more to spill my guts to 
Gale today. But will he even come? If he doesn't, 111 
have no choice but to risk going to his house in the dead 
of night. There are things he has to know... things I 
need him to help me figure out... 

Once the implications of what I was seeing on Mayor 
Undersee's television hit me, I made for the door and 
started down the hall. Just in time, too, because the 
mayor came up the steps moments later. I gave him a 

"Looking for Madge?" he said in a friendly tone. 

"Yes. I want to show her my dress," I said. 

"Well, you know where to find her." Just then, 
another round of beeping came from his study. His face 
turned grave. "Excuse me," he said. He went into his 
study and closed the door tightly. 

I waited in the hall until I had composed myself. 
Reminded myself I must act naturally. Then I found 
Madge in her room, sitting at her dressing table, 
brushing out her wavy blond hair before a mirror. She 
was in the same pretty white dress she'd worn on 
reaping day. She saw my reflection behind her and 
smiled. "Look at you. Like you came right off the 
streets of the Capitol." 

I stepped in closer. My fingers touched the 
mocking] ay. "Even my pin now. Mockingjays are all 
the rage in the Capitol, thanks to you. Are you sure you 
don't want it back?" I asked. 

"Don't be silly, it was a gift," said Madge. She tied 
back her hair in a festive gold ribbon. 

"Where did you get it, anyway?" I asked. 

"It was my aunt's," she said. "But I think it's been in 
the family a long time." 

"It's a funny choice, a mocking] ay," I said. "I mean, 
because of what happened in the rebellion. With the 
jabber-jays backfiring on the Capitol and all." 

The jabberjays were muttations, genetically enhanced 
male birds created by the Capitol as weapons to spy on 
rebels in the districts. They could remember and repeat 
long passages of human speech, so they were sent into 
rebel areas to capture our words and return them to the 
Capitol. The rebels caught on and turned them against 
the Capitol by sending them home loaded with lies. 
When this was discovered, the jabberjays were left to 
die. In a few years, they became extinct in the wild, but 
not before they had mated with female mockingbirds, 
creating an entirely new species. 

"But mockingjays were never a weapon," said Madge. 
"They're just songbirds. Right?" 

"Yeah, I guess so," I said. But it's not true. A 
mockingbird is just a songbird. A mockingjay is a 
creature the Capitol never intended to exist. They hadn't 
counted on the highly controlled jabberjay having the 
brains to adapt to the wild, to pass on its genetic code, 

to thrive in a new form. They hadn't anticipated its will 
to live. 

Now, as I trudge through the snow, I see the 
mockingjays hopping about on branches as they pick up 
on other birds' melodies, replicate them, and then 
transform them into something new. As always, they 
remind me of Rue. I think of the dream I had the last 
night on the train, where I followed her in mockingjay 
form. I wish I could have stayed asleep just a bit longer 
and found out where she was trying to take me. 

It's a hike to the lake, no question. If he decides to 
follow me at all, Gale's going to be put out by this 
excessive use of energy that could be better spent in 
hunting. He was conspicuously absent from the dinner 
at the mayor's house, although the rest of his family 
came. Hazelle said he was home sick, which was an 
obvious lie. I couldn't find him at the Harvest Festival, 
either. Vick told me he was out hunting. That was 
probably true. 

After a couple of hours, I reach an old house near the 
edge of the lake. Maybe "house" is too big a word for 
it. It's only one room, about twelve feet square. My 
father thought that a long time ago there were a lot of 
buildings — you can still see some of the foundations 

— and people came to them to play and fish in the lake. 
This house outlasted the others because it's made of 
concrete. Floor, roof, ceiling. Only one of four glass 
windows remains, wavy and yellowed by time. There's 
no plumbing and no electricity, but the fireplace still 
works and there's a woodpile in the corner that my 
father and I collected years ago. I start a small fire, 
counting on the mist to obscure any telltale smoke. 
While the fire catches, I sweep out the snow that has 
accumulated under the empty windows, using a twig 
broom my father made me when I was about eight and I 
played house here. Then I sit on the tiny concrete 
hearth, thawing out by the fire and waiting for Gale. 

It's a surprisingly short time before he appears. A bow 
slung over his shoulder, a dead wild turkey he must 
have encountered along the way hanging from his belt. 
He stands in the doorway as if considering whether or 
not to enter. He holds the unopened leather bag of food, 
the flask, Cinna's gloves. Gifts he will not accept 
because of his anger at me. I know exactly how he 
feels. Didn't I do the same thing to my mother? 

I look in his eyes. His temper can't quite mask the 
hurt, the sense of betrayal he feels at my engagement to 
Peeta. This will be my last chance, this meeting today, 
to not lose Gale forever. I could take hours trying to 

explain, and even then have him refuse me. Instead I go 
straight to the heart of my defense. 

"President Snow personally threatened to have you 
killed," I say. 

Gale raises his eyebrows slightly, but there's no real 
show of fear or astonishment. "Anyone else?" 

"Well, he didn't actually give me a copy of the list. 
But it's a good guess it includes both our families," I 

It's enough to bring him to the fire. He crouches 
before the hearth and warms himself. "Unless what?" 

"Unless nothing, now," I say. Obviously this requires 
more of an explanation, but I have no idea where to 
start, so I just sit there staring gloomily into the fire. 

After about a minute of this, Gale breaks the silence. 
"Well, thanks for the heads-up." 

I turn to him, ready to snap, but I catch the glint in his 
eye. I hate myself for smiling. This is not a funny 
moment, but I guess it's a lot to drop on someone. We're 
all going to be obliterated no matter what. "I do have a 
plan, you know." 

"Yeah, I bet it's a stunner," he says. He tosses the 
gloves on my lap. "Here. I don't want your fiance's old 

"He's not my fiance. That's just part of the act. And 
these aren't his gloves. They were Cinna's," I say. 

"Give them back, then," he says. He pulls on the 
gloves, flexes his fingers, and nods in approval. "At 
least I'll die in comfort." 

"That's optimistic. Of course, you don't know what's 
happened," I say. 

"Let's have it," he says. 

I decide to begin with the night Peeta and I were 
crowned victors of the Hunger Games, and Haymitch 
warned me of the Capitol's fury. I tell him about the 
uneasiness that dogged me even once I was back home, 
President Snow's visit to my house, the murders in 
District 11, the tension in the crowds, the last-ditch 
effort of the engagement, the president's indication that 
it hadn't been enough, my certainty that I'll have to pay. 

Gale never interrupts. While I talk, he tucks the gloves 
in his pocket and occupies himself with turning the 
food in the leather bag into a meal for us. Toasting 
bread and cheese, coring apples, placing chestnuts in 

the fire to roast. I watch his hands, his beautiful, 
capable fingers. Scarred, as mine were before the 
Capitol erased all marks from my skin, but strong and 
deft. Hands that have the power to mine coal but the 
precision to set a delicate snare. Hands I trust. 

I pause to take a drink of tea from the flask before I 
tell him about my homecoming. 

"Well, you really made a mess of things," he says. 
"I'm not even done," I tell him. 

"I've heard enough for the moment. Let's skip ahead 
to this plan of yours," he says. 

I take a deep breath. "We run away." 

"What?" he asks. This has actually caught him off 

"We take to the woods and make a run for it," I say. 
His face is impossible to read. Will he laugh at me, 
dismiss this as foolishness? I rise in agitation, preparing 
for an argument. "You said yourself you thought that 
we could do it! That morning of the reaping. You 

He steps in and I feel myself lifted off the ground. The 
room spins, and I have to lock my arms around Gale's 
neck to brace myself. He's laughing, happy. 

"Hey!" I protest, but I'm laughing, too. 

Gale sets me down but doesn't release his hold on me. 
"Okay, let's run away," he says. 

"Really? You don't think I'm mad? You'll go with 
me?" Some of the crushing weight begins to lift as it 
transfers to Gale's shoulders. 

"I do think you're mad and I'll still go with you," he 
says. He means it. Not only means it but welcomes it. 
"We can do it. I know we can. Let's get out of here and 
never come back!" 

"You're sure?" I say. "Because it's going to be hard, 
with the kids and all. I don't want to get five miles into 
the woods and have you — " 

"I'm sure. I'm completely, entirely, one hundred 
percent sure." He tilts his forehead down to rest against 
mine and pulls me closer. His skin, his whole being, 
radiates heat from being so near the fire, and I close my 
eyes, soaking in his warmth. I breathe in the smell of 
snow-dampened leather and smoke and apples, the 
smell of all those wintry days we shared before the 

Games. I don't try to move away. Why should I, 
anyway? His voice drops to a whisper. "I love you." 

That's why. 

I never see these things coming. They happen too fast. 
One second you're proposing an escape plan and the 
next... you're expected to deal with something like this. 
I come up with what must be the worst possible 
response. "I know." 

It sounds terrible. Like I assume he couldn't help 
loving me but that I don't feel anything in return. Gale 
starts to draw away, but I grab hold of him. "I know! 
And you... you know what you are to me." It's not 
enough. He breaks my grip. "Gale, I can't think about 
anyone that way now. All I can think about, every day, 
every waking minute since they drew Prim's name at 
the reaping, is how afraid I am. And there doesn't seem 
to be room for anything else. If we could get 
somewhere safe, maybe I could be different. I don't 

I can see him swallowing his disappointment. "So, 
we'll go. We'll find out." He turns back to the fire, 
where the chestnuts are beginning to burn. He flips 
them out onto the hearth. "My mother's going to take 
some convincing." 

I guess he's still going, anyway. But the happiness has 
fled, leaving an all-too-familiar strain in its place. 
"Mine, too. I'll just have to make her see reason. Take 
her for a long walk. Make sure she understands we 
won't survive the alternative." 

"She'll understand. I watched a lot of the Games with 
her and Prim. She won't say no to you," says Gale. 

"I hope not." The temperature in the house seems to 
have dropped twenty degrees in a matter of seconds. 
"Haymitch will be the real challenge." 

"Haymitch?" Gale abandons the chestnuts. "You're 
not asking him to come with us?" 

"I have to, Gale. I can't leave him and Peeta because 
they'd—" His scowl cuts me off. "What?" 

"I'm sorry. I didn't realize how large our party was," 
he snaps at me. 

"They'd torture them to death, trying to find out where 
I was," I say. 

"What about Peeta's family? They'll never come. In 
fact, they probably couldn't wait to inform on us. Which 
I'm sure he's smart enough to realize. What if he 
decides to stay?" he asks. 

I try to sound indifferent, but my voice cracks. 'Then 
he stays." 

"You'd leave him behind?" Gale asks. 

'To save Prim and my mother, yes," I answer. "I 
mean, no! Ill get him to come." 

"And me, would you leave me?" Gale's expression is 
rock hard now. "Just if, for instance, I can't convince 
my mother to drag three young kids into the wilderness 
in winter." 

"Hazelle won't refuse. She'll see sense," I say. 

"Suppose she doesn't, Katniss. What then?" he 

"Then you have to force her, Gale. Do you think I'm 
making this stuff up?" My voice is rising in anger as 

"No. I don't know. Maybe the president's just 
manipulating you. I mean, he's throwing your wedding. 
You saw how the Capitol crowd reacted. I don't think 
he can afford to kill you. Or Peeta. How's he going to 
get out of that one?" says Gale. 

"Well, with an uprising in District Eight, I doubt he's 
spending much time choosing my wedding cake!" I 

The instant the words are out of my mouth I want to 
reclaim them. Their effect on Gale is immediate — the 
flush on his cheeks, the brightness of his gray eyes. 
'There's an uprising in Eight?" he says in a hushed 

I try to backpedal. To defuse him, as I tried to defuse 
the districts. "I don't know if it's really an uprising. 
There's unrest. People in the streets — " I say. 

Gale grabs my shoulders. "What did you see?" 

"Nothing! In person. I just heard something." As 
usual, it's too little, too late. I give up and tell him. "I 
saw something on the mayor's television. I wasn't 
supposed to. There was a crowd, and fires, and the 
Peacekeepers were gunning people down but they were 
fighting back. ..." I bite my lip and struggle to continue 
describing the scene. Instead I say aloud the words that 
have been eating me up inside. "And it's my fault, Gale. 
Because of what I did in the arena. If I had just killed 
myself with those berries, none of this would've 
happened. Peeta could have come home and lived, and 
everyone else would have been safe, too." 

"Safe to do what?" he says in a gentler tone. "Starve? 
Work like slaves? Send their kids to the reaping? You 
haven't hurt people — you've given them an opportunity. 
They just have to be brave enough to take it. There's 
already been talk in the mines. People who want to 
fight. Don't you see? It's happening! It's finally 
happening! If there's an uprising in District Eight, why 
not here? Why not everywhere? This could be it, the 
thing we've been — " 

"Stop it! You don't know what you're saying. The 
Peacekeepers outside of Twelve, they're not like Darius, 
or even Cray! The lives of district people — they mean 
less than nothing to them!" I say. 

"That's why we have to join the fight!" he answers 

"No! We have to leave here before they kill us and a 
lot of other people, too!" I'm yelling again, but I can't 
understand why he's doing this. Why doesn't he see 
what's so undeniable? 

Gale pushes me roughly away from him. "You leave, 
then. I'd never go in a million years." 

"You were happy enough to go before. I don't see how 
an uprising in District Eight does anything but make it 

more important that we leave. You're just mad about — " 
No, I can't throw Peeta in his face. "What about your 

"What about the other families, Katniss? The ones 
who can't run away? Don't you see? It can't be about 
just saving us anymore. Not if the rebellion's begun!" 
Gale shakes his head, not hiding his disgust with me. 
"You could do so much." He throws Cinna's gloves at 
my feet. "I changed my mind. I don't want anything 
they made in the Capitol." And he's gone. 

I look down at the gloves. Anything they made in the 
Capitol? Was that directed at me? Does he think I am 
now just another product of the Capitol and therefore 
something untouchable? The unfairness of it all fills me 
with rage. But it's mixed up with fear over what kind of 
crazy thing he might do next. 

I sink down next to the fire, desperate for comfort, to 
work out my next move. I calm myself by thinking that 
rebellions don't happen in a day. Gale can't talk to the 
miners until tomorrow. If I can get to Hazelle before 
then, she might straighten him out. But I can't go now. 
If he's there, he'll lock me out. Maybe tonight, after 
everyone else is asleep ... Hazelle often works late into 
the night finishing up laundry. I could go then, tap at 

the window, tell her the situation so she'll keep Gale 
from doing anything foolish. 

My conversation with President Snow in the study 
comes back to me. 

"My advisors were concerned you would be difficult, 
but you're not planning on being difficult at all, are 

"No. " 

"That's what I told them. I said any girl who goes to 
such lengths to preserve her life isn't going to be 
interested in throwing it away with both hands. " 

I think of how hard Hazelle has worked to keep that 
family alive. Surely she'll be on my side in this matter. 
Or won't she? 

It must be getting on toward noon now and the days 
are so short. No point in being in the woods after dark if 
you don't have to. I stamp out the remains of my little 
fire, clear up the scraps of food, and tuck Cinna's gloves 
in my belt. I guess I'll hang on to them for a while. In 
case Gale has a change of heart. I think of the look on 
his face when he flung them to the ground. How 
repelled he was by them, by me ... 

I trudge through the woods and reach my old house 
while there's still light. My conversation with Gale was 
an obvious setback, but I'm still determined to carry on 
with my plan to escape District 12. I decide to find 
Peeta next. In a strange way, since he's seen some of 
what I've seen on the tour, he may be an easier sell than 
Gale was. I run into him as he's leaving the Victor's 

"Been hunting?" he asks. You can see he doesn't think 
it's a good idea. 

"Not really. Going to town?" I ask. 

"Yes. I'm supposed to eat dinner with my family," he 

"Well, I can at least walk you in." The road from the 
Victor's Village to the square gets little use. It's a safe 
enough place to talk. But I can't seem to get the words 
out. Proposing it to Gale was such a disaster. I gnaw on 
my chapped lips. The square gets closer with every 
step. I may not have an opportunity again soon. I take a 
deep breath and let the words rush out. "Peeta, if I 
asked you to run away from the district with me, would 

Peeta takes my arm, bringing me to a stop. He doesn't 
need to check my face to see if I'm serious. "Depends 
on why you're asking." 

"President Snow wasn't convinced by me. There's an 
uprising in District Eight. We have to get out," I say. 

"By 'we' do you mean just you and me? No. Who else 
would be going?" he asks. 

"My family. Yours, if they want to come. Haymitch, 
maybe," I say. 

"What about Gale?" he says. 

"I don't know. He might have other plans," I say. 

Peeta shakes his head and gives me a rueful smile. "I 
bet he does. Sure, Katniss, I'll go." 

I feel a slight twinge of hope. "You will?" 

"Yeah. But I don't think for a minute you will," he 

I jerk my arm away. "Then you don't know me. Be 
ready. It could be any time." I take off walking and he 
follows a pace or two behind. 

"Katniss," Peeta says. I don't slow down. If he thinks 
it's a bad idea, I don't want to know, because it's the 

only one I have. "Katniss, hold up." I kick a dirty, 
frozen chunk of snow off the path and let him catch up. 
The coal dust makes everything look especially ugly. "I 
really will go, if you want me to. I just think we better 
talk it through with Haymitch. Make sure we won't be 
making things worse for everyone." He raises his head. 
"What's that?" 

I lift my chin. I've been so consumed with my own 
worries, I haven't noticed the strange noise coming 
from the square. A whistling, the sound of an impact, 
the intake of breath from a crowd. 

"Come on," Peeta says, his face suddenly hard. I don't 
know why. I can't place the sound, even guess at the 
situation. But it means something bad to him. 

When we reach the square, it's clear something's 
happening, but the crowd's too thick to see. Peeta steps 
up on a crate against the wall of the sweetshop and 
offers me a hand while he scans the square. I'm halfway 
up when he suddenly blocks my way. "Get down. Get 
out of here!" He's whispering, but his voice is harsh 
with insistence. 

"What?" I say, trying to force my way back up. 

"Go home, Katniss! Ill be there in a minute, I swear!" 
he says. 

Whatever it is, it's terrible. I yank away from his hand 
and begin to push my way through the crowd. People 
see me, recognize my face, and then look panicked. 
Hands shove me back. Voices hiss. 

"Get out of here, girl." 

"Only make it worse." 

"What do you want to do? Get him killed?" 

But at this point, my heart is beating so fast and fierce 
I hardly hear them. I only know that whatever waits in 
the middle of the square is meant for me. When I finally 
break through to the cleared space, I see I am right. And 
Peeta was right. And those voices were right, too. 

Gale's wrists are bound to a wooden post. The wild 
turkey he shot earlier hangs above him, the nail driven 
through its neck. His jacket's been cast aside on the 
ground, his shirt torn away. He slumps unconscious on 
his knees, held up only by the ropes at his wrists. What 
used to be his back is a raw, bloody slab of meat. 

Standing behind him is a man I've never seen, but I 
recognize his uniform. It's the one designated for our 

Head Peacekeeper. This isn't old Cray, though. This is a 
tall, muscular man with sharp creases in his pants. 

The pieces of the picture do not quite come together 
until I see his arm raise the whip. 

"No!" I cry, and spring forward. It's too late to stop 
the arm from descending, and I instinctively know I 
won't have the power to block it. Instead I throw myself 
directly between the whip and Gale. I've flung out my 
arms to protect as much of his broken body as possible, 
so there's nothing to deflect the lash. I take the full 
force of it across the left side of my face. 

The pain is blinding and instantaneous. Jagged flashes 
of light cross my vision and I fall to my knees. One 
hand cups my cheek while the other keeps me from 
tipping over. I can already feel the welt rising up, the 
swelling closing my eye. The stones beneath me are wet 
with Gale's blood, the air heavy with its scent. "Stop it! 
You'll kill him!" I shriek. 

I get a glimpse of my assailant's face. Hard, with deep 
lines, a cruel mouth. Gray hair shaved almost to 
nonexistence, eyes so black they seem all pupils, a long, 
straight nose reddened by the freezing air. The powerful 
arm lifts again, his sights set on me. My hand flies to 
my shoulder, hungry for an arrow, but, of course, my 

weapons are stashed in the woods. I grit my teeth in 
anticipation of the next lash. 

"Hold it!" a voice barks. Haymitch appears and trips 
over a Peacekeeper lying on the ground. It's Darius. A 
huge purple lump pushes through the red hair on his 
forehead. He's knocked out but still breathing. What 
happened? Did he try to come to Gale's aid before I got 

Haymitch ignores him and pulls me to my feet 
roughly. "Oh, excellent." His hand locks under my 
chin, lifting it. "She's got a photo shoot next week 
modeling wedding dresses. What am I supposed to tell 
her stylist?" 

I see a flicker of recognition in the eyes of the man 
with the whip. Bundled against the cold, my face free of 
makeup, my braid tucked carelessly under my coat, it 
wouldn't be easy to identify me as the victor of the last 
Hunger Games. Especially with half my face swelling 
up. But Haymitch has been showing up on television 
for years, and he'd be difficult to forget. 

The man rests the whip on his hip. "She interrupted 
the punishment of a confessed criminal." 

Everything about this man, his commanding voice, his 
odd accent, warns of an unknown and dangerous threat. 
Where has he come from? District 11? 3? From the 
Capitol itself? 

"I don't care if she blew up the blasted Justice 
Building! Look at her cheek! Think that will be camera 
ready in a week?" Haymitch snarls. 

The man's voice is still cold, but I can detect a slight 
edge of doubt. 'That's not my problem." 

"No? Well, it's about to be, my friend. The first call I 
make when I get home is to the Capitol," says 

"Find out who authorized you to mess up my victor's 
pretty little face!" 

"He was poaching. What business is it of hers, 
anyway?" says the man. 

"He's her cousin." Peeta's got my other arm now, but 
gently. "And she's my fiance. So if you want to get to 
him, expect to go through both of us." 

Maybe we're it. The only three people in the district 
who could make a stand like this. Although it's sure to 
be temporary. There will be repercussions. But at the 

moment, all I care about is keeping Gale alive. The new 
Head Peacekeeper glances over at his backup squad. 
With relief, I see they're familiar faces, old friends from 
the Hob. You can tell by their expressions that they're 
not enjoying the show. 

One, a woman named Purnia who eats regularly at 
Greasy Sae's, steps forward stiffly. "I believe, for a first 
offense, the required number of lashes has been 
dispensed, sir. Unless your sentence is death, which we 
would carry out by firing squad." 

"Is that the standard protocol here?" asks the Head 

"Yes, sir," Purnia says, and several others nod in 
agreement. I'm sure none of them actually know 
because, in the Hob, the standard protocol for someone 
showing up with a wild turkey is for everybody to bid 
on the drumsticks. 

"Very well. Get your cousin out of here, then, girl. 
And if he comes to, remind him that the next time he 
poaches off the Capitol's land, 111 assemble that firing 
squad personally." The Head Peacekeeper wipes his 
hand along the length of the whip, splattering us with 
blood. Then he coils it into quick, neat loops and walks 

Most of the other Peacekeepers fall in an awkward 
formation behind him. A small group stays behind and 
hoists Darius's body up by the arms and legs. I catch 
Purnia's eye and mouth the word "Thanks" before she 
goes. She doesn't respond, but I'm sure she understood. 

"Gale." I turn, my hands fumbling at the knots 
binding his wrists. Someone passes forward a knife and 
Peeta cuts the ropes. Gale collapses to the ground. 

"Better get him to your mother," says Haymitch. 

There's no stretcher, but the old woman at the clothing 
stall sells us the board that serves as her countertop. 
"Just don't tell where you got it," she says, packing up 
the rest of her goods quickly. Most of the square has 
emptied, fear getting the better of compassion. But after 
what just happened, I can't blame anyone. 

By the time we've laid Gale facedown on the board, 
there's only a handful of people left to carry him. 
Haymitch, Peeta, and a couple of miners who work on 
the same crew as Gale lift him up. 

Leevy, a girl who lives a few houses down from mine 
in the Seam, takes my arm. My mother kept her little 
brother alive last year when he caught the measles. 

"Need help getting back?" Her gray eyes are scared but 

"No, but can you get Hazelle? Send her over?" I ask. 

"Yeah," says Leevy, turning on her heel. 

"Leevy!" I say. "Don't let her bring the kids." "No. I'll 
stay with them myself," she says. "Thanks." I grab 
Gale's jacket and hurry after the others. 

"Get some snow on that," Haymitch orders over his 
shoulder. I scoop up a handful of snow and press it 
against my cheek, numbing a bit of the pain. My left 
eye's tearing heavily now, and in the dimming light it's 
all I can do to follow the boots in front of me. 

As we walk I hear Bristel and Thorn, Gale's 
crewmates, piece together the story of what happened. 
Gale must've gone to Cray's house, as he's done a 
hundred times, knowing Cray always pays well for a 
wild turkey. Instead he found the new Head 
Peacekeeper, a man they heard someone call Romulus 
Thread. No one knows what happened to Cray. He was 
buying white liquor in the Hob just this morning, 
apparently still in command of the district, but now he's 
nowhere to be found. Thread put Gale under immediate 
arrest and, of course, since he was standing there 

holding a dead turkey, there was little Gale could say in 
his own defense. Word of his predicament spread 
quickly. He was brought to the square, forced to plead 
guilty to his crime, and sentenced to a whipping to be 
carried out immediately. By the time I showed up, he'd 
been lashed at least forty times. He passed out around 

"Lucky he only had the turkey on him," says Bristel. 
"If he'd had his usual haul, wouldVe been much worse." 

"He told Thread he found it wandering around the 
Seam. Said it got over the fence and he'd stabbed it with 
a stick. Still a crime. But if they'd known he'd been in 
the woods with weapons, they'd have killed him for 
sure," says Thorn. 

"What about Darius?" Peeta asks. 

"After about twenty lashes, he stepped in, saying that 
was enough. Only he didn't do it smart and official, like 
Purnia did. He grabbed Thread's arm and Thread hit 
him in the head with the butt of the whip. Nothing good 
waiting for him," says Bristel. 

"Doesn't sound like much good for any of us," says 

Snow begins, thick and wet, making visibility even 
more difficult. I stumble up the walk to my house 
behind the others, using my ears more than my eyes to 
guide me. A golden light colors the snow as the door 
opens. My mother, who was no doubt waiting for me 
after a long day of unexplained absence, takes in the 

"New Head," Haymitch says, and she gives him a curt 
nod as if no other explanation is needed. 

I'm filled with awe, as I always am, as I watch her 
transform from a woman who calls me to kill a spider 
to a woman immune to fear. When a sick or dying 
person is brought to her ... this is the only time I think 
my mother knows who she is. In moments, the long 
kitchen table has been cleared, a sterile white cloth 
spread across it, and Gale hoisted onto it. My mother 
pours water from a kettle into a basin while ordering 
Prim to pull a series of her remedies from the medicine 
cabinet. Dried herbs and tinctures and store-bought 
bottles. I watch her hands, the long, tapered fingers 
crumbling this, adding drops of that, into the basin. 
Soaking a cloth in the hot liquid as she gives Prim 
instructions to prepare a second brew. 

My mother glances my way. "Did it cut your eye?" 

"No, it's just swelled shut," I say. 

"Get more snow on it," she instructs. But I am clearly 
not a priority. 

"Can you save him?" I ask my mother. She says 
nothing as she wrings out the cloth and holds it in the 
air to cool somewhat. 

"Don't worry," says Haymitch. "Used to be a lot of 
whipping before Cray. She's the one we took them to." 

I can't remember a time before Cray, a time when 
there was a Head Peacekeeper who used the whip 
freely. But my mother must have been around my age 
and still working at the apothecary shop with her 
parents. Even back then, she must have had healer's 

Ever so gently, she begins to clean the mutilated flesh 
on Gale's back. I feel sick to my stomach, useless, the 
remaining snow dripping from my glove into a puddle 
on the floor. Peeta puts me in a chair and holds a cloth 
filled with fresh snow to my cheek. 

Haymitch tells Bristel and Thorn to get home, and I 
see him press coins into their hands before they leave. 
"Don't know what will happen with your crew," he 
says. They nod and accept the money. 

Hazelle arrives, breathless and flushed, fresh snow in 
her hair. Wordlessly, she sits on a stool next to the 
table, takes Gale's hand, and holds it against her lips. 
My mother doesn't acknowledge even her. She's gone 
into that special zone that includes only herself and the 
patient and occasionally Prim. The rest of us can wait. 

Even in her expert hands, it takes a long time to clean 
the wounds, arrange what shredded skin can be saved, 
apply a salve and a light bandage. As the blood clears, I 
can see where every stroke of the lash landed and feel it 
resonate in the single cut on my face. I multiply my 
own pain once, twice, forty times and can only hope 
that Gale remains unconscious. Of course, that's too 
much to ask for. As the final bandages are being placed, 
a moan escapes his lips. Hazelle strokes his hair and 
whispers something while my mother and Prim go 
through their meager store of painkillers, the kind 
usually accessible only to doctors. They are hard to 
come by, expensive, and always in demand. My mother 
has to save the strongest for the worst pain, but what is 
the worst pain? To me, it's always the pain that is 
present. If I were in charge, those painkillers would be 
gone in a day because I have so little ability to watch 
suffering. My mother tries to save them for those who 

are actually in the process of dying, to ease them out of 
the world. 

Since Gale is regaining consciousness, they decide on 
an herbal concoction he can take by mouth. 'That won't 
be enough," I say. They stare at me. 'That won't be 
enough, I know how it feels. That will barely knock out 
a headache." 

"We'll combine it with sleep syrup, Katniss, and he'll 
manage it. The herbs are more for the inflammation — " 
my mother begins calmly. 

"Just give him the medicine!" I scream at her. "Give it 
to him! Who are you, anyway, to decide how much pain 
he can stand!" 

Gale begins stirring at my voice, trying to reach me. 
The movement causes fresh blood to stain his bandages 
and an agonized sound to come from his mouth. 

"Take her out," says my mother. Haymitch and Peeta 
literally carry me from the room while I shout 
obscenities at her. They pin me down on a bed in one of 
the extra bedrooms until I stop fighting. 

While I lie there, sobbing, tears trying to squeeze out 
of the slit of my eye, I hear Peeta whisper to Haymitch 
about President Snow, about the uprising in District 8. 

"She wants us all to run," he says, but if Haymitch has 
an opinion on this, he doesn't offer it. 

After a while, my mother comes in and treats my face. 
Then she holds my hand, stroking my arm, while 
Haymitch fills her in on what happened with Gale. 

"So it's starting again?" she says. "Like before?" 

"By the looks of it," he answers. "Who'd have thought 
we'd ever be sorry to see old Cray go?" 

Cray would have been disliked, anyway, because of 
the uniform he wore, but it was his habit of luring 
starving young women into his bed for money that 
made him an object of loathing in the district. In really 
bad times, the hungriest would gather at his door at 
nightfall, vying for the chance to earn a few coins to 
feed their families by selling their bodies. Had I been 
older when my father died, I might have been among 
them. Instead I learned to hunt. 

I don't know exactly what my mother means by things 
starting again, but I'm too angry and hurting to ask. It's 
registered, though, the idea of worse times returning, 
because when the doorbell rings, I shoot straight out of 
bed. Who could it be at this hour of the night? There's 
only one answer. Peacekeepers. 

'They can't have him," I say. 

"Might be you they're after," Haymitch reminds me. 
"Or you," I say. 

"Not my house," Haymitch points out. "But I'll get the 

"No, I'll get it," says my mother quietly. 

We all go, though, following her down the hallway to 
the insistent ring of the bell. When she opens it, there's 
not a squad of Peacekeepers but a single, snow-caked 
figure. Madge. She holds out a small, damp cardboard 
box to me. 

"Use these for your friend," she says. I take off the lid 
of the box, revealing half a dozen vials of clear liquid. 
"They're my mother's. She said I could take them. Use 
them, please." She runs back into the storm before we 
can stop her. 

"Crazy girl," Haymitch mutters as we follow, my 
mother into the kitchen. 

Whatever my mother had given Gale, I was right, it 
isn't enough. His teeth are gritted and his flesh shines 
with sweat. My mother fills a syringe with the clear 

liquid from one of the vials and shoots it into his arm. 
Almost immediately, his face begins to relax. 

"What is that stuff?" asks Peeta. 

"It's from the Capitol. It's called morphling," my 
mother answers. 

"I didn't even know Madge knew Gale," says Peeta. 

"We used to sell her strawberries," I say almost 
angrily. What am I angry about, though? Not that she 
has brought the medicine, surely. 

"She must have quite a taste for them," says 

That's what nettles me. It's the implication that there's 
something going on between Gale and Madge. And I 
don't like it. 

"She's my friend" is all I say. 

Now that Gale has drifted away on the painkiller, 
everyone seems to deflate. Prim makes us each eat 
some stew and bread. A room is offered to Hazelle, but 
she has to go home to the other kids. Haymitch and 
Peeta are both willing to stay, but my mother sends 
them home to bed as well. She knows it's pointless to 

try this with me and leaves me to tend Gale while she 
and Prim rest. 

Alone in the kitchen with Gale, I sit on Hazelle's stool, 
holding his hand. After a while, my fingers find his 
face. I touch parts of him I have never had cause to 
touch before. His heavy, dark eyebrows, the curve of 
his cheek, the line of his nose, the hollow at the base of 
his neck. I trace the outline of stubble on his jaw and 
finally work my way to his lips. Soft and full, slightly 
chapped. His breath warms my chilled skin. 

Does everyone look younger asleep? Because right 
now he could be the boy I ran into in the woods years 
ago, the one who accused me of stealing from his traps. 
What a pair we were — fatherless, frightened, but 
fiercely committed, too, to keeping our families alive. 
Desperate, yet no longer alone after that day, because 
we'd found each other. I think of a hundred moments in 
the woods, lazy afternoons fishing, the day I taught him 
to swim, that time I twisted my knee and he carried me 
home. Mutually counting on each other, watching each 
other's backs, forcing each other to be brave. 

For the first time, I reverse our positions in my head. I 
imagine watching Gale volunteering to save Rory in the 
reaping, having him torn from my life, becoming some 

strange girl's lover to stay alive, and then coming home 
with her. Living next to her. Promising to marry her. 

The hatred I feel for him, for the phantom girl, for 
everything, is so real and immediate that it chokes me. 
Gale is mine. I am his. Anything else is unthinkable. 
Why did it take him being whipped within an inch of 
his life to see it? 

Because I'm selfish. I'm a coward. I'm the kind of girl 
who, when she might actually be of use, would run to 
stay alive and leave those who couldn't follow to suffer 
and die. This is the girl Gale met in the woods today. 

No wonder I won the Games. No decent person ever 

You saved Peeta, I think weakly. 

But now I question even that. I knew good and well 
that my life back in District 12 would be unlivable if I 
let that boy die. 

I rest my head forward on the edge of the table, 
overcome with loathing for myself. Wishing I had died 
in the arena. Wishing Seneca Crane had blown me to 
bits the way President Snow said he should have when I 
held out the berries. 

The berries. I realize the answer to who I am lies in 
that handful of poisonous fruit. If I held them out to 
save Peeta because I knew I would be shunned if I 
came back without him, then I am despicable. If I held 
them out because I loved him, I am still self-centered, 
although forgivable. But if I held them out to defy the 
Capitol, I am someone of worth. The trouble is, I don't 
know exactly what was going on inside me at that 

Could it be the people in the districts are right? That it 
was an act of rebellion, even if it was an unconscious 
one? Because, deep down, I must know it isn't enough 
to keep myself, or my family, or my friends alive by 
running away. Even if I could. It wouldn't fix anything. 
It wouldn't stop people from being hurt the way Gale 
was today. 

Life in District 12 isn't really so different from life in 
the arena. At some point, you have to stop running and 
turn around and face whoever wants you dead. The hard 
thing is finding the courage to do it. Well, it's not hard 
for Gale. He was born a rebel. I'm the one making an 
escape plan. 

"I'm so sorry," I whisper. I lean forward and kiss him. 

His eyelashes flutter and he looks at me through a 
haze of opiates. "Hey, Catnip." 

"Hey, Gale," I say. 

"Thought you'd be gone by now," he says. 

My choices are simple. I can die like quarry in the 
woods or I can die here beside Gale. "I'm not going 
anywhere. Tm going to stay right here and cause all 
kinds of trouble." 

"Me, too," Gale says. He just manages a smile before 
the drugs pull him back under. 


Someone gives my shoulder a shake and I sit up. I've 
fallen asleep with my face on the table. The white cloth 
has left creases on my good cheek. The other, the one 
that took the lash from Thread, throbs painfully. Gale's 
dead to the world, but his fingers are locked around 
mine. I smell fresh bread and turn my stiff neck to find 
Peeta looking down at me with such a sad expression. I 
get the sense that he's been watching us awhile. 

"Go on up to bed, Katniss. I'll look after him now," he 

"Peeta. About what I said yesterday, about running — " 
I begin. 

"I know," he says. 'There's nothing to explain." 

I see the loaves of bread on the counter in the pale, 
snowy morning light. The blue shadows under his eyes. 
I wonder if he slept at all. Couldn't have been long. I 
think of his agreeing to go with me yesterday, his 
stepping up beside me to protect Gale, his willingness 
to throw his lot in with mine entirely when I give him 

so little in return. No matter what I do, I'm hurting 
someone. "Peeta — " 

"Just go to bed, okay?" he says. 

I feel my way up the stairs, crawl under the covers, 
and fall asleep at once. At some point, Clove, the girl 
from District 2, enters my dreams. She chases me, pins 
me to the ground, and pulls out a knife to cut my face. 
It digs deeply into my cheek, opening a wide gash. 
Then Clove begins to transform, her face elongating 
into a snout, dark fur sprouting from her skin, her 
fingernails growing into long claws, but her eyes 
remain unchanged. She becomes the mutta-tion form of 
herself, the wolflike creation of the Capitol that 
terrorized us the last night in the arena. Tossing back 
her head, she lets out a long, eerie howl that is picked 
up by other mutts nearby. Clove begins to lap the blood 
flowing from my wound, each lick sending a new wave 
of pain through my face. I give a strangled cry and 
wake with a start, sweating and shivering at once. 
Cradling my damaged cheek in my hand, I remind 
myself that it was not Clove but Thread who gave me 
this wound. I wish that Peeta were here to hold me, 
until I remember I'm not supposed to wish, that 
anymore. I have chosen Gale and the rebellion, and a 
future with Peeta is the Capitol's design, not mine. 

The swelling around my eye has gone down and I can 
open it a bit. I push aside the curtains and see the 
snowstorm has strengthened to a full-out blizzard. 
There's nothing but whiteness and the howling wind 
that sounds remarkably like the muttations. 

I welcome the blizzard, with its ferocious winds and 
deep, drifting snow. This may be enough to keep the 
real wolves, also known as the Peacekeepers, from my 
door. A few days to think. To work out a plan. With 
Gale and Peeta and Haymitch all at hand. This blizzard 
is a gift. 

Before I go down to face this new life, though, I take 
some time making myself acknowledge what it will 
mean. Less than a day ago, I was prepared to head into 
the wilderness with my loved ones in midwinter, with 
the very real possibility of the Capitol pursuing us. A 
precarious venture at best. But now I am committing to 
something even more risky. Fighting the Capitol 
assures their swift retaliation. I must accept that at any 
moment I can be arrested. There will be a knock on the 
door, like the one last night, a band of Peacekeepers to 
haul me away. There might be torture. Mutilation. A 
bullet through my skull in the town square, if I'm 
fortunate enough to go that quickly. The Capitol has no 
end of creative ways to kill people. I imagine these 

things and I'm terrified, but let's face it: They've been 
lurking in the back of my brain, anyway. I've been a 
tribute in the Games. Been threatened by the president. 
Taken a lash across my face. I'm already a target. 

Now comes the harder part. I have to face the fact that 
my family and friends might share this fate. Prim. I 
need only to think of Prim and all my resolve 
disintegrates. It's my job to protect her. I pull the 
blanket up over my head, and my breathing is so rapid I 
use up all the oxygen and begin to choke for air. I can't 
let the Capitol hurt Prim. 

And then it hits me. They already have. They have 
killed her father in those wretched mines. They have sat 
by as she almost starved to death. They have chosen her 
as a tribute, then made her watch her sister fight to the 
death in the Games. She has been hurt far worse than I 
had at the age of twelve. And even that pales in 
comparison with Rue's life. 

I shove off the blanket and suck in the cold air that 
seeps through the windowpanes. 

Prim ... Rue ... aren't they the very reason I have to try 
to fight? Because what has been done to them is so 
wrong, so beyond justification, so evil that there is no 

choice? Because no one has the right to treat them as 
they have been treated? 

Yes. This is the thing to remember when fear 
threatens to swallow me up. What I am about to do, 
whatever any of us are forced to endure, it is for them. 
It's too late to help Rue, but maybe not too late for those 
five little faces that looked up at me from the square in 
District 1 1 . Not too late for Rory and Vick and Posy. 
Not too late for Prim. 

Gale is right. If people have the courage, this could be 
an opportunity. He's also right that, since I have set it in 
motion, I could do so much. Although I have no idea 
what exactly that should be. But deciding not to run 
away is a crucial first step. 

I take a shower, and this morning my brain is not 
assembling lists of supplies for the wild, but trying to 
figure out how they organized that uprising in District 
8. So many, so clearly acting in defiance of the Capitol. 
Was it even planned, or something that simply erupted 
out of years of hatred and resentment? How could we 
do that here? Would the people of District 12 join in or 
lock their doors? Yesterday the square emptied so 
quickly after Gale's whipping. But isn't that because we 
all feel so impotent and have no idea what to do? We 

need someone to direct us and reassure us this is 
possible. And I don't think I'm that person. I may have 
been a catalyst for rebellion, but a leader should be 
someone with conviction, and I'm barely a convert 
myself. Someone with unflinching courage, and I'm still 
working hard at even finding mine. Someone with clear 
and persuasive words, and I'm so easily tongue-tied. 

Words. I think of words and I think of Peeta. How 
people embrace everything he says. He could move a 
crowd to action, I bet, if he chose to. Would find the 
things to say. But I'm sure the idea has never crossed 
his mind. 

Downstairs, I find my mother and Prim tending to a 
subdued Gale. The medicine must be wearing off, by 
the look on his face. I brace myself for another fight but 
try to keep my voice calm. "Can't you give him another 

"I will, if it's needed. We thought we'd try the snow 
coat first," says my mother. She has removed his 
bandages. You can practically see the heat radiating off 
his back. She lays a clean cloth across his angry flesh 
and nods to Prim. 

Prim comes over, stirring what appears to be a large 
bowl of snow. But it's tinted a light green and gives off 

a sweet, clean scent. Snow coat. She carefully begins to 
ladle the stuff onto the cloth. I can almost hear the 
sizzle of Gale's tormented skin meeting the snow 
mixture. His eyes flutter open, perplexed, and then he 
lets out a sound of relief. 

"It's lucky we have snow," says my mother. 

I think of what it must be like to recover from a 
whipping in midsummer, with the searing heat and the 
tepid water from the tap. "What did you do in warm 
months?" I ask. 

A crease appears between my mother's eyebrows as 
she frowns. 'Tried to keep the flies away." 

My stomach turns at the thought. She fills a 
handkerchief with the snow-coat mixture and I hold it 
to the weal on my cheek. Instantly the pain withdraws. 
It's the coldness of the snow, yes, but whatever mix of 
herbal juices my mother has added numbs as well. "Oh. 
That's wonderful. Why didn't you put this on him last 

"I needed the wound to set first," she says. 

I don't know what that means exactly, but as long as it 
works, who am I to question her? She knows what she's 
doing, my mother. I feel a pang of remorse about 

yesterday, the awful things I yelled at her as Peeta and 
Haymitch dragged me from the kitchen. "I'm sorry. 
About screaming at you yesterday." 

"I've heard worse," she says. "YouVe seen how 
people are, when someone they love is in pain." 

Someone they love. The words numb my tongue as if 
it's been packed in snow coat. Of course, I love Gale. 
But what kind of love does she mean? What do / mean 
when I say I love Gale? I don't know. I did kiss him last 
night, in a moment when my emotions were running so 
high. But Tm sure he doesn't remember it. Does he? I 
hope not. If he does, everything will just get more 
complicated and I really can't think about kissing when 
I've got a rebellion to incite. I give my head a little 
shake to clear it. "Where's Peeta?" I say. 

"He went home when we heard you stirring. Didn't 
want to leave his house unattended during the storm," 
says my mother. 

"Did he get back all right?" I ask. In a blizzard, you 
can get lost in a matter of yards and wander off course 
into oblivion. 

"Why don't you give him a call and check?" she says. 

I go into the study, a room I've pretty much avoided 
since my meeting with President Snow, and dial Peeta's 
number. After a few rings he answers. 

"Hey. I just wanted to make sure you got home," I 

"Katniss, I live three houses away from you," he says. 

"I know, but with the weather and all," I say. 

"Well, I'm fine. Thank you for checking." There's a 
long pause. "How's Gale?" 

"All right. My mother and Prim are giving him snow 
coat now," I say. 

"And your face?" he asks. 

"I've got some, too," I say. "Have you seen Haymitch 

"I checked in on him. Dead drunk. But I built up his 
fire and left him some bread," he says. 

"I wanted to talk to — to both of you." I don't dare 
add more, here on my phone, which is surely tapped. 

"Probably have to wait until after the weather calms 
down," he says. "Nothing much will happen before 
that, anyway." 

"No, nothing much," I agree. 

It takes two days for the storm to blow itself out, 
leaving us with drifts higher than my head. Another day 
before the path is cleared from the Victor's Village to 
the square. During this time I help tend to Gale, apply 
snow coat to my cheek, try to remember everything I 
can about the uprising in District 8, in case it will help 
us. The swelling in my face goes down, leaving me 
with an itchy, healing wound and a very black eye. But 
still, the first chance I get, I call Peeta to see if he wants 
to go into town with me. 

We rouse Haymitch and drag him along with us. He 
complains, but not as much as usual. We all know we 
need to discuss what happened and it can't be anywhere 
as dangerous as our homes in the Victor's Village. In 
fact, we wait until the village is well behind us to even 
speak. I spend the time studying the ten-foot walls of 
snow piled up on either side of the narrow path that has 
been cleared, wondering if they will collapse in on us. 

Finally Haymitch breaks the silence. "So we're all 
heading off into the great unknown, are we?" he asks 

"No," I say. "Not anymore." 

"Worked through the flaws in that plan, did you, 
sweetheart?" he asks. "Any new ideas?" 

"I want to start an uprising," I say. 

Haymitch just laughs. It's not even a mean laugh, 
which is more troubling. It shows he can't even take me 
seriously. "Well, I want a drink. You let me know how 
that works out for you, though," he says. 

"Then what's your plan?" I spit back at him. 

"My plan is to make sure everything is just perfect for 
your wedding," says Haymitch. "I called and 
rescheduled the photo shoot without giving too many 

"You don't even have a phone," I say. 

"Effie had that fixed," he says. "Do you know she 
asked me if I'd like to give you away? I told her the 
sooner the better." 

"Haymitch." I can hear the pleading creeping into my 

"Katniss." He mimics my tone. "It won't work." 

We shut up as a team of men with shovels passes us, 
headed out to the Victor's Village. Maybe they can do 

something about those ten-foot walls. And by the time 
they're out of earshot, the square is too close. We step 
into it and all come to a stop simultaneously. 

Nothing much will happen during the blizzard. That's 
what Peeta and I had agreed. But we couldn't have been 
more wrong. The square has been transformed. A huge 
banner with the seal of Panem hangs off the roof of the 
Justice Building. Peacekeepers, in pristine white 
uniforms, march on the cleanly swept cobblestones. 
Along the rooftops, more of them occupy nests of 
machine guns. Most unnerving is a line of new 
constructions — an official whipping post, several 
stockades, and a gallows — set up in the center of the 

'Thread's a quick worker," says Haymitch. 

Some streets away from the square, I see a blaze flare 
up. None of us has to say it. That can only be the Hob 
going up in smoke. I think of Greasy Sae, Ripper, all 
my friends who make their living there. 

"Haymitch, you don't think everyone was still in — " I 
can't finish the sentence. 

"Nah, they're smarter than that. You'd be, too, if you'd 
been around longer," he says. "Well, I better go see 
how much rubbing alcohol the apothecary can spare." 

He trudges off across the square and I look at Peeta. 
"What's he want that for?" Then I realize the answer. 
"We can't let him drink it. He'll kill himself, or at the 
very least go blind. I've got some white liquor put away 
at home." 

"Me, too. Maybe that will hold him until Ripper finds 
a way to be back in business," says Peeta. "I need to 
check on my family." 

"I have to go see Hazelle." I'm worried now. I thought 
she'd be on our doorstep the moment the snow was 
cleared. But there's been no sign of her. 

"I'll go, too. Drop by the bakery on my way home," he 

"Thanks." I'm suddenly very scared at what I might 

The streets are almost deserted, which would not be so 
unusual at this time of day if people were at the mines, 
kids at school. But they're not. I see faces peeking at us 
out of doorways, through cracks in shutters. 

An uprising, I think. What an idiot I am. There's an 
inherent flaw in the plan that both Gale and I were too 
blind to see. An uprising requires breaking the law, 
thwarting authority. We've done that our whole lives, or 
our families have. Poaching, trading on the black 
market, mocking the Capitol in the woods. But for most 
people in District 12, a trip to buy something at the Hob 
would be too risky. And I expect them to assemble in 
the square with bricks and torches? Even the sight of 
Peeta and me is enough to make people pull their 
children away from the windows and draw the curtains 

We find Hazelle in her house, nursing a very sick 
Posy. I recognize the measles spots. "I couldn't leave 
her," she says. "I knew Gale'd be in the best possible 

"Of course," I say. "He's much better. My mother says 
he'll be back in the mines in a couple of weeks." 

"May not be open until then, anyway," says Hazelle. 
"Word is they're closed until further notice." She gives 
a nervous glance at her empty washtub. 

"You closed down, too?" I ask. 

"Not officially," says Hazelle. "But everyone's afraid 
to use me now." 

"Maybe it's the snow," says Peeta. 

"No, Rory made a quick round this morning. Nothing 
to wash, apparently," she says. 

Rory wraps his arms around Hazelle. "We'll be all 

I take a handful of money from my pocket and lay it 
on the table. "My mother will send something for 

When we're outside, I turn to Peeta. "You go on back. 
I want to walk by the Hob." 

"I'll go with you," he says. 

"No. I've dragged you into enough trouble," I tell him. 

"And avoiding a stroll by the Hob ... that's going to fix 
things for me?" He smiles and takes my hand. Together 
we wind through the streets of the Seam until we reach 
the burning building. They haven't even bothered to 
leave Peacekeepers around it. They know no one would 
try to save it. 

The heat from the flames melts the surrounding snow 
and a black trickle runs across my shoes. "It's all that 
coal dust, from the old days," I say. It was in every 
crack and crevice. Ground into the floorboards. It's 
amazing the place didn't go up before. "I want to check 
on Greasy Sae." 

"Not today, Katniss. I don't think we'd be helping 
anyone by dropping in on them," he says. 

We go back to the square. I buy some cakes from 
Peeta's father while they exchange small talk about the 
weather. No one mentions the ugly tools of torture just 
yards from the front door. The last thing I notice as we 
leave the square is that I do not recognize even one of 
the Peacekeepers' faces. 

As the days pass, things go from bad to worse. The 
mines stay shut for two weeks, and by that time half of 
District 12 is starving. The number of kids signing up 
for tesserae soars, but they often don't receive their 
grain. Food shortages begin, and even those with 
money come away from stores empty-handed. When 
the mines reopen, wages are cut, hours extended, 
miners sent into blatantly dangerous work sites. The 
eagerly awaited food promised for Parcel Day arrives 
spoiled and defiled by rodents. The installations in the 

square see plenty of action as people are dragged in and 
punished for offenses so long overlooked we've 
forgotten they are illegal. 

Gale goes home with no more talk of rebellion 
between us. But I can't help thinking that everything he 
sees will only strengthen his resolve to fight back. The 
hardships in the mines, the tortured bodies in the 
square, the hunger on the faces of his family. Rory has 
signed up for tesserae, something Gale can't even speak 
about, but it's still not enough with the inconsistent 
availability and the ever-increasing price of food. 

The only bright spot is, I get Haymitch to hire Hazelle 
as a housekeeper, resulting in some extra money for her 
and greatly increasing Haymitch's standard of living. 
It's weird going into his house, finding it fresh and 
clean, food warming on the stove. He hardly notices 
because he's fighting a whole different battle. Peeta and 
I tried to ration what white liquor we had, but it's 
almost run out, and the last time I saw Ripper, she was 
in the stocks. 

I feel like a pariah when I walk through the streets. 
Everyone avoids me in public now. But there's no 
shortage of company at home. A steady supply of ill 
and injured is deposited in our kitchen before my 

mother, who has long since stopped charging for her 
services. Her stocks of remedies are running so low, 
though, that soon all she'll have to treat the patients 
with is snow. 

The woods, of course, are forbidden. Absolutely. No 
question. Even Gale doesn't challenge this now. But 
one morning, 

I do. And it isn't the house full of the sick and dying, 
the bleeding backs, the gaunt-faced children, the 
marching boots, or the omnipresent misery that drives 
me under the fence. It's the arrival of a crate of wedding 
dresses one night with a note from Effie saying that 
President Snow approved these himself. 

The wedding. Is he really planning to go through with 
it? What, in his twisted brain, will that achieve? Is it for 
the benefit of those in the Capitol? A wedding was 
promised, a wedding will be given. And then he'll kill 
us? As a lesson to the districts? I don't know. I can't 
make sense of it. I toss and turn in bed until I can't 
stand it anymore. I have to get out of here. At least for a 
few hours. 

My hands dig around in my closet until I find the 
insulated winter gear Cinna made for me for 
recreational use on the Victory Tour. Waterproof boots, 

a snowsuit that covers me from head to toe, thermal 
gloves. I love my old hunting stuff, but the trek I have 
in mind today is more suited to this high-tech clothing. 
I tiptoe downstairs, load my game bag with food, and 
sneak out of the house. Slinking along side streets and 
back alleys, I make my way to the weak spot in the 
fence closest to Rooba the butcher's. Since many 
workers cross this way to get to the mines, the snow's 
pockmarked with footprints. Mine will not be noticed. 
With all his security upgrades, Thread has paid little 
attention to the fence, perhaps feeling harsh weather 
and wild animals are enough to keep everyone safely 
inside. Even so, once I'm under the chain link, I cover 
my tracks until the trees conceal them for me. 

Dawn is just breaking as I retrieve a set of bow and 
arrows and begin to force a path through the drifted 
snow in the woods. I'm determined, for some reason, to 
get to the lake. Maybe to say good-bye to the place, to 
my father and the happy times we spent there, because I 
know I'll probably never return. Maybe just so I can 
draw a complete breath again. Part of me doesn't really 
care if they catch me, if I can see it one more time. 

The trip takes twice as long as usual. Cinna's clothes 
hold in the heat all right, and I arrive soaked with sweat 
under the snowsuit while my face is numb with cold. 

The glare of the winter sun off the snow has played 
games with my vision, and I am so exhausted and 
wrapped up in my own hopeless thoughts that I don't 
notice the signs. The thin stream of smoke from the 
chimney, the indentations of recent footprints, the smell 
of steaming pine needles. I am literally a few yards 
from the door of the cement house when I pull up short. 
And that's not because of the smoke or the prints or the 
smell. That's because of the unmistakable click of a 
weapon behind me. 

Second nature. Instinct. I turn, drawing back the 
arrow, although I know already that the odds are not in 
my favor. I see the white Peacekeeper uniform, the 
pointed chin, the light brown iris where my arrow will 
find a home. But the weapon is dropping to the ground 
and the unarmed woman is holding something out to 
me in her gloved hand. 

"Stop!" she cries. 

I waver, unable to process this turn in events. Perhaps 
they have orders to bring me in alive so they can torture 
me into incriminating every person I ever knew. Yeah, 
good luck with that, I think. My fingers have all but 
decided to release the arrow when I see the object in the 
glove. It's a small white circle of flat bread. More of a 

cracker, really. Gray and soggy around the edges. But 
an image is clearly stamped in the center of it. 



It's my mockingjay. 

It makes no sense. My bird baked into bread. Unlike 
the stylish renderings I saw in the Capitol, this is 
definitely not a fashion statement. "What is it? What 
does that mean?" I ask harshly, still prepared to kill. 

"It means we're on your side," says a tremulous voice 
behind me. 

I didn't see her when I came up. She must have been 
in the house. I don't take my eyes off my current target. 
Probably the newcomer is armed, but I'm betting she 
won't risk letting me hear the click that would mean my 
death was imminent, knowing I would instantly kill her 
companion. "Come around where I can see you," I 

"She can't, she's — " begins the woman with the 

"Come around!" I shout. There's a step and a dragging 
sound. I can hear the effort the movement requires. 
Another woman, or maybe I should call her a girl since 
she looks about my age, limps into view. She's dressed 
in an ill-fitting Peacekeeper's uniform complete with 
the white fur cloak, but it's several sizes too large for 
her slight frame. She carries no visible weapon. Her 
hands are occupied with steadying a rough crutch made 
from a broken branch. The toe of her right boot can't 
clear the snow, hence the dragging. 

I examine the girl's face, which is bright red from the 
cold. Her teeth are crooked and there's a strawberry 
birthmark over one of her chocolate brown eyes. This is 
no Peacekeeper. No citizen of the Capitol, either. 

"Who are you?" I ask warily but less belligerently. 

"My name's Twill," says the woman. She's older. 
Maybe thirty-five or so. "And this is Bonnie. We've run 
away from District Eight." 

District 8! Then they must know about the uprising! 

"Where'd you get the uniforms?" I ask. 

"I stole them from the factory," says Bonnie. "We 
make them there. Only I thought this one would be for 
... for someone else. That's why it fits so poorly." 

'The gun came from a dead Peacekeeper," says Twill, 
following my eyes. 

"That cracker in your hand. With the bird. What's that 
about?" I ask. 

"Don't you know, Katniss?" Bonnie appears genuinely 

They recognize me. Of course they recognize me. My 
face is uncovered and I'm standing here outside of 
District 12 pointing an arrow at them. Who else would I 
be? "I know it matches the pin I wore in the arena." 

"She doesn't know," says Bonnie softly. "Maybe not 
about any of it." 

Suddenly I feel the need to appear on top of things. "I 
know you had an uprising in Eight." 

"Yes, that's why we had to get out," says Twill. 

"Well, you're good and out now. What are you going 
to do?" I ask. 

"We're headed for District Thirteen," Twill replies. 

"Thirteen?" I say. "There's no Thirteen. It got blown 
off the map." 

"Seventy-five years ago," says Twill. 

Bonnie shifts on her crutch and winces. 

"What's wrong with your leg?" I ask. 

"I twisted my ankle. My boots are too big," says 

I bite my lip. My instinct tells me they're telling the 
truth. And behind that truth is a whole lot of 
information I'd like to get. I step forward and retrieve 
Twill's gun before lowering my bow, though. Then I 
hesitate a moment, thinking of another day in this 
woods, when Gale and I watched a hovercraft appear 
out of thin air and capture two escapees from the 
Capitol. The boy was speared and killed. The redheaded 
girl, I found out when I went to the Capitol, was 
mutilated and turned into a mute servant called an 
A vox. "Anyone after you?" 

"We don't think so. We think they believe we were 
killed in a factory explosion," says Twill. "Only a fluke 
that we weren't." 

"All right, let's go inside," I say, nodding at the 
cement house. I follow them in, carrying the gun. 

Bonnie makes straight for the hearth and lowers 
herself onto a Peacekeeper's cloak that has been spread 
before it. She holds her hands to the feeble flame that 

bums on one end of a charred log. Her skin is so pale as 
to be translucent and I can see the fire glow through her 
flesh. Twill tries to arrange the cloak, which must have 
been her own, around the shivering girl. 

A tin gallon can has been cut in half, the lip ragged 
and dangerous. It sits in the ashes, filled with a handful 
of pine needles steaming in water. 

"Making tea?" I ask. 

"We're not sure, really. I remember seeing someone 
do this with pine needles on the Hunger Games a few 
years back. At least, I think it was pine needles," says 
Twill with a frown. 

I remember District 8, an ugly urban place stinking of 
industrial fumes, the people housed in run-down 
tenements. Barely a blade of grass in sight. No 
opportunity, ever, to learn the ways of nature. It's a 
miracle these two have made it this far. 

"Out of food?" I ask. 

Bonnie nods. "We took what we could, but food's 
been so scarce. That's been gone for a while." The 
quaver in her voice melts my remaining defenses. She 
is just a malnourished, injured girl fleeing the Capitol. 

"Well, then this is your lucky day," I say, dropping 
my game bag on the floor. People are starving all over 
the district and we still have more than enough. So I've 
been spreading things around a little. I have my own 
priorities: Gale's family, Greasy Sae, some of the other 
Hob traders who were shut down. My mother has other 
people, patients mostly, who she wants to help. This 
morning I purposely overstuffed my game bag with 
food, knowing my mother would see the depleted 
pantry and assume I was making my rounds to the 
hungry. I was actually buying time to go to the lake 
without her worrying. I intended to deliver the food this 
evening on my return, but now I can see that won't be 

From the bag I pull two fresh buns with a layer of 
cheese baked into the top. We always seem to have a 
supply of these since Peeta found out they were my 
favorite. I toss one to Twill but cross over and place the 
other on Bonnie's lap since her hand-eye coordination 
seems a little questionable at the moment and I don't 
want the thing ending up in the fire. 

"Oh," says Bonnie. "Oh, is this all for me?" 

Something inside me twists as I remember another 
voice. Rue. In the arena. When I gave her the leg of 

groosling. "Oh, I've never had a whole leg to myself 
before. " The disbelief of the chronically hungry. 

"Yeah, eat up," I say. Bonnie holds the bun as if she 
can't quite believe it's real and then sinks her teeth into 
it again and again, unable to stop. "It's better if you 
chew it." She nods, trying to slow down, but I know 
how hard it is when you're that hollow. "I think your 
tea's done." I scoot the tin can from the ashes. Twill 
finds two tin cups in her pack and I dip out the tea, 
setting it on the floor to cool. They huddle together, 
eating, blowing on their tea, and taking tiny, scalding 
sips as I build up the fire. I wait until they are sucking 
the grease from their fingers to ask, "So, what's your 
story?" And they tell me. 

Ever since the Hunger Games, the discontent in 
District 8 had been growing. It was always there, of 
course, to some degree. But what differed was that talk 
was no longer sufficient, and the idea of taking action 
went from a wish to a reality. The textile factories that 
service Panem are loud with machinery, and the din 
also allowed word to pass safely, a pair of lips close to 
an ear, words unnoticed, unchecked. Twill taught at 
school, Bonnie was one of her pupils, and when the 
final bell had rung, both of them spent a four-hour shift 
at the factory that specialized in the Peacekeeper 

uniforms. It took months for Bonnie, who worked in the 
chilly inspection dock, to secure the two uniforms, a 
boot here, a pair of pants there. They were intended for 
Twill and her husband because it was understood that, 
once the uprising began, it would be crucial to get word 
of it out beyond District 8 if it were to spread and be 

The day Peeta and I came through and made our 
Victory Tour appearance was actually a rehearsal of 
sorts. People in the crowd positioned themselves 
according to their teams, next to the buildings they 
would target when the rebellion broke out. That was the 
plan: to take over the centers of power in the city like 
the Justice Building, the Peacekeepers' Headquarters, 
and the Communication Center in the square. And at 
other locations in the district: the railroad, the granary, 
the power station, and the armory. 

The night of my engagement, the night Peeta fell to 
his knees and proclaimed his undying love for me in 
front of the cameras in the Capitol, was the night the 
uprising began. It was an ideal cover. Our Victory Tour 
interview with Caesar Flickerman was mandatory 
viewing. It gave the people of District 8 a reason to be 
out on the streets after dark, gathering either in the 
square or in various community centers around the city 

to watch. Ordinarily such activity would have been too 
suspicious. Instead everyone was in place by the 
appointed hour, eight o'clock, when the masks went on 
and all hell broke loose. 

Taken by surprise and overwhelmed by sheer 
numbers, the Peacekeepers were initially overcome by 
the crowds. The Communication Center, the granary, 
and the power station were all secured. As the 
Peacekeepers fell, weapons were appropriated for the 
rebels. There was hope that this had not been an act of 
madness, that in some way, if they could get the word 
out to other districts, an actual overthrow of the 
government in the Capitol might be possible. 

But then the ax fell. Peacekeepers began to arrive by 
the thousands. Hovercraft bombed the rebel strongholds 
into ashes. In the utter chaos that followed, it was all 
people could do to make it back to their homes alive. It 
took less than forty-eight hours to subdue the city. 
Then, for a week, there was a lockdown. No food, no 
coal, everyone forbidden to leave their homes. The only 
time the television showed anything but static was 
when the suspected instigators were hanged in the 
square. Then one night, as the whole district was on the 
brink of starvation, came the order to return to business 
as usual. 

That meant school for Twill and Bonnie. A street 
made impassable by the bombs caused them to be late 
for their factory shift, so they were still a hundred yards 
away when it exploded, killing everyone inside — 
including Twill's husband and Bonnie's entire family. 

"Someone must have told the Capitol that the idea for 
the uprising had started there," Twill tells me faintly. 

The two fled back to Twill's, where the Peacekeeper 
suits were still waiting. They scraped together what 
provisions they could, stealing freely from neighbors 
they now knew to be dead, and made it to the railroad 
station. In a warehouse near the tracks, they changed 
into the Peacekeeper outfits and, disguised, were able to 
make it onto a boxcar full of fabric on a train headed to 
District 6. They fled the train at a fuel stop along the 
way and traveled on foot. Concealed by woods, but 
using the tracks for guidance, they made it to the 
outskirts of District 12 two days ago, where they were 
forced to stop when Bonnie twisted her ankle. 

"I understand why you're running, but what do you 
expect to find in District Thirteen?" I ask. 

Bonnie and Twill exchange a nervous glance. "We're 
not sure exactly," Twill says. 

"It's nothing but rubble," I say. "We've all seen the 

'That's just it. They've been using the same footage 
for as long as anyone in District Eight can remember," 
says Twill. 

"Really?" I try to think back, to call up the images of 
13 I've seen on television. 

"You know how they always show the Justice 
Building?" Twill continues. I nod. I've seen it a 
thousand times. "If you look very carefully, you'll see 
it. Up in the far right-hand corner." 

"See what?" I ask. 

Twill holds out her cracker with the bird again. "A 
mockingjay. Just a glimpse of it as it flies by. The same 
one every time." 

"Back home, we think they keep reusing the old 
footage because the Capitol can't show what's really 
there now," says Bonnie. 

I give a grunt of disbelief. "You're going to District 
Thirteen based on that? A shot of a bird? You think 
you're going to find some new city with people strolling 
around in it? And that's just fine with the Capitol?" 

"No," Twill says earnestly. "We think the people 
moved underground when everything on the surface 
was destroyed. We think they've managed to survive. 
And we think the Capitol leaves them alone because, 
before the Dark Days, District Thirteen's principal 
industry was nuclear development." 

'They were graphite miners," I say. But then I 
hesitate, because that's information I got from the 

'They had a few small mines, yes. But not enough to 
justify a population of that size. That, I guess, is the 
only thing we know for sure," says Twill. 

My heart's beating too quickly. What if they're right? 
Could it be true? Could there be somewhere to run 
besides the wilderness? Somewhere safe? If a 
community exists in District 13, would it be better to go 
there, where I might be able to accomplish something, 
instead of waiting here for my death? But then ... if 
there are people in District 13, with powerful weapons 

• • • 

"Why haven't they helped us?" I say angrily. "If it's 
true, why do they leave us to live like this? With the 
hunger and the killings and the Games?" And suddenly 
I hate this imaginary underground city of District 13 

and those who sit by, watching us die. They're no better 
than the Capitol. 

"We don't know," Bonnie whispers. "Right now, 
we're just holding on to the hope that they exist." 

That snaps me to my senses. These are delusions. 
District 13 doesn't exist because the Capitol would 
never let it exist. They're probably mistaken about the 
footage. Mockingjays are about as rare as rocks. And 
about as tough. If they could survive the initial bombing 
of 13, they're probably doing better than ever now. 

Bonnie has no home. Her family is dead. Returning to 
District 8 or assimilating into another district would be 
impossible. Of course the idea of an independent, 
thriving District 13 draws her. I can't bring myself to 
tell her she's chasing a dream as insubstantial as a wisp 
of smoke. Perhaps she and Twill can carve out a life 
somehow in the woods. I doubt it, but they're so pitiful I 
have to try to help. 

First I give them all the food in my pack, grain and 
dried beans mostly, but there's enough to hold them for 
a while if they're careful. Then I take Twill out in the 
woods and try to explain the basics of hunting. She's 
got a weapon that if necessary can convert solar energy 
into deadly rays of power, so that could last 

indefinitely. When she manages to kill her first squirrel, 
the poor thing is mostly a charred mess because it took 
a direct hit to the body. But I show her how to skin and 
clean it. With some practice, she'll figure it out. I cut a 
new crutch for Bonnie. Back at the house, I peel off an 
extra layer of socks for the girl, telling her to stuff them 
in the toes of her boots to walk, then wear them on her 
feet at night. Finally I teach them how to build a proper 

They beg me for details of the situation in District 12 
and I tell them about life under Thread. I can see they 
think this is important information that they'll be 
bringing to those who run District 13, and I play along 
so as not to destroy their hopes. But when the light 
signals late afternoon, I'm out of time to humor them. 

"I have to go now," I say. 

They pour out thanks and embrace me. 

Tears spill from Bonnie's eyes. "I can't believe we 
actually got to meet you. You're practically all anyone's 
talked about since — " 

"I know. I know. Since I pulled out those berries," I 
say tiredly. 

I hardly notice the walk home even though a wet snow 
begins to fall. My mind is spinning with new 
information about the uprising in District 8 and the 
unlikely but tantalizing possibility of District 13. 

Listening to Bonnie and Twill confirmed one thing: 
President Snow has been playing me for a fool. All the 
kisses and endearments in the world couldn't have 
derailed the momentum building up in District 8. Yes, 
my holding out the berries had been the spark, but I had 
no way to control the fire. He must have known that. So 
why visit my home, why order me to persuade the 
crowd of my love for Peeta? 

It was obviously a ploy to distract me and keep me 
from doing anything else inflammatory in the districts. 
And to entertain the people in the Capitol, of course. I 
suppose the wedding is just a necessary extension of 

I'm nearing the fence when a mockingjay lights on a 
branch and trills at me. At the sight of it I realize I 
never got a full explanation of the bird on the cracker 
and what it signifies. 

"It means we're on your side. " That's what Bonnie 
said. I have people on my side? What side? Am I 
unwittingly the face of the hoped-for rebellion? Has the 

mockingjay on my pin become a symbol of resistance? 
If so, my side's not doing too well. You only have to 
look at what happened in 8 to know that. 

I stash my weapons in the hollow log nearest my old 
home in the Seam and head for the fence. I'm crouched 
on one knee, preparing to enter the Meadow, but I'm 
still so preoccupied with the day's events that it takes a 
sudden screech of an owl to bring me to my senses. 

In the fading light, the chain links look as innocuous 
as usual. But what makes me jerk back my hand is the 
sound, like the buzz of a tree full of tracker j acker nests, 
indicating the fence is alive with electricity. 

My feet back up automatically and I blend into the 
trees. I cover my mouth with my glove to disperse the 
white of my breath in the icy air. Adrenaline courses 
through me, wiping all the concerns of the day from my 
mind as I focus on the immediate threat before me. 
What is going on? Has Thread turned on the fence as an 
additional security precaution? Or does he somehow 
know I've escaped his net today? Is he determined to 
strand me outside District 12 until he can apprehend 
and arrest me? Drag me to the square to be locked in 
the stockade or whipped or hanged? 

Calm down, I order myself. It's not as if this is the first 
time I've been caught outside of the district by an 
electrified fence. It's happened a few times over the 
years, but Gale was always with me. The two of us 
would just pick a comfortable tree to hang out in until 
the power shut off, which it always did eventually. If I 
was running late, Prim even got in the habit of going to 
the Meadow to check if the fence was charged, to spare 
my mother worry. 

But today my family would never imagine I'd be in 
the woods. I've even taken steps to mislead them. So if I 
don't show up, worry they will. And there's a part of me 
that's worried, too, because I'm not sure it's just a 
coincidence, the power coming on the very day I return 
to the woods. 

I thought no one saw me sneak under the fence, but 
who knows? There are always eyes for hire. Someone 
reported Gale kissing me in that very spot. Still, that 
was in daylight and before I was more careful about my 
behavior. Could there be surveillance cameras? I've 
wondered about this before. Is this the way President 
Snow knows about the kiss? It was dark when I went 
under and my face was bundled in a scarf. But the list 
of suspects likely to be trespassing into the woods is 
probably very short. 

My eyes peer through the trees, past the fence, into the 
Meadow. All I can see is the wet snow illuminated here 
and there by the light from the windows on the edge of 
the Seam. No Peacekeepers in sight, no signs I am 
being hunted. Whether Thread knows I left the district 
today or not, I realize my course of action must be the 
same: to get back inside the fence unseen and pretend I 
never left. 

Any contact with the chain link or the coils of barbed 
wire that guard the top would mean instant 
electrocution. I don't think I can burrow under the fence 
without risking detection, and the ground's frozen hard, 
anyway. That leaves only one choice. Somehow I'm 
going to have to go over it. 

I begin to skirt along the tree line, searching for a tree 
with a branch high and long enough to fit my needs. 
After about a mile, I come upon an old maple that 
might do. The trunk is too wide and icy to shinny up, 
though, and there are no low branches. I climb a 
neighboring tree and leap precariously into the maple, 
almost losing my hold on the slick bark. But I manage 
to get a grip and slowly inch my way out on a limb that 
hangs above the barbed wire. 

As I look down, I remember why Gale and I always 
waited in the woods rather than try to tackle the fence. 
Being high enough to avoid getting fried means you've 
got to be at least twenty feet in the air. I guess my 
branch must be twenty-five. That's a dangerously long 
drop, even for someone who's had years of practice in 
trees. But what choice do I have? I could look for 
another branch, but it's almost dark now. The falling 
snow will obscure any moonlight. Here, at least, I can 
see I've got a snowbank to cushion my landing. Even if 

I could find another, which is doubtful, who knows 
what Td be jumping into? I throw my empty game bag 
around my neck and slowly lower myself until I'm 
hanging by my hands. For a moment, I gather my 
courage. Then I release my fingers. 

There's the sensation of falling, then I hit the ground 
with a jolt that goes right up my spine. A second later, 
my rear end slams the ground. I lie in the snow, trying 
to assess the damage. Without standing, I can tell by the 
pain in my left heel and my tailbone that I'm injured. 
The only question is how badly. I'm hoping for bruises, 
but when I force myself onto my feet, I suspect I've 
broken something as well. I can walk, though, so I get 
moving, trying to hide my limp as best I can. 

My mother and Prim can't know I was in the woods. I 
need to work up some sort of alibi, no matter how thin. 
Some of the shops in the square are still open, so I go in 
one and purchase white cloth for bandages. We're 
running low, anyway. In another, I buy a bag of sweets 
for Prim. I stick one of the candies in my mouth, feeling 
the peppermint melt on my tongue, and realize it's the 
first thing I've eaten all day. I meant to make a meal at 
the lake, but once I saw Twill and Bonnie's condition, it 
seemed wrong to take a single mouthful from them. 

By the time I reach my house, my left heel will bear 
no weight at all. I decide to tell my mother I was trying 
to mend a leak in the roof of our old house and slid off. 
As for the missing food, 111 just be vague about who I 
handed it out to. I drag myself in the door, all ready to 
collapse in front of the fire. But instead I get another 

Two Peacekeepers, a man and a woman, are standing 
in the doorway to our kitchen. The woman remains 
impassive, but I catch the flicker of surprise on the 
man's face. I am unanticipated. They know I was in the 
woods and should be trapped there now. 

"Hello," I say in a neutral voice. 

My mother appears behind them, but keeps her 
distance. "Here she is, just in time for dinner," she says 
a little too brightly. I'm very late for dinner. 

I consider removing my boots as I normally would but 
doubt I can manage it without revealing my injuries. 
Instead I just pull off my wet hood and shake the snow 
from my hair. "Can I help you with something?" I ask 
the Peacekeepers. 

"Head Peacekeeper Thread sent us with a message for 
you," says the woman. 

'They've been waiting for hours," my mother adds. 

They've been waiting for me to fail to return. To 
confirm I got electrocuted by the fence or trapped in the 
woods so they could take my family in for questioning. 

"Must be an important message," I say. 

"May we ask where you've been, Miss Everdeen?" the 
woman asks. 

"Easier to ask where I haven't been," I say with a 
sound of exasperation. I cross into the kitchen, forcing 
myself to use my foot normally even though every step 
is excruciating. I pass between the Peacekeepers and 
make it to the table all right. I fling my bag down and 
turn to Prim, who's standing stiffly by the hearth. 
Haymitch and Peeta are there as well, sitting in a pair of 
matching rockers, playing a game of chess. Were they 
here by chance or "invited" by the Peacekeepers? Either 
way, I'm glad to see them. 

"So where haven't you been?" says Haymitch in a 
bored voice. 

"Well, I haven't been talking to the Goat Man about 
getting Prim's goat pregnant, because someone gave me 
completely inaccurate information as to where he 
lives," I say to Prim emphatically. 

"No, I didn't," says Prim. "I told you exactly." 

"You said he lives beside the west entrance to the 
mine," I say. 

'The east entrance," Prim corrects me. 

"You distinctly said the west, because then I said, 
'Next to the slag heap? 1 and you said, Teah, f " I say. 

"The slag heap next to the east entrance," says Prim 

"No. When did you say that?" I demand. "Last night," 
Haymitch chimes in. 

"It was definitely the east," adds Peeta. He looks at 
Haymitch and they laugh. I glare at Peeta and he tries to 
look contrite. "I'm sorry, but it's what I've been saying. 
You don't listen when people talk to you." 

"Bet people told you he didn't live there today and you 
didn't listen again," says Haymitch. 

"Shut up, Haymitch," I say, clearly indicating he's 

Haymitch and Peeta crack up and Prim allows herself 
a smile. 

"Fine. Somebody else can arrange to get the stupid 
goat knocked up," I say, which makes them laugh more. 
And I think, This is why they've made it this far, 
Haymitch and Peeta. Nothing throws them. 

I look at the Peacekeepers. The man's smiling but the 
woman is unconvinced. "What's in the bag?" she asks 

I know she's hoping for game or wild plants. 
Something that clearly condemns me. I dump the 
contents on the table. "See for yourself." 

"Oh, good," says my mother, examining the cloth. 
"We're running low on bandages." 

Peeta comes to the table and opens the candy bag. 
"Ooh, peppermints," he says, popping one in his mouth. 

"They're mine." I take a swipe for the bag. He tosses it 
to Haymitch, who stuffs a fistful of sweets in his mouth 
before passing the bag to a giggling Prim. "None of you 
deserves candy!" I say. 

"What, because we're right?" Peeta wraps his arms 
around me. I give a small yelp of pain as my tailbone 
objects. I try to turn it into a sound of indignation, but I 
can see in his eyes that he knows I'm hurt. "Okay, Prim 

said west. I distinctly heard west. And we're all idiots. 
How's that?" 

"Better," I say, and accept his kiss. Then I look at the 
Peacekeepers as if I'm suddenly remembering they're 
there. "You have a message for me?" 

"From Head Peacekeeper Thread," says the woman. 
"He wanted you to know that the fence surrounding 
District Twelve will now have electricity twenty-four 
hours a day." 

"Didn't it already?" I ask, a little too innocently. 

"He thought you might be interested in passing this 
information on to your cousin," says the woman. 

"Thank you. I'll tell him. I'm sure we'll all sleep a little 
more soundly now that security has addressed that 
lapse." I'm pushing things, I know it, but the comment 
gives me a sense of satisfaction. 

The woman's jaw tightens. None of this has gone as 
planned, but she has no further orders. She gives me a 
curt nod and leaves, the man trailing in her wake. When 
my mother has locked the door behind them, I slump 
against the table. 

"What is it?" says Peeta, holding me steadily. 

"Oh, I banged up my left foot. The heel. And my tail- 
bone's had a bad day, too." He helps me over to one of 
the rockers and I lower myself onto the padded cushion. 

My mother eases off my boots. "What happened?" 

"I slipped and fell," I say. Four pairs of eyes look at 
me with disbelief. "On some ice." But we all know the 
house must be bugged and it's not safe to talk openly. 
Not here, not now. 

Having stripped off my sock, my mother's fingers 
probe the bones in my left heel and I wince. "There 
might be a break," she says. She checks the other foot. 
"This one seems all right." She judges my tailbone to 
be badly bruised. 

Prim's dispatched to get my pajamas and robe. When 
I'm changed, my mother makes a snow pack for my left 
heel and props it up on a hassock. I eat three bowls of 
stew and half a loaf of bread while the others dine at the 
table. I stare at the fire, thinking of Bonnie and Twill, 
hoping that the heavy, wet snow has erased my tracks. 

Prim comes and sits on the floor next to me, leaning 
her head against my knee. We suck on peppermints as I 
brush her soft blond hair back behind her ear. "How 
was school?" I ask. 

"All right. We learned about coal by-products," she 
says. We stare at the fire for a while. "Are you going to 
try on your wedding dresses?" 

"Not tonight. Tomorrow probably," I say. 

"Wait until I get home, okay?" she says. 

"Sure." If they don't arrest me first. 

My mother gives me a cup of chamomile tea with a 
dose of sleep syrup, and my eyelids begin to droop 
immediately. She wraps my bad foot, and Peeta 
volunteers to get me to bed. I start out by leaning on his 
shoulder, but I'm so wobbly he just scoops me up and 
carries me upstairs. He tucks me in and says good night 
but I catch his hand and hold him there. A side effect of 
the sleep syrup is that it makes people less inhibited, 
like white liquor, and I know I have to control my 
tongue. But I don't want him to go. In fact, I want him 
to climb in with me, to be there when the nightmares hit 
tonight. For some reason that I can't quite form, I know 
I'm not allowed to ask that. 

"Don't go yet. Not until I fall asleep," I say. 

Peeta sits on the side of the bed, warming my hand in 
both of his. "Almost thought you'd changed your mind 
today. When you were late for dinner." 

I'm foggy but I can guess what he means. With the 
fence going on and me showing up late and the 
Peacekeepers waiting, he thought I'd made a run for it, 
maybe with Gale. 

"No, Td have told you," I say. I pull his hand up and 
lean my cheek against the back of it, taking in the faint 
scent of cinnamon and dill from the breads he must 
have baked today. I want to tell him about Twill and 
Bonnie and the uprising and the fantasy of District 13, 
but it's not safe to and I can feel myself slipping away, 
so I just get out one more sentence. "Stay with me." 

As the tendrils of sleep syrup pull me down, I hear 
him whisper a word back, but I don't quite catch it. 

My mother lets me sleep until noon, then rouses me to 
examine my heel. I'm ordered to a week of bed rest and 
I don't object because I feel so lousy. Not just my heel 
and my tailbone. My whole body aches with 
exhaustion. So I let my mother doctor me and feed me 
breakfast in bed and tuck another quilt around me. Then 
I just lie there, staring out my window at the winter sky, 
pondering how on earth this will all turn out. I think a 
lot about Bonnie and Twill, and the pile of white 
wedding dresses downstairs, and if Thread will figure 
out how I got back in and arrest me. It's funny, because 

he could just arrest me, anyway, based on past crimes, 
but maybe he has to have something really irrefutable 
to do it, now that I'm a victor. And I wonder if 
President Snow's in contact with Thread. I think it's 
unlikely he ever acknowledged that old Cray existed, 
but now that I'm such a nationwide problem, is he 
carefully instructing Thread what to do? Or is Thread 
acting on his own? At any rate, I'm sure they'd both 
agree on keeping me locked up here inside the district 
with that fence. Even if I could figure out some way to 
escape — maybe get a rope up to that maple tree branch 
and climb out — there'd be no escaping with my family 
and friends now. I told Gale I would stay and fight, 

For the next few days, I jump every time there's a 
knock on the door. No Peacekeepers show up to arrest 
me, though, so eventually I begin to relax. I'm further 
reassured when Peeta casually tells me the power is off 
in sections of the fence because crews are out securing 
the base of the chain link to the ground. Thread must 
believe I somehow got under the thing, even with that 
deadly current running through it. It's a break for the 
district, having the Peacekeepers busy doing something 
besides abusing people. 

Peeta comes by every day to bring me cheese buns 
and begins to help me work on the family book. It's an 
old thing, made of parchment and leather. Some 
herbalist on my mother's side of the family started it 
ages ago. The book's composed of page after page of 
ink drawings of plants with descriptions of their 
medical uses. My father added a section on edible 
plants that was my guidebook to keeping us alive after 
his death. For a long time, I've wanted to record my 
own knowledge in it. Things I learned from experience 
or from Gale, and then the information I picked up 
when I was training for the Games. I didn't because I'm 
no artist and it's so crucial that the pictures are drawn in 
exact detail. That's where Peeta comes in. Some of the 
plants he knows already, others we have dried samples 
of, and others I have to describe. He makes sketches on 
scrap paper until I'm satisfied they're right, then I let 
him draw them in the book. After that, I carefully print 
all I know about the plant. 

It's quiet, absorbing work that helps take my mind off 
my troubles. I like to watch his hands as he works, 
making a blank page bloom with strokes of ink, adding 
touches of color to our previously black and yellowish 
book. His face takes on a special look when he 
concentrates. His usual easy expression is replaced by 

something more intense and removed that suggests an 
entire world locked away inside him. I've seen flashes 
of this before: in the arena, or when he speaks to a 
crowd, or that time he shoved the Peacekeepers' guns 
away from me in District 1 1 . I don't know quite what to 
make of it. I also become a little fixated on his 
eyelashes, which ordinarily you don't notice much 
because they're so blond. But up close, in the sunlight 
slanting in from the window, they're a light golden 
color and so long I don't see how they keep from 
getting all tangled up when he blinks. 

One afternoon Peeta stops shading a blossom and 
looks up so suddenly that I start, as though I were 
caught spying on him, which in a strange way maybe I 
was. But he only says, "You know, I think this is the 
first time we've ever done anything normal together." 

"Yeah," I agree. Our whole relationship has been 
tainted by the Games. Normal was never a part of it. 
"Nice for a change." 

Each afternoon he carries me downstairs for a change 
of scenery and I unnerve everyone by turning on the 
television. Usually we only watch when it's mandatory, 
because the mixture of propaganda and displays of the 
Capitol's power — including clips from seventy-four 

years of Hunger Games — is so odious. But now I'm 
looking for something special. The mockingjay that 
Bonnie and Twill are basing all their hopes on. I know 
it's probably foolishness, but if it is, I want to rule it out. 
And erase the idea of a thriving District 13 from my 
mind for good. 

My first sighting is in a news story referencing the 
Dark Days. I see the smoldering remains of the Justice 
Building in District 13 and just catch the black-and- 
white underside of a mockingjay's wing as it flies 
across the upper right-hand corner. That doesn't prove 
anything, really. It's just an old shot that goes with an 
old tale. 

However, several days later, something else grabs my 
attention. The main newscaster is reading a piece about 
a shortage of graphite affecting the manufacturing of 
items in District 3. They cut to what is supposed to be 
live footage of a female reporter, encased in a 
protective suit, standing in front of the ruins of the 
Justice Building in 13. Through her mask, she reports 
that unfortunately a study has just today determined that 
the mines of District 13 are still too toxic to approach. 
End of story. But just before they cut back to the main 
newscaster, I see the unmistakable flash of that same 
mockingjays wing. 

The reporter has simply been incorporated into the old 
footage. She's not in District 13 at all. Which begs the 
question, What is? 

Staying quietly in bed is harder after that. I want to be 
doing something, finding out more about District 13 or 
helping in the cause to bring down the Capitol. Instead I 
sit around stuffing myself with cheese buns and 
watching Peeta sketch. Haymitch stops by occasionally 
to bring me news from town, which is always bad. 
More people being punished or dropping from 

Winter has begun to withdraw by the time my foot is 
deemed usable. My mother gives me exercises to do 
and lets me walk on my own a bit. I go to sleep one 
night, determined to go into town the next morning, but 
I awake to find Venia, Octavia, and Flavius grinning 
down at me. 

"Surprise!" they squeal. "We're here early!" 

After I took that lash in the face, Haymitch got their 
visit pushed back several months so I could heal up. I 
wasn't expecting them for another three weeks. But I try 
to act delighted that my bridal photo shoot is here at 

last. My mother hung up all the dresses, so they're 
ready to go, but to be honest, I haven't even tried one 

After the usual histrionics about the deteriorated state 
of my beauty, they get right down to business. Their 
biggest concern is my face, although I think my mother 
did a pretty remarkable job healing it. There's just a 
pale pink strip across my cheekbone. The whipping's 
not common knowledge, so I tell them I slipped on the 
ice and cut it. And then I realize that's my same excuse 
for hurting my foot, which is going to make walking in 
high heels a problem. But Flavius, Octavia, and Venia 
aren't the suspicious types, so I'm safe there. 

Since I only have to look hairless for a few hours 
instead of several weeks, I get to be shaved instead of 
waxed. I still have to soak in a tub of something, but it 
isn't vile, and we're on to my hair and makeup before I 
know it. The team, as usual, is full of news, which I 
usually do my best to tune out. But then Octavia makes 
a comment that catches my attention. It's a passing 
remark, really, about how she couldn't get shrimp for a 
party, but it tugs at me. 

"Why couldn't you get shrimp? Is it out of season?" I 

"Oh, Katniss, we haven't been able to get any seafood 
for weeks!" says Octavia. "You know, because the 
weather's been so bad in District Four." 

My mind starts buzzing. No seafood. For weeks. From 
District 4. The barely concealed rage in the crowd 
during the Victory Tour. And suddenly I am absolutely 
sure that District 4 has revolted. 

I begin to question them casually about what other 
hardships this winter has brought them. They are not 
used to want, so any little disruption in supply makes an 
impact on them. By the time I'm ready to be dressed, 
their complaints about the difficulty of getting different 
products — from crabmeat to music chips to ribbons — 
has given me a sense of which districts might actually 
be rebelling. Seafood from District 4. Electronic 
gadgets from District 3. And, of course, fabrics from 
District 8. The thought of such widespread rebellion has 
me quivering with fear and excitement. 

I want to ask them more, but Cinna appears to give me 
a hug and check my makeup. His attention goes right to 
the scar on my cheek. Somehow I don't think he 
believes the slipping-on-the-ice story, but he doesn't 
question it. He simply adjusts the powder on my face, 
and what little you can see of the lash mark vanishes. 

Downstairs, the living room has been cleared and lit 
for the photo shoot. Effie's having a fine time ordering 
everybody around, keeping us all on schedule. It's 
probably a good thing, because there are six gowns and 
each one requires its own headpiece, shoes, jewelry, 
hair, makeup, setting, and lighting. Creamy lace and 
pink roses and ringlets. Ivory satin and gold tattoos and 
greenery. A sheath of diamonds and jeweled veil and 
moonlight. Heavy white silk and sleeves that fall from 
my wrist to the floor, and pearls. The moment one shot 
has been approved, we move right into preparing for the 
next. I feel like dough, being kneaded and reshaped 
again and again. My mother manages to feed me bits of 
food and sips of tea while they work on me, but by the 
time the shoot is over, I'm starving and exhausted. I'm 
hoping to spend some time with Cinna now, but Effie 
whisks everybody out the door and I have to make do 
with the promise of a phone call. 

Evening has fallen and my foot hurts from all the 
crazy shoes, so I abandon any thoughts of going into 
town. Instead I go upstairs and wash away the layers of 
makeup and conditioners and dyes and then go down to 
dry my hair by the fire. Prim, who came home from 
school in time to see the last two dresses, chatters on 
about them with my mother. They both seem overly 

happy about the photo shoot. When I fall into bed, I 
realize it's because they think it means I'm safe. That 
the Capitol has overlooked my interference with the 
whipping since no one is going to go to such trouble 
and expense for someone they plan on killing, anyway. 

In my nightmare, I'm dressed in the silk bridal gown, 
but it's torn and muddy. The long sleeves keep getting 
caught on thorns and branches as I run through the 
woods. The pack of muttation tributes draws closer and 
closer until it overcomes me with hot breath and 
dripping fangs and I scream myself awake. 

It's too close to dawn to bother trying to get back to 
sleep. Besides, today I really have to get out and talk to 
someone. Gale will be unreachable in the mines. But I 
need Haymitch or Peeta or somebody to share the 
burden of all that has happened to me since I went to 
the lake. Fleeing outlaws, electrified fences, an 
independent District 13, shortages in the Capitol. 

I eat breakfast with my mother and Prim and head out 
in search of a confidant. The air's warm with hopeful 
hints of spring in it. Spring would be a good time for an 
uprising, I think. Everyone feels less vulnerable once 

winter passes. Peeta's not home. I guess he's already 
gone into town. I'm surprised to see Haymitch moving 
around his kitchen so early, though. I walk into his 
house without knocking. I can hear Hazelle upstairs, 
sweeping the floors of the now-spotless house. 
Haymitch isn't flat-out drunk, but he doesn't look too 
steady, either. I guess the rumors about Ripper being 
back in business are true. I'm thinking maybe I better let 
him just go to bed, when he suggests a walk to town. 

Haymitch and I can speak in a kind of shorthand now. 
In a few minutes I've updated him and he's told me 
about rumors of uprisings in Districts 7 and 1 1 as well. 
If my hunches are right, this would mean almost half 
the districts have at least attempted to rebel. 

"Do you still think it won't work here?" I ask. 

"Not yet. Those other districts, they're much larger. 
Even if half the people cower in their homes, the rebels 
stand a chance. Here in Twelve, it's got to be all of us or 
nothing," he says. 

I hadn't thought of that. How we lack strength of 
numbers. "But maybe at some point?" I insist. 

"Maybe. But we're small, we're weak, and we don't 
develop nuclear weapons," says Haymitch with a touch 

of sarcasm. He didn't get too excited over my District 
13 story. 

"What do you think they'll do, Haymitch? To the 
districts that are rebelling?" I ask. 

"Well, you've heard what they did in Eight. YouVe 
seen what they did here, and that was without 
provocation," says Haymitch. "If things really do get 
out of hand, I think they'd have no problem killing off 
another district, same as they did Thirteen. Make an 
example of it, you know?" 

"So you think Thirteen was really destroyed? I mean, 
Bonnie and Twill were right about the footage of the 
mocking-jay," I say. 

"Okay, but what does that prove? Nothing, really. 
There are plenty of reasons they could be using old 
footage. Probably it looks more impressive. And it's a 
lot simpler, isn't it? To just press a few buttons in the 
editing room than to fly all the way out there and film 
it?" he says. "The idea that Thirteen has somehow 
rebounded and the Capitol is ignoring it? That sounds 
like the kind of rumor desperate people cling to." 

"I know. I was just hoping," I say. 

"Exactly. Because you're desperate," says Haymitch. 

I don't argue because, of course, he's right. 

Prim comes home from school bubbling over with 
excitement. The teachers announced there was 
mandatory programming tonight. "I think it's going to 
be your photo shoot!" 

"It can't be, Prim. They only did the pictures 
yesterday," I tell her. 

"Well, that's what somebody heard," she says. 

I'm hoping she's wrong. I haven't had time to prepare 
Gale for any of this. Since the whipping, I only see him 
when he comes to the house for my mother to check 
how he's healing. He's often scheduled seven days a 
week in the mine. In the few minutes of privacy we've 
had, with me walking him back to town, I gather that 
the rumblings of an uprising in 12 have been subdued 
by Thread's crackdown. He knows I'm not going to run. 
But he must also know that if we don't revolt in 12, I'm 
destined to be Peeta's bride. Seeing me lounging around 
in gorgeous gowns on his television ... what can he do 
with that? 

When we gather around the television at seven-thirty, 
I discover that Prim is right. Sure enough, there's 
Caesar Flickerman, speaking before a standing-room- 

only crowd in front of the Training Center, talking to an 
appreciative crowd about my upcoming nuptials. He 
introduces Cinna, who became an overnight star with 
his costumes for me in the Games, and after a minute of 
good-natured chitchat, we're directed to turn our 
attention to a giant screen. 

I see now how they could photograph me yesterday 
and present the special tonight. Initially, Cinna 
designed two dozen wedding gowns. Since then, there's 
been the process of narrowing down the designs, 
creating the dresses, and choosing the accessories. 
Apparently, in the Capitol, there were opportunities to 
vote for your favorites at each stage. This is all 
culminating with shots of me in the final six dresses, 
which I'm sure took no time at all to insert in the show. 
Each shot is met with a huge reaction from the crowd. 
People screaming and cheering for their favorites, 
booing the ones they don't like. Having voted, and 
probably bet on the winner, people are very invested in 
my wedding gown. It's bizarre to watch when I think 
how I never even bothered to try one on before the 
cameras arrived. Caesar announces that interested 
parties must cast their final vote by noon on the 
following day. 

"Let's get Katniss Everdeen to her wedding in style!" 
he hollers to the crowd. I'm about to shut off the 
television, but then Caesar is telling us to stay tuned for 
the other big event of the evening. 'That's right, this 
year will be the seventy- fifth anniversary of the Hunger 
Games, and that means it's time for our third Quarter 

"What will they do?" asks Prim. "It isn't for months 

We turn to our mother, whose expression is solemn 
and distant, as if she's remembering something. "It must 
be the reading of the card." 

The anthem plays, and my throat tightens with 
revulsion as President Snow takes the stage. He's 
followed by a young boy dressed in a white suit, 
holding a simple wooden box. The anthem ends, and 
President Snow begins to speak, to remind us all of the 
Dark Days from which the Hunger Games were born. 
When the laws for the Games were laid out, they 
dictated that every twenty-five years the anniversary 
would be marked by a Quarter Quell. It would call for a 
glorified version of the Games to make fresh the 
memory of those killed by the districts' rebellion. 

These words could not be more pointed, since I 
suspect several districts are rebelling right now. 

President Snow goes on to tell us what happened in 
the previous Quarter Quells. "On the twenty-fifth 
anniversary, as a reminder to the rebels that their 
children were dying because of their choice to initiate 
violence, every district was made to hold an election 
and vote on the tributes who would represent it." 

I wonder how that would have felt. Picking the kids 
who had to go. It is worse, I think, to be turned over by 
your own neighbors than have your name drawn from 
the reaping ball. 

"On the fiftieth anniversary," the president continues, 
"as a reminder that two rebels died for each Capitol 
citizen, every district was required to send twice as 
many tributes." 

I imagine facing a field of forty-seven instead of 
twenty-three. Worse odds, less hope, and ultimately 
more dead kids. That was the year Haymitch won... . 

"I had a friend who went that year," says my mother 
quietly. "Maysilee Donner. Her parents owned the 
sweetshop. They gave me her songbird after. A 

Prim and I exchange a look. It's the first we've ever 
heard of Maysilee Donner. Maybe because my mother 
knew we would want to know how she died. 

"And now we honor our third Quarter Quell," says the 
president. The little boy in white steps forward, holding 
out the box as he opens the lid. We can see the tidy, 
upright rows of yellowed envelopes. Whoever devised 
the Quarter Quell system had prepared for centuries of 
Hunger Games. The president removes an envelope 
clearly marked with a 75. He runs his finger under the 
flap and pulls out a small square of paper. Without 
hesitation, he reads, "On the seventy-fifth anniversary, 
as a reminder to the rebels that even the strongest 
among them cannot overcome the power of the Capitol, 
the male and female tributes will be reaped from their 
existing pool of victors." 

My mother gives a faint shriek and Prim buries her 
face in her hands, but I feel more like the people I see in 
the crowd on television. Slightly baffled. What does it 
mean? Existing pool of victors? 

Then I get it, what it means. At least, for me. District 
12 only has three existing victors to choose from. Two 
male. One female ... 

I am going back into the arena. 


My body reacts before my mind does and I'm running 
out the door, across the lawns of the Victor's Village, 
into the dark beyond. Moisture from the sodden ground 
soaks my socks and I'm aware of the sharp bite of the 
wind, but I don't stop. Where? Where to go? The 
woods, of course. I'm at the fence before the hum 
makes me remember how very trapped I am. I back 
away, panting, turn on my heel, and take off again. 

The next thing I know I'm on my hands and knees in 
the cellar of one of the empty houses in the Victor's 
Village. Faint shafts of moonlight come in through the 
window wells above my head. I'm cold and wet and 
winded, but my escape attempt has done nothing to 
subdue the hysteria rising up inside me. It will drown 
me unless it's released. I ball up the front of my shirt, 
stuff it into my mouth, and begin to scream. How long 
this continues, I don't know. But when I stop, my voice 
is almost gone. 

I curl up on my side and stare at the patches of 
moonlight on the cement floor. Back in the arena. Back 

in the place of nightmares. That's where I am going. I 
have to admit I didn't see it coming. I saw a multitude 
of other things. Being publicly humiliated, tortured, and 

Fleeing through the wilderness, pursued by 
Peacekeepers and hovercraft. Marriage to Peeta with 
our children forced into the arena. But never that I 
myself would have to be a player in the Games again. 
Why? Because there's no precedent for it. Victors are 
out of the reaping for life. That's the deal if you win. 
Until now. 

There's some kind of sheeting, the kind they put down 
when they paint. I pull it over me like a blanket. In the 
distance, someone is calling my name. But at the 
moment, I excuse myself from thinking about even 
those I love most. I think only of me. And what lies 

The sheeting's stiff but holds warmth. My muscles 
relax, my heart rate slows. I see the wooden box in the 
little boy's hands, President Snow drawing out the 
yellowed envelope. Is it possible that this was really the 
Quarter Quell written down seventy-five years ago? It 
seems unlikely. It's just too perfect an answer for the 

troubles that face the Capitol today. Getting rid of me 
and subduing the districts all in one neat little package. 

I hear President Snow's voice in my head. "On the 

seventy-fifth anniversary, as a reminder to the rebels 
that even the strongest among them cannot overcome 
the power of the Capitol, the male and female tributes 
will be reaped from their existing pool of victors. " 

Yes, victors are our strongest. They're the ones who 
survived the arena and slipped the noose of poverty that 
strangles the rest of us. They, or should I say we, are 
the very embodiment of hope where there is no hope. 
And now twenty-three of us will be killed to show how 
even that hope was an illusion. 

I'm glad I won only last year. Otherwise I'd know all 
the other victors, not just because I see them on 
television but because they're guests at every Games. 
Even if they're not mentoring like Haymitch always has 
to, most return to the Capitol each year for the event. I 
think a lot of them are friends. Whereas the only friend 
I'll have to worry about killing will be either Peeta or 
Haymitch. Peeta or Haymitch! 

I sit straight up, throwing off the sheeting. What just 
went through my mind? There's no situation in which I 
would ever kill Peeta or Haymitch. But one of them 

will be in the arena with me, and that's a fact. They may 
have even decided between them who it will be. 
Whoever is picked first, the other will have the option 
of volunteering to take his place. I already know what 
will happen. Peeta will ask Haymitch to let him go into 
the arena with me no matter what. For my sake. To 
protect me. 

I stumble around the cellar, looking for an exit. How 
did I even get into this place? I feel my way up the 
steps to the kitchen and see the glass window in the 
door has been shattered. Must be why my hand seems 
to be bleeding. I hurry back into the night and head 
straight to Haymitch's house. He's sitting alone at the 
kitchen table, a half-emptied bottle of white liquor in 
one fist, his knife in the other. Drunk as a skunk. 

"Ah, there she is. All tuckered out. Finally did the 
math, did you, sweetheart? Worked out you won't be 
going in alone? And now you're here to ask me ... 
what?" he says. 

I don't answer. The window's wide open and the wind 
cuts through me just as if I were outside. 

"Ill admit, it was easier for the boy. He was here 
before I could snap the seal on a bottle. Begging me for 
another chance to go in. But what can you say?" He 

mimics my voice. "Take his place, Haymitch, because 
all things being equal, I'd rather Peeta had a crack at the 
rest of his life than you? 

I bite my lip because once he's said it, I'm afraid that's 
what I do want. For Peeta to live, even if it means 
Haymitch's death. No, I don't. He's dreadful, of course, 
but Haymitch is my family now. What did I come for? I 
think. What could I possibly want here? 

"I came for a drink," I say. 

Haymitch bursts out laughing and slams the bottle on 
the table before me. I run my sleeve across the top and 
take a couple gulps before I come up choking. It takes a 
few minutes to compose myself, and even then my eyes 
and nose are still streaming. But inside me, the liquor 
feels like fire and I like it. 

"Maybe it should be you," I say matter-of-factly as I 
pull up a chair. "You hate life, anyway." 

"Very true," says Haymitch. "And since last time I 
tried to keep you alive... seems like I'm obligated to 
save the boy this time." 

"That's another good point," I say, wiping my nose 
and tipping up the bottle again. 

"Peeta's argument is that since I chose you, I now owe 
him. Anything he wants. And what he wants is the 
chance to go in again to protect you," says Haymitch. 

I knew it. In this way, Peeta's not hard to predict. 
While I was wallowing around on the floor of that 
cellar, thinking only of myself, he was here, thinking 
only of me. Shame isn't a strong enough word for what 
I feel. 

"You could live a hundred lifetimes and not deserve 
him, you know," Haymitch says. 

"Yeah, yeah," I say brusquely. "No question, he's the 
superior one in this trio. So, what are you going to do?" 

"I don't know." Haymitch sighs. "Go back in with you 
maybe, if I can. If my name's drawn at the reaping, it 
won't matter. He'll just volunteer to take my place." 

We sit for a while in silence. "It'd be bad for you in 
the arena, wouldn't it? Knowing all the others?" I ask. 

"Oh, I think we can count on it being unbearable 
wherever I am." He nods at the bottle. "Can I have that 
back now?" 

"No," I say, wrapping my arms around it. Haymitch 
pulls another bottle out from under the table and gives 

the top a twist. But I realize I am not just here for a 
drink. There's something else I want from Haymitch. 
"Okay, I figured out what I'm asking," I say. "If it is 
Peeta and me in the Games, this time we try to keep 
him alive." 

Something flickers across his bloodshot eyes. Pain. 

"Like you said, it's going to be bad no matter how you 
slice it. And whatever Peeta wants, it's his turn to be 
saved. We both owe him that." My voice takes on a 
pleading tone. 

"Besides, the Capitol hates me so much, I'm as good 
as dead now. He still might have a chance. Please, 
Haymitch. Say you'll help me." 

He frowns at his bottle, weighing my words. "All 
right," he says finally. 

"Thanks," I say. I should go see Peeta now, but I don't 
want to. My head's spinning from the drink, and I'm so 
wiped out, who knows what he could get me to agree 
to? No, now I have to go home to face my mother and 

As I stagger up the steps to my house, the front door 
opens and Gale pulls me into his arms. "I was wrong. 
We should have gone when you said," he whispers. 

"No," I say. I'm having trouble focusing, and liquor 
keeps sloshing out of my bottle and down the back of 
Gale's jacket, but he doesn't seem to care. 

"It's not too late," he says. 

Over his shoulder, I see my mother and Prim 
clutching each other in the doorway. We run. They die. 
And now I've got Peeta to protect. End of discussion. 
"Yeah, it is." My knees give way and he's holding me 
up. As the alcohol overcomes my mind, I hear the glass 
bottle shatter on the floor. This seems appropriate since 
I have obviously lost my grip on everything. 

When I wake up, I barely get to the toilet before the 
white liquor makes its reappearance. It burns just as 
much coming up as it did going down, and tastes twice 
as bad. I'm trembling and sweaty when I finish 
vomiting, but at least most of the stuff is out of my 
system. Enough made it into my bloodstream, though, 
to result in a pounding headache, parched mouth, and 
boiling stomach. 

I turn on the shower and stand under the warm rain for 
a minute before I realize I'm still in my underclothes. 
My mother must have just stripped off my filthy outer 
ones and tucked me in bed. I throw the wet 
undergarments into the sink and pour shampoo on my 

head. My hands sting, and that's when I notice the 
stitches, small and even, across one palm and up the 
side of the other hand. Vaguely I remember breaking 
that glass window last night. I scrub myself from head 
to toe, only stopping to throw up again right in the 
shower. It's mostly just bile and goes down the drain 
with the sweet-smelling bubbles. 

Finally clean, I pull on my robe and head back to bed, 
ignoring my dripping hair. I climb under the blankets, 
sure this is what it must feel like to be poisoned. The 
footsteps on the stairs renew my panic from last night. 
I'm not ready to see my mother and Prim. I have to pull 
myself together to be calm and reassuring, the way I 
was when we said our good-byes the day of the last 
reaping. I have to be strong. I struggle into an upright 
position, push my wet hair off my throbbing temples, 
and brace myself for this meeting. They appear in the 
doorway, holding tea and toast, their faces filled with 
concern. I open my mouth, planning to start off with 
some kind of joke, and burst into tears. 

So much for being strong. 

My mother sits on the side of the bed and Prim crawls 
right up next to me and they hold me, making quiet 
soothing sounds, until I am mostly cried out. Then Prim 

gets a towel and dries my hair, combing out the knots, 
while my mother coaxes tea and toast into me. They 
dress me in warm pajamas and layer more blankets on 
me and I drift off again. 

I can tell by the light it's late afternoon when I come 
round again. There's a glass of water on my bedside 
table and I gulp it down thirstily. My stomach and head 
still feel rocky, but much better than they did earlier. I 
rise, dress, and braid back my hair. Before I go down, I 
pause at the top of the stairs, feeling slightly 
embarrassed about the way I've handled the news of the 
Quarter Quell. My erratic flight, drinking with 
Haymitch, weeping. Given the circumstances, I guess I 
deserve one day of indulgence. I'm glad the cameras 
weren't here for it, though. 

Downstairs, my mother and Prim embrace me again, 
but they're not overly emotional. I know they're holding 
things in to make it easier on me. Looking at Prim's 
face, it's hard to imagine she's the same frail little girl I 
left behind on reaping day nine months ago. The 
combination of that ordeal and all that has followed — 
the cruelty in the district, the parade of sick and 
wounded that she often treats by herself now if my 
mother's hands are too full — these things have aged 
her years. She's grown quite a bit, too; we're practically 

the same height now, but that isn't what makes her seem 
so much older. 

My mother ladles out a mug of broth for me, and I ask 
for a second mug to take to Haymitch. Then I walk 
across the lawn to his house. He's only just waking up 
and accepts the mug without comment. We sit there, 
almost peacefully, sipping our broth and watching the 
sun set through his living room window. I hear 
someone walking around upstairs and I assume it's 
Hazelle, but a few minutes later Peeta comes down and 
tosses a cardboard box of empty liquor bottles on the 
table with finality. 'There, it's done," he says. 

It's taking all of Haymitch's resources to focus his 
eyes on the bottles, so I speak up. "What's done?" 

"I've poured all the liquor down the drain," says Peeta. 

This seems to jolt Haymitch out of his stupor, and he 
paws through the box in disbelief. "You what?" 

"I tossed the lot," says Peeta. 

"He'll just buy more," I say. 

"No, he won't," says Peeta. "I tracked down Ripper 
this morning and told her I'd turn her in the second she 
sold to either of you. I paid her off, too, just for good 

measure, but I don't think she's eager to be back in the 
Peacekeepers' custody." 

Haymitch takes a swipe with his knife but Peeta 
deflects it so easily it's pathetic. Anger rises up in me. 
"What business is it of yours what he does?" 

"It's completely my business. However it falls out, 
two of us are going to be in the arena again with the 
other as mentor. We can't afford any drunkards on this 
team. Especially not you, Katniss," says Peeta to me. 

"What?" I sputter indignantly. It would be more 
convincing if I weren't still so hungover. "Last night's 
the only time I've ever even been drunk." 

"Yeah, and look at the shape you're in," says Peeta. 

I don't know what I expected from my first meeting 
with Peeta after the announcement. A few hugs and 
kisses. A little comfort maybe. Not this. I turn to 
Haymitch. "Don't worry, I'll get you more liquor." 

"Then I'll turn you both in. Let you sober up in the 
stocks," says Peeta. 

"What's the point to this?" asks Haymitch. 

"The point is that two of us are coming home from the 
Capitol. One mentor and one victor," says Peeta. 

"Effie's sending me recordings of all the living victors. 
We're going to watch their Games and learn everything 
we can about how they fight. We're going to put on 
weight and get strong. We're going to start acting like 
Careers. And one of us is going to be victor again 
whether you two like it or not!" He sweeps out of the 
room, slamming the front door. 

Haymitch and I wince at the bang. 

"I don't like self-righteous people," I say. 

"What's to like?" says Haymitch, who begins sucking 
the dregs out of the empty bottles. 

"You and me. That's who he plans on coming home," 
I say. 

"Well, then the joke's on him," says Haymitch. 

But after a few days, we agree to act like Careers, 
because this is the best way to get Peeta ready as well. 
Every night we watch the old recaps of the Games that 
the remaining victors won. I realize we never met any 
of them on the Victory Tour, which seems odd in 
retrospect. When I bring it up, Haymitch says the last 
thing President Snow would've wanted was to show 
Peeta and me — especially me — bonding with other 
victors in potentially rebellious districts. Victors have a 

special status, and if they appeared to be supporting my 
defiance of the Capitol, it wouldVe been dangerous 
politically. Adjusting for age, I realize some of our 
opponents may be elderly, which is both sad and 
reassuring. Peeta takes copious notes, Haymitch 
volunteers information about the victors' personalities, 
and slowly we begin to know our competition. 

Every morning we do exercises to strengthen our 
bodies. We run and lift things and stretch our muscles. 
Every afternoon we work on combat skills, throwing 
knives, fighting hand to hand; I even teach them to 
climb trees. Officially, tributes aren't supposed to train, 
but no one tries to stop us. Even in regular years, the 
tributes from Districts 1, 2, and 4 show up able to wield 
spears and swords. This is nothing by comparison. 

After all the years of abuse, Haymitch's body resists 
improvement. He's still remarkably strong, but the 
shortest run winds him. And you'd think a guy who 
sleeps every night with a knife might actually be able to 
hit the side of a house with one, but his hands shake so 
badly it takes weeks for him to achieve even that. 

Peeta and I excel under the new regimen, though. It 
gives me something to do. It gives us all something to 
do besides accept defeat. My mother puts us on a 

special diet to gain weight. Prim treats our sore 
muscles. Madge sneaks us her father's Capitol 
newspapers. Predictions on who will be victor of the 
victors show us among the favorites. Even Gale steps 
into the picture on Sundays, although he's got no love 
for Peeta or Haymitch, and teaches us all he knows 
about snares. It's weird for me, being in conversations 
with both Peeta and Gale, but they seem to have set 
aside whatever issues they have about me. 

One night, as I'm walking Gale back into town, he 
even admits, "It f d be better if he were easier to hate." 

'Tell me about it," I say. "If I couldVe just hated him 
in the arena, we all wouldn't be in this mess now. He'd 
be dead, and I'd be a happy little victor all by myself." 

"And where would we be, Katniss?" asks Gale. 

I pause, not knowing what to say. Where would I be 
with my pretend cousin who wouldn't be my cousin if it 
weren't for Peeta? Would he have still kissed me and 
would I have kissed him back had I been free to do so? 
Would I have let myself open up to him, lulled by the 
security of money and food and the illusion of safety 
being a victor could bring under different 
circumstances? But there would still always be the 

reaping looming over us, over our children. No matter 
what I wanted . . . 

"Hunting. Like every Sunday," I say. I know he didn't 
mean the question literally, but this is as much as I can 
honestly give. Gale knows I chose him over Peeta when 
I didn't make a run for it. To me, there's no point in 
talking about things that might have been. Even if I had 
killed Peeta in the arena, I still wouldn't have wanted to 
marry anyone. I only got engaged to save people's lives, 
and that completely backfired. 

I'm afraid, anyway, that any kind of emotional scene 
with Gale might cause him to do something drastic. 
Like start that uprising in the mines. And as Haymitch 
says, District 12 isn't ready for that. If anything, they're 
less ready than before the Quarter Quell announcement, 
because the following morning another hundred 
Peacekeepers arrived on the train. 

Since I don't plan on making it back alive a second 
time, the sooner Gale lets me go, the better. I do plan on 
saying one or two things to him after the reaping, when 
we're allowed an hour for good-byes. To let Gale know 
how essential he's been to me all these years. How 
much better my life has been for knowing him. For 

loving him, even if it's only in the limited way that I can 

But I never get the chance. 

The day of the reaping's hot and sultry. The 
population of District 12 waits, sweating and silent, in 
the square with machine guns trained on them. I stand 
alone in a small roped-off area with Peeta and 
Haymitch in a similar pen to the right of me. The 
reaping takes only a minute. Effie, shining in a wig of 
metallic gold, lacks her usual verve. She has to claw 
around the girls' reaping ball for quite a while to snag 
the one piece of paper that everyone already knows has 
my name on it. Then she catches Haymitch's name. He 
barely has time to shoot me an unhappy look before 
Peeta has volunteered to take his place. 

We are immediately marched into the Justice Building 
to find Head Peacekeeper Thread waiting for us. "New 
procedure," he says with a smile. We're ushered out the 
back door, into a car, and taken to the train station. 
There are no cameras on the platform, no crowd to send 
us on our way. Haymitch and Effie appear, escorted by 
guards. Peacekeepers hurry us all onto the train and 
slam the door. The wheels begin to turn. 

And I'm left staring out the window, watching District 
12 disappear, with all my good-byes still hanging on 
my lips. 

I remain at the window long after the woods have 
swallowed up the last glimpse of my home. This time I 
don't have even the slightest hope of return. Before my 
first Games, I promised Prim I would do everything I 
could to win, and now I've sworn to myself to do all I 
can to keep Peeta alive. I will never reverse this journey 

Td actually figured out what I wanted my last words to 
my loved ones to be. How best to close and lock the 
doors and leave them sad but safely behind. And now 
the Capitol has stolen that as well. 

"We'll write letters, Katniss," says Peeta from behind 
me. "It will be better, anyway. Give them a piece of us 
to hold on to. Haymitch will deliver them for us if ... 
they need to be delivered." 

I nod and go straight to my room. I sit on the bed, 
knowing I will never write those letters. They will be 
like the speech I tried to write to honor Rue and Thresh 
in District 11. Things seemed clear in my head and 

even when I talked before the crowd, but the words 
never came out of the pen right. Besides, they were 
meant to go with embraces and kisses and a stroke of 
Prim's hair, a caress of Gale's face, a squeeze of 
Madge's hand. They cannot be delivered with a wooden 
box containing my cold, stiff body. 

Too heartsick to cry, all I want is to curl up on the bed 
and sleep until we arrive in the Capitol tomorrow 
morning. But I have a mission. No, it's more than a 
mission. It's my dying wish. Keep Peeta alive. And as 
unlikely as it seems that I can achieve it in the face of 
the Capitol's anger, it's important that I be at the top of 
my game. This won't happen if I'm mourning for 
everyone I love back home. Let them go, I tell myself. 
Say good-bye and forget them. I do my best, thinking of 
them one by one, releasing them like birds from the 
protective cages inside me, locking the doors against 
their return. 

By the time Effie knocks on my door to call me to 
dinner, I'm empty. But the lightness isn't entirely 

The meal's subdued. So subdued, in fact, that there are 
long periods of silence relieved only by the removal of 
old dishes and presentation of new ones. A cold soup of 

pureed vegetables. Fish cakes with creamy lime paste. 
Those little birds filled with orange sauce, with wild 
rice and watercress. Chocolate custard dotted with 

Peeta and Effie make occasional attempts at 
conversation that quickly die out. 

"I love your new hair, Effie," Peeta says. 

'Thank you. I had it especially done to match 
Katniss's pin. I was thinking we might get you a golden 
ankle band and maybe find Haymitch a gold bracelet or 
something so we could all look like a team," says Effie. 

Evidently, Effie doesn't know that my mockingjay pin 
is now a symbol used by the rebels. At least in District 
8. In the Capitol, the mockingjay is still a fun reminder 
of an especially exciting Hunger Games. What else 
could it be? Real rebels don't put a secret symbol on 
something as durable as jewelry. They put it on a wafer 
of bread that can be eaten in a second if necessary. 

"I think that's a great idea," says Peeta. "How about it, 

"Yeah, whatever," says Haymitch. He's not drinking 
but I can tell he'd like to be. Effie had them take her 
own wine away when she saw the effort he was 

making, but he's in a miserable state. If he were the 
tribute, he would have owed Peeta nothing and could be 
as drunk as he liked. Now it's going to take all he's got 
to keep Peeta alive in an arena full of his old friends, 
and he'll probably fail. 

"Maybe we could get you a wig, too," I say in an 
attempt at lightness. He just shoots me a look that says 
to leave him alone, and we all eat our custard in silence. 

"Shall we watch the recap of the reapings?" says 
Effie, dabbing at the corners of her mouth with a white 
linen napkin. 

Peeta goes off to retrieve his notebook on the 
remaining living victors, and we gather in the 
compartment with the television to see who our 
competition will be in the arena. We are all in place as 
the anthem begins to play and the annual recap of the 
reaping ceremonies in the twelve districts begins. 

In the history of the Games, there have been seventy- 
five victors. Fifty-nine are still alive. I recognize many 
of their faces, either from seeing them as tributes or 
mentors at previous Games or from our recent viewing 
of the victors' tapes. Some are so old or wasted by 
illness, drugs, or drink that I can't place them. As one 
would expect, the pools of Career tributes from 

Districts 1, 2, and 4 are the largest. But every district 
has managed to scrape up at least one female and one 
male victor. 

The reapings go by quickly. Peeta studiously puts 
stars by the names of the chosen tributes in his 
notebook. Haymitch watches, his face devoid of 
emotion, as friends of his step up to take the stage. Effie 
makes hushed, distressed comments like "Oh, not 
Cecelia" or "Well, Chaff never could stay out of a 
fight," and sighs frequently. 

For my part, I try to make some mental record of the 
other tributes, but like last year, only a few really stick 
in my head. There's the classically beautiful brother and 
sister from District 1 who were victors in consecutive 
years when I was little. Brutus, a volunteer from 
District 2, who must be at least forty and apparently 
can't wait to get back in the arena. Finnick, the 
handsome bronze-haired guy from District 4 who was 
crowned ten years ago at the age of fourteen. A 
hysterical young woman with flowing brown hair is 
also called from 4, but she's quickly replaced by a 
volunteer, an eighty-year-old woman who needs a cane 
to walk to the stage. Then there's Johanna Mason, the 
only living female victor from 7, who won a few years 
back by pretending she was a weakling. The woman 

from 8 who Effie calls Cecelia, who looks about thirty, 
has to detach herself from the three kids who run up to 
cling to her. Chaff, a man from 1 1 who I know to be 
one of Haymitch's particular friends, is also in. 

I'm called. Then Haymitch. And Peeta volunteers. One 
of the announcers actually gets teary because it seems 
the odds will never be in our favor, we star-crossed 
lovers of District 12. Then she pulls herself together to 
say she bets that "these will be the best Games ever!" 

Haymitch leaves the compartment without a word, 
and Effie, after making a few unconnected comments 
about this tribute or that, bids us good night. I just sit 
there watching Peeta rip out the pages of the victors 
who were not picked. 

"Why don't you get some sleep?" he says. 

Because I can't handle the nightmares. Not without 
you, I think. They are sure to be dreadful tonight. But I 
can hardly ask Peeta to come sleep with me. We've 
barely touched since that night Gale was whipped. 
"What are you going to do?" I ask. 

"Just review my notes awhile. Get a clear picture of 
what we're up against. But 111 go over it with you in the 
morning. Go to bed, Katniss," he says. 

So I go to bed and, sure enough, within a few hours I 
awake from a nightmare where that old woman from 
District 4 transforms into a large rodent and gnaws on 
my face. I know I was screaming, but no one comes. 
Not Peeta, not even one of the Capitol attendants. I pull 
on a robe to try to calm the gooseflesh crawling over 
my body. Staying in my compartment is impossible, so 
I decide to go find someone to make me tea or hot 
chocolate or anything. Maybe Haymitch is still up. 
Surely he isn't asleep. 

I order warm milk, the most calming thing I can think 
of, from an attendant. Hearing voices from the 
television room, I go in and find Peeta. Beside him on 
the couch is the box Effie sent of tapes of the old 
Hunger Games. I recognize the episode in which Brutus 
became victor. 

Peeta rises and flips off the tape when he sees me. 
"Couldn't sleep?" 

"Not for long," I say. I pull the robe more securely 
around me as I remember the old woman transforming 
into the rodent. 

"Want to talk about it?" he asks. Sometimes that can 
help, but I just shake my head, feeling weak that people 
I haven't even fought yet already haunt me. 

When Peeta holds out his arms, I walk straight into 
them. It's the first time since they announced the 
Quarter Quell that he's offered me any sort of affection. 
He's been more like a very demanding trainer, always 
pushing, always insisting Haymitch and I run faster, eat 
more, know our enemy better. Lover? Forget about that. 
He abandoned any pretense of even being my friend. I 
wrap my arms tightly around his neck before he can 
order me to do push-ups or something. Instead he pulls 
me in close and buries his face in my hair. Warmth 
radiates from the spot where his lips just touch my 
neck, slowly spreading through the rest of me. It feels 
so good, so impossibly good, that I know I will not be 
the first to let go. 

And why should I? I have said good-bye to Gale. I'll 
never see him again, that's for certain. Nothing I do 
now can hurt him. He won't see it or he'll think I am 
acting for the cameras. That, at least, is one weight off 
my shoulders. 

The arrival of the Capitol attendant with the warm 
milk is what breaks us apart. He sets a tray with a 
steaming ceramic jug and two mugs on a table. "I 
brought an extra cup," he says. 

"Thanks," I say. 

"And I added a touch of honey to the milk. For 
sweetness. And just a pinch of spice," he adds. He 
looks at us like he wants to say more, then gives his 
head a slight shake and backs out of the room. 

"What's with him?" I say. 

"I think he feels bad for us," says Peeta. 

"Right," I say, pouring the milk. 

"I mean it. I don't think the people in the Capitol are 
going to be all that happy about our going back in," 
says Peeta. "Or the other victors. They get attached to 
their champions." 

"I'm guessing they'll get over it once the blood starts 
flowing," I say flatly. Really, if there's one thing I don't 
have time for, it's worrying about how the Quarter 
Quell will affect the mood in the Capitol. "So, you're 
watching all the tapes again?" 

"Not really. Just sort of skipping around to see 
people's different fighting techniques," says Peeta. 
"Who's next?" I ask. 

"You pick," says Peeta, holding out the box. 

The tapes are marked with the year of the Games and 
the name of the victor. I dig around and suddenly find 

one in my hand that we have not watched. The year of 
the Games is fifty. That would make it the second 
Quarter Quell. And the name of the victor is Haymitch 

"We never watched this one," I say. 

Peeta shakes his head. "No. I knew Haymitch didn't 
want to. The same way we didn't want to relive our own 
Games. And since we're all on the same team, I didn't 
think it mattered much." 

"Is the person who won in twenty- five in here?" I ask. 

"I don't think so. Whoever it was must be dead by 
now, and Effie only sent me victors we might have to 
face." Peeta weighs Haymitch's tape in his hand. 
"Why? You think we ought to watch it?" 

"It's the only Quell we have. We might pick up 
something valuable about how they work," I say. But I 
feel weird. It seems like some major invasion of 
Haymitch's privacy. I don't know why it should, since 
the whole thing was public. But it does. I have to admit 
I'm also extremely curious. "We don't have to tell 
Haymitch we saw it." 

"Okay," Peeta agrees. He puts in the tape and I curl up 
next to him on the couch with my milk, which is really 

delicious with the honey and spices, and lose myself in 
the Fiftieth Hunger Games. After the anthem, they 
show President Snow drawing the envelope for the 
second Quarter Quell. He looks younger but just as 
repellent. He reads from the square of paper in the same 
onerous voice he used for ours, informing Panem that in 
honor of the Quarter Quell, there will be twice the 
number of tributes. The editors smash cut right into the 
reapings, where name after name after name is called. 

By the time we get to District 12, I'm completely 
overwhelmed by the sheer number of kids going to 
certain death. There's a woman, not Effie, calling the 
names in 12, but she still begins with "Ladies first!" 
She calls out the name of a girl who's from the Seam, 
you can tell by the look of her, and then I hear the name 
"Maysilee Donner." 

"Oh!" I say. "She was my mother's friend." The 
camera finds her in the crowd, clinging to two other 
girls. All blond. All definitely merchants' kids. 

"I think that's your mother hugging her," says Peeta 
quietly. And he's right. As Maysilee Donner bravely 
disengages herself and heads for the stage, I catch a 
glimpse of my mother at my age, and no one has 
exaggerated her beauty. Holding her hand and weeping 

is another girl who looks just like Maysilee. But a lot 
like someone else I know, too. 

"Madge," I say. 

'That's her mother. She and Maysilee were twins or 
something," Peeta says. "My dad mentioned it once." 

I think of Madge's mother. Mayor Undersee's wife. 
Who spends half her life in bed immobilized with 
terrible pain, shutting out the world. I think of how I 
never realized that she and my mother shared this 
connection. Of Madge showing up in that snowstorm to 
bring the painkiller for Gale. Of my mocking] ay pin and 
how it means something completely different now that I 
know that its former owner was Madge's aunt, Maysilee 
Donner, a tribute who was murdered in the arena. 

Haymitch's name is called last of all. It's more of a 
shock to see him than my mother. Young. Strong. Hard 
to admit, but he was something of a looker. His hair 
dark and curly, those gray Seam eyes bright and, even 
then, dangerous. 

"Oh. Peeta, you don't think he killed Maysilee, do 
you?" I burst out. I don't know why, but I can't stand 
the thought. 

"With forty-eight players? I'd say the odds are against 
it," says Peeta. 

The chariot rides — in which the District 12 kids are 
dressed in awful coal miners' outfits — and the 
interviews flash by. There's little time to focus on 
anyone. But since Haymitch is going to be the victor, 
we get to see one full exchange between him and 
Caesar Flickerman, who looks exactly as he always 
does in his twinkling midnight blue suit. Only his dark 
green hair, eyelids, and lips are different. 

"So, Haymitch, what do you think of the Games 
having one hundred percent more competitors than 
usual?" asks Caesar. 

Haymitch shrugs. "I don't see that it makes much 
difference. They'll still be one hundred percent as stupid 
as usual, so I figure my odds will be roughly the same." 

The audience bursts out laughing and Haymitch gives 
them a half smile. Snarky. Arrogant. Indifferent. 

"He didn't have to reach far for that, did he?" I say. 

Now it's the morning the Games begin. We watch 
from the point of view of one of the tributes as she rises 
up through the tube from the Launch Room and into the 
arena. I can't help but give a slight gasp. Disbelief is 

reflected on the faces of the players. Even Haymitch's 
eyebrows lift in pleasure, although they almost 
immediately knit themselves back into a scowl. 

It's the most breathtaking place imaginable. The 
golden Cornucopia sits in the middle of a green 
meadow with patches of gorgeous flowers. The sky is 
azure blue with puffy white clouds. Bright songbirds 
flutter overhead. By the way some of the tributes are 
sniffing, it must smell fantastic. An aerial shot shows 
that the meadow stretches for miles. Far in the distance, 
in one direction, there seems to be a woods, in the 
other, a snowcapped mountain. 

The beauty disorients many of the players, because 
when the gong sounds, most of them seem like they're 
trying to wake from a dream. Not Haymitch, though. 
He's at the Cornucopia, armed with weapons and a 
backpack of choice supplies. He heads for the woods 
before most of the others have stepped off their plates. 

Eighteen tributes are killed in the bloodbath that first 
day. Others begin to die off and it becomes clear that 
almost everything in this pretty place — the luscious 
fruit dangling from the bushes, the water in the 
crystalline streams, even the scent of the flowers when 
inhaled too directly — is deadly poisonous. Only the 

rainwater and the food provided at the Cornucopia are 
safe to consume. There's also a large, well-stocked 
Career pack of ten tributes scouring the mountain area 
for victims. 

Haymitch has his own troubles over in the woods, 
where the fluffy golden squirrels turn out to be 
carnivorous and attack in packs, and the butterfly stings 
bring agony if not death. But he persists in moving 
forward, always keeping the distant mountain at his 

Maysilee Donner turns out to be pretty resourceful 
herself, for a girl who leaves the Cornucopia with only 
a small backpack. Inside she finds a bowl, some dried 
beef, and a blowgun with two dozen darts. Making use 
of the readily available poisons, she soon turns the 
blowgun into a deadly weapon by dipping the darts in 
lethal substances and directing them into her opponents' 

Four days in, the picturesque mountain erupts in a 
volcano that wipes out another dozen players, including 
all but five of the Career pack. With the mountain 
spewing liquid fire, and the meadow offering no means 
of concealment, the remaining thirteen tributes — 

including Haymitch and Maysilee — have no choice 
but to confine themselves to the woods. 

Haymitch seems bent on continuing in the same 
direction, away from the now volcanic mountain, but a 
maze of tightly woven hedges forces him to circle back 
into the center of the woods, where he encounters three 
of the Careers and pulls his knife. They may be much 
bigger and stronger, but Haymitch has remarkable 
speed and has killed two when the third disarms him. 
That Career is about to slit his throat when a dart drops 
him to the ground. 

Maysilee Donner steps out of the woods. "We'd live 
longer with two of us." 

"Guess you just proved that," says Haymitch, rubbing 
his neck. "Allies?" Maysilee nods. And there they are, 
instantly drawn into one of those pacts you'd be hard- 
pressed to break if you ever expect to go home and face 
your district. 

Just like Peeta and me, they do better together. Get 
more rest, work out a system to salvage more rainwater, 
fight as a team, and share the food from the dead 
tributes' packs. But Haymitch is still determined to keep 
moving on. 

"Why?" Maysilee keeps asking, and he ignores her 
until she refuses to move any farther without an answer. 

"Because it has to end somewhere, right?" says 
Haymitch. 'The arena can't go on forever." 

"What do you expect to find?" Maysilee asks. 

"I don't know. But maybe there's something we can 
use," he says. 

When they finally do make it through that impossible 
hedge, using a blowtorch from one of the dead Careers' 
packs, they find themselves on flat, dry earth that leads 
to a cliff. Far below, you can see jagged rocks. 

"That's all there is, Haymitch. Let's go back," says 

"No, I'm staying here," he says. 

"All right. There's only five of us left. May as well say 
good-bye now, anyway," she says. "I don't want it to 
come down to you and me." 

"Okay," he agrees. That's all. He doesn't offer to 
shake her hand or even look at her. And she walks 

Haymitch skirts along the edge of the cliff as if trying 
to figure something out. His foot dislodges a pebble and 
it falls into the abyss, apparently gone forever. But a 
minute later, as he sits to rest, the pebble shoots back up 
beside him. Haymitch stares at it, puzzled, and then his 
face takes on a strange intensity. He lobs a rock the size 
of his fist over the cliff and waits. When it flies back 
out and right into his hand, he starts laughing. 

That's when we hear Maysilee begin to scream. The 
alliance is over and she broke it off, so no one could 
blame him for ignoring her. But Haymitch runs for her, 
anyway. He arrives only in time to watch the last of a 
flock of candy pink birds, equipped with long, thin 
beaks, skewer her through the neck. He holds her hand 
while she dies, and all I can think of is Rue and how I 
was too late to save her, too. 

Later that day, another tribute is killed in combat and 
a third gets eaten by a pack of those fluffy squirrels, 
leaving Haymitch and a girl from District 1 to vie for 
the crown. She's bigger than he is and just as fast, and 
when the inevitable fight comes, it's bloody and awful 
and both have received what could well be fatal 
wounds, when Haymitch is finally disarmed. He 
staggers through the beautiful woods, holding his 
intestines in, while she stumbles after him, carrying the 

ax that should deliver his deathblow. Haymitch makes a 
beeline for his cliff and has just reached the edge when 
she throws the ax. He collapses on the ground and it 
flies into the abyss. Now weaponless as well, the girl 
just stands there, trying to staunch the flow of blood 
pouring from her empty eye socket. She's thinking 
perhaps that she can outlast Haymitch, who's starting to 
convulse on the ground. But what she doesn't know, 
and what he does, is that the ax will return. And when it 
flies back over the ledge, it buries itself in her head. 
The cannon sounds, her body is removed, and the 
trumpets blow to announce Haymitch's victory. 

Peeta clicks off the tape and we sit there in silence for 
a while. 

Finally Peeta says, 'That force field at the bottom of 
the cliff, it was like the one on the roof of the Training 
Center. The one that throws you back if you try to jump 
off and commit suicide. Haymitch found a way to turn 
it into a weapon." 

"Not just against the other tributes, but the Capitol, 
too," I say. "You know they didn't expect that to 
happen. It wasn't meant to be part of the arena. They 
never planned on anyone using it as a weapon. It made 
them look stupid that he figured it out. I bet they had a 

good time trying to spin that one. Bet that's why I don't 
remember seeing it on television. It's almost as bad as 
us and the berries!" 

I can't help laughing, really laughing, for the first time 
in months. Peeta just shakes his head like I've lost my 
mind — and maybe I have, a little. 

"Almost, but not quite," says Haymitch from behind 
us. I whip around, afraid he's going to be angry over us 
watching his tape, but he just smirks and takes a swig 
from a bottle of wine. So much for sobriety. I guess I 
should be upset he's drinking again, but I'm preoccupied 
with another feeling. 

I've spent all these weeks getting to know who my 
competitors are, without even thinking about who my 
teammates are. Now a new kind of confidence is 
lighting up inside of me, because I think I finally know 
who Haymitch is. And I'm beginning to know who I 
am. And surely, two people who have caused the 
Capitol so much trouble can think of a way to get Peeta 
home alive. 


Having been through prep with Flavius, Venia, and 
Octavia numerous times, it should just be an old routine 
to survive. But I haven't anticipated the emotional 
ordeal that awaits me. At some point during the prep, 
each of them bursts into tears at least twice, and 
Octavia pretty much keeps up a running whimper 
throughout the morning. It turns out they really have 
become attached to me, and the idea of my returning to 
the arena has undone them. Combine that with the fact 
that by losing me they'll be losing their ticket to all 
kinds of big social events, particularly my wedding, and 
the whole thing becomes unbearable. The idea of being 
strong for someone else having never entered their 
heads, I find myself in the position of having to console 
them. Since I'm the person going in to be slaughtered, 
this is somewhat annoying. 

It's interesting, though, when I think of what Peeta 
said about the attendant on the train being unhappy 
about the victors having to fight again. About people in 
the Capitol not liking it. I still think all of that will be 

forgotten once the gong sounds, but it's something of a 
revelation that those in the Capitol feel anything at all 
about us. They certainly don't have a problem watching 
children murdered every year. But maybe they know 
too much about the victors, especially the ones who've 
been celebrities for ages, to forget we're human beings. 
It's more like watching your own friends die. More like 
the Games are for those of us in the districts. 

By the time Cinna shows up, I am irritable and 
exhausted from comforting the prep team, especially 
because their constant tears are reminding me of the 
ones undoubtedly being shed at home. Standing there in 
my thin robe with my stinging skin and heart, I know I 
can't bear even one more look of regret. So the moment 
he walks in the door I snap, "I swear if you cry, I'll kill 
you here and now." 

Cinna just smiles. "Had a damp morning?" 

"You could wring me out," I reply. 

Cinna puts his arm around my shoulder and leads me 
into lunch. "Don't worry. I always channel my emotions 
into my work. That way I don't hurt anyone but 

"I can't go through that again," I warn him. 

"I know. I'll talk to them," says Cinna. 

Lunch makes me feel a bit better. Pheasant with a 
selection of jewel-colored jellies, and tiny versions of 
real vegetables swimming in butter, and potatoes 
mashed with parsley. For dessert we dip chunks of fruit 
in a pot of melted chocolate, and Cinna has to order a 
second pot because I start just eating the stuff with a 

"So, what are we wearing for the opening 
ceremonies?" I finally ask as I scrape the second pot 
clean. "Headlamps or fire?" I know the chariot ride will 
require Peeta and me to be dressed in something coal 

"Something along that line," he says. 

When it's time to get in costume for the opening 
ceremonies, my prep team shows up but Cinna sends 
them away, saying they've done such a spectacular job 
in the morning, there's nothing left to do. They go off to 
recover, thankfully leaving me in Cinna's hands. He 
puts up my hair first, in the braided style my mother 
introduced him to, then proceeds with my makeup. Last 
year he used little so that the audience would recognize 
me when I landed in the arena. But now my face is 
almost obscured by the dramatic highlights and dark 

shadows. High arching eyebrows, sharp cheekbones, 
smoldering eyes, deep purple lips. The costume looks 
deceptively simple at first, just a fitted black jumpsuit 
that covers me from the neck down. He places a half 
crown like the one I received as victor on my head, but 
it's made of a heavy black metal, not gold. Then he 
adjusts the light in the room to mimic twilight and 
presses a button just inside the fabric on my wrist. I 
look down, fascinated, as my ensemble slowly comes to 
life, first with a soft golden light but gradually 
transforming to the orange -red of burning coal. I look 
as if I have been coated in glowing embers — no, that I 
am a glowing ember straight from our fireplace. The 
colors rise and fall, shift and blend, in exactly the way 
the coals do. 

"How did you do this?" I say in wonder. 

"Portia and I spent a lot of hours watching fires," says 
Cinna. "Now look at yourself." 

He turns me toward a mirror so that I can take in the 
entire effect. I do not see a girl, or even a woman, but 
some unearthly being who looks like she might make 
her home in the volcano that destroyed so many in 
Haymitch's Quell. The black crown, which now appears 
red-hot, casts strange shadows on my dramatically 

made-up face. Katniss, the girl on fire, has left behind 
her flickering flames and bejeweled gowns and soft 
candlelight frocks. She is as deadly as fire itself. 

"I think ... this is just what I needed to face the 
others," I say. 

"Yes, I think your days of pink lipstick and ribbons 
are behind you," says Cinna. He touches the button on 
my wrist again, extinguishing my light. "Let's not run 
down your power pack. When you're on the chariot this 
time, no waving, no smiling. I just want you to look 
straight ahead, as if the entire audience is beneath your 

"Finally something I'll be good at," I say. 

Cinna has a few more things to attend to, so I decide 
to head down to the ground floor of the Remake Center, 
which houses the huge gathering place for the tributes 
and their chariots before the opening ceremonies. I'm 
hoping to find Peeta and Haymitch, but they haven't 
arrived yet. Unlike last year, when all the tributes were 
practically glued to their chariots, the scene is very 
social. The victors, both this year's tributes and their 
mentors, are standing around in small groups, talking. 
Of course, they all know one another and I don't know 
anyone, and I'm not really the sort of person to go 

around introducing myself. So I just stroke the neck of 
one of my horses and try not to be noticed. It doesn't 

The crunching hits my ear before I even know he's 
beside me, and when I turn my head, Finnick Odair's 
famous sea green eyes are only inches from mine. He 
pops a sugar cube in his mouth and leans against my 

"Hello, Katniss," he says, as if we've known each 
other for years, when in fact we've never met. 

"Hello, Finnick," I say, just as casually, although I'm 
feeling uncomfortable at his closeness, especially since 
he's got so much bare skin exposed. 

"Want a sugar cube?" he says, offering his hand, 
which is piled high. "They're supposed to be for the 
horses, but who cares? They've got years to eat sugar, 
whereas you and I ... well, if we see something sweet, 
we better grab it quick." 

Finnick Odair is something of a living legend in 
Panem. Since he won the Sixty-fifth Hunger Games 
when he was only fourteen, he's still one of the 
youngest victors. Being from District 4, he was a 
Career, so the odds were already in his favor, but what 

no trainer could claim to have given him was his 
extraordinary beauty. Tall, athletic, with golden skin 
and bronze-colored hair and those incredible eyes. 
While other tributes that year were hard-pressed to get a 
handful of grain or some matches for a gift, Finnick 
never wanted for anything, not food or medicine or 
weapons. It took about a week for his competitors to 
realize that he was the one to kill, but it was too late. He 
was already a good fighter with the spears and knives 
he had found in the Cornucopia. When he received a 
silver parachute with a trident — which may be the most 
expensive gift I've ever seen given in the arena — it was 
all over. District 4 f s industry is fishing. He'd been on 
boats his whole life. The trident was a natural, deadly 
extension of his arm. He wove a net out of some kind of 
vine he found, used it to entangle his opponents so he 
could spear them with the trident, and within a matter 
of days the crown was his. 

The citizens of the Capitol have been drooling over 
him ever since. 

Because of his youth, they couldn't really touch him 
for the first year or two. But ever since he turned 
sixteen, he's spent his time at the Games being dogged 
by those desperately in love with him. No one retains 
his favor for long. He can go through four or five in his 

annual visit. Old or young, lovely or plain, rich or very 
rich, he'll keep them company and take their 
extravagant gifts, but he never stays, and once he's gone 
he never comes back. 

I can't argue that Finnick isn't one of the most 
stunning, sensuous people on the planet. But I can 
honestly say he's never been attractive to me. Maybe 
he's too pretty, or maybe he's too easy to get, or maybe 
it's really that he'd just be too easy to lose. 

"No, thanks," I say to the sugar. "I'd love to borrow 
your outfit sometime, though." 

He's draped in a golden net that's strategically knotted 
at his groin so that he can't technically be called naked, 
but he's about as close as you can get. I'm sure his 
stylist thinks the more of Finnick the audience sees, the 

"You're absolutely terrifying me in that getup. What 
happened to the pretty little-girl dresses?" he asks. He 
wets his lips just ever so slightly with his tongue. 
Probably this drives most people crazy. But for some 
reason all I can think of is old Cray, salivating over 
some poor, starving young woman. 

"I outgrew them," I say. 

Finnick takes the collar of my outfit and runs it 
between his fingers. "It's too bad about this Quell thing. 
You could have made out like a bandit in the Capitol. 
Jewels, money, anything you wanted." 

"I don't like jewels, and I have more money than I 
need. What do you spend all yours on, anyway, 
Finnick?" I say. 

"Oh, I haven't dealt in anything as common as money 
for years," says Finnick. 

'Then how do they pay you for the pleasure of your 
company?" I ask. 

"With secrets," he says softly. He tips his head in so 
his lips are almost in contact with mine. "What about 
you, girl on fire? Do you have any secrets worth my 

For some stupid reason, I blush, but I force myself to 
hold my ground. "No, I'm an open book," I whisper 
back. "Everybody seems to know my secrets before I 
know them myself." 

He smiles. "Unfortunately, I think that's true." His 
eyes flicker off to the side. "Peeta is coming. Sorry you 
have to cancel your wedding. I know how devastating 

that must be for you." He tosses another sugar cube in 
his mouth and saunters off. 

Peeta's beside me, dressed in an outfit identical to 
mine. "What did Finnick Odair want?" he asks. 

I turn and put my lips close to Peeta's and drop my 
eyelids in imitation of Finnick. "He offered me sugar 
and wanted to know all my secrets," I say in my best 
seductive voice. 

Peeta laughs. "Ugh. Not really." 

"Really," I say. "I'll tell you more when my skin stops 

"Do you think we'd have ended up like this if only one 
of us had won?" he asks, glancing around at the other 
victors. "Just another part of the freak show?" 

"Sure. Especially you," I say. 

"Oh. And why especially me?" he says with a smile. 

"Because you have a weakness for beautiful things 
and I don't," I say with an air of superiority. "They 
would lure you into their Capitol ways and you'd be lost 

"Having an eye for beauty isn't the same thing as a 
weakness," Peeta points out. "Except possibly when it 
comes to you." The music is beginning and I see the 
wide doors opening for the first chariot, hear the roar of 
the crowd. "Shall we?" He holds out a hand to help me 
into the chariot. 

I climb up and pull him up after me. "Hold still," I 
say, and straighten his crown. "Have you seen your suit 
turned on? We're going to be fabulous again." 

"Absolutely. But Portia says we're to be very above it 
all. No waving or anything," he says. "Where are they, 

"I don't know." I eye the procession of chariots. 
"Maybe we better go ahead and switch ourselves on." 
We do, and as we begin to glow, I can see people 
pointing at us and chattering, and I know that, once 
again, we'll be the talk of the opening ceremonies. 
We're almost at the door. I crane my head around, but 
neither Portia nor Cinna, who were with us right up to 
the final second last year, are anywhere in sight. "Are 
we supposed to hold hands this year?" I ask. 

"I guess they've left it up to us," says Peeta. 

I look up into those blue eyes that no amount of 
dramatic makeup can make truly deadly and remember 
how, just a year ago, I was prepared to kill him. 
Convinced he was trying to kill me. Now everything is 
reversed. I'm determined to keep him alive, knowing 
the cost will be my own life, but the part of me that is 
not so brave as I could wish is glad that it's Peeta, not 
Haymitch, beside me. Our hands find each other 
without further discussion. Of course we will go into 
this as one. 

The voice of the crowd rises into one universal scream 
as we roll into the fading evening light, but neither one 
of us reacts. I simply fix my eyes on a point far in the 
distance and pretend there is no audience, no hysteria. I 
can't help catching glimpses of us on the huge screens 
along the route, and we are not just beautiful, we are 
dark and powerful. No, more. We star-crossed lovers 
from District 12, who suffered so much and enjoyed so 
little the rewards of our victory, do not seek the fans' 
favor, grace them with our smiles, or catch their kisses. 
We are unforgiving. 

And I love it. Getting to be myself at last. 

As we curve around into the loop of the City Circle, I 
can see that a couple of the other stylists have tried to 

steal Cinna and Portia's idea of illuminating their 
tributes. The electric-light-studded outfits from District 
3, where they make electronics, at least make sense. But 
what are the livestock keepers from District 10, who are 
dressed as cows, doing with flaming belts? Broiling 
themselves? Pathetic. 

Peeta and I, on the other hand, are so mesmerizing 
with our ever-changing coal costumes that most of the 
other tributes are staring at us. We seem particularly 
riveting to the pair from District 6, who are known 
morphling addicts. Both bone thin, with sagging 
yellowish skin. They can't tear their overlarge eyes 
away, even when President Snow begins to speak from 
his balcony, welcoming us all to the Quell. The anthem 
plays, and as we make our final trip around the circle, 
am I wrong? Or do I see the president fixated on me as 

Peeta and I wait until the doors of the Training Center 
have closed behind us to relax. Cinna and Portia are 
there, pleased with our performance, and Haymitch has 
made an appearance this year as well, only he's not at 
our chariot, he's over with the tributes of District 1 1 . I 
see him nod in our direction and then they follow him 
over to greet us. 

I know Chaff by sight because I've spent years 
watching him pass a bottle back and forth with 
Haymitch on television. He's dark skinned, about six 
feet tall, and one of his arms ends in a stump because he 
lost his hand in the Games he won thirty years ago. I'm 
sure they offered him some artificial replacement, like 
they did Peeta when they had to amputate his lower leg, 
but I guess he didn't take it. 

The woman, Seeder, looks almost like she could be 
from the Seam, with her olive skin and straight black 
hair streaked with silver. Only her golden brown eyes 
mark her as from another district. She must be around 
sixty, but she still looks strong, and there's no sign she's 
turned to liquor or morphling or any other chemical 
form of escape over the years. Before either of us says a 
word, she embraces me. I know somehow it must be 
because of Rue and Thresh. Before I can stop myself, I 
whisper, 'The families?" 

"They're alive," she says back softly before letting me 

Chaff throws his good arm around me and gives me a 
big kiss right on the mouth. I jerk back, startled, while 
he and Haymitch guffaw. 

That's about all the time we get before the Capitol 
attendants are firmly directing us toward the elevators. I 
get the distinct feeling they're not comfortable with the 
camaraderie among the victors, who couldn't seem to 
care less. As I walk toward the elevators, my hand still 
linked with Peeta's, someone else rustles up to my side. 
The girl pulls off a headdress of leafy branches and 
tosses it behind her without bothering to look where it 

Johanna Mason. From District 7 Lumber and paper, 
thus the tree. She won by very convincingly portraying 
herself as weak and helpless so that she would be 
ignored. Then she demonstrated a wicked ability to 
murder. She ruffles up her spiky hair and rolls her 
wide-set brown eyes. "Isn't my costume awful? My 
stylist's the biggest idiot in the Capitol. Our tributes 
have been trees for forty years under her. Wish I'd 
gotten Cinna. You look fantastic." 

Girl talk. That thing I've always been so bad at. 
Opinions on clothes, hair, makeup. So I lie. "Yeah, he's 
been helping me design my own clothing line. You 
should see what he can do with velvet." Velvet. The 
only fabric. I could think of off the top of my head. 

"I have. On your tour. That strapless number you 
wore in District Two? The deep blue one with the 
diamonds? So gorgeous I wanted to reach through the 
screen and tear it right off your back," says Johanna. 

I bet you did, I think. With a few inches of my flesh. 

While we wait for the elevators, Johanna unzips the 
rest of her tree, letting it drop to the floor, and then 
kicks it away in disgust. Except for her forest green 
slippers, she doesn't have on a stitch of clothing. "That's 

We end up on the same elevator with her, and she 
spends the whole ride to the seventh floor chatting to 
Peeta about his paintings while the light of his still- 
glowing costume reflects off her bare breasts. When she 
leaves, I ignore him, but I just know he's grinning. I 
toss aside his hand as the doors close behind Chaff and 
Seeder, leaving us alone, and he breaks out laughing. 

"What?" I say, turning on him as we step out on our 

"It's you, Katniss. Can't you see?" he says. "What's 
me?" I say. 

"Why they're all acting like this. Finnick with his 
sugar cubes and Chaff kissing you and that whole thing 

with Johanna stripping down." He tries to take on a 
more serious tone, unsuccessfully. "They're playing 
with you because you're so ... you know." 

"No, I don't know," I say. And I really have no idea 
what he's talking about. 

"It's like when you wouldn't look at me naked in the 
arena even though I was half dead. You're so ... pure," 
he says finally. 

"I am not!" I say. "I've been practically ripping your 
clothes off every time there's been a camera for the last 

"Yeah, but ... I mean, for the Capitol, you're pure," he 
says, clearly trying to mollify me. "For me, you're 
perfect. They're just teasing you." 

"No, they're laughing at me, and so are you!" I say. 

"No." Peeta shakes his head, but he's still suppressing 
a smile. I'm seriously rethinking the question of who 
should get out of these Games alive when the other 
elevator opens. 

Haymitch and Effie join us, looking pleased about 
something. Then Haymitch's face grows hard. 

What did I do now? I almost say, but I see he's staring 
behind me at the entrance to the dining room. 

Effie blinks in the same direction, then says brightly, 
"Looks like they've got you a matched set this year." 

I turn around and find the redheaded Avox girl who 
tended to me last year until the Games began. I think 
how nice it is to have a friend here. I notice that the 
young man beside her, another Avox, also has red hair. 
That must be what Effie meant by a matched set. 

Then a chill runs through me. Because I know him, 
too. Not from the Capitol but from years of having easy 
conversations in the Hob, joking over Greasy Sae's 
soup, and that last day watching him lie unconscious in 
the square while the life bled out of Gale. 

Our new Avox is Darius. 


Haymitch grips my wrist as if anticipating my next 
move, but I am as speechless as the Capitol's torturers 
have rendered Darius. Haymitch once told me they did 
something to Avoxes' tongues so they could never talk 
again. In my head I hear Darius's voice, playful and 
bright, ringing across the Hob to tease me. Not as my 
fellow victors make fun of me now, but because we 
genuinely liked each other. If Gale could see him ... 

I know any move I would make toward Darius, any 
act of recognition, would only result in punishment for 
him. So we just stare into each other's eyes. Darius, 
now a mute slave; me, now headed to death. What 
would we say, anyway? That we're sorry for the other's 
lot? That we ache for the other's pain? That we're glad 
we had the chance to know each other? 

No, Darius shouldn't be glad he knew me. If I had 
been there to stop Thread, he wouldn't have stepped 
forward to save Gale. Wouldn't be an Avox. And more 
specifically, wouldn't be my Avox, because President 

Snow has so obviously had him placed here for my 

I twist my wrist from Haymitch's grasp and head 
down to my old bedroom, locking the door behind me. I 
sit on the side of my bed, elbows on my knees, forehead 
on my fists, and watch my glowing suit in the darkness, 
imagining I am in my old home in District 12, huddled 
beside the fire. It slowly fades back to black as the 
power pack dies out. 

When Effie eventually knocks on the door to summon 
me to dinner, I get up and take off my suit, fold it 
neatly, and set it on the table with my crown. In the 
bathroom, I wash the dark streaks of makeup from my 
face. I dress in a simple shirt and pants and go down the 
hall to the dining room. 

I'm not aware of much at dinner except that Darius 
and the redheaded Avox girl are our servers. Effie, 
Haymitch, Cinna, Portia, and Peeta are all there, talking 
about the opening ceremonies, I suppose. But the only 
time I really feel present is when I purposely knock a 
dish of peas to the floor and, before anyone can stop 
me, crouch down to clean them up. Darius is right by 
me when I send the dish over, and we two are briefly 
side by side, obscured from view, as we scoop up the 

peas. For just one moment our hands meet. I can feel 
his skin, rough under the buttery sauce from the dish. In 
the tight, desperate clench of our fingers are all the 
words we will never be able to say. Then Effie's 
clucking at me from behind about how 'That isn't your 
job, Katniss!" and he lets go. 

When we go in to watch the recap of the opening 
ceremonies, I wedge myself in between Cinna and 
Haymitch on the couch because I don't want to be next 
to Peeta. This awfulness with Darius belongs to me and 
Gale and maybe even Haymitch, but not to Peeta. He 
mightVe known Darius to nod hello, but Peeta wasn't 
Hob the way the rest of us were. Besides, I'm still angry 
with him for laughing at me along with the other 
victors, and the last thing I want is his sympathy and 
comfort. I haven't changed my mind about saving him 
in the arena, but I don't owe him more than that. 

As I watch the procession to the City Circle, I think 
how it's bad enough that they dress us all up in 
costumes and parade us through the streets in chariots 
on a regular year. Kids in costumes are silly, but aging 
victors, it turns out, are pitiful. A few who are on the 
younger side, like Johanna and Finnick, or whose 
bodies haven't fallen into disrepair, like Seeder and 
Brutus, can still manage to maintain a little dignity. But 

the majority, who are in the clutches of drink or 
morphling or illness, look grotesque in their costumes, 
depicting cows and trees and loaves of bread. Last year 
we chattered away about each contestant, but tonight 
there's only the occasional comment. Small wonder the 
crowd goes wild when Peeta and I appear, looking so 
young and strong and beautiful in our brilliant 
costumes. The very image of what tributes should be. 

As soon as it's over, I stand up and thank Cinna and 
Portia for their amazing work and head off to bed. Effie 
calls a reminder to meet early for breakfast to work out 
our training strategy, but even her voice sounds hollow. 
Poor Effie. She finally had a decent year in the Games 
with Peeta and me, and now it's all broken down into a 
mess that even she can't put a positive spin on. In 
Capitol terms, I'm guessing this counts as a true 

Soon after I go to bed, there's a quiet knock on my 
door, but I ignore it. I don't want Peeta tonight. 
Especially not with Darius around. It's almost as bad as 
if Gale were here. Gale. How am I supposed to let him 
go with Darius haunting the hallways? 

Tongues figure prominently in my nightmares. First I 
watch frozen and helpless while gloved hands carry out 

the bloody dissection in Darius's mouth. Then I'm at a 
party where everyone wears masks and someone with a 
flicking, wet tongue, who I suppose is Finnick, stalks 
me, but when he catches me and pulls off his mask, it's 
President Snow, and his puffy lips are dripping in 
bloody saliva. Finally I'm back in the arena, my own 
tongue as dry as sandpaper, while I try to reach a pool 
of water that recedes every time I'm about to touch it. 

When I wake, I stumble to the bathroom and gulp 
water from the faucet until I can hold no more. I strip 
off my sweaty clothes and fall back into bed, naked, 
and somehow find sleep again. 

I delay going down to breakfast as long as possible the 
next morning because I really don't want to discuss our 
training strategy. What's to discuss? Every victor 
already knows what everybody else can do. Or used to 
be able to do, anyway. So Peeta and I will continue to 
act in love and that's that. Somehow I'm just not up to 
talking about it, especially with Darius standing mutely 
by. I take a long shower, dress slowly in the outfit 
Cinna has left for training, and order food from the 
menu in my room by speaking into a mouthpiece. In a 
minute, sausage, eggs, potatoes, bread, juice, and hot 
chocolate appear. I eat my fill, trying to drag out the 
minutes until ten o'clock, when we have to go down to 

the Training Center. By nine-thirty, Haymitch is 
pounding on my door, obviously fed up with me, 
ordering me to the dining room NOW! Still, I brush my 
teeth before meandering down the hall, effectively 
killing another five minutes. 

The dining room's empty except for Peeta and 
Haymitch, whose face is flushed with drink and anger. 
On his wrist he wears a solid-gold bangle with a pattern 
of flames — this must be his concession to Effie's 
matching-token plan — that he twists unhappily. It's a 
very handsome bangle, really, but the movement makes 
it seem like something confining, a shackle, rather than 
a piece of jewelry. "You're late," he snarls at me. 

"Sorry. I slept in after the mutilated-tongue 
nightmares kept me up half the night." I mean to sound 
hostile, but my voice catches at the end of the sentence. 

Haymitch gives me a scowl, then relents. "All right, 
never mind. Today, in training, you've got two jobs. 
One, stay in love." 

"Obviously," I say. 

"And two, make some friends," says Haymitch. "No," 
I say. "I don't trust any of them, I can't stand most of 

them, and I'd rather operate with just the two of us." 
"That's what I said at first, but — " Peeta begins. 

"But it won't be enough," Haymitch insists. "You're 
going to need more allies this time around." 

"Why?" I ask. 

"Because you're at a distinct disadvantage. Your 
competitors have known each other for years. So who 
do you think they're going to target first?" he says. 

"Us. And nothing we're going to do is going to 
override any old friendship," I say. "So why bother?" 

"Because you can fight. You're popular with the 
crowd. That could still make you desirable allies. But 
only if you let the others know you're willing to team 
up with them," says Haymitch. 

"You mean you want us in the Career pack this year?" 
I ask, unable to hide my distaste. Traditionally the 
tributes from Districts 1, 2, and 4 join forces, possibly 
taking in a few other exceptional fighters, and hunt 
down the weaker competitors. 

"That's been our strategy, hasn't it? To train like 
Careers?" counters Haymitch. "And who makes up the 

Career pack is generally agreed upon before the Games 
begin. Peeta barely got in with them last year." 

I think of the loathing I felt when I discovered Peeta 
was with the Careers during the last Games. "So we're 
to try to get in with Finnick and Brutus — is that what 
you're saying?" 

"Not necessarily. Everyone's a victor. Make your own 
pack if you'd rather. Choose who you like. I'd suggest 
Chaff and Seeder. Although Finnick's not to be 
ignored," says Haymitch. "Find someone to team up 
with who might be of some use to you. Remember, 
you're not in a ring full of trembling children anymore. 
These people are all experienced killers, no matter what 
shape they appear to be in." 

Maybe he's right. Only who could I trust? Seeder 
maybe. But do I really want to make a pact with her, 
only to possibly have to kill her later? No. Still, I made 
a pact with Rue under the same circumstances. I tell 
Haymitch I'll try, even though I think I'll be pretty bad 
at the whole thing. 

Effie shows up a bit early to take us down because last 
year, even though we were on time, we were the last 
two tributes to show up. But Haymitch tells her he 
doesn't want her taking us down to the gym. None of 

the other victors will be showing up with a babysitter, 
and being the youngest, it's even more important we 
look self-reliant. So she has to satisfy herself with 
taking us to the elevator, fussing over our hair, and 
pushing the button for us. 

It's such a short ride that there's no real time for 
conversation, but when Peeta takes my hand, I don't 
pull it away. I may have ignored him last night in 
private, but in training we must appear as an 
inseparable team. 

Effie needn't have worried about us being the last to 
arrive. Only Brutus and the woman from District 2, 
Enobaria, are present. Enobaria looks to be about thirty 
and all I can remember about her is that, in hand-to- 
hand combat, she killed one tribute by ripping open his 
throat with her teeth. She became so famous for this act 
that, after she was a victor, she had her teeth 
cosmetically altered so each one ends in a sharp point 
like a fang and is inlaid with gold. She has no shortage 
of admirers in the Capitol. 

By ten o'clock, only about half of the tributes have 
shown up. Atala, the woman who runs training, begins 
her spiel right on time, unfazed by the poor attendance. 
Maybe she expected it. I'm sort of relieved, because that 

means there are a dozen people I don't have to pretend 
to make friends with. Atala runs through the list of 
stations, which include both combat and survival skills, 
and releases us to train. 

I tell Peeta I think we'd do best to split up, thus 
covering more territory. When he goes off to chuck 
spears with Brutus and Chaff, I head over to the knot- 
tying station, hardly anyone ever bothers to visit it. I 
like the trainer and he remembers me fondly, maybe 
because I spent time with him last year. He's pleased 
when I show him I can still set the trap that leaves an 
enemy dangling by a leg from a tree. Clearly he took 
note of my snares in the arena last year and now sees 
me as an advanced pupil, so I ask him to review every 
kind of knot that might come in handy and a few that 
I'll probably never use. I'd be content to spend the 
morning alone with him, but after about an hour and a 
half, someone puts his arms around me from behind, his 
fingers easily finishing the complicated knot I've been 
sweating over. Of course it's Finnick, who seems to 
have spent his childhood doing nothing but wielding 
tridents and manipulating ropes into fancy knots for 
nets, I guess. I watch for a minute while he picks up a 
length of rope, makes a noose, and then pretends to 
hang himself for my amusement. 

Rolling my eyes, I head over to another vacant station 
where tributes can learn to build fires. I already make 
excellent fires, but I'm still pretty dependent on matches 
for starting them. So the trainer has me work with flint, 
steel, and some charred cloth. This is much harder than 
it looks, and even working as intently as I can, it takes 
me about an hour to get a fire going. I look up with a 
triumphant smile only to find I have company. 

The two tributes from District 3 are beside me, 
struggling to start a decent fire with matches. I think 
about leaving, but I really want to try using the flint 
again, and if I have to report back to Haymitch that I 
tried to make friends, these two might be a bearable 
choice. Both are small in stature with ashen skin and 
black hair. The woman, Wiress, is probably around my 
mother's age and speaks in a quiet, intelligent voice. 
But right away I notice she has a habit of dropping off 
her words in mid-sentence, as if she's forgotten you're 
there. Beetee, the man, is older and somewhat fidgety. 
He wears glasses but spends a lot of time looking under 
them. They're a little strange, but I'm pretty sure neither 
of them is going to try to make me uncomfortable by 
stripping naked. And they're from District 3. Maybe 
they can even confirm my suspicions of an uprising 

I glance around the Training Center. Peeta is at the 
center of a ribald circle of knife throwers. The 
morphlings from District 6 are in the camouflage 
station, painting each other's faces with bright pink 
swirls. The male tribute from District 5 is vomiting 
wine on the sword-fighting floor. Finnick and the old 
woman from his district are using the archery station. 
Johanna Mason is naked again and oiling her skin down 
for a wrestling lesson. I decide to stay put. 

Wiress and Beetee make decent company. They seem 
friendly enough but don't pry. We talk about our 
talents; they tell me they both invent things, which 
makes my supposed interest in fashion seem pretty 
weak. Wiress brings up some sort of stitching device 
she's working on. 

"It senses the density of the fabric and selects the 
strength," she says, and then becomes absorbed in a bit 
of dry straw before she can go on. 

'The strength of the thread," Beetee finishes 
explaining. "Automatically. It rules out human error." 
Then he talks about his recent success creating a 
musical chip that's tiny enough to be concealed in a 
flake of glitter but can hold hours of songs. I remember 

Octavia talking about this during the wedding shoot, 
and I see a possible chance to allude to the uprising. 

"Oh, yeah. My prep team was all upset a few months 
ago, I think, because they couldn't get hold of that," I 
say casually. "I guess a lot of orders from District Three 
were getting backed up." 

Beetee examines me under his glasses. "Yes. Did you 
have any similar backups in coal production, this year?" 
he asks. 

"No. Well, we lost a couple of weeks when they 
brought in a new Head Peacekeeper and his crew, but 
nothing major," I say. "To production, I mean. Two 
weeks sitting around your house doing nothing just 
means two weeks of being hungry for most people." 

I think they understand what I'm trying to say. That 
we've had no uprising. "Oh. That's a shame," says 
Wiress in a slightly disappointed voice. "I found your 
district very ..." She trails off, distracted by something 
in her head. 

"Interesting," fills in Beetee. "We both did." 

I feel bad, knowing that their district must have 
suffered much worse than ours. I feel I have to defend 
my people. "Well, there aren't very many of us in 

Twelve," I say. "Not that you'd know it nowadays by 
the size of the Peacekeeping force. But I guess we're 
interesting enough." 

As we move over to the shelter station, Wiress stops 
and gazes up at the stands where the Gamemakers are 
roaming around, eating and drinking, sometimes taking 
notice of us. "Look," she says, giving her head a slight 
nod in their direction. I look up and see Plutarch 
Heavensbee in the magnificent purple robe with the fur- 
trimmed collar that designates him as Head 
Gamemaker. He's eating a turkey leg. 

I don't see why this merits comment, but I say, "Yes, 
he's been promoted to Head Gamemaker this year." 

"No, no. There by the corner of the table. You can just 
..." says Wiress. 

Beetee squints under his glasses. "Just make it out." 

I stare in that direction, perplexed. But then I see it. A 
patch of space about six inches square at the corner of 
the table seems almost to be vibrating. It's as if the air is 
rippling in tiny visible waves, distorting the sharp edges 
of the wood and a goblet of wine someone has set there. 

"A force field. They've set one up between the Game- 
makers and us. I wonder what brought that on," Beetee 

"Me, probably," I confess. "Last year I shot an arrow 
at them during my private training session." Beetee and 
Wiress look at me curiously. "I was provoked. So, do 
all force fields have a spot like that?" 

"Chink," says Wiress vaguely. 

"In the armor, as it were," finishes Beetee. "Ideally 
it f d be invisible, wouldn't it?" 

I want to ask them more, but lunch is announced. I 
look for Peeta, but he's hanging with a group of about 
ten other victors, so I decide just to eat with District 3. 
Maybe I can get Seeder to join us. 

When we make our way into the dining area, I see 
some of Peeta's gang have other ideas. They're dragging 
all the smaller tables to form one large table so that we 
all have to eat together. Now I don't know what to do. 
Even at school I used to avoid eating at a crowded 
table. Frankly, I'd probably have sat alone if Madge 
hadn't made a habit of joining me. I guess I'd have eaten 
with Gale except, being two grades apart, our lunch 
never fell at the same time. 

I take a tray and start making my way around the 
food-laden carts that ring the room. Peeta catches up 
with me at the stew. "How's it going?" 

"Good. Fine. I like the District Three victors," I say. 
"Wiress and Beetee." 

"Really?" he asks. "They're something of a joke to the 

"Why does that not surprise me?" I say. I think of how 
Peeta was always surrounded at school by a crowd of 
friends. It's amazing, really, that he ever took any notice 
of me except to think I was odd. 

"Johanna's nicknamed them Nuts and Volts," he says. 
"I think she's Nuts and he's Volts." 

"And so I'm stupid for thinking they might be useful. 
Because of something Johanna Mason said while she 
was oiling up her breasts for wrestling," I retort. 

"Actually I think the nickname's been around for 
years. And I didn't mean that as an insult. I'm just 
sharing information," he says. 

"Well, Wiress and Beetee are smart. They invent 
things. They could tell by sight that a force field had 
been put up between us and the Gamemakers. And if 

we have to have allies, I want them." I toss the ladle 
back in a pot of stew, splattering us both with the gravy. 

"What are you so angry about?" Peeta asks, wiping 
the gravy from his shirtfront. "Because I teased you on 
the elevator? I'm sorry. I thought you would just laugh 
about it." 

"Forget it," I say with a shake of my head. "It's a lot 
of things." 

"Darius," he says. 

"Darius. The Games. Haymitch making us team up 
with the others," I say. 

"It can just be you and me, you know," he says. 

"I know. But maybe Haymitch is right," I say. "Don't 
tell him I said so, but he usually is, where the Games 
are concerned." 

"Well, you can have final say about our allies. But 
right now, I'm leaning toward Chaff and Seeder," says 

"I'm okay with Seeder, not Chaff," I say. "Not yet, 

"Come on and eat with him. I promise, I won't let him 
kiss you again," says Peeta. 

Chaff doesn't seem as bad at lunch. He's sober, and 
while he talks too loud and makes bad jokes a lot, most 
of them are at his own expense. I can see why he would 
be good for Haymitch, whose thoughts run so darkly. 
But I'm still not sure I'm ready to team up with him. 

I try hard to be more sociable, not just with Chaff but 
with the group at large. After lunch I do the edible - 
insect station with the District 8 tributes — Cecelia, 
who's got three kids at home, and Woof, a really old 
guy who's hard of hearing and doesn't seem to know 
what's going on since he keeps trying to stuff poisonous 
bugs in his mouth. I wish I could mention meeting 
Twill and Bonnie in the woods, but I can't figure out 
how. Cashmere and Gloss, the sister and brother from 
District 1 , invite me over and we make hammocks for a 
while. They're polite but cool, and I spend the whole 
time thinking about how I killed both the tributes from 
their district, Glimmer and Marvel, last year, and that 
they probably knew them and might even have been 
their mentors. Both my hammock and my attempt to 
connect with them are mediocre at best. I join Enobaria 
at sword training and exchange a few comments, but it's 
clear neither of us wants to team up. Finnick appears 

again when I'm picking up fishing tips, but mostly just 
to introduce me to Mags, the elderly woman who's also 
from District 4. Between her district accent and her 
garbled speech — possibly she's had a stroke — I can't 
make out more than one in four words. But I swear she 
can make a decent fishhook out of anything — a thorn, a 
wishbone, an earring. After a while I tune out the 
trainer and simply try to copy whatever Mags does. 
When I make a pretty good hook out of a bent nail and 
fasten it to some strands of my hair, she gives me a 
toothless smile and an unintelligible comment I think 
might be praise. Suddenly I remember how she 
volunteered to replace the young, hysterical woman in 
her district. It couldn't be because she thought she had 
any chance of winning. She did it to save the girl, just 
like I volunteered last year to save Prim. And I decide I 
want her on my team. 

Great. Now I have to go back and tell Haymitch I 
want an eighty-year-old and Nuts and Volts for my 
allies. He'll love that. 

So I give up trying to make friends and go over to the 
archery range for some sanity. It's wonderful there, 
getting to try out all the different bows and arrows. The 
trainer, Tax, seeing that the standing targets offer no 
challenge for me, begins to launch these silly fake birds 

high into the air for me to hit. At first it seems stupid, 
but it turns out to be kind of fun. Much more like 
hunting a moving creature. Since I'm hitting everything 
he throws up, he starts increasing the number of birds 
he sends airborne. I forget the rest of the gym and the 
victors and how miserable I am and lose myself in the 
shooting. When I manage to take down five birds in one 
round, I realize it's so quiet I can hear each one hit the 
floor. I turn and see the majority of the victors have 
stopped to watch me. Their faces show everything from 
envy to hatred to admiration. 

After training, Peeta and I hang out, waiting for 
Haymitch and Effie to show up for dinner. When we're 
called to eat, Haymitch pounces on me immediately. 
"So at least half the victors have instructed their 
mentors to request you as an ally. I know it can't be 
your sunny personality." 

'They saw her shoot," says Peeta with a smile. 
"Actually, I saw her shoot, for real, for the first time. 
I'm about to put in a formal request myself." 

"You're that good?" Haymitch asks me. "So good that 
Brutus wants you?" 

I shrug. "But I don't want Brutus. I want Mags and 
District Three." 

"Of course you do." Haymitch sighs and orders a 
bottle of wine. "Ill tell everybody you're still making 
up your mind." 

After my shooting exhibition, I still get teased some, 
but I no longer feel like I'm being mocked. In fact, I 
feel as if I've somehow been initiated into the victors' 
circle. During the next two days, I spend time with 
almost everybody headed for the arena. Even the 
morphlings, who, with Peeta's help, paint me into a 
field of yellow flowers. Even Finnick, who gives me an 
hour of trident lessons in exchange for an hour of 
archery instruction. And the more I come to know these 
people, the worse it is. Because, on the whole, I don't 
hate them. And some I like. And a lot of them are so 
damaged that my natural instinct would be to protect 
them. But all of them must die if I'm to save Peeta. 

The final day of training ends with our private 
sessions. We each get fifteen minutes before the 
Gamemakers to amaze them with our skills, but I don't 
know what any of us might have to show them. There's 
a lot of kidding about it at lunch. What we might do. 
Sing, dance, strip, tell jokes. Mags, who I can 
understand a little better now, decides she's just going 
to take a nap. I don't know what I'm going to do. Shoot 

some arrows, I guess. Haymitch said to surprise them if 
we could, but I'm fresh out of ideas. 

As the girl from 12, I'm scheduled to go last. The 
dining room gets quieter and quieter as the tributes file 
out to go perform. It's easier to keep up the irreverent, 
invincible manner we've all adopted when there are 
more of us. As people disappear through the door, all I 
can think is that they have a matter of days to live. 

Peeta and I are finally left alone. He reaches across 
the table to take my hands. "Decided what to do for the 
Gamemakers yet?" 

I shake my head. "I can't really use them for target 
practice this year, with the force field up and all. Maybe 
make some fishhooks. What about you?" 

"Not a clue. I keep wishing I could bake a cake or 
something," he says. 

"Do some more camouflage," I suggest. 

"If the morphlings have left me anything to work 
with," he says wryly. "They've been glued to that 
station since training started." 

We sit in silence awhile and then I blurt out the thing 
that's on both our minds. "How are we going to kill 
these people, Peeta?" 

"I don't know." He leans his forehead down on our 
entwined hands. 

"I don't want them as allies. Why did Haymitch want 
us to get to know them?" I say. "It'll make it so much 
harder than last time. Except for Rue maybe. But I 
guess I never really could've killed her, anyway. She 
was just too much like Prim." 

Peeta looks up at me, his brow creased in thought. 
"Her death was the most despicable, wasn't it?" 

"None of them were very pretty," I say, thinking of 
Glimmer's and Cato's ends. 

They call Peeta, so I wait by myself. Fifteen minutes 
pass. Then half an hour. It's close to forty minutes 
before I'm called. 

When I go in, I smell the sharp odor of cleaner and 
notice that one of the mats has been dragged to the 
center of the room. The mood is very different from last 
year's, when the Gamemakers were half drunk and 
distractedly picking at tidbits from the banquet table. 

They whisper among themselves, looking somewhat 
annoyed. What did Peeta do? Something to upset them? 

I feel a pang of worry. That isn't good. I don't want 
Peeta singling himself out as a target for the 
Gamemakers' anger. That's part of my job. To draw fire 
away from Peeta. But how did he upset them? Because 
I'd love to do just that and more. To break through the 
smug veneer of those who use their brains to find 
amusing ways to kill us. To make them realize that 
while we're vulnerable to the Capitol's cruelties, they 
are as well. 

Do you have any idea how much I hate you? I think. 
You, who have given your talents to the Games? 

I try to catch Plutarch Heavensbee's eye, but he seems 
to be intentionally ignoring me, as he has the entire 
training period. I remember how he sought me out for a 
dance, how pleased he was to show me the mockingjay 
on his watch. His friendly manner has no place here. 
How could it, when I'm a mere tribute and he's the 
Head Gamemaker? So powerful, so removed, so safe ... 

Suddenly I know just what I'm going to do. 
Something that will blow anything Peeta did right out 
of the water. I go over to the knot-tying station and get 
a length of rope. I start to manipulate it, but it's hard 

because I've never made this actual knot myself. I've 
only watched Finnick's clever fingers, and they moved 
so fast. After about ten minutes, I've come up with a 
respectable noose. I drag one of the target dummies out 
into the middle of the room and, using some chinning 
bars, hang it so it dangles by the neck. Tying its hands 
behind its back would be a nice touch, but I think I 
might be running out of time. I hurry over to the 
camouflage station, where some of the other tributes, 
undoubtedly the morphlings, have made a colossal 
mess. But I find a partial container of bloodred berry 
juice that will serve my needs. The flesh-colored fabric 
of the dummy's skin makes a good, absorbent canvas. I 
carefully finger paint the words on its body, concealing 
them from view. Then I step away quickly to watch the 
reaction on the Gamemakers 1 faces as they read the 
name on the dummy. 


The effect on the Gamemakers is immediate and 
satisfying. Several let out small shrieks. Others lose 
their grips on their wineglasses, which shatter musically 
against the ground. Two seem to be considering 
fainting. The look of shock is unanimous. 

Now I have Plutarch Heavensbee's attention. He stares 
steadily at me as the juice from the peach he crushed in 
his hand runs through his fingers. Finally he clears his 
throat and says, "You may go now, Miss Everdeen." 

I give a respectful nod and turn to go, but at the last 
moment I can't resist tossing the container of berry juice 
over my shoulder. I can hear the contents splatter 
against the dummy while a couple more wineglasses 
break. As the elevator doors close before me, I see no 
one has moved. 

That surprised them, I think. It was rash and 
dangerous and no doubt I will pay for it ten times over. 
But for the moment, I feel something close to elation 
and I let myself savor it. 

I want to find Haymitch immediately and tell him 
about my session, but no one's around. I guess they're 
getting ready for dinner and I decide to go take a 
shower myself, since my hands are stained from the 
juice. As I stand in the water, I begin to wonder about 
the wisdom of my latest trick. The question that should 
now always be my guide is "Will this help Peeta stay 
alive?" Indirectly, this might not. What happens in 
training is highly secretive, so there's no point in taking 
action against me when no one will know what my 
transgression was. In fact, last year I was rewarded for 
my brashness. This is a different sort of crime, though. 
If the Gamemakers are angry with me and decide to 
punish me in the arena, Peeta could get caught up in the 
attack as well. Maybe it was too impulsive. Still ... I 
can't say I'm sorry I did it. 

As we all gather for dinner, I notice Peeta's hands are 
faintly stained with a variety of colors, even though his 
hair is still damp from bathing. He must have done 
some form of camouflage after all. Once the soup is 
served, Haymitch gets right to the issue on everyone's 
mind. "All right, so how did your private sessions go?" 

I exchange a look with Peeta. Somehow I'm not that 
eager to put what I did into words. In the calm of the 
dining room, it seems very extreme. "You first," I say 

to him. "It must have been really special. I had to wait 
for forty minutes to go in." 

Peeta seems to be struck with the same reluctance I'm 
experiencing. "Well, I — I did the camouflage thing, 
like you suggested, Katniss." He hesitates. "Not exactly 
camouflage. I mean, I used the dyes." 

"To do what?" asks Portia. 

I think of how ruffled the Gamemakers were when I 
entered the gym for my session. The smell of cleaners. 
The mat pulled over that spot in the center of the gym. 
Was it to conceal something they were unable to wash 
away? "You painted something, didn't you? A picture." 
"Did you see it?" Peeta asks. 

"No. But they'd made a real point of covering it up," I 

"Well, that would be standard. They can't let one 
tribute know what another did," says Effie, 
unconcerned. "What did you paint, Peeta?" She looks a 
little misty. "Was it a picture of Katniss?" 

"Why would he paint a picture of me, Effie?" I ask, 
somehow annoyed. 

'To show he's going to do everything he can to defend 
you. That's what everyone in the Capitol's expecting, 
anyway. Didn't he volunteer to go in with you?" Effie 
says, as if it's the most obvious thing in the world. 

"Actually, I painted a picture of Rue," Peeta says. 
"How she looked after Katniss had covered her in 

There's a long pause at the table while everyone 
absorbs this. "And what exactly were you trying to 
accomplish?" Haymitch asks in a very measured voice. 

"I'm not sure. I just wanted to hold them accountable, 
if only for a moment," says Peeta. "For killing that little 

"This is dreadful." Effie sounds like she's about to cry. 
"That sort of thinking ... it's forbidden, Peeta. 
Absolutely. You'll only bring down more trouble on 
yourself and Katniss." 

"I have to agree with Effie on this one," says 
Haymitch. Portia and Cinna remain silent, but their 
faces are very serious. Of course, they're right. But even 
though it worries me, I think what he did was amazing. 

"I guess this is a bad time to mention I hung a dummy 
and painted Seneca Crane's name on it," I say. This has 

the desired effect. After a moment of disbelief, all the 
disapproval in the room hits me like a ton of bricks. 

"You ... hung ... Seneca Crane?" says Cinna. 

"Yes. I was showing off my new knot-tying skills, and 
he somehow ended up at the end of the noose," I say. 

"Oh, Katniss," says Effie in a hushed voice. "How do 
you even know about that?" 

"Is it a secret? President Snow didn't act like it was. In 
fact, he seemed eager for me to know," I say. Effie 
leaves the table with her napkin pressed to her face. 
"Now I've upset Effie. I should have lied and said I shot 
some arrows." 

"You'd have thought we planned it," says Peeta, 
giving me just the hint of a smile. 

"Didn't you?" asks Portia. Her fingers press her 
eyelids closed as if she's warding off a very bright light. 

"No," I say, looking at Peeta with a new sense of 
appreciation. "Neither of us even knew what we were 
going to do before we went in." 

"And, Haymitch?" says Peeta. "We decided we don't 
want any other allies in the arena." 

"Good. Then I won't be responsible for you killing off 
any of my friends with your stupidity," he says. 

'That's just what we were thinking," I tell him. 

We finish the meal in silence, but when we rise to go 
into the sitting room, Cinna puts his arm around me and 
gives me a squeeze. "Come on and let's go get those 
training scores." 

We gather around the television set and a red-eyed 
Effie rejoins us. The tributes' faces come up, district by 
district, and their scores flash under their pictures. One 
through twelve. Predictably high scores for Cashmere, 
Gloss, Brutus, Enobaria, and Finnick. Low to medium 
for the rest. 

"Have they ever given a zero?" I ask. 

"No, but there's a first time for everything," Cinna 

And it turns out he's right. Because when Peeta and I 
each pull a twelve, we make Hunger Games history. No 
one feels like celebrating, though. 

"Why did they do that?" I ask. 

"So that the others will have no choice but to target 
you," says Haymitch flatly. "Go to bed. I can't stand to 
look at either one of you." 

Peeta walks me down to my room in silence, but 
before he can say good night, I wrap my arms around 
him and rest my head against his chest. His hands slide 
up my back and his cheek leans against my hair. "I'm 
sorry if I made things worse," I say. 

"No worse than I did. Why did you do it, anyway?" he 

"I don't know. To show them that I'm more than just a 
piece in their Games?" I say. 

He laughs a little, no doubt remembering the night 
before the Games last year. We were on the roof, 
neither of us able to sleep. Peeta had said something of 
the sort then, but I hadn't understood what he meant. 
Now I do. 

"Me, too," he tells me. "And I'm not saying I'm not 
going to try. To get you home, I mean. But if I'm 
perfectly honest about it ..." 

"If you're perfectly honest about it, you think 
President Snow has probably given them direct orders 
to make sure we die in the arena anyway," I say. 

"It's crossed my mind," says Peeta. 

It's crossed my mind, too. Repeatedly. But while I 
know I'll never leave that arena alive, I'm still holding 
on to the hope that Peeta will. After all, he didn't pull 
out those berries, I did. No one has ever doubted that 
Peeta's defiance was motivated by love. So maybe 
President Snow will prefer keeping him alive, crushed 
and heartbroken, as a living warning to others. 

"But even if that happens, everyone will know we've 
gone out fighting, right?" Peeta asks. 

"Everyone will," I reply. And for the first time, I 
distance myself from the personal tragedy that has 
consumed me since they announced the Quell. I 
remember the old man they shot in District 11, and 
Bonnie and Twill, and the rumored uprisings. Yes, 
everyone in the districts will be watching me to see how 
I handle this death sentence, this final act of President 
Snow's dominance. They will be looking for some sign 
that their battles have not been in vain. If I can make it 
clear that I'm still defying the Capitol right up to the 
end, the Capitol will have killed me ... but not my spirit. 
What better way to give hope to the rebels? 

The beauty of this idea is that my decision to keep 
Peeta alive at the expense of my own life is itself an act 

of defiance. A refusal to play the Hunger Games by the 
Capitol's rules. My private agenda dovetails completely 
with my public one. And if I really could save Peeta ... 
in terms of a revolution, this would be ideal. Because I 
will be more valuable dead. They can turn me into 
some kind of martyr for the cause and paint my face on 
banners, and it will do more to rally people than 
anything I could do if I was living. But Peeta would be 
more valuable alive, and tragic, because he will be able 
to turn his pain into words that will transform people. 

Peeta would lose it if he knew I was thinking any of 
this, so I only say, "So what should we do with our last 
few days?" 

"I just want to spend every possible minute of the rest 
of my life with you," Peeta replies. 

"Come on, then," I say, pulling him into my room. 

It feels like such a luxury, sleeping with Peeta again. I 
didn't realize until now how starved I've been for 
human closeness. For the feel of him beside me in the 
darkness. I wish I hadn't wasted the last couple of 
nights shutting him out. I sink down into sleep, 
enveloped in his warmth, and when I open my eyes 
again, daylight's streaming through the windows. 

"No nightmares," he says. 

"No nightmares," I confirm. "You?" 

"None. Td forgotten what a real night's sleep feels 
like," he says. 

We lie there for a while, in no rush to begin the day. 
Tomorrow night will be the televised interview, so 
today Effie and Haymitch should be coaching us. More 
high heels and sarcastic comments, I think. But then the 
redheaded Avox girl comes in with a note from Effie 
saying that, given our recent tour, both she and 
Haymitch have agreed we can handle ourselves 
adequately in public. The coaching sessions have been 

"Really?" says Peeta, taking the note from my hand 
and examining it. "Do you know what this means? 
We'll have the whole day to ourselves." 

"It's too bad we can't go somewhere," I say wistfully. 

"Who says we can't?" he asks. 

The roof. We order a bunch of food, grab some 
blankets, and head up to the roof for a picnic. A 
daylong picnic in the flower garden that tinkles with 
wind chimes. We eat. We lie in the sun. I snap off 

hanging vines and use my newfound knowledge from 
training to practice knots and weave nets. Peeta 
sketches me. We make up a game with the force field 
that surrounds the roof — one of us throws an apple into 
it and the other person has to catch it. 

No one bothers us. By late afternoon, I lie with my 
head on Peeta's lap, making a crown of flowers while 
he fiddles with my hair, claiming he's practicing his 
knots. After a while, his hands go still. "What?" I ask. 

"I wish I could freeze this moment, right here, right 
now, and live in it forever," he says. 

Usually this sort of comment, the kind that hints of his 
undying love for me, makes me feel guilty and awful. 
But I feel so warm and relaxed and beyond worrying 
about a future 111 never have, I just let the word slip 
out. "Okay." 

I can hear the smile in his voice. 'Then youll allow 

"Ill allow it," I say. 

His fingers go back to my hair and I doze off, but he 
rouses me to see the sunset. It's a spectacular yellow 
and orange blaze behind the skyline of the Capitol. "I 
didn't think you'd want to miss it," he says. 

"Thanks," I say. Because I can count on my fingers 
the number of sunsets I have left, and I don't want to 
miss any of them. 

We don't go and join the others for dinner, and no one 
summons us. 

"I'm glad. I'm tired of making everyone around me so 
miserable," says Peeta. "Everybody crying. Or 
Haymitch ..." He doesn't need to go on. 

We stay on the roof until bedtime and then quietly slip 
down to my room without encountering anyone. 

The next morning, we're roused by my prep team. The 
sight of Peeta and me sleeping together is too much for 
Octavia, because she bursts into tears right away. "You 
remember what Cinna told us," Venia says fiercely. 
Octavia nods and goes out sobbing. 

Peeta has to return to his room for prep, and I'm left 
alone with Venia and Flavius. The usual chatter has 
been suspended. In fact, there's little talk at all, other 
than to have me raise my chin or comment on a makeup 
technique. It's nearly lunch when I feel something 
dripping on my shoulder and turn to find Flavius, who's 
snipping away at my hair with silent tears running 

down his face. Venia gives him a look, and he gently 
sets the scissors on the table and leaves. 

Then it's just Venia, whose skin is so pale her tattoos 
appear to be leaping off it. Almost rigid with 
determination, she does my hair and nails and makeup, 
fingers flying swiftly to compensate for her absent 
teammates. The whole time, she avoids my gaze. It's 
only when Cinna shows up to approve me and dismiss 
her that she takes my hands, looks me straight in the 
eye, and says, "We would all like you to know what a 
... privilege it has been to make you look your best." 
Then she hastens from the room. 

My prep team. My foolish, shallow, affectionate pets, 
with their obsessions with feathers and parties, nearly 
break my heart with their good-bye. It's certain from 
Venia's last words that we all know I won't be 
returning. Does the whole world know it? I wonder. I 
look at Cinna. He knows, certainly. But as he promised, 
there's no danger of tears from him. 

"So, what am I wearing tonight?" I ask, eyeing the 
garment bag that holds my dress. 

"President Snow put in the dress order himself," says 
Cinna. He unzips the bag, revealing one of the wedding 
dresses I wore for the photo shoot. Heavy white silk 

with a low neckline and tight waist and sleeves that fall 
from my wrists to the floor. And pearls. Everywhere 
pearls. Stitched into the dress and in ropes at my throat 
and forming the crown for the veil. "Even though they 
announced the Quarter Quell the night of the photo 
shoot, people Still voted for their favorite dress, and 
this was the winner. The president says you're to wear it 
tonight. Our objections were ignored." 

I rub a bit of the silk between my fingers, trying to 
figure out President Snow's reasoning. I suppose since I 
was the greatest offender, my pain and loss and 
humiliation should be in the brightest spotlight. This, he 
thinks, will make that clear. It's so barbaric, the 
president turning my bridal gown into my shroud, that 
the blow strikes home, leaving me with a dull ache 
inside. "Well, it'd be a shame to waste such a pretty 
dress" is all I say. 

Cinna helps me carefully into the gown. As it settles 
on my shoulders, they can't help giving a shrug of 
complaint. "Was it always this heavy?" I ask. I 
remember several of the dresses being dense, but this 
one feels like it weighs a ton. 

"I had to make some slight alterations because of the 
lighting," says Cinna. I nod, but I can't see what that 

has to do with anything. He decks me out in the shoes 
and the pearl jewelry and the veil. Touches up my 
makeup. Has me walk. 

"You're ravishing," he says. "Now, Katniss, because 
this bodice is so fitted, I don't want you raising your 
arms above your head. Well, not until you twirl, 

"Will I be twirling again?" I ask, thinking of my dress 
last year. 

"I'm sure Caesar will ask you. And if he doesn't, you 
suggest it yourself. Only not right away. Save it for 
your big finale," Cinna instructs me. 

"You give me a signal so I know when," I say. 

"All right. Any plans for your interview? I know 
Haymitch left you two to your own devices," he says. 

"No, this year I'm just winging it. The funny thing is, 
I'm not nervous at all." And I'm not. However much 
President Snow may hate me, this Capitol audience is 

We meet up with Effie, Haymitch, Portia, and Peeta at 
the elevator. Peeta's in an elegant tuxedo and white 

gloves. The sort of thing grooms wear to get married in, 
here in the Capitol. 

Back home everything is so much simpler. A woman 
usually rents a white dress that's been worn hundreds of 
times. The man wears something clean that's not mining 
clothes. They fill out some forms at the Justice Building 
and are assigned a house. Family and friends gather for 
a meal or bit of cake, if it can be afforded. Even if it 
can't, there's always a traditional song we sing as the 
new couple crosses the threshold of their home. And we 
have our own little ceremony, where they make their 
first fire, toast a bit of bread, and share it. Maybe it's 
old-fashioned, but no one really feels married in 
District 12 until after the toasting. 

The other tributes have already gathered offstage and 
are talking softly, but when Peeta and I arrive, they fall 
silent. I realize everyone's staring daggers at my 
wedding dress. Are they jealous of its beauty? The 
power it might have to manipulate the crowd? 

Finally Finnick says, "I can't believe Cinna put you in 
that thing." 

"He didn't have any choice. President Snow made 
him," I say, somewhat defensively. I won't let anyone 
criticize Cinna. 

Cashmere tosses her flowing blond curls back and 
spits out, "Well, you look ridiculous!" She grabs her 
brother's hand and pulls him into place to lead our 
procession onto the stage. The other tributes begin to 
line up as well. I'm confused because, while they all are 
angry, some are giving us sympathetic pats on the 
shoulder, and Johanna Mason actually stops to 
straighten my pearl necklace. 

"Make him pay for it, okay?" she says. 

I nod, but I don't know what she means. Not until 
we're all sitting out onstage and Caesar Flickerman, hair 
and face highlighted in lavender this year, has done his 
opening spiel and the tributes begin their interviews. 
This is the first time I realize the depth of betrayal felt 
among the victors and the rage that accompanies it. But 
they are so smart, so wonderfully smart about how they 
play it, because it all comes back to reflect on the 
government and President Snow in particular. Not 
everyone. There are the old throwbacks, like Brutus and 
Enobaria, who are just here for another Games, and 
those too baffled or drugged or lost to join in on the 
attack. But there are enough victors who still have the 
wits and the nerve to come out fighting. 

Cashmere starts the ball rolling with a speech about 
how she just can't stop crying when she thinks of how 
much the people in the Capitol must be suffering 
because they will lose us. Gloss recalls the kindness 
shown here to him and his sister. Beetee questions the 
legality of the Quell in his nervous, twitchy way, 
wondering if it's been fully examined by experts of late. 
Finnick recites a poem he wrote to his one true love in 
the Capitol, and about a hundred people faint because 
they're sure he means them. By the time Johanna 
Mason gets up, she's asking if something can't be done 
about the situation. Surely the creators of the Quarter 
Quell never anticipated such love forming between the 
victors and the Capitol. No one could be so cruel as to 
sever such a deep bond. Seeder quietly ruminates about 
how, back in District 11, everyone assumes President 
Snow is all-powerful. So if he's all-powerful, why 
doesn't he change the Quell? And Chaff, who comes 
right on her heels, insists the president could change the 
Quell if he wanted to, but he must not think it matters 
much to anyone. 

By the time I'm introduced, the audience is an 
absolute wreck. People have been weeping and 
collapsing and even calling for change. The sight of me 
in my white silk bridal gown practically causes a riot. 

No more me, no more star-crossed lovers living happily 
ever after, no more wedding. I can see even Caesar's 
professionalism showing some cracks as he tries to 
quiet them so I can speak, but my three minutes are 
ticking quickly away. 

Finally there's a lull and he gets out, "So, Katniss, 
obviously this is a very emotional night for everyone. Is 
there anything you'd like to say?" 

My voice trembles as I speak. "Only that I'm so sorry 
you won't get to be at my wedding ... but I'm glad you 
at least get to see me in my dress. Isn't it just ... the 
most beautiful thing?" I don't have to look at Cinna for 
a signal. I know this is the right time. I begin to twirl 
slowly, raising the sleeves of my heavy gown above my 

When I hear the screams of the crowd, I think it's 
because I must look stunning. Then I notice something 
is rising up around me. Smoke. From fire. Not the 
flickery stuff I wore last year in the chariot, but 
something much more real that devours my dress. I 
begin to panic as the smoke thickens. Charred bits of 
black silk swirl into the air, and pearls clatter to the 
stage. Somehow I'm afraid to stop because my flesh 
doesn't seem to be burning and I know Cinna must be 

behind whatever is happening. So I keep spinning and 
spinning. For a split second I'm gasping, completely 
engulfed in the strange flames. Then all at once, the fire 
is gone. I slowly come to a stop, wondering if Tm naked 
and why Cinna has arranged to burn away my wedding 

But I'm not naked. I'm in a dress of the exact design of 
my wedding dress, only it's the color of coal and made 
of tiny feathers. Wonderingly, I lift my long, flowing 
sleeves into the air, and that's when I see myself on the 
television screen. Clothed in black except for the white 
patches on my sleeves. Or should I say my wings. 

Because Cinna has turned me into a mockingjay. 


I'm still smoldering a little, so it's with a tentative 
hand that Caesar reaches out to touch my headpiece. 
The white has burned away, leaving a smooth, fitted 
veil of black that drapes into the neckline of the dress in 
the back. "Feathers," says Caesar. "You're like a bird." 

"A mocking] ay, I think," I say, giving my wings a 
small flap. "It's the bird on the pin I wear as a token." 

A shadow of recognition flickers across Caesar's face, 
and I can tell he knows that the mockingjay isn't just 
my token. That it's come to symbolize so much more. 
That what will be seen as a flashy costume change in 
the Capitol is resonating in an entirely different way 
throughout the districts. But he makes the best of it. 

"Well, hats off to your stylist. I don't think anyone can 
argue that that's not the most spectacular thing we've 
ever seen in an interview. Cinna, I think you better take 
a bow!" Caesar gestures for Cinna to rise. He does, and 
makes a small, gracious bow. And suddenly I am so 
afraid for him. What has he done? Something terribly 

dangerous. An act of rebellion in itself. And he's done it 
for me. I remember his words ... 

"Don't worry. I always channel my emotions into my 
work. That way I don't hurt anyone but myself. " 

... and I'm afraid he has hurt himself beyond repair. 
The significance of my fiery transformation will not be 
lost on President Snow. 

The audience, who's been stunned into silence, breaks 
into wild applause. I can barely hear the buzzer that 
indicates that my three minutes are up. Caesar thanks 
me and I go back to my seat, my dress now feeling 
lighter than air. 

As I pass Peeta, who's headed for his interview, he 
doesn't meet my eyes. I take my seat carefully, but 
aside from the puffs of smoke here and there, I seem 
unharmed, so I turn my attention to him. 

Caesar and Peeta have been a natural team since they 
first appeared together a year ago. Their easy give-and- 
take, comic timing, and ability to segue into heart- 
wrenching moments, like Peeta's confession of love for 
me, have made them a huge success with the audience. 
They effortlessly open with a few jokes about fires and 
feathers and overcooking poultry. But anyone can see 

that Peeta is preoccupied, so Caesar directs the 
conversation right into the subject that's on everyone's 

"So, Peeta, what was it like when, after all you've 
been through, you found out about the Quell?" asks 

"I was in shock. I mean, one minute I'm seeing 
Katniss looking so beautiful in all these wedding 
gowns, and the next ..." Peeta trails off. 

"You realized there was never going to be a 
wedding?" asks Caesar gently. 

Peeta pauses for a long moment, as if deciding 
something. He looks out at the spellbound audience, 
then at tin floor, then finally up at Caesar. "Caesar, do 
you think all our friends here can keep a secret?" 

An uncomfortable laugh emanates from the audience. 
What can he mean? Keep a secret from who? Our 
whole world is watching. 

"I feel quite certain of it," says Caesar. 

"We're already married," says Peeta quietly. The 
crowd reacts in astonishment, and I have to bury my 

face in the folds of my skirt so they can't see my 
confusion. Where on earth is he going with this? 

"But ... how can that be?" asks Caesar. 

"Oh, it's not an official marriage. We didn't go to the 
Justice Building or anything. But we have this marriage 
ritual in District Twelve. I don't know what it's like in 
the other districts. But there's this thing we do," says 
Peeta, and he briefly describes the toasting. 

"Were your families there?" asks Caesar. 

"No, we didn't tell anyone. Not even Haymitch. And 
Katniss's mother would never have approved. But you 
see, we knew if we were married in the Capitol, there 
wouldn't be a toasting. And neither of us really wanted 
to wait any longer. So one day, we just did it," Peeta 
says. "And to us, we're more married than any piece of 
paper or big party could make us." 

"So this was before the Quell?" says Caesar. 

"Of course before the Quell. I'm sure we'd never have 
done it after we knew," says Peeta, starting to get upset. 
"But who could've seen it coming? No one. We went 
through the Games, we were victors, everyone seemed 
so thrilled to see us together, and then out of nowhere — 
I mean, how could we anticipate a thing like that?" 

"You couldn't, Peeta." Caesar puts an arm around his 
shoulders. "As you say, no one couldVe. But I have to 
confess, I'm glad you two had at least a few months of 
happiness together." 

Enormous applause. As if encouraged, I look up from 
my feathers and let the audience see my tragic smile of 
thanks. The residual smoke from the feathers has made 
my eyes teary, which adds a very nice touch. 

"I'm not glad," says Peeta. "I wish we had waited until 
the whole thing was done officially." 

This takes even Caesar aback. "Surely even a brief 
time is better than no time?" 

"Maybe I'd think that, too, Caesar," says Peeta 
bitterly, "if it weren't for the baby." 

There. He's done it again. Dropped a bomb that wipes 
out the efforts of every tribute who came before him. 
Well, maybe not. Maybe this year he has only lit the 
fuse on a bomb that the victors themselves have been 
building. Hoping someone would be able to detonate it. 
Perhaps thinking it would be me in my bridal gown. 
Not knowing how much I rely on Cinna's talents, 
whereas Peeta needs nothing more than his wits. 

As the bomb explodes, it sends accusations of 
injustice and barbarism and cruelty flying out in every 
direction. Even the most Capitol-loving, Games- 
hungry, bloodthirsty person out there can't ignore, at 
least for a moment, how horrific the whole thing is. 

I am pregnant. 

The audience can't absorb the news right away. It has 
to strike them and sink in and be confirmed by other 
voices before they begin to sound like a herd of 
wounded animals, moaning, shrieking, calling for help. 
And me? I know my face is projected in a tight close-up 
on the screen, but I don't make any effort to hide it. 
Because for a moment, even I am working through 
what Peeta has said. Isn't it the thing I dreaded most 
about the wedding, about the future — the loss of my 
children to the Games? And it could be true now, 
couldn't it? If I hadn't spent my life building up layers 
of defenses until I recoil at even the suggestion of 
marriage or a family? 

Caesar can't rein in the crowd again, not even when 
the buzzer sounds. Peeta nods his good-bye and comes 
back to his seat without any more conversation. I can 
see Caesar's lips moving, but the place is in total chaos 
and I can't hear a word. Only the blast of the anthem, 

cranked up so loud I can feel it vibrating through my 
bones, lets us know where we stand in the program. I 
automatically rise and, as I do, I sense Peeta reaching 
out for me. Tears run down his face as I take his hand. 
How real are the tears? Is this an acknowledgment that 
he has been stalked by the same fears that I have? That 
every victor has? Every parent in every district in 

I look back to the crowd, but the faces of Rue's mother 
and father swim before my eyes. Their sorrow. Their 
loss. I turn spontaneously to Chaff and offer my hand. I 
feel my fingers close around the stump that now 
completes his arm and hold fast. 

And then it happens. Up and down the row, the victors 
begin to join hands. Some right away, like the 
morphlings, or Wiress and Beetee. Others unsure but 
caught up in the demands of those around them, like 
Brutus and Enobaria. By the time the anthem plays its 
final strains, all twenty- four of us stand in one unbroken 
line in what must be the first public show of unity 
among the districts since the Dark Days. You can see 
the realization of this as the screens begin to pop into 
blackness. It's too late, though. In the confusion they 
didn't cut us off in time. Everyone has seen. 

There's disorder on the stage now, too, as the lights go 
out and we're left to stumble back into the Training 
Center. I've lost hold of Chaff, but Peeta guides me into 
an elevator. Finnick and Johanna try to join us, but a 
harried Peacekeeper blocks their way and we shoot 
upward alone. 

The moment we step off the elevator, Peeta grips my 
shoulders. 'There isn't much time, so tell me. Is there 
anything I have to apologize for?" 

"Nothing," I say. It was a big leap to take without my 
okay, but I'm just as glad I didn't know, didn't have time 
to second-guess him, to let any guilt over Gale detract 
from how I really feel about what Peeta did. Which is 

Somewhere, very far off, is a place called District 12, 
where my mother and sister and friends will have to 
deal with the fallout from this night. Just a brief 
hovercraft ride away is an arena where, tomorrow, 
Peeta and I and the other tributes will face our own 
form of punishment. But even if all of us meet terrible 
ends, something happened on that stage tonight that 
can't be undone. We victors staged our own uprising, 
and maybe, just maybe, the Capitol won't be able to 
contain this one. 

We wait for the others to return, but when the elevator 
opens, only Haymitch appears. "It's madness out there. 
Everyone's been sent home and they've canceled the 
recap of the interviews on television." 

Peeta and I hurry to the window and try to make sense 
of the commotion far below us on the streets. "What are 
they saying?" Peeta asks. "Are they asking the 
president to stop the Games?" 

"I don't think they know themselves what to ask. The 
whole situation is unprecedented. Even the idea of 
opposing the Capitol's agenda is a source of confusion 
for the people here," says Haymitch. "But there's no 
way Snow would cancel the Games. You know that, 

I do. Of course, he could never back down now. The 
only option left to him is to strike back, and strike back 
hard. "The others went home?" I ask. 

"They were ordered to. I don't know how much luck 
they're having getting through the mob," says 

"Then we'll never see Effie again," says Peeta. We 
didn't see her on the morning of the Games last year. 
"You'll give her our thanks." 

"More than that. Really make it special. It's Effie, 
after all," I say. 'Tell her how appreciative we are and 
how she was the best escort ever and tell her ... tell her 
we send our love." 

For a while we just stand there in silence, delaying the 
inevitable. Then Haymitch says it. "I guess this is 
where we say our good-byes as well." 

"Any last words of advice?" Peeta asks. 

"Stay alive," Haymitch says gruffly. That's almost an 
old joke with us now. He gives us each a quick 
embrace, and I can tell it's all he can stand. "Go to bed. 
You need your rest." 

I know I should say a whole bunch of things to 
Haymitch, but I can't think of anything he doesn't 
already know, really, and my throat is so tight I doubt 
anything would come out, anyway. So, once again, I let 
Peeta speak for us both. 

"You take care, Haymitch," he says. 

We cross the room, but in the doorway, Haymitch's 
voice stops us. "Katniss, when you're in the arena," he 
begins. Then he pauses. He's scowling in a way that 
makes me sure I've already disappointed him. 

"What?" I ask defensively. 

"You just remember who the enemy is," Haymitch 
tells me. 'That's all. Now go on. Get out of here." 

We walk down the hallway. Peeta wants to stop by his 
room to shower off the makeup and meet me in a few 
minutes, but I won't let him. I'm certain that if a door 
shuts between us, it will lock and 111 have to spend the 
night without him. Besides, I have a shower in my 
room. I refuse to let go of his hand. 

Do we sleep? I don't know. We spend the night 
holding each other, in some halfway land between 
dreams and waking. Not talking. Both afraid to disturb 
the other in the hope that well be able to store up a few 
precious minutes of rest. 

Cinna and Portia arrive with the dawn, and I know 
Peeta will have to go. Tributes enter the arena alone. He 
gives me a light kiss. "See you soon," he says. 

"See you soon," I answer. 

Cinna, who will help dress me for the Games, 
accompanies me to the roof. I'm about to mount the 
ladder to the hovercraft when I remember. "I didn't say 
good-bye to Portia." 

"I'll tell her," says Cinna. 

The electric current freezes me in place on the ladder 
until the doctor injects the tracker into my left forearm. 
Now they will always be able to locate me in the arena. 
The hovercraft takes off, and I look out the windows 
until they black out. Cinna keeps pressing me to eat 
and, when that fails, to drink. I manage to keep sipping 
water, thinking of the days of dehydration that almost 
killed me last year. Thinking of how I will need my 
strength to keep Peeta alive. 

When we reach the Launch Room at the arena, I 
shower. Cinna braids my hair down my back and helps 
me dress over simple undergarments. This year's tribute 
outfit is a fitted blue jumpsuit, made of very sheer 
material, that zippers up the front. A six-inch-wide 
padded belt covered in shiny purple plastic. A pair of 
nylon shoes with rubber soles. 

"What do you think?" I ask, holding the fabric out for 
Cinna to examine. 

He frowns as he rubs the thin stuff between his 
fingers. "I don't know. It will offer little in the way of 
protection from cold or water." 

"Sun?" I ask, picturing a burning sun over a barren 

"Possibly. If it's been treated," he says. "Oh, I almost 
forgot this." He takes my gold mockingjay pin from his 
pocket and fixes it to the jumpsuit. 

"My dress was fantastic last night," I say. Fantastic 
and reckless. But Cinna must know that. 

"I thought you might like it," he says with a tight 

We sit, as we did last year, holding hands until the 
voice tells me to prepare for the launch. He walks me 
over to the circular metal plate and zips up the neck of 
my jumpsuit securely. "Remember, girl on fire," he 
says, "I'm still betting on you." He kisses my forehead 
and steps back as the glass cylinder slides down around 

"Thank you," I say, although he probably can't hear 
me. I lift my chin, holding my head high the way he 
always tells me to, and wait for the plate to rise. But it 
doesn't. And it still doesn't. 

I look at Cinna, raising my eyebrows for an 
explanation. He just gives his head a slight shake, as 
perplexed as I am. Why are they delaying this? 

Suddenly the door behind him bursts open and three 
Peacekeepers spring into the room. Two pin Cinna's 
arms behind him and cuff him while the third hits him 
in the temple with such force he's knocked to his knees. 
But they keep hitting him with metal-studded gloves, 
opening gashes on his face and body. I'm screaming my 
head off, banging on the unyielding glass, trying to 
reach him. The Peacekeepers ignore me completely as 
they drag Cinna's limp body from the room. All that's 
left are the smears of blood on the floor. 

Sickened and terrified, I feel the plate begin to rise. 
I'm still leaning against the glass when the breeze 
catches my hair and I force myself to straighten up. Just 
in time, too, because the glass is retreating and I'm 
standing free in the arena. Something seems to be 
wrong with my vision. The ground is too bright and 
shiny and keeps undulating. I squint down at my feet 
and see that my metal plate is surrounded by blue 
waves that lap up over my boots. Slowly I raise my 
eyes and take in the water spreading out in every 

I can only form one clear thought. 

This is no place for a girl on fire. 




"Ladies and gentlemen, let the Seventy-fifth Hunger 
Games begin!" The voice of Claudius Templesmith, the 
Hunger Games announcer, hammers my ears. I have 
less than a minute to get my bearings. Then the gong 
will sound and the tributes will be free to move off their 
metal plates. But move where? 

I can't think straight. The image of Cinna, beaten and 
bloody, consumes me. Where is he now? What are they 
doing to him? Torturing him? Killing him? Turning him 
into an Avox? Obviously his assault was staged to 
unhinge me, the same way Darius's presence in my 
quarters was. And it has unhinged me. All I want to do 
is collapse on my metal plate. But I can hardly do that 
after what I just witnessed. I must be strong. I owe it to 
Cinna, who risked everything by undermining President 
Snow and turning my bridal silk into mocking] ay 
plumage. And I owe it to the rebels who, emboldened 

by Cinna's example, might be fighting to bring down 
the Capitol at this moment. My refusal to play the 
Games on the Capitol's terms is to be my last act of 
rebellion. So I grit my teeth and will myself to be a 

Where are you? I can still make no sense of my 
surroundings. Where are you?! I demand an answer 
from myself and slowly the world comes into focus. 
Blue water. Pink sky. White-hot sun beating down. All 
right, there's the Cornucopia, the shining gold metal 
horn, about forty yards away. At first, it appears to be 
sitting on a circular island. But on closer examination, I 
see the thin strips of land radiating from the circle like 
the spokes on a wheel. I think there are ten to twelve, 
and they seem equidistant from one another. Between 
the spokes, all is water. Water and a pair of tributes. 

That's it, then. There are twelve spokes, each with two 
tributes balanced on metal plates between them. The 
other tribute in my watery wedge is old Woof from 
District 8. He's about as far to my right as the land strip 
on my left. Beyond the water, wherever you look, a 
narrow beach and then dense greenery. I scan the circle 
of tributes, looking for Peeta, but he must be blocked 
from my view by the Cornucopia. 

I catch a handful of water as it washes in and smell it. 
Then I touch the tip of my wet finger to my tongue. As 
I suspected, it's saltwater. Just like the waves Peeta and 
I encountered on our brief tour of the beach in District 
4. But at least it seems clean. 

There are no boats, no ropes, not even a bit of 
driftwood to cling to. No, there's only one way to get to 
the Cornucopia. When the gong sounds, I don't even 
hesitate before I dive to my left. It's a longer distance 
than I'm used to, and navigating the waves takes a little 
more skill than swimming across my quiet lake at 
home, but my body seems oddly light and I cut through 
the water effortlessly. Maybe it's the salt. I pull myself, 
dripping, onto the land strip and sprint down the sandy 
stretch for the Cornucopia. I can see no one else 
converging from my side, although the gold horn 
blocks a good portion of my view. I don't let the 
thought of adversaries slow me down, though. I'm 
thinking like a Career now, and the first thing I want is 
to get my hands on a weapon. 

Last year, the supplies were spread out quite a 
distance around the Cornucopia, with the most valuable 
closest to the horn. But this year, the booty seems to be 
piled at the twenty-foot-high mouth. My eyes instantly 

home in on a golden bow just in arm's reach and I yank 
it free. 

There's someone behind me. I'm alerted by, I don't 
know, a soft shift of sand or maybe just a change in the 
air currents. I pull an arrow from the sheath that's still 
wedged in the pile and arm my bow as I turn. 

Finnick, glistening and gorgeous, stands a few yards 
away, with a trident poised to attack. A net dangles 
from his other hand. He's smiling a little, but the 
muscles in his upper body are rigid in anticipation. 
"You can swim, too," he says. "Where did you learn 
that in District Twelve?" 

"We have a big bathtub," I answer. 

"You must," he says. "You like the arena?" 

"Not particularly. But you should. They must have 
built it especially for you," I say with an edge of 
bitterness. It seems like it, anyway, with all the water, 
when I bet only a handful of the victors can swim. And 
there was no pool in the Training Center, no chance to 
learn. Either you came in here a swimmer or you'd 
better be a really fast learner. Even participation in the 
initial bloodbath depends on being able to cover twenty 

yards of water. That gives District 4 an enormous 

For a moment we're frozen, sizing each other up, our 
weapons, our skill. Then Finnick suddenly grins. 
"Lucky thing we're allies. Right?" 

Sensing a trap, I'm about to let my arrow fly, hoping it 
finds his heart before the trident impales me, when he 
shifts his hand and something on his wrist catches the 
sunlight. A solid-gold bangle patterned with flames. 
The same one I remember on Haymitch's wrist the 
morning I began training. I briefly consider that Finnick 
could have stolen it to trick me, but somehow I know 
this isn't the case. Haymitch gave it to him. As a signal 
to me. An order, really. To trust Finnick. 

I can hear other footsteps approaching. I must decide 
at once. "Right!" I snap, because even though Haymitch 
is my mentor and trying to keep me alive, this angers 
me. Why didn't he tell me he'd made this arrangement 
before? Probably because Peeta and I had ruled out 
allies. Now Haymitch has chosen one on his own. 

"Duck!" Finnick commands in such a powerful voice, 
so different from his usual seductive purr, that I do. His 
trident goes whizzing over my head and there's a 
sickening sound of impact as it finds its target. The man 

from District 5, the drunk who threw up on the sword- 
fighting floor, sinks to his knees as Finnick frees the 
trident from his chest. "Don't trust One and Two," 
Finnick says. 

There's no time to question this. I work the sheath of 
arrows free. "Each take one side?" I say. He nods, and I 
dart around the pile. About four spokes apart, Enobaria 
and Gloss are just reaching land. Either they're slow 
swimmers or they thought the water might be laced 
with other dangers, which it might well be. Sometimes 
it's not good to consider too many scenarios. But now 
that they're on the sand, they'll be here in a matter of 

"Anything useful?" I hear Finnick shout. 

I quickly scan the pile on my side and find maces, 
swords, bows and arrows, tridents, knives, spears, axes, 
metallic objects I have no name for ... and nothing else. 

"Weapons!" I call back. "Nothing but weapons!" 

"Same here," he confirms. "Grab what you want and 
let's go!" 

I shoot an arrow at Enobaria, who's gotten in too close 
for comfort, but she's expecting it and dives back into 
the water before it can find its mark. Gloss isn't quite as 

swift, and I sink an arrow into his calf as he plunges 
into the waves. I sling an extra bow and a second sheath 
of arrows over my body, slide two long knives and an 
awl into my belt, and meet up with Finnick at the front 
of the pile. 

"Do something about that, would you?" he says. I see 
Brutus barreling toward us. His belt is undone and he 
has it stretched between his hands as a kind of shield. I 
shoot at him and he manages to block the arrow with 
his belt before it can skewer his liver. Where it 
punctures the belt, a purple liquid spews forth, coating 
his face. As I reload, Brutus flattens on the ground, rolls 
the few feet to the water, and submerges. There's a 
clang of metal falling behind me. "Let's clear out," I say 
to Finnick. 

This last altercation has given Enobaria and Gloss 
time to reach the Cornucopia. Brutus is within shooting 
distance and somewhere, certainly, Cashmere is nearby, 
too. These four classic Careers will no doubt have a 
prior alliance. If I had only my own safety to consider, I 
might be willing to take them on with Finnick by my 
side. But it's Peeta I'm thinking about. I spot him now, 
still stranded on his metal plate. I take off and Finnick 
follows without question, as if knowing this will be my 
next move. When I'm as close as I can get, I start 

removing knives from my belt, preparing to swim out to 
reach him and somehow bring him in. 

Finnick drops a hand on my shoulder. "Ill get him." 

Suspicion flickers up inside me. Could this all just be 
a ruse? For Finnick to win my trust and then swim out 
and drown Peeta? "I can," I insist. 

But Finnick has dropped all his weapons to the 
ground. "Better not exert yourself. Not in your 
condition," he says, and reaches down and pats my 

Oh, right. I'm supposed to be pregnant, I think. While 
I'm trying to think what that means and how I should 
act — maybe throw up or something — Finnick has 
positioned himself at the edge of the water. 

"Cover me," he says. He disappears with a flawless 

I raise my bow, warding off any attackers from the 
Cornucopia, but no one seems interested in pursuing us. 

Sure enough, Gloss, Cashmere, Enobaria, and Brutus 
have gathered, their pack formed already, picking over 
the weapons. A quick survey of the rest of the arena 
shows that most of the tributes are still trapped on their 

plates. Wait, no, there's someone standing on the spoke 
to my left, the one opposite Peeta. It's Mags. But she 
neither heads for the Cornucopia nor tries to flee. 
Instead she splashes into the water and starts paddling 
toward me, her gray head bobbing above the waves. 
Well, she's old, but I guess after eighty years of living 
in District 4 she can keep afloat. 

Finnick has reached Peeta now and is towing him 
back, one arm across his chest while the other propels 
them through the water with easy strokes. Peeta rides 
along without resisting. I don't know what Finnick said 
or did that convinced him to put his life in his hands — 
showed him the bangle, maybe. Or just the sight of me 
waiting might have been enough. When they reach the 
sand, I help haul Peeta up onto dry land. 

"Hello, again," he says, and gives me a kiss. "We've 
got allies." 

"Yes. Just as Haymitch intended," I answer. "Remind 
me, did we make deals with anyone else?" Peeta asks. 

"Only Mags, I think," I say. I nod toward the old 
woman doggedly making her way toward us. 

"Well, I can't leave Mags behind," says Finnick. 
"She's one of the few people who actually likes me." 

"I've got no problem with Mags," I say. "Especially 
now that I see the arena. Het fishhooks are probably our 
best chance of getting a meal." 

"Katniss wanted her on the first day," says Peeta. 

"Katniss has remarkably good judgment," says 
Finnick. With one hand he reaches into the water and 
scoops out Mags like she weighs no more than a puppy. 
She makes some remark that I think includes the word 
"bob," then pats her belt. 

"Look, she's right. Someone figured it out." Finnick 
points to Beetee. He's flailing around in the waves but 
managing to keep his head above water. 

"What?" I say. 

"The belts. They're flotation devices," says Finnick. "I 
mean, you have to propel yourself, but they'll keep you 
from drowning." 

I almost ask Finnick to wait, to get Beetee and Wiress 
and take them with us, but Beetee's three spokes over 
and I can't even see Wiress. For all I know, Finnick 
would kill them as quickly as he did the tribute from 5, 
so instead I suggest we move on. I hand Peeta a bow, a 
sheath of arrows, and a knife, keeping the rest for 
myself. But Mags tugs on my sleeve and babbles on 

until I've given the awl to her. Pleased, she clamps the 
handle between her gums and reaches her arms up to 
Finnick. He tosses his net over his shoulder, hoists 
Mags on top of it, grips his tridents in his free hand, and 
we run away from the Cornucopia. 

Where the sand ends, woods begin to rise sharply. No, 
not really woods. At least not the kind I know. Jungle. 
The foreign, almost obsolete word comes to mind. 
Something I heard from another Hunger Games or 
learned from my father. Most of the trees are 
unfamiliar, with smooth trunks and few branches. The 
earth is very black and spongy underfoot, often 
obscured by tangles of vines with colorful blossoms. 
While the sun's hot and bright, the air's warm and heavy 
with moisture, and I get the feeling I will never really 
be dry here. The thin blue fabric of my jumpsuit lets the 
seawater evaporate easily, but it's already begun to 
cling to me with sweat. 

Peeta takes the lead, cutting through the patches of 
dense vegetation with his long knife. I make Finnick go 
second because even though he's the most powerful, 
he's got his hands full with Mags. Besides, while he's a 
whiz with that trident, it's a weapon less suited to the 
jungle than my arrows. It doesn't take long, between the 
steep incline and the heat, to become short of breath. 

Peeta and I have been training intensely, though, and 
Finnick's such an amazing physical specimen that even 
with Mags over his shoulder, we climb rapidly for 
about a mile before he requests a rest. And then I think 
it's more for Mags's sake than his own. 

The foliage has hidden the wheel from sight, so I scale 
a tree with rubbery limbs to get a better view. And then 
wish that I hadn't. 

Around the Cornucopia, the ground appears to be 
bleeding; the water has purple stains. Bodies lie on the 
ground and float in the sea, but at this distance, with 
everyone dressed exactly the same, I can't tell who lives 
or dies. All I can tell is that some of the tiny blue 
figures still battle. Well, what did I think? That the 
victors' chain of locked hands last night would result in 
some sort of universal truce in the arena? No, I never 
believed that. But I guess I had hoped people might 
show some ... what? Restraint? Reluctance, at least. 
Before they jumped right into massacre mode. And you 
all knew each other, I think. You acted like friends. 

I have only one real friend in here. And he isn't from 
District 4. 

I let the slight, soupy breeze cool my cheeks while I 
come to a decision. Despite the bangle, I should just get 

it over with and shoot Finnick. There's really no future 
in this alliance. And he's too dangerous to let go. Now, 
when we have this tentative trust, may be my only 
chance to kill him. I could easily shoot him in the back 
as we walk. It's despicable, of course, but will it be any 
more despicable if I wait? Know him better? Owe him 
more? No, this is the time. I take one last look at the 
battling figures, the bloody ground, to harden my 
resolve, and then slide to the ground. 

But when I land, I find Finnick's kept pace with my 
thoughts. As if he knows what I have seen and how it 
will have affected me. He has one of his tridents raised 
in a casually defensive position. 

"What's going on down there, Katniss? Have they all 
joined hands? Taken a vow of nonviolence? Tossed the 
weapons in the sea in defiance of the Capitol?" Finnick 

"No," I say. 

"No," Finnick repeats. "Because whatever happened 
in the past is in the past. And no one in this arena was a 
victor by chance." He eyes Peeta for a moment. 
"Except maybe Peeta." 

Finnick knows then what Haymitch and I know. 
About Peeta. Being truly, deep-down better than the 
rest of us. Finnick took out that tribute from 5 without 
blinking an eye. And how long did I take to turn 
deadly? I shot to kill when I targeted Enobaria and 
Gloss and Brutus. Peeta would at least have attempted 
negotiations first. Seen if some wider alliance was 
possible. But to what end? Finnick's right. I'm right. 
The people in this arena weren't crowned for their 

I hold his gaze, weighing his speed against my own. 
The time it will take to send an arrow through his brain 
versus the time his trident will reach my body. I can see 
him, waiting for me to make the first move. Calculating 
if he should block first or go directly for an attack. I can 
feel we've both about worked it out when Peeta steps 
deliberately between us. 

"So how many are dead?" he asks. 

Move, you idiot, I think. But he remains planted firmly 
between us. 

"Hard to say," I answer. "At least six, I think. And 
they're still fighting." 

"Let's keep moving. We need water," he says. 

So far there's been no sign of a freshwater stream or 
pond, and the saltwater's undrinkable. Again, I think of 
the last Games, where I nearly died of dehydration. 

"Better find some soon," says Finnick. "We need to 
be undercover when the others come hunting us 

We. Us. Hunting. All right, maybe killing Finnick 
would be a little premature. He's been helpful so far. He 
does have Haymitch's stamp of approval. And who 
knows what the night will hold? If worse comes to 
worst, I can always kill him in his sleep. So I let the 
moment pass. And so does Finnick. 

The absence of water intensifies my thirst. I keep a 
sharp eye out as we continue our trek upward, but with 
no luck. After about another mile, I can see an end to 
the tree line and assume we're reaching the crest of the 
hill. "Maybe we'll have better luck on the other side. 
Find a spring or something." 

But there is no other side. I know this before anyone 
else, even though I am farthest from the top. My eyes 
catch on a funny, rippling square hanging like a warped 
pane of glass in the air. At first I think it's the glare 
from the sun or the heat shimmering up off the ground. 
But it's fixed in space, not shifting when I move. And 

that's when I connect the square with Wiress and Beetee 
in the Training Center and realize what lies before us. 
My warning cry is just reaching my lips when Peeta's 
knife swings out to slash away some vines. 

There's a sharp zapping sound. For an instant, the 
trees are gone and I see open space over a short stretch 
of bare earth. Then Peeta's flung back from the force 
field, bringing Finnick and Mags to the ground. 

I rush over to where he lies, motionless in a web of 
vines. "Peeta?" There's a faint smell of singed hair. I 
call his name again, giving him a little shake, but he's 
unresponsive. My fingers fumble across his lips, where 
there's no warm breath although moments ago he was 
panting. I press my ear against his chest, to the spot 
where I always rest my head, where I know I will hear 
the strong and steady beat of his heart. 

Instead, I find silence. 


"Peeta!" I scream. I shake him harder, even resort to 
slapping his face, but it's no use. His heart has failed. I 
am slapping emptiness. "Peeta!" 

Finnick props Mags against a tree and pushes me out 
of the way. "Let me." His fingers touch points at Peeta's 
neck, run over the bones in his ribs and spine. Then he 
pinches Peeta's nostrils shut. 

"No!" I yell, hurling myself at Finnick, for surely he 
intends to make certain that Peeta's dead, to keep any 
hope of life from returning to him. Finnick's hand 
comes up and hits me so hard, so squarely in the chest 
that I go flying back into a nearby tree trunk. I'm 
stunned for a moment, by the pain, by trying to regain 
my wind, as I see Finnick close off Peeta's nose again. 
From where I sit, I pull an arrow, whip the notch into 
place, and am about to let it fly when I'm stopped by the 
sight of Finnick kissing Peeta. And it's so bizarre, even 
for Finnick, that I stay my hand. No, he's not kissing 
him. He's got Peeta's nose blocked off but his mouth 
tilted open, and he's blowing air into his lungs. I can see 

this, I can actually see Peeta's chest rising and falling. 
Then Finnick unzips the top of Peeta's jumpsuit and 
begins to pump the spot over his heart with the heels of 
his hands. Now that I've gotten through my shock, I 
understand what he's trying to do. 

Once in a blue moon, I've seen my mother try 
something similar, but not often. If your heart fails in 
District 12, it's unlikely your family could get you to 
my mother in time, anyway. So her usual patients are 
burned or wounded or ill. Or starving, of course. 

But Finnick' s world is different. Whatever he's doing, 
he's done it before. There's a very set rhythm and 
method. And I find the arrow tip sinking to the ground 
as I lean in to watch, desperately, for some sign of 
success. Agonizing minutes drag past as my hopes 
diminish. Around the time that I'm deciding it's too late, 
that Peeta's dead, moved on, unreachable forever, he 
gives a small cough and Finnick sits back. 

I leave my weapons in the dirt as I fling myself at 
him. "Peeta?" I say softly. I brush the damp blond 
strands of hair back from his forehead, find the pulse 
drumming against my fingers at his neck. 

His lashes flutter open and his eyes meet mine. 
"Careful," he says weakly. 'There's a force field up 

I laugh, but there are tears running down my cheeks. 

"Must be a lot stronger than the one on the Training 
Center roof," he says. "I'm all right, though. Just a little 

"You were dead! Your heart stopped!" I burst out, 
before really considering if this is a good idea. I clap 
my hand over my mouth because I'm starting to make 
those awful choking sounds that happen when I sob. 

"Well, it seems to be working now," he says. "It's all 
right, Katniss." I nod my head but the sounds aren't 

"Katniss?" Now Peeta's worried about me, which adds 
to the insanity of it all. 

"It's okay. It's just her hormones," says Finnick. 
"From the baby." I look up and see him, sitting back on 
his knees but still panting a bit from the climb and the 
heat and the effort of bringing Peeta back from the 

"No. It's not — " I get out, but I'm cut off by an even 
more hysterical round of sobbing that seems only to 
confirm what Finnick said about the baby. He meets my 
eyes and I glare at him through my tears. It's stupid, I 
know, that his efforts make me so vexed. All I wanted 
was to keep Peeta alive, and I couldn't and Finnick 
could, and I should be nothing but grateful. And I am. 
But I am also furious because it means that I will never 
stop owing Finnick Odair. Ever. So how can I kill him 
in his sleep? 

I expect to see a smug or sarcastic expression on his 
face, but his look is strangely quizzical. He glances 
between Peeta and me, as if trying to figure something 
out, then gives his head a slight shake as if to clear it. 
"How are you?" he asks Peeta. "Do you think you can 
move on?" 

"No, he has to rest," I say. My nose is running like 
crazy and I don't even have a shred of fabric to use as a 
handkerchief. Mags rips off a handful of hanging moss 
from a tree limb and gives it to me. I'm too much of a 
mess to even question it. I blow my nose loudly and 
mop the tears off my face. It's nice, the moss. 
Absorbent and surprisingly soft. 

I notice a gleam of gold on Peeta's chest. I reach out 
and retrieve the disk that hangs from a chain around his 
neck. My mockingjay has been engraved on it. "Is this 
your token?" I ask. 

"Yes. Do you mind that I used your mockingjay? I 
wanted us to match," he says. 

"No, of course I don't mind." I force a smile. Peeta 
showing up in the arena wearing a mockingjay is both a 
blessing and a curse. On the one hand, it should give a 
boost to the rebels in the district. On the other, it's hard 
to imagine President Snow will overlook it, and that 
makes the job of keeping Peeta alive harder. 

"So you want to make camp here, then?" Finnick 

"I don't think that's an option," Peeta answers. 
"Staying here. With no water. No protection. I feel all 
right, really. If we could just go slowly." 

"Slowly would be better than not at all." Finnick helps 
Peeta to his feet while I pull myself together. Since I 
got up this morning I've watched Cinna beaten to a 
pulp, landed in another arena, and seen Peeta die. Still, 
I'm glad Finnick keeps playing the pregnancy card for 

me, because from a sponsor's point of view, I'm not 
handling things all that well. 

I check over my weapons, which I know are in perfect 
condition, because it makes me seem more in control. 
"Ill take the lead," I announce. 

Peeta starts to object but Finnick cuts him off. "No, let 
her do it." He frowns at me. "You knew that force field 
was there, didn't you? Right at the last second? You 
started to give a warning." I nod. "How did you know?" 

I hesitate. To reveal that I know Beetee and Wiress's 
trick of recognizing a force field could be dangerous. I 
don't know if the Gamemakers made note of that 
moment during training when the two pointed it out to 
me or not. One way or the other, I have a very valuable 
piece of information. And if they know I have it, they 
might do something to alter the force field so I can't see 
the aberration anymore. So I lie. "I don't know. It's 
almost as if I could hear it. Listen." We all become still. 
There's the sound of insects, birds, the breeze in the 

"I don't hear anything," says Peeta. 

"Yes," I insist, "it's like when the fence around 
District Twelve is on, only much, much quieter." 

Everyone listens again intently. I do, too, although 
there's nothing to hear. "There!" I say. "Can't you hear 
it? It's coming from right where Peeta got shocked." 

"I don't hear it, either," says Finnick. "But if you do, 
by all means, take the lead." 

I decide to play this for all it's worth. "That's weird," I 
say. I turn my head from side to side as if puzzled. "I 
can only hear it out of my left ear." 

"The one the doctors reconstructed?" asks Peeta. 

"Yeah," I say, then give a shrug. "Maybe they did a 
better job than they thought. You know, sometimes I do 
hear funny things on that side. Things you wouldn't 
ordinarily think have a sound. Like insect wings. Or 
snow hitting the ground." Perfect. Now all the attention 
will turn to the surgeons who fixed my deaf ear after 
the Games last year, and they'll have to explain why I 
can hear like a bat. 

"You," says Mags, nudging me forward, so I take the 
lead. Since we're to be moving slowly, Mags prefers to 
walk with the aid of a branch Finnick quickly fashions 
into a cane for her. He makes a staff for Peeta as well, 
which is good because, despite his protestations, I think 

all Peeta really wants to do is lie down. Finnick brings 
up the rear, so at least someone alert has our backs. 

I walk with the force field on my left, because that's 
supposed to be the side with my superhuman ear. But 
since that's all made up, I cut down a bunch of hard nuts 
that hang like grapes from a nearby tree and toss them 
ahead of me as I go. It's good I do, too, because I have a 
feeling I'm missing the patches that indicate the force 
field more often than I'm spotting them. Whenever a 
nut hits the force field, there's a puff of smoke before 
the nut lands, blackened and with a cracked shell, on 
the ground at my feet. 

After a few minutes I become aware of a smacking 
sound behind me and turn to see Mags peeling the shell 
off one of the nuts and popping it in her already-full 
mouth. "Mags!" I cry. "Spit that out. It could be 

She mumbles something and ignores me, licking her 
lips with apparent relish. I look to Finnick for help but 
he just laughs. "I guess we'll find out," he says. 

I go forward, wondering about Finnick, who saved old 
Mags but will let her eat strange nuts. Who Haymitch 
has stamped with his seal of approval. Who brought 
Peeta back from the dead. Why didn't he just let him 

die? He would have been blameless. I never would have 
guessed it was in his power to revive him. Why could 
he possibly have wanted to save Peeta? And why was 
he so determined to team up with me? Willing to kill 
me, too, if it comes to that. But leaving the choice of if 
we fight to me. 

I keep walking, tossing my nuts, sometimes catching a 
glimpse of the force field, trying to press to the left to 
find a spot where we can break through, get away from 
the Cornucopia, and hopefully find water. But after 
another hour or so of this I realize it's futile. We're not 
making any progress to the left. In fact, the force field 
seems to be herding us along a curved path. I stop and 
look back at Mags's limping form, the sheen of sweat 
on Peeta's face. "Let's take a break," I say. "I need to 
get another look from above." 

The tree I choose seems to jut higher into the air than 
the others. I make my way up the twisting boughs, 
staying as close to the trunk as possible. No telling how 
easily these rubbery branches will snap. Still I climb 
beyond good sense because there's something I have to 
see. As I cling to a stretch of trunk no wider than a 
sapling, swaying back and forth in the humid breeze, 
my suspicions are confirmed. There's a reason we can't 
turn to the left, will never be able to. From this 

precarious vantage point, I can see the shape of the 
whole arena for the first time. A perfect circle. With a 
perfect wheel in the middle. The sky above the 
circumference of the jungle is tinged a uniform pink. 
And I think I can make out one or two of those wavy 
squares, chinks in the armor, Wiress and Beetee called 
them, because they reveal what was meant to be hidden 
and are therefore a weakness. Just to make absolutely 
sure, I shoot an arrow into the empty space above the 
tree line. There's a spurt of light, a flash of real blue 
sky, and the arrow's thrown back into the jungle. I 
climb down to give the others the bad news. 

'The force field has us trapped in a circle. A dome, 
really. I don't know how high it goes. There's the 
Cornucopia, the sea, and then the jungle all around. 
Very exact. Very symmetrical. And not very large," I 

"Did you see any water?" asks Finnick. 

"Only the saltwater where we started the Games," I 

'There must be some other source," says Peeta, 
frowning. "Or we'll all be dead in a matter of days." 

"Well, the foliage is thick. Maybe there are ponds or 
springs somewhere," I say doubtfully. I instinctively 
feel the Capitol might want these unpopular Games 
over as soon as possible. Plutarch Heavensbee might 
have already been given orders to knock us off. "At any 
rate, there's no point in trying to find out what's over the 
edge of this hill, because the answer is nothing." 

'There must be drinkable water between the force 
field and the wheel," Peeta insists. We all know what 
this means. Heading back down. Heading back to the 
Careers and the bloodshed. With Mags hardly able to 
walk and Peeta too weak to fight. 

We decide to move down the slope a few hundred 
yards and continue circling. See if maybe there's some 
water at that level. I stay in the lead, occasionally 
chucking a nut to my left, but we're well out of range of 
the force field now. The sun beats down on us, turning 
the air to steam, playing tricks on our eyes. By 
midafternoon, it's clear Peeta and Mags can't go on. 

Finnick chooses a campsite about ten yards below the 
force field, saying we can use it as a weapon by 
deflecting our enemies into it if attacked. Then he and 
Mags pull blades of the sharp grass that grows in five- 
foot-high tufts and begin to weave them together into 

mats. Since Mags seems to have no ill effects from the 
nuts, Peeta collects bunches of them and fries them by 
bouncing them off the force field. He methodically 
peels off the shells, piling the meats on a leaf. I stand 
guard, fidgety and hot and raw with the emotions of the 

Thirsty. I am so thirsty. Finally I can't stand it 
anymore. "Finnick, why don't you stand guard and I'll 
hunt around some more for water," I say. No one's 
thrilled with the idea of me going off alone, but the 
threat of dehydration hangs over us. 

"Don't worry, I won't go far," I promise Peeta. "I'll go, 
too," he says. 

"No, I'm going to do some hunting if I can," I tell him. 
I don't add, "And you can't come because you're too 
loud." But it's implied. He would both scare off prey 
and endanger me with his heavy tread. "I won't be 

I move stealthily through the trees, happy to find that 
the ground lends itself to soundless footsteps. I work 
my way down at a diagonal, but I find nothing except 
more lush, green plant life. 

The sound of the cannon brings me to a halt. The 
initial bloodbath at the Cornucopia must be over. The 
death toll of the tributes is now available. I count the 
shots, each representing one dead victor. Eight. Not as 
many as last year. But it seems like more since I know 
most of their names. 

Suddenly weak, I lean against a tree to rest, feeling the 
heat draw the moisture from my body like a sponge. 
Already, swallowing is difficult and fatigue is creeping 
up on me. I try rubbing my hand across my belly, 
hoping some sympathetic pregnant woman will become 
my sponsor and Haymitch can send in some water. No 
luck. I sink to the ground. 

In my stillness, I begin to notice the animals: strange 
birds with brilliant plumage, tree lizards with flickering 
blue tongues, and something that looks like a cross 
between a rat and a possum clinging on the branches 
close to the trunk. I shoot one of the latter out of a tree 
to get a closer look. 

It's ugly, all right, a big rodent with a fuzz of mottled 
gray fur and two wicked-looking gnawing teeth 
protruding over its lower lip. As I'm gutting and 
skinning it, I notice something else. Its muzzle is wet. 
Like an animal that's been drinking from a stream. 

Excited, I start at its home tree and move slowly out in 
a spiral. It can't be far, the creature's water source. 

Nothing. I find nothing. Not so much as a dewdrop. 
Eventually, because I know Peeta will be worried about 
me, I head back to the camp, hotter and more frustrated 
than ever. 

When I arrive, I see the others have transformed the 
place. Mags and Finnick have created a hut of sorts out 
of the grass mats, open on one side but with three walls, 
a floor, and a roof. Mags has also plaited several bowls 
that Peeta has filled with roasted nuts. Their faces turn 
to me hopefully, but I give my head a shake. "No. No 
water. It's out there, though. He knew where it was," I 
say, hoisting the skinned rodent up for all to see. "He'd 
been drinking recently when I shot him out of a tree, 
but I couldn't find his source. I swear, I covered every 
inch of ground in a thirty-yard radius." 

"Can we eat him?" Peeta asks. 

"I don't know for sure. But his meat doesn't look that 
different from a squirrel's. He ought to be cooked... ." I 
hesitate as I think of trying to start a fire out here from 
complete scratch. Even if I succeed, there's the smoke 
to think about. We're all so close together in this arena, 
there's no chance of hiding it. 

Peeta has another idea. He takes a cube of rodent 
meat, skewers it on the tip of a pointed stick, and lets it 
fall into the force field. There's a sharp sizzle and the 
stick flies back. The chunk of meat is blackened on the 
outside but well cooked inside. We give him a round of 
applause, then quickly stop, remembering where we 

The white sun sinks in the rosy sky as we gather in the 
hut. I'm still leery about the nuts, but Finnick says Mags 
recognized them from another Games. I didn't bother 
spending time at the edible-plants station in training 
because it was so effortless for me last year. Now I 
wish I had. For surely there would have been some of 
the unfamiliar plants surrounding me. And I might have 
guessed a bit more about where I was headed. Mags 
seems fine, though, and she's been eating the nuts for 
hours. So I pick one up and take a small bite. It has a 
mild, slightly sweet flavor that reminds me of a 
chestnut. I decide it's all right. The rodent's strong and 
gamey but surprisingly juicy. Really, it's not a bad meal 
for our first night in the arena. If only we had 
something to wash it down with. 

Finnick asks a lot of questions about the rodent, which 
we decide to call a tree rat. How high was it, how long 
did I watch it before I shot, and what was it doing? I 

don't remember it doing much of anything. Snuffling 
around for insects or something. 

I'm dreading the night. At least the tightly woven 
grass offers some protection from whatever slinks 
across the jungle floor after hours. But a short time 
before the sun slips below the horizon, a pale white 
moon rises, making things just visible enough. Our 
conversation trails off because we know what's coming. 
We position ourselves in a line at the mouth of the hut 
and Peeta slips his hand into mine. 

The sky brightens when the seal of the Capitol 
appears as if floating in space. As I listen to the strains 
of the anthem I think, It will be harder for Finnick and 
Mags. But it turns out to be plenty hard for me as well. 
Seeing the faces of the eight dead victors projected into 
the sky. 

The man from District 5, the one Finnick took out 
with his trident, is the first to appear. That means that 
all the tributes in 1 through 4 are alive — the four 
Careers, Beetee and Wiress, and, of course, Mags and 
Finnick. The man from District 5 is followed by the 
male morphling from 6, Cecelia and Woof from 8, both 
from 9, the woman from 10, and Seeder from 11. The 

Capitol seal is back with a final bit of music and then 
the sky goes dark except for the moon. 

No one speaks. I can't pretend I knew any of them 
well. But I'm thinking of those three kids hanging on to 
Cecelia when they took her away. Seeder's kindness to 
me at our meeting. Even the thought of the glazed-eyed 
morphling painting my cheeks with yellow flowers 
gives me a pang. All dead. All gone. 

I don't know how long we might have sat here if it 
weren't for the arrival of the silver parachute, which 
glides down through the foliage to land before us. No 
one reaches for it. 

"Whose is it, do you think?" I say finally. 

"No telling," says Finnick. "Why don't we let Peeta 
claim it, since he died today?" 

Peeta unties the cord and flattens out the circle of silk. 
On the parachute sits a small metal object that I can't 
place. "What is it?" I ask. No one knows. We pass it 
from hand to hand, taking turns examining it. It's a 
hollow metal tube, tapered slightly at one end. On the 
other end a small lip curves downward. It's vaguely 
familiar. A part that could have fallen off a bicycle, a 
curtain rod, anything, really. 

Peeta blows on one end to see if it makes a sound. It 
doesn't. Finnick slides his pinkie into it, testing it out as 
a weapon. Useless. 

"Can you fish with it, Mags?" I ask. Mags, who can 
fish with almost anything, shakes her head and grunts. 

I take it and roll it back and forth on my palm. Since 
we're allies, Haymitch will be working with the District 
4 mentors. He had a hand in choosing this gift. That 
means it's valuable. Lifesaving, even. I think back to 
last year, when I wanted water so badly, but he 
wouldn't send it because he knew I could find it if I 
tried. Haymitch's gifts, or lack thereof, carry weighty 
messages. I can almost hear him growling at me, Use 
your brain if you have one. What is it? 

I wipe the sweat from my eyes and hold the gift out in 
the moonlight. I move it this way and that, viewing it 
from different angles, covering portions and then 
revealing them. Trying to make it divulge its purpose to 
me. Finally, in frustration, I jam one end into the dirt. "I 
give up. Maybe if we hook up with Beetee or Wiress 
they can figure it out. 

I stretch out, pressing my hot cheek on the grass mat, 
staring at the thing in aggravation. Peeta rubs a tense 
spot between my shoulders and I let myself relax a 

little. I wonder why this place hasn't cooled off at all 
now that the sun's gone down. I wonder what's going on 
back home. 

Prim. My mother. Gale. Madge. I think of them 
watching me from home. At least I hope they're at 
home. Not taken into custody by Thread. Being 
punished as Cinna is. As Darius is. Punished because of 
me. Everybody. 

I begin to ache for them, for my district, for my 
woods. A decent woods with sturdy hardwood trees, 
plentiful food, game that isn't creepy. Rushing streams. 
Cool breezes. No, cold winds to blow this stifling heat 
away. I conjure up such a wind in my mind, letting it 
freeze my cheeks and numb my fingers, and all at once, 
the piece of metal half buried in the black earth has a 

"A spile!" I exclaim, sitting bolt upright. 
"What?" asks Finnick. 

I wrestle the thing from the ground and brush it clean. 
Cup my hand around the tapered end, concealing it, and 
look at the lip. Yes, I've seen one of these before. On a 
cold, windy day long ago, when I was out in the woods 
with my father. Inserted snugly into a hole drilled in the 

side of a maple. A pathway for the sap to follow as it 
flowed into our bucket. Maple syrup could make even 
our dull bread a treat. After my father died, I didn't 
know what happened to the handful of spiles he had. 
Hidden out in the woods somewhere, probably. Never 
to be found. 

"It's a spile. Sort of like a faucet. You put it in a tree 
and sap comes out." I look at the sinewy green trunks 
around me. "Well, the right sort of tree." 

"Sap?" asks Finnick. They don't have the right kind of 
trees by the sea, either. 

"To make syrup," says Peeta. "But there must be 
something else inside these trees." 

We're all on our feet at once. Our thirst. The lack of 
springs. The tree rat's sharp front teeth and wet muzzle. 
There can only be one thing worth having inside these 
trees. Finnick goes to hammer the spile into the green 
bark of a massive tree with a rock, but I stop him. 
"Wait. You might damage it. We need to drill a hole 
first," I say. 

There's nothing to drill with, so Mags offers her awl 
and Peeta drives it straight into the bark, burying the 
spike two inches deep. He and Finnick take turns 

opening up the hole with the awl and the knives until it 
can hold the spile. I wedge it in carefully and we all 
stand back in anticipation. 

At first nothing happens. Then a drop of water rolls 
down the lip and lands in Mags's palm. She licks it off 
and holds out her hand for more. 

By wiggling and adjusting the spile, we get a thin 
stream running out. We take turns holding our mouths 
under the tap, wetting our parched tongues. Mags 
brings over a basket, and the grass is so tightly woven it 
holds water. We fill the basket and pass it around, 
taking deep gulps and, later, luxuriously, splashing our 
faces clean. Like everything here, the water's on the 
warm side, but this is no time to be picky. 

Without our thirst to distract us, we're all aware of 
how exhausted we are and make preparations for the 
night. Last year, I always tried to have my gear ready in 
case I had to make a speedy retreat in the night. This 
year, there's no backpack to prepare. Just my weapons, 
which won't leave my grasp, anyway. Then I think of 
the spile and wrest it from the tree trunk. I strip a tough 
vine of its leaves, thread it through the hollow center, 
and tie the spile securely to my belt. 

Finnick offers to take the first watch and I let him, 
knowing it has to be one of the two of us until Peeta's 
rested up. I lie down beside Peeta on the floor of the 
hut, telling Finnick to wake me when he's tired. Instead 
I find myself jarred from sleep a few hours later by 
what seems to be the tolling of a bell. Bong! Bong! It's 
not exactly like the one they ring in the Justice Building 
on New Year's but close enough for me to recognize it. 
Peeta and Mags sleep through it, but Finnick has the 
same look of attentiveness I feel. The tolling stops. 

"I counted twelve," he says. 

I nod. Twelve. What does that signify? One ring for 
each district? Maybe. But why? "Mean anything, do 
you think?" 

"No idea," he says. 

We wait for further instructions, maybe a message 
from Claudius Templesmith. An invitation to a feast. 
The only thing of note appears in the distance. A 
dazzling bolt of electricity strikes a towering tree and 
then a lightning storm begins. I guess it's an indication 
of rain, of a water source for those who don't have 
mentors as smart as Haymitch. 

"Go to sleep, Finnick. It's my turn to watch, anyway," 
I say. 

Finnick hesitates, but no one can stay awake forever. 
He settles down at the mouth of the hut, one hand 
gripped around a trident, and drifts into a restless sleep. 

I sit with my bow loaded, watching the jungle, which 
is ghostly pale and green in the moonlight. After an 
hour or so, the lightning stops. I can hear the rain 
coming in, though, pattering on the leaves a few 
hundred yards away. I keep waiting for it to reach us 
but it never does. 

The sound of the cannon startles me, although it 
makes little impression on my sleeping companions. 
There's no point in awakening them for this. Another 
victor dead. I don't even allow myself to wonder who it 

The elusive rain shuts off suddenly, like the storm did 
last year in the arena. 

Moments after it stops, I see the fog sliding softly in 
from the direction of the recent downpour. Just a 
reaction. Cool rain on the steaming ground, I think. It 
continues to approach at a steady pace. Tendrils reach 
forward and then curl like fingers, as if they are pulling 

the rest behind them. As I watch, I feel the hairs on my 
neck begin to rise. Something's wrong with this fog. 
The progression of the front line is too uniform to be 
natural. And if it's not natural ... 

A sickeningly sweet odor begins to invade my nostrils 
and I reach for the others, shouting for them to wake 

In the few seconds it takes to rouse them, I begin to 

Tiny, searing stabs. Wherever the droplets of mist 
touch my skin. 

"Run!" I scream at the others. "Run!" 

Finnick snaps awake instantly, rising to counter an 
enemy. But when he sees the wall of fog, he tosses a 
still-sleeping Mags onto his back and takes off. Peeta is 
on his feet but not as alert. I grab his arm and begin to 
propel him through the jungle after Finnick. 

"What is it? What is it?" he says in bewilderment. 

"Some kind of fog. Poisonous gas. Hurry, Peeta!" I 
urge. I can tell that however much he denied it during 
the day, the aftereffects of hitting the force field have 
been significant. He's slow, much slower than usual. 
And the tangle of vines and undergrowth, which 
unbalance me occasionally, trip him at every step. 

I look back at the wall of fog extending in a straight 
line as far as I can see in either direction. A terrible 
impulse to flee, to abandon Peeta and save myself, 

shoots through me. It would be so simple, to run full 
out, perhaps to even climb a tree above the fog line, 
which seems to top out at about forty feet. I remember 
how I did just this when the muttations appeared in the 
last Games. Took off and only thought of Peeta when 
I'd reached the Cornucopia. But this time, I trap my 
terror, push it down, and stay by his side. This time my 
survival isn't the goal. Peeta's is. I think of the eyes 
glued to the television screens in the districts, seeing if I 
will run, as the Capitol wishes, or hold my ground. 

I lock my fingers tightly into his and say, "Watch my 
feet. Just try to step where I step." It helps. We seem to 
move a little faster, but never enough to afford a rest, 
and the mist continues to lap at our heels. Droplets 
spring free of the body of vapor. They burn, but not like 
fire. Less a sense of heat and more of intense pain as 
the chemicals find our flesh, cling to it, and burrow 
down through the layers of skin. Our jumpsuits are no 
help at all. We may as well be dressed in tissue paper, 
for all the protection they give. 

Finnick, who bounded off initially, stops when he 
realizes we're having problems. But this is not a thing 
you can fight, only evade. He shouts encouragement, 
trying to move us along, and the sound of his voice acts 
as a guide, though little more. 

Peeta's artificial leg catches in a knot of creepers and 
he sprawls forward before I can catch him. As I help 
him up, I become aware of something scarier than the 
blisters, more debilitating than the burns. The left side 
of his face has sagged, as if every muscle in it has died. 
The lid droops, almost concealing his eye. His mouth 
twists in an odd angle toward the ground. "Peeta — " I 
begin. And that's when I feel the spasms run up my 

Whatever chemical laces the fog does more than burn 
— it targets our nerves. A whole new kind of fear 
shoots through me and I yank Peeta forward, which 
only causes him to stumble again. By the time I get him 
to his feet, both of my arms are twitching 
uncontrollably. The fog has moved in on us, the body of 
it less than a yard away. Something is wrong with 
Peeta's legs; he's trying to walk but they move in a 
spastic, puppetlike fashion. 

I feel him lurch forward and realize Finnick has come 
back for us and is hauling Peeta along. I wedge my 
shoulder, which still seems under my control, under 
Peeta's arm and do my best to keep up with Finnick' s 
rapid pace. We put about ten yards between us and the 
fog when Finnick stops. 

"It's no good. I'll have to carry him. Can you take 
Mags?" he asks me. 

"Yes," I say stoutly, although my heart sinks. It's true 
that Mags can't weigh more than about seventy pounds, 
but I'm not very big myself. Still, I'm sure I've carried 
heavier loads. If only my arms would stop jumping 
around. I squat down and she positions herself over my 
shoulder, the way she rides on Finnick. I slowly 
straighten my legs and, with my knees locked, I can 
manage her. Finnick has Peeta slung across his back 
now and we move forward, Finnick leading, me 
following in the trail he breaks through the vines. 

On the fog comes, silent and steady and flat, except 
for the grasping tendrils. Although my instinct is to run 
directly away from it, I realize Finnick is moving at a 
diagonal down the hill. He's trying to keep a distance 
from the gas while steering us toward the water that 
surrounds the Cornucopia. Yes, water, I think as the 
acid droplets bore deeper into me. Now I'm so thankful 
I didn't kill Finnick, because how would I have gotten 
Peeta out of here alive? So thankful to have someone 
else on my side, even if it's only temporarily. 

It's not Mags's fault when I begin falling. She's doing 
everything she can to be an easy passenger, but the fact 

is, there is only so much weight I can handle. Especially 
now that my right leg seems to be going stiff. The first 
two times I crash to the ground, I manage to make it 
back on my feet, but the third time, I cannot get my leg 
to cooperate. As I struggle to get up, it gives out and 
Mags rolls off onto the ground before me. I flail around, 
trying to use vines and trunks to right myself. 

Finnick's back by my side, Peeta hanging over him. 
"It's no use," I say. "Can you take them both? Go on 
ahead, 111 catch up." A somewhat doubtful proposal, 
but I say it with as much surety as I can muster. 

I can see Finnick's eyes, green in the moonlight. I can 
see them as clear as day. Almost like a cat's, with a 
strange reflective quality. Maybe because they are shiny 
with tears. "No," he says. "I can't carry them both. My 
arms aren't working." It's true. His arms jerk 
uncontrollably at his sides. His hands are empty. Of his 
three tridents, only one remains, and it's in Peeta's 
hands. "I'm sorry, Mags. I can't do it." 

What happens next is so fast, so senseless, I can't even 
move to stop it. Mags hauls herself up, plants a kiss on 
Finnick's lips, and then hobbles straight into the fog. 
Immediately, her body is seized by wild contortions and 
she falls to the ground in a horrible dance. 

I want to scream, but my throat is on fire. I take one 
futile step in her direction when I hear the cannon blast, 
know her heart has stopped, that she is dead. "Finnick?" 
I call out hoarsely, but he has already turned from the 
scene, already continued his retreat from the fog. 
Dragging my useless leg behind me, I stagger after him, 
having no idea what else to do. 

Time and space lose meaning as the fog seems to 
invade my brain, muddling my thoughts, making 
everything unreal. Some deep-rooted animal desire for 
survival keeps me stumbling after Finnick and Peeta, 
continuing to move, although I'm probably dead 
already. Parts of me are dead, or clearly dying. And 
Mags is dead. This is something I know, or maybe just 
think I know, because it makes no sense at all. 

Moonlight glinting on Finnick's bronze hair, beads of 
searing pain peppering me, a leg turned to wood. I 
follow Finnick until he collapses on the ground, Peeta 
still on top of him. I seem to have no ability to stop my 
own forward motion and simply propel myself onward 
until I trip over their prone bodies, just one more on the 
heap. This is where and how and when we all die, I 
think. But the thought is abstract and far less alarming 
than the current agonies of my body. I hear Finnick 
groan and manage to drag myself off the others. Now I 

can see the wall of fog, which has taken on a pearly 
white quality. Maybe it's my eyes playing tricks, or the 
moonlight, but the fog seems to be transforming. Yes, 
it's becoming thicker, as if it has pressed up against a 
glass window and is being forced to condense. I squint 
harder and realize the fingers no longer protrude from 
it. In fact, it has stopped moving forward entirely. Like 
other horrors I have witnessed in the arena, it has 
reached the end of its territory. Either that or the 
Gamemakers have decided not to kill us just yet. 

"It's stopped," I try to say, but only an awful croaking 
sound comes from my swollen mouth. "It's stopped," I 
say again, and this time I must be clearer, because both 
Peeta and Finnick turn their heads to the fog. It begins 
to rise upward now, as if being slowly vacuumed into 
the sky. We watch until it has all been sucked away and 
not the slightest wisp remains. 

Peeta rolls off Finnick, who turns over onto his back. 
We lie there gasping, twitching, our minds and bodies 
invaded by the poison. After a few minutes pass, Peeta 
vaguely gestures upward. "Mon-hees." I look up and 
spot a pair of what I guess are monkeys. I have never 
seen a live monkey — there's nothing like that in our 
woods at home. But I must have seen a picture, or one 
in the Games, because when I see the creatures, the 

same word comes to my mind. I think these have 
orange fur, although it's hard to tell, and are about half 
the size of a full-grown human. I take the monkeys for a 
good sign. Surely they would not hang around if the air 
was deadly. For a while, we quietly observe one 
another, humans and monkeys. Then Peeta struggles to 
his knees and crawls down the slope. We all crawl, 
since walking now seems as remarkable a feat as flying; 
we crawl until the vines turn to a narrow strip of sandy 
beach and the warm water that surrounds the 
Cornucopia laps our faces. I jerk back as if I've touched 
an open flame. 

Rubbing salt in a wound. For the first time I truly 
appreciate the expression, because the salt in the water 
makes the pain of my wounds so blinding I nearly black 
out. But there's another sensation, of drawing out. I 
experiment by gingerly placing only my hand in the 
water. Torturous, yes, but then less so. And through the 
blue layer of water, I see a milky substance leaching out 
of the wounds on my skin. As the whiteness diminishes, 
so does the pain. I unbuckle my belt and strip off my 
jumpsuit, which is little more than a perforated rag. My 
shoes and undergarments are inexplicably unaffected. 
Little by little, one small portion of a limb at a time, I 
soak the poison out of my wounds. Peeta seems to be 

doing the same. But Finnick backed away from the 
water at first touch and lies facedown on the sand, 
either unwilling or unable to purge himself. 

Finally, when I have survived the worst, opening my 
eyes underwater, sniffing water into my sinuses and 
snorting it out, and even gargling repeatedly to wash 
out my throat, I'm functional enough to help Finnick. 
Some feeling has returned to my leg, but my arms are 
still riddled with spasms. I can't drag Finnick into the 
water, and possibly the pain would kill him, anyway. So 
I scoop up shaky handfuls and empty them on his fists. 
Since he's not underwater, the poison comes out of his 
wounds just as it went in, in wisps of fog that I take 
great care to steer clear of. Peeta recovers enough to 
help me. He cuts away Finnick's jumpsuit. Somewhere 
he finds two shells that work much better than our 
hands do. We concentrate on soaking Finnick's arms 
first, since they have been so badly damaged, and even 
though a lot of white stuff pours out of them, he doesn't 
notice. He just lies there, eyes shut, giving an 
occasional moan. 

I look around with growing awareness of how 
dangerous a position we're in. It's night, yes, but this 
moon gives off too much light for concealment. We're 
lucky no one's attacked us yet. We could see them 

coming from the Cornucopia, but if all four Careers 
attacked, they'd overpower us. If they didn't spot us at 
first, Finnick's moans would give us away soon. 

"We've got to get more of him into the water," I 
whisper. But we can't put him in face-first, not while 
he's in this condition. Peeta nods to Finnick's feet. We 
each take one, pull him one hundred and eighty degrees 
around, and start to drag him into the saltwater. Just a 
few inches at a time. His ankles. Wait a few minutes. 
Up to his midcalf. Wait. His knees. Clouds of white 
swirl out from his flesh and he groans. We continue to 
detoxify him, bit by bit. What I find is that the longer I 
sit in the water, the better I feel. Not just my skin, but 
my brain and muscle control continue to improve. I can 
see Peeta's face beginning to return to normal, his 
eyelid opening, the grimace leaving his mouth. 

Finnick slowly begins to revive. His eyes open, focus 
on us, and register awareness that he's being helped. I 
rest his head on my lap and we let him soak about ten 
minutes with everything immersed from the neck down. 
Peeta and I exchange a smile as Finnick lifts his arms 
above the seawater. 

'There's just your head left, Finnick. That's the worst 
part, but you'll feel much better after, if you can bear 

it," Peeta says. We help him to sit up and let him grip 
our hands as he purges his eyes and nose and mouth. 
His throat is still too raw to speak. 

"I'm going to try to tap a tree," I say. My fingers 
fumble at my belt and find the spile still hanging from 
its vine. 

"Let me make the hole first," says Peeta. "You stay 
with him. You're the healer." 

That's a joke, I think. But I don't say it out loud, since 
Finnick has enough to deal with. He got the worst of the 
fog, although I'm not sure why. Maybe because he's the 
biggest or maybe because he had to exert himself the 
most. And then, of course, there's Mags. I still don't 
understand what happened there. Why he essentially 
abandoned her to carry Peeta. Why she not only didn't 
question it, but ran straight to her death without a 
moment's hesitation. Was it because she was so old that 
her days were numbered, anyway? Did they think that 
Finnick would stand a better chance of winning if he 
had Peeta and me as allies? The haggard look on 
Finnick's face tells me that now is not the moment to 

Instead I try to put myself back together. I rescue my 
mockingjay pin from my ruined jumpsuit and pin it to 

the strap of my undershirt. The flotation belt must be 
acid resistant, since it looks as good as new. I can swim, 
so the flotation belt's not really necessary, but Brutus 
blocked my arrow with his, so I buckle it back on, 
thinking it might offer some protection. I undo my hair 
and comb it with my fingers, thinning it out 
considerably since the fog droplets damaged it. Then I 
braid back what's left of it. 

Peeta has found a good tree about ten yards from the 
narrow strip of beach. We can hardly see him, but the 
sound of his knife against the wooden trunk is crystal 
clear. I wonder what happened to the awl. Mags 
must've either dropped it or taken it into the fog with 
her. Anyway, it's gone. 

I have moved out a bit farther into the shallows, 
floating alternately on my belly and back. If the 
seawater healed Peeta and me, it seems to be 
transforming Finnick altogether. He begins to move 
slowly, just testing his limbs, and gradually begins to 
swim. But it's not like me swimming, the rhythmic 
strokes, the even pace. It's like watching some strange 
sea animal coming back to life. He dives and surfaces, 
spraying water out of his mouth, rolls over and over in 
some bizarre corkscrew motion that makes me dizzy 
even to watch. And then, when he's been underwater so 

long I feel certain he's drowned, his head pops up right 
next to me and I start. 

"Don't do that," I say. 

"What? Come up or stay under?" he says. 

"Either. Neither. Whatever. Just soak in the water and 
behave," I say. "Or if you feel this good, let's go help 

In just the short time it takes to cross to the edge of 
the jungle, I become aware of the change. Put it down 
to years of hunting, or maybe my reconstructed ear does 
work a little better than anyone intended. But I sense 
the mass of warm bodies poised above us. They don't 
need to chatter or scream. The mere breathing of so 
many is enough. 

I touch Finnick's arm and he follows my gaze upward. 
I don't know how they arrived so silently. Perhaps they 
didn't. We've all been absorbed in restoring our bodies. 

During that time they've assembled. Not five or ten 
but scores of monkeys weigh down the limbs of the 
jungle trees. The pair we spotted when we first escaped 
the fog felt like a welcoming committee. This crew 
feels ominous. 

I arm my bow with two arrows and Finnick adjusts the 
trident in his hand. "Peeta," I say as calmly as possible. 
"I need your help with something." 

"Okay, just a minute. I think I've just about got it," he 
says, still occupied with the tree. "Yes, there. Have you 
got the spile?" 

"I do. But we've found something you'd better take a 
look at," I continue in a measured voice. "Only move 
toward us quietly, so you don't startle it." For some 
reason, I don't want him to notice the monkeys, or even 
glance their way. There are creatures that interpret mere 
eye contact as aggression. 

Peeta turns to us, panting from his work on the tree. 
The tone of my request is so odd that it's alerted him to 
some irregularity. "Okay," he says casually. He begins 
to move through the jungle, and although I know he's 
trying hard to be quiet, this has never been his strong 
suit, even when he had two sound legs. But it's all right, 
he's moving, the monkeys are holding their positions. 
He's just five yards from the beach when he senses 
them. His eyes only dart up for a second, but it's as if 
he's triggered a bomb. The monkeys explode into a 
shrieking mass of orange fur and converge on him. 

I've never seen any animal move so fast. They slide 
down the vines as if the things were greased. Leap 
impossible distances from tree to tree. Fangs bared, 
hackles raised, claws shooting out like switchblades. I 
may be unfamiliar with monkeys, but animals in nature 
don't act like this. "Mutts!" I spit out as Finnick and I 
crash into the greenery. 

I know every arrow must count, and they do. In the 
eerie light, I bring down monkey after monkey, 
targeting eyes and hearts and throats, so that each hit 
means a death. But still it wouldn't be enough without 
Finnick spearing the beasts like fish and flinging them 
aside, Peeta slashing away with his knife. I feel claws 
on my leg, down my back, before someone takes out 
the attacker. The air grows heavy with trampled plants, 
the scent of blood, and the musty stink of the monkeys. 
Peeta and Finnick and I position ourselves in a triangle, 
a few yards apart, our backs to one another. My heart 
sinks as my fingers draw back my last arrow. Then I 
remember Peeta has a sheath, too. And he's not 
shooting, he's hacking away with that knife. My own 
knife is out now, but the monkeys are quicker, can 
spring in and out so fast you can barely react. 

"Peeta!" I shout. "Your arrows!" 

Peeta turns to see my predicament and is sliding off 
his sheath when it happens. A monkey lunges out of a 
tree for his chest. I have no arrow, no way to shoot. I 
can hear the thud of Finnick's trident finding another 
mark and know his weapon is occupied. Peeta's knife 
arm is disabled as he tries to remove the sheath. I throw 
my knife at the oncoming mutt but the creature 
somersaults, evading the blade, and stays on its 

Weaponless, defenseless, I do the only thing I can 
think of. I run for Peeta, to knock him to the ground, to 
protect his body with mine, even though I know I won't 
make it in time. 

She does, though. Materializing, it seems, from thin 
air. One moment nowhere, the next reeling in front of 
Peeta. Already bloody, mouth open in a high-pitched 
scream, pupils enlarged so her eyes seem like black 

The insane morphling from District 6 throws up her 
skeletal arms as if to embrace the monkey, and it sinks 
its fangs into her chest. 

Peeta drops the sheath and buries his knife into the 
monkey's back, stabbing it again and again until it 
releases its jaw. He kicks the mutt away, bracing for 
more. I have his arrows now, a loaded bow, and Finnick 
at my back, breathing hard but not actively engaged. 

"Come on, then! Come on!" shouts Peeta, panting 
with rage. But something has happened to the monkeys. 
They are withdrawing, backing up trees, fading into the 
jungle, as if some unheard voice calls them away. A 
Gamemaker's voice, telling them this is enough. 

"Get her," I say to Peeta. "We'll cover you." 

Peeta gently lifts up the morphling and carries her the 
last few yards to the beach while Finnick and I keep our 
weapons at the ready. But except for the orange 
carcasses on the ground, the monkeys are gone. Peeta 
lays the morphling on the sand. I cut away the material 
over her chest, revealing the four deep puncture 
wounds. Blood slowly trickles from them, making them 
look far less deadly than they are. The real damage is 

inside. By the position of the openings, I feel certain the 
beast ruptured something vital, a lung, maybe even her 

She lies on the sand, gasping like a fish out of water. 
Sagging skin, sickly green, her ribs as prominent as a 
child's dead of starvation. Surely she could afford food, 
but turned to the morphling just as Haymitch turned to 
drink, I guess. Everything about her speaks of waste — 
her body, her life, the vacant look in her eyes. I hold 
one of her twitching hands, unclear whether it moves 
from the poison that affected our nerves, the shock of 
the attack, or withdrawal from the drug that was her 
sustenance. There is nothing we can do. Nothing but 
stay with her while she dies. 

"Ill watch the trees," Finnick says before walking 
away. I'd like to walk away, too, but she grips my hand 
so tightly I would have to pry off her fingers, and I 
don't have the strength for that kind of cruelty. I think 
of Rue, how maybe I could sing a song or something. 
But I don't even know the morphling's name, let alone if 
she likes songs. I just know she's dying. 

Peeta crouches down on the other side of her and 
strokes her hair. When he begins to speak in a soft 
voice, it seems almost nonsensical, but the words aren't 

for me. "With my paint box at home, I can make every 
color imaginable. Pink. As pale as a baby's skin. Or as 
deep as rhubarb. Green like spring grass. Blue that 
shimmers like ice on water." 

The morphling stares into Peeta's eyes, hanging on to 
his words. 

"One time, I spent three days mixing paint until I 
found the right shade for sunlight on white fur. You see, 
I kept thinking it was yellow, but it was much more 
than that. Layers of all sorts of color. One by one," says 

The morphling's breathing is slowing into shallow 
catch-breaths. Her free hand dabbles in the blood on her 
chest, making the tiny swirling motions she so loved to 
paint with. 

"I haven't figured out a rainbow yet. They come so 
quickly and leave so soon. I never have enough time to 
capture them. Just a bit of blue here or purple there. 
And then they fade away again. Back into the air," says 

The morphling seems mesmerized by Peeta's words. 
Entranced. She lifts up a trembling hand and paints 
what I think might be a flower on Peeta's cheek. 

'Thank you," he whispers. 'That looks beautiful." 

For a moment, the morphling's face lights up in a grin 
and she makes a small squeaking sound. Then her 
blood-dappled hand falls back onto her chest, she gives 
one last huff of air, and the cannon fires. The grip on 
my hand releases. 

Peeta carries her out into the water. He returns and sits 
beside me. The morphling floats out toward the 
Cornucopia for a while, then the hovercraft appears and 
a four-pronged claw drops, encases her, carries her into 
the night sky, and she's gone. 

Finnick rejoins us, his fist full of my arrows still wet 
with monkey blood. He drops them beside me on the 
sand. "Thought you might want these." 

"Thanks," I say. I wade into the water and wash off 
the gore, from my weapons, my wounds. By the time I 
return to the jungle to gather some moss to dry them, all 
the monkeys' bodies have vanished. 

"Where did they go?" I ask. 

"We don't know exactly. The vines shifted and they 
were gone," says Finnick. 

We stare at the jungle, numb and exhausted. In the 
quiet, I notice that the spots where the fog droplets 
touched my skin have scabbed over. They've stopped 
hurting and begun to itch. Intensely. I try to think of 
this as a good sign. That they are healing. I glance over 
at Peeta, at Finnick, and see they're both scratching at 
their damaged faces. Yes, even Finnick's beauty has 
been marred by this night. 

"Don't scratch," I say, wanting badly to scratch 
myself. But I know it's the advice my mother would 
give. "You'll only bring infection. Think it's safe to try 
for the water again?" 

We make our way back to the tree Peeta was tapping. 
Finnick and I stand with our weapons poised while he 
works the spile in, but no threat appears. Peeta's found a 
good vein and the water begins to gush from the spile. 
We slake our thirst, let the warm water pour over our 
itching bodies. We fill a handful of shells with drinking 
water and go back to the beach. 

It's still night, though dawn can't be too many hours 
away. Unless the Gamemakers want it to be. "Why 
don't you two get some rest?" I say. "Ill watch for a 

"No, Katniss, I'd rather," says Finnick. I look in his 
eyes, at his face, and realize he's barely holding back 
tears. Mags. The least I can do is give him the privacy 
to mourn her. 

"All right, Finnick, thanks," I say. I lie down on the 
sand with Peeta, who drifts off at once. I stare into the 
night, thinking of what a difference a day makes. How 
yesterday morning, Finnick was on my kill list, and 
now I'm willing to sleep with him as my guard. He 
saved Peeta and let Mags die and I don't know why. 
Only that I can never settle the balance owed between 
us. All I can do at the moment is go to sleep and let him 
grieve in peace. And so I do. 

It's midmorning when I open my eyes again. Peeta's 
still out beside me. Above us, a mat of grass suspended 
on branches shields our faces from the sunlight. I sit up 
and see that Finnick 1 s hands have not been idle. Two 
woven bowls are filled with fresh water. A third holds a 
mess of shellfish. 

Finnick sits on the sand, cracking them open with a 
stone. 'They're better fresh," he says, ripping a chunk 
of flesh from a shell and popping it into his mouth. His 
eyes are still puffy but I pretend not to notice. 

My stomach begins to growl at the smell of food and I 
reach for one. The sight of my fingernails, caked with 
blood, stops me. I've been scratching my skin raw in 
my sleep. 

"You know, if you scratch you'll bring on infection," 
says Finnick. 

'That's what I've heard," I say. I go into the saltwater 
and wash off the blood, trying to decide which I hate 
more, pain or itching. Fed up, I stomp back onto the 
beach, turn my face upward, and snap, "Hey, Haymitch, 
if you're not too drunk, we could use a little something 
for our skin." 

It's almost funny how quickly the parachute appears 
above me. I reach up and the tube lands squarely in my 
open hand. "About time," I say, but I can't keep the 
scowl on my face. Haymitch. What I wouldn't give for 
five minutes of conversation with him. 

I plunk down on the sand next to Finnick and screw 
the lid off the tube. Inside is a thick, dark ointment with 
a pungent smell, a combination of tar and pine needles. 
I wrinkle my nose as I squeeze a glob of the medicine 
onto my palm and begin to massage it into my leg. A 
sound of pleasure slips out of my mouth as the stuff 
eradicates my itching. It also stains my scabby skin a 

ghastly gray-green. As I start on the second leg I toss 
the tube to Finnick, who eyes me doubtfully. 

"It's like you're decomposing," says Finnick. But I 
guess the itching wins out, because after a minute 
Finnick begins to treat his own skin, too. Really, the 
combination of the scabs and the ointment looks 
hideous. I can't help enjoying his distress. 

"Poor Finnick. Is this the first time in your life you 
haven't looked pretty?" I say. 

"It must be. The sensation's completely new. How 
have you managed it all these years?" he asks. 

"Just avoid mirrors. You'll forget about it," I say. 

"Not if I keep looking at you," he says. 

We slather ourselves down, even taking turns rubbing 
the ointment into each other's backs where the 
undershirts don't protect our skin. "I'm going to wake 
Peeta," I say. 

"No, wait," says Finnick. "Let's do it together. Put our 
faces right in front of his." 

Well, there's so little opportunity for fun left in my 
life, I agree. We position ourselves on either side of 
Peeta, lean over until our faces are inches from his 

nose, and give him a shake. "Peeta. Peeta, wake up," I 
say in a soft, singsong voice. 

His eyelids flutter open and then he jumps like we've 
stabbed him. "Aa!" 

Finnick and I fall back in the sand, laughing our heads 
off. Every time we try to stop, we look at Peeta's 
attempt to maintain a disdainful expression and it sets 
us off again. By the time we pull ourselves together, I'm 
thinking that maybe Finnick Odair is all right. At least 
not as vain or self-important as I'd thought. Not so bad 
at all, really. And just as I've come to this conclusion, a 
parachute lands next to us with a fresh loaf of bread. 
Remembering from last year how Haymitch's gifts are 
often timed to send a message, I make a note to myself. 
Be friends with Finnick. You'll get food. 

Finnick turns the bread over in his hands, examining 
the crust. A bit too possessively. It's not necessary. It's 
got that green tint from seaweed that the bread from 
District 4 always has. We all know it's his. Maybe he's 
just realized how precious it is, and that he may never 
see another loaf again. Maybe some memory of Mags is 
associated with the crust. But all he says is, 'This will 
go well with the shellfish." 

While I help Peeta coat his skin with the ointment, 
Finnick deftly cleans the meat from the shellfish. We 
gather round and eat the delicious sweet flesh with the 
salty bread from District 4. 

We all look monstrous — the ointment seems to be 
causing some of the scabs to peel — but I'm glad for 
the medicine. Not just because it gives relief from the 
itching, but also because it acts as protection from that 
blazing white sun in the pink sky. By its position, I 
estimate it must be going on ten o'clock, that we've 
been in the arena for about a day. Eleven of us are dead. 
Thirteen alive. Somewhere in the jungle, ten are 
concealed. Three or four are the Careers. I don't really 
feel like trying to remember who the others are. 

For me, the jungle has quickly evolved from a place 
of protection to a sinister trap. I know at some point 
well be forced to reenter its depths, either to hunt or be 
hunted, but for right now I'm planning to stick to our 
little beach. And I don't hear Peeta or Finnick 
suggesting we do otherwise. For a while the jungle 
seems almost static, humming, shimmering, but not 
flaunting its dangers. Then, in the distance, comes 
screaming. Across from us, a wedge of the jungle 
begins to vibrate. An enormous wave crests high on the 
hill, topping the trees and roaring down the slope. It hits 

the existing seawater with such force that, even though 
we're as far as we can get from it, the surf bubbles up 
around our knees, setting our few possessions afloat. 
Among the three of us, we manage to collect everything 
before it's carried off, except for our chemical-riddled 
jumpsuits, which are so eaten away no one cares if we 
lose them. 

A cannon fires. We see the hovercraft appear over the 
area where the wave began and pluck a body from the 
trees. Twelve, I think. 

The circle of water slowly calms down, having 
absorbed the giant wave. We rearrange our things back 
on the wet sand and are about to settle down when I see 
them. Three figures, about two spokes away, stumbling 
onto the beach. "There," I say quietly, nodding in the 
newcomers' direction. Peeta and Finnick follow my 
gaze. As if by previous agreement, we all fade back into 
the shadows of the jungle. 

The trio's in bad shape — you can see that right off. 
One is being practically dragged out by a second, and 
the third wanders in loopy circles, as if deranged. 
They're a solid brick-red color, as if they've been 
dipped in paint and left out to dry. 

"Who is that?" asks Peeta. "Or what? Muttations?" 

I draw back an arrow, readying for an attack. But all 
that happens is that the one who was being dragged 
collapses on the beach. The dragger stamps the ground 
in frustration and, in an apparent fit of temper, turns and 
shoves the circling, deranged one over. 

Finnick' s face lights up. "Johanna!" he calls, and runs 
for the red things. 

"Finnick!" I hear Johanna's voice reply. 

I exchange a look with Peeta. "What now?" I ask. 

"We can't really leave Finnick," he says. 

"Guess not. Come on, then," I say grouchily, because 
even if I'd had a list of allies, Johanna Mason would 
definitely not have been on it. The two of us tromp 
down the beach to where Finnick and Johanna are just 
meeting up. As we move in closer, I see her 
companions, and confusion sets in. That's Beetee on the 
ground on his back and Wiress who's regained her feet 
to continue making loops. "She's got Wiress and 

"Nuts and Volts?" says Peeta, equally puzzled. "I've 
got to hear how this happened." 

When we reach them, Johanna's gesturing toward the 
jungle and talking very fast to Finnick. "We thought it 
was rain, you know, because of the lightning, and we 
were all so thirsty. But when it started coming down, it 
turned out to be blood. Thick, hot blood. You couldn't 
see, you couldn't speak without getting a mouthful. We 
just staggered around, trying to get out of it. That's 
when Blight hit the force field." 

"I'm sorry, Johanna," says Finnick. It takes a moment 
to place Blight. I think he was Johanna's male 
counterpart from District 7, but I hardly remember 
seeing him. Come to think of it, I don't even think he 
showed up for training. 

"Yeah, well, he wasn't much, but he was from home," 
she says. "And he left me alone with these two." She 
nudges Beetee, who's barely conscious, with her shoe. 
"He got a knife in the back at the Cornucopia. And 

We all look over at Wiress, who's circling around, 
coated in dried blood, and murmuring, "Tick, tock. 
Tick, tock." 

"Yeah, we know. Tick, tock. Nuts is in shock," says 
Johanna. This seems to draw Wiress in her direction 

and she careens into Johanna, who harshly shoves her 
to the beach. "Just stay down, will you?" 

"Lay off her," I snap. 

Johanna narrows her brown eyes at me in hatred. "Lay 
off her?" she hisses. She steps forward before I can 
react and slaps me so hard I see stars. "Who do you 
think got them out of that bleeding jungle for you? 
You — " Finnick tosses her writhing body over his 
shoulder and carries her out into the water and 
repeatedly dunks her while she screams a lot of really 
insulting things at me. But I don't shoot. Because she's 
with Finnick and because of what she said, about 
getting them for me. 

"What did she mean? She got them for me?" I ask 

"I don't know. You did want them originally," he 
reminds me. 

"Yeah, I did. Originally." But that answers nothing. I 
look down at Beetee's inert body. "But I won't have 
them long unless we do something." 

Peeta lifts Beetee up in his arms and I take Wiress by 
the hand and we go back to our little beach camp. I sit 
Wiress in the shallows so she can get washed up a bit, 

but she just clutches her hands together and 
occasionally mumbles, 'Tick, tock." I unhook Beetee's 
belt and find a heavy metal cylinder attached to the side 
with a rope of vines. I can't tell what it is, but if he 
thought it was worth saving, I'm not going to be the one 
who loses it. I toss it up on the sand. Beetee's clothes 
are glued to him with blood, so Peeta holds him in the 
water while I loosen them. It takes some time to get the 
jumpsuit off, and then we find his undergarments are 
saturated with blood as well. There's no choice but to 
strip him naked to get him clean, but I have to say this 
doesn't make much of an impression on me anymore. 
Our kitchen table's been full of so many naked men this 
year. You kind of get used to it after a while. 

We put down Finnick's mat and lay Beetee on his 
stomach so we can examine his back. There's a gash 
about six inches long running from his shoulder blade 
to below his ribs. Fortunately it's not too deep. He's lost 
a lot of blood, though — you can tell by the pallor of his 
skin — and it's still oozing out of the wound. 

I sit back on my heels, trying to think. What do I have 
to work with? Seawater? I feel like my mother when 
her first line of defense for treating everything was 
snow. I look over at the jungle. I bet there's a whole 
pharmacy in there if I knew how to use it. But these 

aren't my plants. Then I think about the moss Mags 
gave me to blow my nose. "Be right back," I tell Peeta. 
Fortunately the stuff seems to be pretty common in the 
jungle. I rip an armful from the nearby trees and carry it 
back to the beach. I make a thick pad out of the moss, 
place it on Beetee's cut, and secure it by tying vines 
around his body. We get some water into him and then 
pull him into the shade at the edge of the jungle. 

"I think that's all we can do," I say. 

"It's good. You're good with this healing stuff," he 
says. "It's in your blood." 

"No," I say, shaking my head. "I got my father's 
blood." The kind that quickens during a hunt, not an 
epidemic. "I'm going to see about Wiress." 

I take a handful of the moss to use as a rag and join 
Wiress in the shallows. She doesn't resist as I work off 
her clothing, scrub the blood from her skin. But her 
eyes are dilated with fear, and when I speak, she doesn't 
respond except to say with ever-increasing urgency, 
"Tick, tock." She does seem to be trying to tell me 
something, but with no Beetee to explain her thoughts, 
I'm at a loss. 

"Yes, tick, tock. Tick, tock," I say. This seems to calm 
her down a little. I wash out her jumpsuit until there's 
hardly a trace of blood, and help her back into it. It's not 
damaged like ours were. Her belt's fine, so I fasten that 
on, too. Then I pin her undergarments, along with 
Beetee's, under some rocks and let them soak. 

By the time I've rinsed out Beetee's jumpsuit, a shiny 
clean Johanna and peeling Finnick have joined us. For a 
while, Johanna gulps water and stuffs herself with 
shellfish while I try to coax something into Wiress. 
Finnick tells about the fog and the monkeys in a 
detached, almost clinical voice, avoiding the most 
important detail of the story. 

Everybody offers to guard while the others rest, but in 
the end, it's Johanna and I who stay up. Me because I'm 
really rested, she because she simply refuses to lie 
down. The two of us sit in silence on the beach until the 
others have gone to sleep. 

Johanna glances over at Finnick, to be sure, then turns 
to me. "How'd you lose Mags?" 

"In the fog. Finnick had Peeta. I had Mags for a while. 
Then I couldn't lift her. Finnick said he couldn't take 
them both. She kissed him and walked right into the 
poison," I say. 

"She was Finnick's mentor, you know," Johanna says 

"No, I didn't," I say. 

"She was half his family," she says a few moments 
later, but there's less venom behind it. 

We watch the water lap up over the undergarments. 
"So what were you doing with Nuts and Volts?" I ask. 

"I told you — I got them for you. Haymitch said if we 
were to be allies I had to bring them to you," says 
Johanna. "That's what you told him, right?" 

No, I think. But I nod my head in assent. "Thanks. I 
appreciate it." 

"I hope so." She gives me a look filled with loathing, 
like I'm the biggest drag possible on her life. I wonder 
if this is what it's like to have an older sister who really 
hates you. 

"Tick, tock," I hear behind me. I turn and see Wiress 
has crawled over. Her eyes are focused on the jungle. 

"Oh, goody, she's back. Okay, I'm going to sleep. You 
and Nuts can guard together," Johanna says. She goes 
over and flings herself down beside Finnick. 

'Tick, tock," whispers Wiress. I guide her in front of 
me and get her to lie down, stroking her arm to soothe 
her. She drifts off, stirring restlessly, occasionally 
sighing out her phrase. 'Tick, tock." 

"Tick, tock," I agree softly. "It's time for bed. Tick, 
tock. Go to sleep." 

The sun rises in the sky until it's directly over us. It 
must be noon, I think absently. Not that it matters. 
Across the water, off to the right, I see the enormous 
flash as the lightning bolt hits the tree and the electrical 
storm begins again. Right in the same area it did last 
night. Someone must have moved into its range, 
triggered the attack. I sit for a while watching the 
lightning, keeping Wiress calm, lulled into a sort of 
peacefulness by the lapping of the water. I think of last 
night, how the lightning began just after the bell tolled. 
Twelve bongs. 

"Tick, tock," Wiress says, surfacing to consciousness 
for a moment and then going back under. 

Twelve bongs last night. Like it was midnight. Then 
lightning. The sun overhead now. Like it's noon. And 

Slowly I rise up and survey the arena. The lightning 
there. In the next pie wedge over came the blood rain, 
where Johanna, Wiress, and Beetee were caught. We 
would have been in the third section, right next to that, 
when the fog appeared. And as soon as it was sucked 
away, the monkeys began to gather in the fourth. Tick, 
tock. My head snaps to the other side. A couple of 
hours ago, at around ten, that wave came out of the 
second section to the left of where the lightning strikes 
now. At noon. At midnight. At noon. 

'Tick, tock," Wiress says in her sleep. As the 
lightning ceases and the blood rain begins just to the 
right of it, her words suddenly make sense. 

"Oh," I say under my breath. 'Tick, tock." My eyes 
sweep around the full circle of the arena and I know 
she's right. "Tick, tock. This is a clock." 

A clock. I can almost see the hands ticking around the 
twelve-sectioned face of the arena. Each hour begins a 
new horror, a new Gamemaker weapon, and ends the 
previous. Lightning, blood rain, fog, monkeys — those 
are the first four hours on the clock. And at ten, the 
wave. I don't know what happens in the other seven, but 
I know Wiress is right. 

At present, the blood rain's falling and we're on the 
beach below the monkey segment, far too close to the 
fog for my liking. Do the various attacks stay within the 
confines of the jungle? Not necessarily. The wave 
didn't. If that fog leaches out of the jungle, or the 
monkeys return . . . 

"Get up," I order, shaking Peeta and Finnick and 
Johanna awake. "Get up — we have to move." There's 
enough time, though, to explain the clock theory to 
them. About Wiress's tick-tocking and how the 
movements of the invisible hands trigger a deadly force 
in each section. 

I think I've convinced everyone who's conscious 
except Johanna, who's naturally opposed to liking 
anything I suggest. But even she agrees it's better to be 
safe than sorry. 

While the others collect our few possessions and get 
Beetee back into his jumpsuit, I rouse Wiress. She 
awakes with a panicked "tick, tock!" 

"Yes, tick, tock, the arena's a clock. It's a clock, 
Wiress, you were right," I say. "You were right." 

Relief floods her face — I guess because somebody 
has finally understood what she's known probably from 
the first tolling of the bells. "Midnight." 

"It starts at midnight," I confirm. 

A memory struggles to surface in my brain. I see a 
clock. No, it's a watch, resting in Plutarch Heavensbee's 
palm. "It starts at midnight, " Plutarch said. And then 
my mockingjay lit up briefly and vanished. In 
retrospect, it's like he was giving me a clue about the 
arena. But why would he? At the time, I was no more a 
tribute in these Games than he was. Maybe he thought 
it would help me as a mentor. Or maybe this had been 
the plan all along. 

Wiress nods at the blood rain. "One -thirty," she says. 

"Exactly. One-thirty. And at two, a terrible poisonous 
fog begins there," I say, pointing at the nearby jungle. 
"So we have to move somewhere safe now." She smiles 
and stands up obediently. "Are you thirsty?" I hand her 
the woven bowl and she gulps down about a quart. 
Finnick gives her the last bit of bread and she gnaws on 
it. With the inability to communicate overcome, she's 
functioning again. 

I check my weapons. Tie up the spile and the tube of 
medicine in the parachute and fix it to my belt with 

Beetee's still pretty out of it, but when Peeta tries to 
lift him, he objects. "Wire," he says. 

"She's right here," Peeta tells him. "Wiress is fine. 
She's coming, too." 

But still Beetee struggles. "Wire," he insists. 

"Oh, I know what he wants," says Johanna 
impatiently. She crosses the beach and picks up the 
cylinder we took from his belt when we were bathing 
him. It's coated in a thick layer of congealed blood. 
"This worthless thing. It's some kind of wire or 
something. That's how he got cut. Running up to the 
Cornucopia to get this. I don't know what kind of 

weapon it's supposed to be. I guess you could pull off a 
piece and use it as a garrote or something. But really, 
can you imagine Beetee garroting somebody?" 

"He won his Games with wire. Setting up that 
electrical trap," says Peeta. "It's the best weapon he 
could have." 

There's something odd about Johanna not putting this 
together. Something that doesn't quite ring true. 
Suspicious. "Seems like you'd have figured that out," I 
say. "Since you nicknamed him Volts and all." 

Johanna's eyes narrow at me dangerously. "Yeah, that 
was really stupid of me, wasn't it?" she says. "I guess I 
must have been distracted by keeping your little friends 
alive. While you were... what, again? Getting Mags 
killed off?" 

My fingers tighten on the knife handle at my belt. 

"Go ahead. Try it. I don't care if you are knocked up, 
I'll rip your throat out," says Johanna. 

I know I can't kill her right now. But it's just a matter 
of time with Johanna and me. Before one of us offs the 

"Maybe we all had better be careful where we step," 
says Finnick, shooting me a look. He takes the coil and 
sets it on Beetee's chest. 'There's your wire, Volts. 
Watch where you plug it." 

Peeta picks up the now-unresisting Beetee. "Where 

"I'd like to go to the Cornucopia and watch. Just to 
make sure we're right about the clock," says Finnick. It 
seems as good a plan as any. Besides, I wouldn't mind 
the chance of going over the weapons again. And there 
are six of us now. Even if you count Beetee and Wiress 
out, we've got four good fighters. It's so different from 
where I was last year at this point, doing everything on 
my own. Yes, it's great to have allies as long as you can 
ignore the thought that you'll have to kill them. 

Beetee and Wiress will probably find some way to die 
on their own. If we have to run from something, how 
far would they get? Johanna, frankly, I could easily kill 
if it came down to protecting Peeta. Or maybe even just 
to shut her up. What I really need is for someone to take 
out Finnick for me, since I don't think I can do it 
personally. Not after all he's done for Peeta. I think 
about maneuvering him into some kind of encounter 
with the Careers. It's cold, I know. But what are my 

options? Now that we know about the clock, he 
probably won't die in the jungle, so someone's going to 
have to kill him in battle. 

Because this is so repellent to think about, my mind 
frantically tries to change topics. But the only thing that 
distracts me from my current situation is fantasizing 
about killing President Snow. Not very pretty 
daydreams for a seventeen-year-old girl, I guess, but 
very satisfying. 

We walk down the nearest sand strip, approaching the 
Cornucopia with care, just in case the Careers are 
concealed there. I doubt they are, because we've been 
on the beach for hours and there's been no sign of life. 
The area's abandoned, as I expected. Only the big 
golden horn and the picked-over pile of weapons 

When Peeta lays Beetee in the bit of shade the 
Cornucopia provides, he calls out to Wiress. She 
crouches beside him and he puts the coil of wire in her 
hands. "Clean it, will you?" he asks. 

Wiress nods and scampers over to the water's edge, 
where she dunks the coil in the water. She starts quietly 
singing some funny little song, about a mouse running 

up a clock. It must be for children, but it seems to make 
her happy. 

"Oh, not the song again," says Johanna, rolling her 
eyes. 'That went on for hours before she started tick- 

Suddenly Wiress stands up very straight and points to 
the jungle. "Two," she says. 

I follow her finger to where the wall of fog has just 
begun to seep out onto the beach. "Yes, look, Wiress is 
right. It's two o'clock and the fog has started." 

"Like clockwork," says Peeta. "You were very smart 
to figure that out, Wiress." 

Wiress smiles and goes back to singing and dunking 
her coil. "Oh, she's more than smart," says Beetee. 
"She's intuitive." We all turn to look at Beetee, who 
seems to be coming back to life. "She can sense things 
before anyone else. Like a canary in one of your coal 

"What's that?" Finnick asks me. 

"It's a bird that we take down into the mines to warn 
us if there's bad air," I say. 

"What's it do, die?" asks Johanna. 

"It stops singing first. That's when you should get out. 
But if the air's too bad, it dies, yes. And so do you." I 
don't want to talk about dying songbirds. They bring up 
thoughts of my father's death and Rue's death and 
Maysilee Donner's death and my mother inheriting her 
songbird. Oh, great, and now I'm thinking of Gale, deep 
down in that horrible mine, with President Snow's 
threat hanging over his head. So easy to make it look 
like an accident down there. A silent canary, a spark, 
and nothing more. 

I go back to imagining killing the president. 

Despite her annoyance at Wiress, Johanna's as happy 
as I've seen her in the arena. While I'm adding to my 
stock of arrows, she pokes around until she comes up 
with a pair of lethal-looking axes. It seems an odd 
choice until I see her throw one with such force it sticks 
in the sun-softened gold of the Cornucopia. Of course. 
Johanna Mason. District 7. Lumber. I bet she's been 
tossing around axes since she could toddle. It's like 
Finnick with his trident. Or Beetee with his wire. Rue 
with her knowledge of plants. I realize it's just another 
disadvantage the District 12 tributes have faced over the 
years. We don't go down in the mines until we're 
eighteen. It looks like most of the other tributes learn 
something about their trades early on. There are things 

you do in a mine that could come in handy in the 
Games. Wielding a pick. Blowing things up. Give you 
an edge. The way my hunting did. But we learn them 
too late. 

While I've been messing with the weapons, Peeta's 
been squatting on the ground, drawing something with 
the tip of his knife on a large, smooth leaf he brought 
from the jungle. 

I look over his shoulder and see he's creating a map of 
the arena. In the center is the Cornucopia on its circle of 
sand with the twelve strips branching out from it. It 
looks like a pie sliced into twelve equal wedges. There's 
another circle representing the waterline and a slightly 
larger one indicating the edge of the jungle. "Look how 
the Cornucopia's positioned," he says to me. 

I examine the Cornucopia and see what he means. 
'The tail points toward twelve o'clock," I say. 

"Right, so this is the top of our clock," he says, and 
quickly scratches the numbers one through twelve 
around the clock face. 'Twelve to one is the lightning 
zone." He writes lightning in tiny print in the 
corresponding wedge, then works clockwise adding 
blood, fog, and monkeys in the following sections. 

"And ten to eleven is the wave," I say. He adds it. 
Finnick and Johanna join us at this point, armed to the 
teeth with tridents, axes, and knives. 

"Did you notice anything unusual in the others?" I ask 
Johanna and Beetee, since they might have seen 
something we didn't. But all they've seen is a lot of 
blood. "I guess they could hold anything." 

"I'm going to mark the ones where we know the 
Gamemakers' weapon follows us out past the jungle, so 
well stay clear of those," says Peeta, drawing diagonal 
lines on the fog and wave beaches. Then he sits back. 
"Well, it's a lot more than we knew this morning, 

We all nod in agreement, and that's when I notice it. 
The silence. Our canary has stopped singing. 

I don't wait. I load an arrow as I twist and get a 
glimpse of a dripping-wet Gloss letting Wiress slide to 
the ground, her throat slit open in a bright red smile. 
The point of my arrow disappears into his right temple, 
and in the instant it takes to reload, Johanna has buried 
an ax blade in Cashmere's chest. Finnick knocks away a 
spear Brutus throws at Peeta and takes Enobaria's knife 
in his thigh. If there wasn't a Cornucopia to duck 
behind, they'd be dead, both of the tributes from District 

2. I spring forward in pursuit. Boom! Boom! Boom! The 
cannon confirms there's no way to help Wiress, no need 
to finish off Gloss or Cashmere. My allies and I are 
rounding the horn, starting to give chase to Brutus and 
Enobaria, who are sprinting down a sand strip toward 
the jungle. 

Suddenly the ground jerks beneath my feet and I'm 
flung on my side in the sand. The circle of land that 
holds the Cornucopia starts spinning fast, really fast, 
and I can see the jungle going by in a blur. I feel the 
centrifugal force pulling me toward the water and dig 
my hands and feet into the sand, trying to get some 
purchase on the unstable ground. Between the flying 
sand and the dizziness, I have to squeeze my eyes shut. 
There is literally nothing I can do but hold on until, 
with no deceleration, we slam to a stop. 

Coughing and queasy, I sit up slowly to find my 
companions in the same condition. Finnick, Johanna, 
and Peeta have hung on. The three dead bodies have 
been tossed out into the seawater. 

The whole thing, from missing Wiress's song to now, 
can't have taken more than a minute or two. We sit 
there panting, scraping the sand out of our mouths. 

"Where's Volts?" says Johanna. We're on our feet. 
One wobbly circle of the Cornucopia confirms he's 
gone. Finnick spots him about twenty yards out in the 
water, barely keeping afloat, and swims out to haul him 

That's when I remember the wire and how important it 
was to him. I look frantically around. Where is it? 
Where is it? And then I see it, still clutched in Wiress's 
hands, far out in the water. My stomach contracts at the 
thought of what I must do next. "Cover me," I say to 
the others. I toss aside my weapons and race down the 
strip closest to her body. Without slowing down, I dive 
into the water and start for her. Out of the corner of my 
eye, I can see the hovercraft appearing over us, the claw 
starting to descend to take her away. But I don't stop. I 
just keep swimming as hard as I can and end up 
slamming into her body. I come up gasping, trying to 
avoid swallowing the bloodstained water that spreads 
out from the open wound in her neck. She's floating on 
her back, borne up by her belt and death, staring into 
that relentless sun. As I tread water, I have to wrench 
the coil of wire from her fingers, because her final grip 
on it is so tight. There's nothing I can do then but close 
her eyelids, whisper good-bye, and swim away. By the 
time I swing the coil up onto the sand and pull myself 

from the water, her body's gone. But I can still taste her 
blood mingled with the sea salt. 

I walk back to the Cornucopia. Finnick's gotten 
Beetee back alive, although a little waterlogged, sitting 
up and snorting out water. He had the good sense to 
hang on to his glasses, so at least he can see. I place the 
reel of wire on his lap. It's sparkling clean, no blood left 
at all. He unravels a piece of the wire and runs it 
through his fingers. For the first time I see it, and it's 
unlike any wire I know. A pale golden color and as fine 
as a piece of hair. I wonder how long it is. There must 
be miles of the stuff to fill the large spool. But I don't 
ask, because I know he's thinking of Wiress. 

I look at the others' sober faces. Now Finnick, 
Johanna, and Beetee have all lost their district partners. 
I cross to Peeta and wrap my arms around him, and for 
a while we all stay silent. 

"Let's get off this stinking island," Johanna says 
finally. There's only the matter of our weapons now, 
which we've largely retained. Fortunately the vines here 
are strong and the spile and tube of medicine wrapped 
in the parachute are still secured to my belt. Finnick 
strips off his undershirt and ties it around the wound 
Enobaria's knife made in his thigh; it's not deep. Beetee 

thinks he can walk now, if we go slowly, so I help him 
up. We decide to head to the beach at twelve o'clock. 
That should provide hours of calm and keep us clear of 
any poisonous residue. And then Peeta, Johanna, and 
Finnick head off in three different directions. 

"Twelve o'clock, right?" says Peeta. 'The tail points at 

"Before they spun us," says Finnick. "I was judging 
by the sun." 

'The sun only tells you it's going on four, Finnick," I 


"I think Katniss's point is, knowing the time doesn't 
mean you necessarily know where four is on the clock. 
You might have a general idea of the direction. Unless 
you consider that they may have shifted the outer ring 
of jungle as well," says Beetee. 

No, Katniss's point was a lot more basic than that. 
Beetee's articulated a theory far beyond my comment 
on the sun. But I just nod my head like I've been on the 
same page all along. "Yes, so any one of these paths 
could lead to twelve o'clock," I say. 

We circle around the Cornucopia, scrutinizing the 
jungle. It has a baffling uniformity. I remember the tall 

tree that took the first lightning strike at twelve o'clock, 
but every sector has a similar tree. Johanna thinks to 
follow Enobaria's and Brutus's tracks, but they have 
been blown or washed away. There's no way to tell 
where anything is. "I should have never mentioned the 
clock," I say bitterly. "Now they've taken that 
advantage away as well." 

"Only temporarily," says Beetee. "At ten, we'll see the 
wave again and be back on track." 

"Yes, they can't redesign the whole arena," says Peeta. 

"It doesn't matter," says Johanna impatiently. "You 
had to tell us or we never would have moved our camp 
in the first place, brainless." Ironically, her logical, if 
demeaning, reply is the only one that comforts me. Yes, 
I had to tell them to get them to move. "Come on, I 
need water. Anyone have a good gut feeling?" 

We randomly choose a path and take it, having no 
idea what number we're headed for. When we reach the 
jungle, we peer into it, trying to decipher what may be 
waiting inside. 

"Well, it must be monkey hour. And I don't see any of 
them in there," says Peeta. "I'm going to try to tap a 

"No, it's my turn," says Finnick. 

"Ill at least watch your back," Peeta says. 

"Katniss can do that," says Johanna. "We need you to 
make another map. The other washed away." She yanks 
a large leaf off a tree and hands it to him. 

For a moment, I'm suspicious they're trying to divide 
and kill us. But it doesn't make sense. Ill have the 
advantage on Finnick if he's dealing with the tree and 
Peeta's much bigger than Johanna. So I follow Finnick 
about fifteen yards into the jungle, where he finds a 
good tree and starts stabbing to make a hole with his 

As I stand there, weapons ready, I can't lose the 
uneasy feeling that something is going on and that it has 
to do with Peeta. I retrace our steps, starting from the 
moment the gong rang out, searching for the source of 
my discomfort. Finnick towing Peeta in off his metal 
plate. Finnick reviving Peeta after the force field 
stopped his heart. Mags running into the fog so that 
Finnick could carry Peeta. The morphling hurling 
herself in front of him to block the monkey's attack. 
The fight with the Careers was so quick, but didn't 
Finnick block Brutus's spear from hitting Peeta even 
though it meant taking Enobaria's knife in his leg? And 

even now Johanna has him drawing a map on a leaf 
rather than risking the jungle... 

There is no question about it. For reasons completely 
unfathomable to me, some of the other victors are 
trying to keep him alive, even if it means sacrificing 

I'm dumbfounded. For one thing, that's my job. For 
another, it doesn't make sense. Only one of us can get 
out. So why have they chosen Peeta to protect? What 
has Haymitch possibly said to them, what has he 
bargained with to make them put Peeta's life above their 

I know my own reasons for keeping Peeta alive. He's 
my friend, and this is my way to defy the Capitol, to 
subvert its terrible Games. But if I had no real ties to 
him, what would make me want to save him, to choose 
him over myself? Certainly he is brave, but we have all 
been brave enough to survive a Games. There is that 
quality of goodness that's hard to overlook, but still ... 
and then I think of it, what Peeta can do so much better 
than the rest of us. He can use words. He obliterated the 
rest of the field at both interviews. And maybe it's 
because of that underlying goodness that he can move a 

crowd — no, a country — to his side with the turn of a 
simple sentence. 

I remember thinking that was the gift the leader of our 
revolution should have. Has Haymitch convinced the 
others of this? That Peeta's tongue would have far 
greater power against the Capitol than any physical 
strength the rest of us could claim? I don't know. It still 
seems like a really long leap for some of the tributes. I 
mean, we're talking about Johanna Mason here. But 
what other explanation can there be for their decided 
efforts to keep him alive? 

"Katniss, got that spile?" Finnick asks, snapping me 
back to reality. I cut the vine that ties the spile to my 
belt and hold the metal tube out to him. 

That's when I hear the scream. So full of fear and pain 
it ices my blood. And so familiar. I drop the spile, 
forget where I am or what lies ahead, only know I must 
reach her, protect her. I run wildly in the direction of 
the voice, heedless of danger, ripping through vines and 
branches, through anything that keeps me from 
reaching her. 

From reaching my little sister. 

Where is she? What are they doing to her? "Prim!" I 
cry out. "Prim!" Only another agonized scream answers 
me. How did she get here? Why is she part of the 
Games? "Prim!" 

Vines cut into my face and arms, creepers grab my 
feet. But I am getting closer to her. Closer. Very close 
now. Sweat pours down my face, stinging the healing 
acid wounds. I pant, trying to get some use out of the 
warm, moist air that seems empty of oxygen. Prim 
makes a sound — such a lost, irretrievable sound — that 
I can't even imagine what they have done to evoke it. 

"Prim!" I rip through a wall of green into a small 
clearing and the sound repeats directly above me. 
Above me? My head whips back. Do they have her up 
in the trees? I desperately search the branches but see 
nothing. "Prim?" I say pleadingly. I hear her but can't 
see her. Her next wail rings out, clear as a bell, and 
there's no mistaking the source. It's coming from the 
mouth of a small, crested black bird perched on a 

branch about ten feet over my head. And then I 

It's a jabberjay. 

I've never seen one before — I thought they no longer 
existed — and for a moment, as I lean against the trunk 
of the tree, clutching the stitch in my side, I examine it. 
The muttation, the forerunner, the father. I pull up a 
mental image of a mockingbird, fuse it with the 
jabberjay, and yes, I can see how they mated to make 
my mockingjay. There is nothing about the bird that 
suggests it's a mutt. Nothing except the horribly lifelike 
sounds of Prim's voice streaming from its mouth. I 
silence it with an arrow in its throat. The bird falls to 
the ground. I remove my arrow and wring its neck for 
good measure. Then I hurl the revolting thing into the 
jungle. No degree of hunger would ever tempt me to eat 

It wasn't real, I tell myself. The same way the 
muttation wolves last year weren't really the dead 
tributes. It's just a sadistic trick of the Gamemakers. 

Finnick crashes into the clearing to find me wiping 
my arrow clean with some moss. "Katniss?" 

"It's okay. I'm okay," I say, although I don't feel okay 
at all. "I thought I heard my sister but — " The piercing 
shriek cuts me off. It's another voice, not Prim's, maybe 
a young woman's. I don't recognize it. But the effect on 
Finnick is instantaneous. The color vanishes from his 
face and I can actually see his pupils dilate in fear. 
"Finnick, wait!" I say, reaching out to reassure him, but 
he's bolted away. Gone off in pursuit of the victim, as 
mindlessly as I pursued Prim. "Finnick!" I call, but I 
know he won't turn back and wait for me to give a 
rational explanation. So all I can do is follow him. 

It's no effort to track him, even though he's moving so 
fast, since he leaves a clear, trampled path in his wake. 
But the bird is at least a quarter mile away, most of it 
uphill, and by the time I reach him, I'm winded. He's 
circling around a giant tree. The trunk must be four feet 
in diameter and the limbs don't even begin until twenty 
feet up. The woman's shrieks emanate from somewhere 
in the foliage, but the jabberjay's concealed. Finnick's 
screaming as well, over and over. "Annie! Annie!" He's 
in a state of panic and completely unreachable, so I do 
what I would do anyway. I scale an adjacent tree, locate 
the jabberjay, and take it out with an arrow. It falls 
straight down, landing right at Finnick's feet. He picks 

it up, slowly making the connection, but when I slide 
down to join him, he looks more despairing than ever. 

"It's all right, Finnick. It's just a jabberjay. They're 
playing a trick on us," I say. "It's not real. It's not your 
... Annie." 

"No, it's not Annie. But the voice was hers. Jabberjays 
mimic what they hear. Where did they get those 
screams, Katniss?" he says. 

I can feel my own cheeks grow pale as I understand 
his meaning. "Oh, Finnick, you don't think they ..." 

"Yes. I do. That's exactly what I think," he says. 

I have an image of Prim in a white room, strapped to a 
table, while masked, robed figures elicit those sounds 
from her. Somewhere they are torturing her, or did 
torture her, to get those sounds. My knees turn to water 
and I sink to the ground. Finnick is trying to tell me 
something, but I can't hear him. What I do finally hear 
is another bird starting up somewhere off to my left. 
And this time, the voice is Gale's. 

Finnick catches my arm before I can run. "No. It's not 
him." He starts pulling me downhill, toward the beach. 
"We're getting out of here!" But Gale's voice is so full 
of pain I can't help struggling to reach it. "It's not him, 

Katniss! It's a mutt!" Finnick shouts at me. "Come on!" 
He moves me along, half dragging, half carrying me, 
until I can process what he said. He's right, it's just 
another jabberj ay. I can't help Gale by chasing it down. 
But that doesn't change the fact that it is Gale's voice, 
and somewhere, sometime, someone has made him 
sound like this. 

I stop fighting Finnick, though, and like the night in 
the fog, I flee what I can't fight. What can only do me 
harm. Only this time it's my heart and not my body 
that's disintegrating. This must be another weapon of 
the clock. Four o'clock, I guess. When the hands tick- 
tock onto the four, the monkeys go home and the 
jabberj ays come out to play. Finnick is right — getting 
out of here is the only thing to do. Although there will 
be nothing Haymitch can send in a parachute that will 
help either Finnick or me recover from the wounds the 
birds have inflicted. 

I catch sight of Peeta and Johanna standing at the tree 
line and I'm filled with a mixture of relief and anger. 
Why didn't Peeta come to help me? Why did no one 
come after us? Even now he hangs back, his hands 
raised, palms toward us, lips moving but no words 
reaching us. Why?, 

The wall is so transparent, Finnick and I run smack 
into it and bounce back onto the jungle floor. I'm lucky. 
My shoulder took the worst of the impact, whereas 
Finnick hit face-first and now his nose is gushing blood. 
This is why Peeta and Johanna and even Beetee, who I 
see sadly shaking his head behind them, have not come 
to our aid. An invisible barrier blocks the area in front 
of us. It's not a force field. You can touch the hard, 
smooth surface all you like. But Peeta's knife and 
Johanna's ax can't make a dent in it. I know, without 
checking more than a few feet to one side, that it 
encloses the entire four-to-five-o f clock wedge. That we 
will be trapped like rats until the hour passes. 

Peeta presses his hand against the surface and I put 
my own up to meet it, as if I can feel him through the 
wall. I see his lips moving but I can't hear him, can't 
hear anything outside our wedge. I try to make out what 
he's saying, but I can't focus, so I just stare at his face, 
doing my best to hang on to my sanity. 

Then the birds begin to arrive. One by one. Perching 
in the surrounding branches. And a carefully 
orchestrated chorus of horror begins to spill out of their 
mouths. Finnick gives up at once, hunching on the 
ground, clenching his hands over his ears as if he's 
trying to crush his skull. I try to fight for a while. 

Emptying my quiver of arrows into the hated birds. But 
every time one drops dead, another quickly takes its 
place. And finally I give up and curl up beside Finnick, 
trying to block out the excruciating sounds of Prim, 
Gale, my mother, Madge, Rory, Vick, even Posy, 
helpless little Posy... 

I know it's stopped when I feel Peeta's hands on me, 
feel myself lifted from the ground and out of the jungle. 
But I stay eyes squeezed shut, hands over my ears, 
muscles too rigid to release. Peeta holds me on his lap, 
speaking soothing words, rocking me gently. It takes a 
long time before I begin to relax the iron grip on my 
body. And when I do, the trembling begins. 

"It's all right, Katniss," he whispers. 

"You didn't hear them," I answer. 

"I heard Prim. Right in the beginning. But it wasn't 
her," he says. "It was a jabberjay." 

"It was her. Somewhere. The jabberjay just recorded 
it," I say. 

"No, that's what they want you to think. The same 
way I wondered if Glimmer's eyes were in that mutt last 
year. But those weren't Glimmer's eyes. And that wasn't 
Prim's voice. Or if it was, they took it from an interview 

or something and distorted the sound. Made it say 
whatever she was saying," he says. 

"No, they were torturing her," I answer. "She's 
probably dead." 

"Katniss, Prim isn't dead. How could they kill Prim? 
We're almost down to the final eight of us. And what 
happens then?" Peeta says. 

"Seven more of us die," I say hopelessly. 

"No, back home. What happens when they reach the 
final eight tributes in the Games?" He lifts my chin so I 
have to look at him. Forces me to make eye contact. 
"What happens? At the final eight?" 

I know he's trying to help me, so I make myself think. 
"At the final eight?" I repeat. "They interview your 
family and friends back home." 

"That's right," says Peeta. "They interview your 
family and friends. And can they do that if they've 
killed them all?" 

"No?" I ask, still unsure. 

"No. That's how we know Prim's alive. She'll be the 
first one they interview, won't she?" he asks. 

I want to believe him. Badly. It's just ... those voices 

• • • 

"First Prim. Then your mother. Your cousin, Gale. 
Madge," he continues. "It was a trick, Katniss. A 
horrible one. But we're the only ones who can be hurt 
by it. We're the ones in the Games. Not them." 

"You really believe that?" I say. 

"I really do," says Peeta. I waver, thinking of how 
Peeta can make anyone believe anything. I look over at 
Finnick for confirmation, see he's fixated on Peeta, his 

"Do you believe it, Finnick?" I ask. 

"It could be true. I don't know," he says. "Could they 
do that, Beetee? Take someone's regular voice and 
make it ..." 

"Oh, yes. It's not even that difficult, Finnick. Our 
children learn a similar technique in school," says 

"Of course Peeta's right. The whole country adores 
Katniss's little sister. If they really killed her like this, 
they'd probably have an uprising on their hands," says 
Johanna flatly. "Don't want that, do they?" She throws 

back her head and shouts, "Whole country in rebellion? 
Wouldn't want anything like that!" 

My mouth drops open in shock. No one, ever, says 
anything like this in the Games. Absolutely, they've cut 
away from Johanna, are editing her out. But I have 
heard her and can never think about her again in the 
same way. She'll never win any awards for kindness, 
but she certainly is gutsy. Or crazy. She picks up some 
shells and heads toward the jungle. "I'm getting water," 
she says. 

I can't help catching her hand as she passes me. "Don't 
go in there. The birds — " I remember the birds must be 
gone, but I still don't want anyone in there. Not even 

'They can't hurt me. I'm not like the rest of you. 
There's no one left I love," Johanna says, and frees her 
hand with an impatient shake. When she brings me 
back a shell of water, I take it with a silent nod of 
thanks, knowing how much she would despise the pity 
in my voice. 

While Johanna collects water and my arrows, Beetee 
fiddles with his wire, and Finnick takes to the water. I 
need to clean up, too, but I stay in Peeta's arms, still too 
shaken to move. 

"Who did they use against Finnick?" he asks. 
"Somebody named Annie," I say. 
"Must be Annie Cresta," he says. 
"Who?" I ask. 

"Annie Cresta. She was the girl Mags volunteered for. 
She won about five years ago," says Peeta. 

That would have been the summer after my father 
died, when I first began feeding my family, when my 
whole being was occupied with battling starvation. "I 
don't remember those Games much," I say. "Was that 
the earthquake year?" 

"Yeah. Annie's the one who went mad when her 
district partner got beheaded. Ran off by herself and 
hid. But an earthquake broke a dam and most of the 
arena got flooded. She won because she was the best 
swimmer," says Peeta. 

"Did she get better after?" I ask. "I mean, her mind?" 

"I don't know. I don't remember ever seeing her at the 
Games again. But she didn't look too stable during the 
reaping this year," says Peeta. 

So that's who Finnick loves, I think. Not his string of 
fancy lovers in the Capitol. But a poor, mad girl back 

A cannon blast brings us all together on the beach. A 
hovercraft appears in what we estimate to be the six-to- 
seven-o'clock zone. We watch as the claw dips down 
five different times to retrieve the pieces of one body, 
torn apart. It's impossible to tell who it was. Whatever 
happens at six o'clock, I never want to know. 

Peeta draws a new map on a leaf, adding a JJ for 
jabberjays in the four-to-five-o f clock section and simply 
writing beast in the one where we saw the tribute 
collected in pieces. We now have a good idea of what 
seven of the hours will bring. And if there's any positive 
to the jabberjay attack, it's that it let us know where we 
are on the clock face again. 

Finnick weaves yet another water basket and a net for 
fishing. I take a quick swim and put more ointment on 
my skin. Then I sit at the edge of the water, cleaning the 
fish Finnick catches and watching the sun drop below 
the horizon. The bright moon is already on the rise, 
filling the arena with that strange twilight. We're about 
to settle down to our meal of raw fish when the anthem 
begins. And then the faces ... 

Cashmere. Gloss. Wiress. Mags. The woman from 
District 5. The morphling who gave her life for Peeta. 
Blight. The man from 10. 

Eight dead. Plus eight from the first night. Two -thirds 
of us gone in a day and a half. That must be some kind 
of record. 

'They're really burning through us," says Johanna. 
"Who's left? Besides us five and District Two?" asks 

"Chaff," says Peeta, without needing to think about it. 
Perhaps he's been keeping an eye out for him because 
of Haymitch. 

A parachute comes down with a pile of bite-sized 
square-shaped rolls. 'These are from your district, right, 
Beetee?" Peeta asks. 

"Yes, from District Three," he says. "How many are 

Finnick counts them, turning each one over in his 
hands before he sets it in a neat configuration. I don't 
know what it is with Finnick and bread, but he seems 
obsessed with handling it. "Twenty-four," he says. 

"An even two dozen, then?" says Beetee. 

'Twenty-four on the nose," says Finnick. "How 
should we divide them?" 

"Let's each have three, and whoever is still alive at 
breakfast can take a vote on the rest," says Johanna. I 
don't know why this makes me laugh a little. I guess 
because it's true. When I do, Johanna gives me a look 
that's almost approving. No, not approving. But maybe 
slightly pleased. 

We wait until the giant wave has flooded out of the 
ten-to-eleven-o'clock section, wait for the water to 
recede, and then go to that beach to make camp. 
Theoretically, we should have a full twelve hours of 
safety from the jungle. There's an unpleasant chorus of 
clicking, probably from some evil type of insect, 
coming from the eleven-to-twelve-o'clock wedge. But 
whatever is making the sound stays within the confines 
of the jungle and we keep off that part of the beach in 
case they're just waiting for a carelessly placed footfall 
to swarm out. 

I don't know how Johanna's still on her feet. She's 
only had about an hour of sleep since the Games 
started. Peeta and I volunteer for the first watch because 
we're better rested, and because we want some time 
alone. The others go out immediately, although 

Finnick's sleep is restless. Every now and then I hear 
him murmuring Annie's name. 

Peeta and I sit on the damp sand, facing away from 
each other, my right shoulder and hip pressed against 
his. I watch the water as he watches the jungle, which is 
better for me. I'm still haunted by the voices of the 
jabberjays, which unfortunately the insects can't drown 
out. After a while I rest my head against his shoulder. 
Feel his hand caress my hair. 

"Katniss," he says softly, "it's no use pretending we 
don't know what the other one is trying to do." No, I 
guess there isn't, but it's no fun discussing it, either. 
Well, not for us, anyway. The Capitol viewers will be 
glued to their sets so they don't miss one wretched 

"I don't know what kind of deal you think you've 
made with Haymitch, but you should know he made me 
promises as well." Of course, I know this, too. He told 
Peeta they could keep me alive so that he wouldn't be 
suspicious. "So I think we can assume he was lying to 
one of us." 

This gets my attention. A double deal. A double 
promise. With only Haymitch knowing which one is 

real. I raise my head, meet Peeta's eyes. "Why are you 
saying this now?" 

"Because I don't want you forgetting how different 
our circumstances are. If you die, and I live, there's no 
life for me at all back in District Twelve. You're my 
whole life," he says. "I would never be happy again." I 
start to object but he puts a finger to my lips. "It's 
different for you. I'm not saying it wouldn't be hard. But 
there are other people who'd make your life worth 

Peeta pulls the chain with the gold disk from around 
his neck. He holds it in the moonlight so I can clearly 
see the mockingjay. Then his thumb slides along a 
catch I didn't notice before and the disk pops open. It's 
not solid, as I had thought, but a locket. And within the 
locket are photos. On the right side, my mother and 
Prim, laughing. And on the left, Gale. Actually smiling. 

There is nothing in the world that could break me 
faster at this moment than these three faces. After what 
I heard this afternoon ... it is the perfect weapon. 

"Your family needs you, Katniss," Peeta says. 

My family. My mother. My sister. And my pretend 
cousin Gale. But Peeta's intention is clear. That Gale 

really is my family, or will be one day, if I live. That 111 
marry him. So Peeta's giving me his life and Gale at the 
same time. To let me know I shouldn't ever have doubts 
about it. 

Everything. That's what Peeta wants me to take from 

I wait for him to mention the baby, to play to the 
cameras, but he doesn't. And that's how I know that 
none of this is part of the Games. That he is telling me 
the truth about what he feels. 

"No one really needs me," he says, and there's no self- 
pity in his voice. It's true his family doesn't need him. 
They will mourn him, as will a handful of friends. But 
they will get on. Even Haymitch, with the help of a lot 
of white liquor, will get on. I realize only one person 
will be damaged beyond repair if Peeta dies. Me. 

"I do," I say. "I need you." He looks upset, takes a 
deep breath as if to begin a long argument, and that's no 
good, no good at all, because he'll start going on about 
Prim and my mother and everything and I'll just get 
confused. So before he can talk, I stop his lips with a 

I feel that thing again. The thing I only felt once 
before. In the cave last year, when I was trying to get 
Haymitch to send us food. I kissed Peeta about a 
thousand times during those Games and after. But there 
was only one kiss that made me feel something stir 
deep inside. Only one that made me want more. But my 
head wound started bleeding and he made me lie down. 

This time, there is nothing but us to interrupt us. And 
after a few attempts, Peeta gives up on talking. The 
sensation inside me grows warmer and spreads out from 
my chest, down through my body, out along my arms 
and legs, to the tips of my being. Instead of satisfying 
me, the kisses have the opposite effect, of making my 
need greater. I thought I was something of an expert on 
hunger, but this is an entirely new kind. 

It's the first crack of the lightning storm — the bolt 
hitting the tree at midnight — that brings us to our 
senses. It rouses Finnick as well. He sits up with a sharp 
cry. I see his fingers digging into the sand as he 
reassures himself that whatever nightmare he inhabited 
wasn't real. 

"I can't sleep anymore," he says. "One of you should 
rest." Only then does he seem to notice our expressions, 

the way we're wrapped around each other. "Or both of 
you. I can watch alone." 

Peeta won't let him, though. "It's too dangerous," he 
says. "I'm not tired. You lie down, Katniss." I don't 
object because I do need to sleep if I'm to be of any use 
keeping him alive. I let him lead me over to where the 
others are. He puts the chain with the locket around my 
neck, then rests his hand over the spot where our baby 
would be. "You're going to make a great mother, you 
know," he says. He kisses me one last time and goes 
back to Finnick. 

His reference to the baby signals that our time-out 
from the Games is over. That he knows the audience 
will be wondering why he hasn't used the most 
persuasive argument in his arsenal. That sponsors must 
be manipulated. 

But as I stretch out on the sand I wonder, could it be 
more? Like a reminder to me that I could still one day 
have kids with Gale? Well, if that was it, it was a 
mistake. Because for one thing, that's never been part of 
my plan. 

And for another, if only one of us can be a parent, 
anyone can see it should be Peeta. 

As I drift off, I try to imagine that world, somewhere 
in the future, with no Games, no Capitol. A place like 
the meadow in the song I sang to Rue as she died. 
Where Peeta's child could be safe. 

When I wake, I have a brief, delicious feeling of 
happiness that is somehow connected with Peeta. 
Happiness, of course, is a complete absurdity at this 
point, since at the rate things are going, 111 be dead in a 
day. And that's the best-case scenario, if I'm able to 
eliminate the rest of the field, including myself, and get 
Peeta crowned as the winner of the Quarter Quell. Still, 
the sensation's so unexpected and sweet I cling to it, if 
only for a few moments. Before the gritty sand, the hot 
sun, and my itching skin demand a return to reality. 

Everyone's already up and watching the descent of a 
parachute to the beach. I join them for another delivery 
of bread. It's identical to the one we received the night 
before. Twenty- four rolls from District 3. That gives us 
thirty-three in all. We each take five, leaving eight in 
reserve. No one says it, but eight will divide up 
perfectly after the next death. Somehow, in the light of 
day, joking about who will be around to eat the rolls has 
lost its humor. 

How long can we keep this alliance? I don't think 
anyone expected the number of tributes to drop so 
quickly. What if I am wrong about the others protecting 
Peeta? If things were simply coincidental, or it's all 
been a strategy to win our trust to make us easy prey, or 
I don't understand what's actually going on? Wait, 
there's no ifs about that. I don't understand what's going 
on. And if I don't, it's time for Peeta and me to clear out 
of here. 

I sit next to Peeta on the sand to eat my rolls. For 
some reason, it's difficult to look at him. Maybe it was 
all that kissing last night, although the two of us kissing 
isn't anything new. It might not even have felt any 
different for him. Maybe it's knowing the brief amount 
of time we have left. And how we're working at such 
cross-purposes when it comes to who should survive 
these Games. 

After we eat, I take his hand and tug him toward the 
water. "Come on. I'll teach you how to swim." I need to 
get him away from the others where we can discuss 
breaking away. It will be tricky, because once they 
realize we're severing the alliance, we'll be instant 

If I was really teaching him to swim, I'd make him 
take off the belt since it keeps him afloat, but what does 
it matter now? So I just show him the basic stroke and 
let him practice going back and forth in waist-high 
water. At first, I notice Johanna keeping a careful eye 
on us, but eventually she loses interest and goes to take 
a nap. Finnick's weaving a new net out of vines and 
Beetee plays with his wire. I know the time has come. 

While Peeta has been swimming, I've discovered 
something. My remaining scabs are starting to peel off. 
By gently rubbing a handful of sand up and down my 
arm, I clean off the rest of the scales, revealing fresh 
new skin underneath. 

I stop Peeta's practice, on the pretext of showing him 
how to rid himself of the itchy scabs, and as we scrub 
ourselves, I bring up our escape. 

"Look, the pool is down to eight. I think it's time we 
took off," I say under my breath, although I doubt any 
of the tributes can hear me. 

Peeta nods, and I can see him considering my 
proposition. Weighing if the odds will be in our favor. 
'Tell you what," he says. "Let's stick around until 
Brutus and Enobaria are dead. I think Beetee's trying to 

put together some kind of trap for them now. Then, I 
promise, we'll go." 

I'm not entirely convinced. But if we leave now, we'll 
have two sets of adversaries after us. Maybe three, 
because who knows what Chaffs up to? Plus the clock 
to contend with. And then there's Beetee to think of. 
Johanna only brought him for me, and if we leave she'll 
surely kill him. Then I remember. I can't protect Beetee, 
too. There can only be one victor and it has to be Peeta. 
I must accept this. I must make decisions based on his 
survival only. 

"All right," I say. "We'll stay until the Careers are 
dead. But that's the end of it." I turn and wave to 
Finnick. "Hey, Finnick, come on in! We figured out 
how to make you pretty again!" 

The three of us scour all the scabs from our bodies, 
helping with the others' backs, and come out the same 
pink as the sky. We apply another round of medicine 
because the skin seems too delicate for the sunlight, but 
it doesn't look half as bad on smooth skin and will be 
good camouflage in the jungle. 

Beetee calls us over, and it turns out that during all 
those hours of fiddling with wire, he has indeed come 
up with a plan. "I think we'll all agree our next job is to 

kill Brutus and Enobaria," he says mildly. "I doubt 
they'll attack us openly again, now that they're so 
outnumbered. We could track them down, I suppose, 
but it's dangerous, exhausting work." 

"Do you think they've figured out about the clock?" I 

"If they haven't, they'll figure it out soon enough. 
Perhaps not as specifically as we have. But they must 
know that at least some of the zones are wired for 
attacks and that they're reoccurring in a circular fashion. 
Also, the fact that our last fight was cut off by 
Gamemaker intervention will not have gone unnoticed 
by them. We know it was an attempt to disorient us, but 
they must be asking themselves why it was done, and 
this, too, may lead them to the realization that the 
arena's a clock," says Beetee. "So I think our best bet 
will be setting our own trap." 

"Wait, let me get Johanna up," says Finnick. "She'll 
be rabid if she thinks she missed something this 

"Or not," I mutter, since she's always pretty much 
rabid, but I don't stop him, because I'd be angry myself 
if I was excluded from a plan at this point. 

When she's joined us, Beetee shoos us all back a bit so 
he can have room to work in the sand. He swiftly draws 
a circle and divides it into twelve wedges. It's the arena, 
not rendered in-Peeta f s precise strokes but in the rough 
lines of a man whose mind is occupied by other, far 
more complex things. "If you were Brutus and 
Enobaria, knowing what you do now about the jungle, 
where would you feel safest?" Beetee asks. There's 
nothing patronizing in his voice, and yet I can't help 
thinking he reminds me of a schoolteacher about to ease 
children into a lesson. Perhaps it's the age difference, or 
simply that Beetee is probably about a million times 
smarter than the rest of us. 

"Where we are now. On the beach," says Peeta. "It's 
the safest place." 

"So why aren't they on the beach?" says Beetee. 

"Because we're here," says Johanna impatiently. 

"Exactly. We're here, claiming the beach. Now where 
would you go?" says Beetee. 

I think about the deadly jungle, the occupied beach. 
"I'd hide just at the edge of the jungle. So I could 
escape if an attack came. And so I could spy on us." 

"Also to eat," Finnick says. 'The jungle's full of 
strange creatures and plants. But by watching us, I'd 
know the seafood's safe." 

Beetee smiles at us as if we've exceeded his 
expectations. "Yes, good. You do see. Now here's what 
I propose: a twelve o'clock strike. What happens 
exactly at noon and at midnight?" 

'The lightning bolt hits the tree," I say. 

"Yes. So what I'm suggesting is that after the bolt hits 
at noon, but before it hits at midnight, we run my wire 
from that tree all the way down into the saltwater, 
which is, of course, highly conductive. When the bolt 
strikes, the electricity will travel down the wire and into 
not only the water but also the surrounding beach, 
which will still be damp from the ten o'clock wave. 
Anyone in contact with those surfaces at that moment 
will be electrocuted," says Beetee. 

There's a long pause while we all digest Beetee's plan. 
It seems a bit fantastical to me, impossible even. But 
why? I've set thousands of snares. Isn't this just a larger 
snare with a more scientific component? Could it work? 
How can we even question it, we tributes trained to 
gather fish and lumber and coal? What do we know 
about harnessing power from the sky? 

Peeta takes a stab at it. "Will that wire really be able 
to conduct that much power, Beetee? It looks so fragile, 
like it would just burn up." 

"Oh, it will. But not until the current has passed 
through it. It will act something like a fuse, in fact. 
Except the electricity will travel along it," says Beetee. 

"How do you know?" asks Johanna, clearly not 

"Because I invented it," says Beetee, as if slightly 
surprised. "It's not actually wire in the usual sense. Nor 
is the lightning natural lightning nor the tree a real tree. 
You know trees better than any of us, Johanna. It would 
be destroyed by now, wouldn't it?" 

"Yes," she says glumly. 

"Don't worry about the wire — it will do just what I 
say," Beetee assures us. 

"And where will we be when this happens?" asks 

"Far enough up in the jungle to be safe," Beetee 

'The Careers will be safe, too, then, unless they're in 
the vicinity of the water," I point out. 'That's right," 
says Beetee. 

"But all the seafood will be cooked," says Peeta. 

"Probably more than cooked," says Beetee. "We will 
most likely be eliminating that as a food source for 
good. But you found other edible things in the jungle, 
right, Katniss?" 

"Yes. Nuts and rats," I say. "And we have sponsors." 

"Well, then. I don't see that as a problem," says 
Beetee. "But as we are allies and this will require all 
our efforts, the decision of whether or not to attempt it 
is up to you four." 

We are like schoolchildren. Completely unable to 
dispute his theory with anything but the most 
elementary concerns. Most of which don't even have 
anything to do with his actual plan. I look at the others' 
disconcerted faces. "Why not?" I say. "If it fails, there's 
no harm done. If it works, there's a decent chance we'll 
kill them. And even if we don't and just kill the seafood, 
Brutus and Enobaria lose it as a food source, too." 

"I say we try it," says Peeta. "Katniss is right." 

Finnick looks at Johanna and raises his eyebrows. He 
will not go forward without her. "All right," she says 
finally. "It's better than hunting them down in the 
jungle, anyway. And I doubt they'll figure out our plan, 
since we can barely understand it ourselves." 

Beetee wants to inspect the lightning tree before he 
has to rig it. Judging by the sun, it's about nine in the 
morning. We have to leave our beach soon, anyway. So 
we break camp, walk over to the beach that borders the 
lightning section, and head into the jungle. Beetee's still 
too weak to hike up the slope on his own, so Finnick 
and Peeta take turns carrying him. I let Johanna lead 
because it's a pretty straight shot up to the tree, and I 
figure she can't get us too lost. Besides, I can do a lot 
more damage with a sheath of arrows than she can with 
two axes, so I'm the best one to bring up the rear. 

The dense, muggy air weighs on me. There's been no 
break from it since the Games began. I wish Haymitch 
would stop sending us that District 3 bread and get us 
some more of that District 4 stuff, because I've sweated 
out buckets in the last two days, and even though I've 
had the fish, I'm craving salt. A piece of ice would be 
another good idea. Or a cold drink of water. I'm grateful 
for the fluid from the trees, but it's the same 

temperature as the seawater and the air and the other 
tributes and me. We're all just one big, warm stew. 

As we near the tree, Finnick suggests I take the lead. 
"Katniss can hear the force field," he explains to Beetee 
and Johanna. 

"Hear it?" asks Beetee. 

"Only with the ear the Capitol reconstructed," I say. 
Guess who I'm not fooling with that story? Beetee. 
Because surely he remembers that he showed me how 
to spot a force field, and probably it's impossible to hear 
force fields, anyway. But, for whatever reason, he 
doesn't question my claim. 

"Then by all means, let Katniss go first," he says, 
pausing a moment to wipe the steam off his glasses. 
"Force fields are nothing to play around with." 

The lightning tree's unmistakable as it towers so high 
above the others. I find a bunch of nuts and make 
everybody wait while I move slowly up the slope, 
tossing the nuts ahead of me. But I see the force field 
almost immediately, even before a nut hits it, because 
it's only about fifteen yards away. My eyes, which are 
sweeping the greenery before me, catch sight of the 
rippled square high up and to my right. I throw a nut 

directly in front of me and hear it sizzle in 

"Just stay below the lightning tree," I tell the others. 

We divide up duties. Finnick guards Beetee while he 
examines the tree, Johanna taps for water, Peeta gathers 
nuts, and I hunt nearby. The tree rats don't seem to have 
any fear of humans, so I take down three easily. The 
sound of the ten o'clock wave reminds me I should get 
back, and I return to the others and clean my kill. Then 
I draw a line in the dirt a few feet from the force field as 
a reminder to keep back, and Peeta and I settle down to 
roast nuts and sear cubes of rat. 

Beetee is still messing around the tree, doing I don't 
know what, taking measurements and such. At one 
point he snaps off a sliver of bark, joins us, and throws 
it against the force field. It bounces back and lands on 
the ground, glowing. In a few moments it returns to its 
original color. "Well, that explains a lot," says Beetee. I 
look at Peeta and can't help biting my lip to keep from 
laughing since it explains absolutely nothing to anyone 
but Beetee. 

About this time we hear the sound of clicks rising 
from the sector adjacent to us. That means it's eleven 

o'clock. It's far louder in the jungle than it was on the 
beach last night. We all listen intently. 

"It's not mechanical," Beetee says decidedly. 

"I'd guess insects," I say. "Maybe beetles." 

"Something with pincers," adds Finnick. 

The sound swells, as if alerted by our quiet words to 
the proximity of live flesh. Whatever is making that 
clicking, I bet it could strip us to the bone in seconds. 

"We should get out of here, anyway," says Johanna. 
"There's less than an hour before the lightning starts." 

We don't go that far, though. Only to the identical tree 
in the blood-rain section. We have a picnic of sorts, 
squatting on the ground, eating our jungle food, waiting 
for the bolt that signals noon. At Beetee's request, I 
climb up into the canopy as the clicking begins to fade 
out. When the lightning strikes, it's dazzling, even from 
here, even in this bright sunlight. It completely 
encompasses the distant tree, making it glow a hot blue- 
white and causing the surrounding air to crackle with 
electricity. I swing down and report my findings to 
Beetee, who seems satisfied, even if I'm not terribly 

We take a circuitous route back to the ten o'clock 
beach. The sand is smooth and damp, swept clean by 
the recent wave. Beetee essentially gives us the 
afternoon off while he works with the wire. Since it's 
his weapon and the rest of us have to defer to his 
knowledge so entirely, there's the odd feeling of being 
let out of school early. At first we take turns having 
naps in the shadowy edge of the jungle, but by late 
afternoon everyone is awake and restless. We decide, 
since this might be our last chance for seafood, to make 
a sort of feast of it. Under Finnick's guidance we spear 
fish and gather shellfish, even dive for oysters. I like 
this last part best, not because I have any great appetite 
for oysters. I only ever tasted them once, in the Capitol, 
and I couldn't get around the sliminess. But it's lovely, 
deep down under the water, like being in a different 
world. The water's very clear, and schools of bright- 
hued fish and strange sea flowers decorate the sand 

Johanna keeps watch while Finnick, Peeta, and I clean 
and lay out the seafood. Peeta's just pried open an 
oyster when I hear him give a laugh. "Hey, look at 
this!" He holds up a glistening, perfect pearl about the 
size of a pea. "You know, if you put enough pressure 
on coal it turns to pearls," he says earnestly to Finnick. 

"No, it doesn't," says Finnick dismissively. But I 
crack up, remembering that's how a clueless Effie 
Trinket presented us to the people of the Capitol last 
year, before anyone knew us. As coal pressured into 
pearls by our weighty existence. Beauty that arose out 
of pain. 

Peeta rinses the pearl off in the water and hands it to 
me. 'Tor you." I hold it out on my palm and examine its 
iridescent surface in the sunlight. Yes, I will keep it. 
For the few remaining hours of my life I will keep it 
close. This last gift from Peeta. The only one I can 
really accept. Perhaps it will give me strength in the 
final moments. 

"Thanks," I say, closing my fist around it. I look 
coolly into the blue eyes of the person who is now my 
greatest opponent, the person who would keep me alive 
at his own expense. And I promise myself I will defeat 
his plan. 

The laughter drains from those eyes, and they are 
staring so intensely into mine, it's like they can read my 
thoughts. 'The locket didn't work, did it?" Peeta says, 
even though Finnick is right there. Even though 
everyone can hear him. "Katniss?" 

"It worked," I say. 

"But not the way I wanted it to," he says, averting his 
glance. After that he will look at nothing but oysters. 

Just as we're about to eat, a parachute appears bearing 
two supplements to our meal. A small pot of spicy red 
sauce and yet another round of rolls from District 3. 
Finnick, of course, immediately counts them. 'Twenty- 
four again," he says. 

Thirty-two rolls, then. So we each take five, leaving 
seven, which will never divide equally. It's bread for 
only one. 

The salty fish flesh, the succulent shellfish. Even the 
oysters seem tasty, vastly improved by the sauce. We 
gorge ourselves until no one can hold another bite, and 
even then there are leftovers. They won't keep, though, 
so we toss all the remaining food back into the water so 
the Careers won't get it when we leave. No one bothers 
about the shells. The wave should clear those away. 

There's nothing to do now but wait. Peeta and I sit at 
the edge of the water, hand in hand, wordless. He gave 
his speech last night but it didn't change my mind, and 
nothing I can say will change his. The time for 
persuasive gifts is over. 

I have the pearl, though, secured in a parachute with 
the spile and the medicine at my waist. I hope it makes 
it back to District 12. 

Surely my mother and Prim will know to return it to 
Peeta before they bury my body. 

The anthem begins, but there are no faces in the sky 
tonight. The audience will be restless, thirsting for 
blood. Beetee's trap holds enough promise, though, that 
the Gamemakers haven't sent in other attacks. Perhaps 
they are simply curious to see if it will work. 

At what Finnick and I judge to be about nine, we 
leave our shell-strewn camp, cross to the twelve o'clock 
beach, and begin to quietly hike up to the lightning tree 
in the light of the moon. Our full stomachs make us 
more uncomfortable and breathless than we were on the 
morning's climb. I begin to regret those last dozen 

Beetee asks Finnick to assist him, and the rest of us 
stand guard. Before he even attaches any wire to the 
tree, Beetee unrolls yards and yards of the stuff. He has 
Finnick secure it tightly around a broken branch and lay 
it on the ground. Then they stand on either side of the 
tree, passing the spool back and forth as they wrap the 
wire around and around the trunk. At first it seems 
arbitrary, then I see a pattern, like an intricate maze, 

appearing in the moonlight on Beetee's side. I wonder if 
it makes any difference how the wire's placed, or if this 
is merely to add to the speculation of the audience. I bet 
most of them know as much about electricity as I do. 

The work on the trunk's completed just as we hear the 
wave begin. I've never really worked out at what point 
in the ten o'clock hour it erupts. There must be some 
buildup, then the wave itself, then the aftermath of the 
flooding. But the sky tells me ten-thirty. 

This is when Beetee reveals the rest of the plan. Since 
we move most swiftly through the trees, he wants 
Johanna and me to take the coil down through the 
jungle, unwinding the wire as we go. We are to lay it 
across the twelve o'clock beach and drop the metal 
spool, with whatever is left, deep into the water, making 
sure it sinks. Then run for the jungle. If we go now, 
right now, we should make it to safety. 

"I want to go with them as a guard," Peeta says 
immediately. After the moment with the pearl, I know 
he's less willing than ever to let me out of his sight. 

"You're too slow. Besides, I'll need you on this end. 
Katniss will guard," says Beetee. 'There's no time to 
debate this. I'm sorry. If the girls are to get out of there 

alive, they need to move now." He hands the coil to 

I don't like the plan any more than Peeta does. How 
can I protect him at a distance? But Beetee's right. With 
his leg, Peeta is too slow to make it down the slope in 
time. Johanna and I are the fastest and most sure-footed 
on the jungle floor. I can't think of any alternative. And 
if I trust anyone here besides Peeta, it's Beetee. 

"It's okay," I tell Peeta. "We'll just drop the coil and 
come straight back up." 

"Not into the lightning zone," Beetee reminds me. 
"Head for the tree in the one-to-two-o'clock sector. If 
you find you're running out of time, move over one 
more. Don't even think about going back on the beach, 
though, until I can assess the damage." 

I take Peeta's face in my hands. "Don't worry. I'll see 
you at midnight." I give him a kiss and, before he can 
object any further, I let go and turn to Johanna. 

"Why not?" says Johanna with a shrug. She's clearly 
no happier about being teamed up than I am. But we're 
all caught up in Beetee's trap. "You guard, I'll unwind. 
We can trade off later." 

Without further discussion, we head down the slope. 
In fact there's very little discussion between us at all. 
We move at a pretty good clip, one manning the coil, 
the other keeping watch. About halfway down, we hear 
the clicking beginning to rise, indicating it's after 

"Better hurry," Johanna says. "I want to put a lot of 
distance between me and that water before the lightning 
hits. Just in case Volts miscalculated something." 

"Ill take the coil for a while," I say. It's harder work 
laying out the wire than guarding, and she's had a long 

"Here," Johanna says, passing me the coil. 

Both of our hands are still on the metal cylinder when 
there's a slight vibration. Suddenly the thin golden wire 
from above springs down at us, bunching in tangled 
loops and curls around our wrists. Then the severed end 
snakes up to our feet. 

It only takes a second to register this rapid turn of 
events. Johanna and I look at each other, but neither of 
us has to say it. Someone not far above us has cut the 
wire. And they will be on us at any moment. 

My hand frees itself from the wire and has just closed 
on the feathers of an arrow when the metal cylinder 
smashes into the side of my head. The next thing I 
know, I'm lying on my back in the vines, a terrible pain 
in my left temple. Something's wrong with my eyes. 
My vision blurs in and out of focus as I strain to make 
the two moons floating up in the sky into one. It's hard 
to breathe, and I realize Johanna's sitting on my chest, 
pinning me at the shoulders with her knees. 

There's a stab in my left forearm. I try to jerk away 
but I'm still too incapacitated. Johanna's digging 
something, I guess the point of her knife, into my flesh, 
twisting it around. There's an excruciating ripping 
sensation and warmth runs down my wrist, filling my 
palm. She swipes down my arm and coats half my face 
with my blood. 

"Stay down!" she hisses. Her weight leaves my body 
and I'm alone. 

Stay down? I think. What? What is happening? My 
eyes shut, blocking out the inconsistent world, as I try 
to make sense of my situation. 

All I can think of is Johanna shoving Wiress to the 
beach. "Just stay down, will you? " But she didn't attack 
Wiress. Not like this. I'm not Wiress, anyway. I'm not 

Nuts. "Just stay down, will you?" echoes around inside 
my brain. 

Footsteps coming. Two pairs. Heavy, not trying to 
conceal their whereabouts. 

Brutus's voice. "She's good as dead! Come on, 
Enobaria!" Feet moving into the night. 

Am I? I drift in and out of consciousness looking for 
an answer. Am I as good as dead? I'm in no position to 
make an argument to the contrary. In fact, rational 
thinking is a struggle. This much I know. Johanna 
attacked me. Smashed that cylinder into my head. Cut 
my arm, probably doing irreparable damage to veins 
and arteries, and then Brutus and Enobaria showed up 
before she had time to finish me off. 

The alliance is over. Finnick and Johanna must have 
had an agreement to turn on us tonight. I knew we 
should have left this morning. I don't know where 
Beetee stands. But I'm fair game, and so is Peeta. 

Peeta! My eyes fly open in panic. Peeta is waiting up 
by the tree, unsuspecting and off guard. Maybe Finnick 
has even killed him already. "No," I whisper. That wire 
was cut from a short distance away by the Careers. 
Finnick and Beetee and Peeta — they can't know what's 

going on down here. They can only be wondering what 
has happened, why the wire has gone slack or maybe 
even sprung back to the tree. This, in itself, can't be a 
signal to kill, can it? Surely this was just Johanna 
deciding the time had come to break with us. Kill me. 
Escape from the Careers. Then bring Finnick into the 
fight as soon as possible. 

I don't know. I don't know. I only know that I must get 
back to Peeta and keep him alive. It takes every ounce 
of will I have to push up into a sitting position and drag 
myself up the side of a tree to my feet. It's lucky I have 
something to hold on to because the jungle's tilting back 
and forth. Without any warning, I lean forward and 
vomit up the seafood feast, heaving until there can't 
possibly be an oyster left in my body. Trembling and 
slick with sweat, I assess my physical condition. 

As I lift up my damaged arm, blood sprays me in the 
face and the world makes another alarming shift. I 
squeeze my eyes shut and cling to the tree until things 
steady a little. Then I take a few careful steps to a 
neighboring tree, pull off some moss, and without 
examining the wound further, tightly bandage my arm. 
Better. Definitely better not to see it. Then I allow my 
hand to tentatively touch my head wound. There's a 
huge lump but not too much blood. Obviously I've got 

some internal damage, but I don't seem in danger of 
bleeding to death. At least not through my head. 

I dry my hands on moss and get a shaky grip on my 
bow with my damaged left arm. Secure the notch of an 
arrow to the string. Make my feet move up the slope. 

Peeta. My dying wish. My promise. To keep him 
alive. My heart lifts a bit when I realize he must be 
alive because no cannon has fired. Maybe Johanna was 
acting alone, knowing Finnick would side with her once 
her intentions were clear. Although it's hard to guess 
what goes on between those two. I think of how he 
looked to her for confirmation before he'd agree to help 
set Beetee's trap. There's a much deeper alliance based 
on years of friendship and who knows what else. 
Therefore, if Johanna has turned on me, I should no 
longer trust Finnick. 

I reach this conclusion only seconds before I hear 
someone running down the slope toward me. Neither 
Peeta nor Beetee could move at this pace. I duck behind 
a curtain of vines, concealing myself just in time. 
Finnick flies by me, his skin shadowy with medicine, 
leaping through the undergrowth like a deer. He soon 
reaches the sight of my attack, must see the blood. 

"Johanna! Katniss!" he calls. I stay put until he goes in 
the direction Johanna and the Careers took. 

I move as quickly as I can without sending the world 
into a whirl. My head throbs with the rapid beat of my 
heart. The insects, possibly excited by the smell of 
blood, have increased their clicking until it's a 
continuous roar in my ears. No, wait. Maybe my ears 
are actually ringing from the hit. Until the insects shut 
up, it will be impossible to tell. But when the insects go 
silent, the lightning will start. I have to move faster. I 
have to get to Peeta. 

The boom of a cannon pulls me up short. Someone 
has died. I know that with everyone running around 
armed and scared right now, it could be anybody. But 
whoever it is, I believe the death will trigger a kind of 
free-for-all out here in the night. People will kill first 
and wonder about their motives later. I force my legs 
into a run. 

Something snags my feet and I sprawl out on the 
ground. I feel it wrapping around me, entwining me in 
sharp fibers. A net! This must be one of Finnick's fancy 
nets, positioned to trap me, and he must be nearby, 
trident in hand. I flail around for a moment, only 
working the web more tightly around me, and then I 

catch a glimpse of it in the moonlight. Confused, I lift 
my arm and see it's entangled in shimmering golden 
threads. It's not one of Finnick's nets at all, but Beetee's 
wire. I carefully rise to my feet and find I'm in a patch 
of the stuff that caught on a trunk on its way back to the 
lightning tree. Slowly I disengage myself from the wire, 
step out of its reach, and continue uphill. 

On the good side, I'm on the right path and have not 
been so disoriented by the head injury as to lose my 
sense of direction. On the bad side, the wire has 
reminded me of the oncoming lightning storm. I can 
still hear the insects, but are they starting to fade? 

I keep the loops of wire a few feet to my left as a 
guide as I run but take great care not to touch them. If 
those insects are fading and the first bolt is about to 
strike the tree, then all its power will come surging 
down that wire and anyone in contact with it will die. 

The tree swims into view, its trunk festooned with 
gold. I slow down, try to move with some stealth, but 
I'm really just lucky to be upright. I look for a sign of 
the others. No one. No one is there. "Peeta?" I call 
softly. "Peeta?" 

A soft moan answers me and I whip around to find a 
figure lying higher up on the ground. "Beetee!" I 

exclaim. I hurry and kneel beside him. The moan must 
have been involuntary. He's not conscious, although I 
can see no wound except a gash below the crook of his 
elbow. I grab a nearby handful of moss and clumsily 
wrap it while I try to rouse him. "Beetee! Beetee, what's 
going on! Who cut you? Beetee!" I shake him in the 
way you should never shake an injured person, but I 
don't know what else to do. He moans again and briefly 
raises a hand to ward me off. 

This is when I notice he's holding a knife, one Peeta 
was carrying earlier, I think, which is wrapped loosely 
in wire. 

Perplexed, I stand and lift the wire, confirming it's 
attached back at the tree. It takes me a moment to 
remember the second, much shorter strand that Beetee 
wound around a branch and left on the ground before he 
even began his design on the tree. I'd thought it had 
some electrical significance, had been set aside to be 
used later. But it never was, because there's probably a 
good twenty, twenty- five yards here. 

I squint hard up the hill and realize we're only a few 
paces from the force field. There's the telltale square, 
high up and to my right, just as it was this morning. 
What did Beetee do? Did he actually try to drive the 

knife into the force field the way Peeta did by accident? 
And what's the deal with the wire? Was this his backup 
plan? If electrifying the water failed, did he mean to 
send the lightning bolt's energy into the force field? 
What would that do, anyway? Nothing? A great deal? 
Fry us all? The force field must mostly be energy, too, I 
guess. The one in the Training Center was invisible. 
This one seems to somehow mirror the jungle. But I've 
seen it falter when Peeta's knife struck it and when my 
arrows hit. The real world lies right behind it. 

My ears are not ringing. It was the insects after all. I 
know that now because they are dying out quickly and I 
hear nothing but the jungle sounds. Beetee is useless. I 
can't rouse him. I can't save him. I don't know what he 
was trying to do with the knife and the wire and he's 
incapable of explaining. The moss bandage on my arm 
is soaked and there's no use fooling myself. I'm so light- 
headed I'll black out in a matter of minutes. I've got to 
get away from this tree and — 

"Katniss!" I hear his voice though he's a far distance 
away. But what is he doing? Peeta must have figured 
out that everyone is hunting us by now. "Katniss!" 

I can't protect him. I can't move fast or far and my 
shooting abilities are questionable at best. I do the one 

thing I can to draw the attackers away from him and 
over to me. "Peeta!" I scream out. "Peeta! I'm here! 
Peeta!" Yes, I will draw them in, any in my vicinity, 
away from Peeta and over to me and the lightning tree 
that will soon be a weapon in and of itself. "I'm here! 
I'm here!" He won't make it. Not with that leg in the 
night. He will never make it in time. "Peeta!" 

It's working. I can hear them coming. Two of them. 
Crashing through the jungle. My knees start to give out 
and I sink down next to Beetee, resting my weight on 
my heels. My bow and arrow lift into position. If I can 
take them out, will Peeta survive the rest? 

Enobaria and Finnick reach the lightning tree. They 
can't see me, sitting above them on the slope, my skin 
camouflaged in ointment. I home in on Enobaria's neck. 
With any luck, when I kill her, Finnick will duck 
behind the tree for cover just as the lightning bolt 
strikes. And it will be any second. There's only a faint 
insect click here and there. I can kill them now. I can 
kill them both. 

Another cannon. 

"Katniss!" Peeta's voice howls for me. But this time I 
don't answer. Beetee still breathes faintly beside me. He 
and I will soon die. Finnick and Enobaria will die. Peeta 

is alive. Two cannons have sounded. Brutus, Johanna, 
Chaff. Two of them are already dead. That will leave 
Peeta with only one tribute to kill. And that is the very 
best I can do. One enemy. 

Enemy. Enemy. The word is tugging at a recent 
memory. Pulling it into the present. The look on 
Haymitch's face. "Katniss, when you're in the arena ..." 
The scowl, the misgiving. "What?" I hear my own 
voice tighten as I bristle at some unspoken accusation. 
"You just remember who the enemy is, " Haymitch says. 
"That's all. " 

Haymitch's last words of advice to me. Why would I 
need reminding? I have always known who the enemy 
is. Who starves and tortures and kills us in the arena. 
Who will soon kill everyone I love. 

My bow drops as his meaning registers. Yes, I know 
who the enemy is. And it's not Enobaria. 

I finally see Beetee's knife with clear eyes. My 
shaking hands slide the wire from the hilt, wind it 
around the arrow just above the feathers, and secure it 
with a knot picked up in training. 

I rise, turning to the force field, fully revealing myself 
but no longer caring. Only caring about where I should 

direct my tip, where Beetee would have driven the knife 
if he'd been able to choose. My bow tilts up at the 
wavering square, the flaw, the ... what did he call it that 
day? The chink in the armor. I let the arrow fly, see it 
hit its mark and vanish, pulling the thread of gold 
behind it. 

My hair stands on end and the lightning strikes the 

A flash of white runs up the wire, and for just a 
moment, the dome bursts into a dazzling blue light. I'm 
thrown backward to the ground, body useless, 
paralyzed, eyes frozen wide, as feathery bits of matter 
rain down on me. I can't reach Peeta. I can't even reach 
my pearl. My eyes strain to capture one last image of 
beauty to take with me. 

Right before the explosions begin, I find a star. 

Everything seems to erupt at once. The earth explodes 
into showers of dirt and plant matter. Trees burst into 
flames. Even the sky fills with brightly colored 
blossoms of light. I can't think why the sky's being 
bombed until I realize the Gamemakers are shooting off 
fireworks up there, while the real destruction occurs on 
the ground. Just in case it's not enough fun watching the 
obliteration of the arena and the remaining tributes. Or 
perhaps to illuminate our gory ends. 

Will they let anyone survive? Will there be a victor of 
the Seventy-fifth Hunger Games? Maybe not. After all, 
what is this Quarter Quell but ... what was it President 
Snow read from the card? 

"... a reminder to the rebels that even the strongest 
among them cannot overcome the power of the 
Capitol... " 

Not even the strongest of the strong will triumph. 
Perhaps they never intended to have a victor in these 

Games at all. Or perhaps my final act of rebellion 
forced their hand. 

I'm sorry, Peeta, I think. I'm sorry I couldn f t save you. 
Save him? More likely I stole his last chance at life, 
condemned him, by destroying the force field. Maybe, 
if we had all played by the rules, they might have let 
him live. 

The hovercraft materializes above me without 
warning. If it was quiet, and a mocking] ay perched 
close at hand, I would have heard the jungle go silent 
and then the bird's call that precedes the appearance of 
the Capitol's aircraft. But my ears could never make out 
anything so delicate in this bombardment. 

The claw drops from the underside until it's directly 
overhead. The metal talons slide under me. I want to 
scream, run, smash my way out of it but I'm frozen, 
helpless to do anything but fervently hope 111 die before 
I reach the shadowy figures awaiting me above. They 
have not spared my life to crown me victor but to make 
my death as slow and public as possible. 

My worst fears are confirmed when the face that 
greets me inside the hovercraft belongs to Plutarch 
Heavensbee, Head Gamemaker. What a mess I have 
made of his beautiful Games with the clever ticking 

clock and the field of victors. He will suffer for his 
failure, probably lose his life, but not before he sees me 
punished. His hand reaches for me, I think to strike me, 
but he does something worse. With his thumb and his 
forefinger, he slides my eyelids shut, sentencing me to 
the vulnerability of darkness. They can do anything to 
me now and I will not even see it coming. 

My heart pounds so hard the blood begins to stream 
from beneath my soaked moss bandage. My thoughts 
grow foggy. Possibly I can bleed to death before they 
can revive me after all. In my mind, I whisper a thank- 
you to Johanna Mason for the excellent wound she 
inflicted as I black out. 

When I swim back into semi consciousness, I can feel 
I'm lying on a padded table. There's the pinching 
sensation of tubes in my left arm. They are trying to 
keep me alive because, if I slide quietly, privately into 
death, it will be a victory. I'm still largely unable to 
move, open my eyelids, raise my head. But my right 
arm has regained a little motion. It flops across my 
body, feeling like a flipper, no, something less 
animated, like a club. I have no real motor coordination, 
no proof that I even still have fingers. Yet I manage to 
swing my arm around until I rip the tubes out. A 

beeping goes off but I can't stay awake to find out who 
it will summon. 

The next time I surface, my hands are tied down to the 
table, the tubes back in my arm. I can open my eyes and 
lift my head slightly, though. I'm in a large room with 
low ceilings and a silvery light. There are two rows of 
beds facing each other. I can hear the breathing of what 
I assume are my fellow victors. Directly across from me 
I see Beetee with about ten different machines hooked 
up to him. Just let us die! I scream in my mind. I slam 
my head back hard on the table and go out again. 

When I finally, truly, wake up, the restraints are gone. 
I raise my hand and find I have fingers that can move at 
my command again. I push myself to a sitting position 
and hold on to the padded table until the room settles 
into focus. My left arm is bandaged but the tubes 
dangle off stands by the bed. 

I'm alone except for Beetee, who still lies in front of 
me, being sustained by his army of machines. Where 
are the others, then? Peeta, Finnick, Enobaria, 
and... and... one more, right? Either Johanna or Chaff or 
Brutus was still alive when the bombs began. I'm sure 
they'll want to make an example of us all. But where 

have they taken them? Moved them from hospital to 

"Peeta..." I whisper. I so wanted to protect him. Am 
still resolved to. Since I have failed to keep him safe in 
life, I must find him, kill him now before the Capitol 
gets to choose the agonizing means of his death. I slide 
my legs off the table and look around for a weapon. 
There are a few syringes sealed in sterile plastic on a 
table near Beetee's bed. Perfect. All I'll need is air and a 
clear shot at one of his veins. 

I pause for a moment, consider killing Beetee. But if I 
do, the monitors will start beeping and Til be caught 
before I get to Peeta. I make a silent promise to return 
and finish him off if I can. 

I'm naked except for a thin nightgown, so I slip the 
syringe under the bandage that covers the wound on my 
arm. There are no guards at the door. No doubt I'm 
miles beneath the Training Center or in some Capitol 
stronghold, and the possibility of my escape is 
nonexistent. It doesn't matter. I'm not escaping, just 
finishing a job. 

I creep down a narrow hallway to a metal door that 
stands slightly ajar. Someone is behind it. I take out the 

syringe and grip it in my hand. Flattening myself 
against the wall, I listen to the voices inside. 

"Communications are down in Seven, Ten, and 
Twelve. But Eleven has control of transportation now, 
so there's at least a hope of them getting some food 

Plutarch Heavensbee. I think. Although I've only 
really spoken with him once. A hoarse voice asks a 

"No, I'm sorry. There's no way I can get you to Four. 
But I've given special orders for her retrieval if 
possible. It's the best I can do, Finnick." 

Finnick. My mind struggles to make sense of the 
conversation, of the fact that it's taking place between 
Plutarch Heavensbee and Finnick. Is he so near and 
dear to the Capitol that he'll be excused his crimes? Or 
did he really have no idea what Beetee intended? He 
croaks out something else. Something heavy with 

"Don't be stupid. That's the worst thing you could do. 
Get her killed for sure. As long as you're alive, they'll 
keep her alive for bait," says Haymitch. 

Says Haymitch! I bang through the door and stumble 
into the room. Haymitch, Plutarch, and a very beat-up 
Finnick sit around a table laid with a meal no one is 
eating. Daylight streams in the curved windows, and in 
the distance I see the top of a forest of trees. We are 

"Done knocking yourself out, sweetheart?" says 
Haymitch, the annoyance clear in his voice. But as I 
careen forward he steps up and catches my wrists, 
steadying me. He looks at my hand. "So it's you and a 
syringe against the Capitol? See, this is why no one lets 
you make the plans." I stare at him uncomprehendingly. 
"Drop it." I feel the pressure increase on my right wrist 
until my hand is forced to open and I release the 
syringe. He settles me in a chair next to Finnick. 

Plutarch puts a bowl of broth in front of me. A roll. 
Slips a spoon into my hand. "Eat," he says in a much 
kinder voice than Haymitch used. 

Haymitch sits directly in front of me. "Katniss, I'm 
going to explain what happened. I don't want you to ask 
any questions until I'm through. Do you understand?" 

I nod numbly. And this is what he tells me. 

There was a plan to break us out of the arena from the 
moment the Quell was announced. The victor tributes 
from 3, 4, 6, 7, 8, and 11 had varying degrees of 
knowledge about it. Plutarch Heavensbee has been, for 
several years, part of an undercover group aiming to 
overthrow the Capitol. He made sure the wire was 
among the weapons. Beetee was in charge of blowing a 
hole in the force field. The bread we received in the 
arena was code for the time of the rescue. The district 
where the bread originated indicated the day. Three. 
The number of rolls the hour. Twenty-four. The 
hovercraft belongs to District 13. Bonnie and Twill, the 
women I met in the woods from 8, were right about its 
existence and its defense capabilities. We are currently 
on a very roundabout journey to District 13. 
Meanwhile, most of the districts in Panem are in full- 
scale rebellion. 

Haymitch stops to see if I am following. Or maybe he 
is done for the moment. 

It's an awful lot to take in, this elaborate plan in which 
I was a piece, just as I was meant to be a piece in the 
Hunger Games. Used without consent, without 
knowledge. At least in the Hunger Games, I knew I was 
being played with. 

My supposed friends have been a lot more secretive. 

"You didn't tell me." My voice is as ragged as 

"Neither you nor Peeta were told. We couldn't risk it," 
says Plutarch. "I was even worried you might mention 
my indiscretion with the watch during the Games." He 
pulls out his pocket watch and runs his thumb across 
the crystal, lighting up the mockingjay. "Of course, 
when I showed you this, I was merely tipping you off 
about the arena. As a mentor. I thought it might be a 
first step toward gaining your trust. I never dreamed 
you'd be a tribute again." 

"I still don't understand why Peeta and I weren't let in 
on the plan," I say. 

"Because once the force field blew, you'd be the first 
ones they'd try to capture, and the less you knew, the 
better," says Haymitch. 

"The first ones? Why?" I say, trying to hang on to the 
train of thought. 

"For the same reason the rest of us agreed to die to 
keep you alive," says Finnick. 

"No, Johanna tried to kill me," I say. 

"Johanna knocked you out to cut the tracker from 
your arm and lead Brutus and Enobaria away from 
you," says Haymitch. 

"What?" My head aches so and I want them to stop 
talking in circles. "I don't know what you're — " 

"We had to save you because you're the mockingjay, 
Katniss," says Plutarch. "While you live, the revolution 

The bird, the pin, the song, the berries, the watch, the 
cracker, the dress that burst into flames. I am the 

The one that survived despite the Capitol's plans. The 
symbol of the rebellion. 

It's what I suspected in the woods when I found 
Bonnie and Twill escaping. Though I never really 
understood the magnitude. But then, I wasn't meant to 
understand. I think of Haymitch's sneering at my plans 
to flee District 12, start my own uprising, even the very 
notion that District 13 could exist. Subterfuges and 
deceptions. And if he could do that, behind his mask of 
sarcasm and drunkenness, so convincingly and for so 
long, what else has he lied about? I know what else. 

"Peeta," I whisper, my heart sinking. 

'The others kept Peeta alive because if he died, we 
knew there'd be no keeping you in an alliance," says 
Haymitch. "And we couldn't risk leaving you 
unprotected." His words are matter-of-fact, his 
expression unchanged, but he can't hide the tinge of 
gray that colors his face. 

"Where is Peeta?" I hiss at him. 

"He was picked up by the Capitol along with Johanna 
and Enobaria," says Haymitch. And finally he has the 
decency to drop his gaze. 

Technically, I am unarmed. But no one should ever 
underestimate the harm that fingernails can do, 
especially if the target is unprepared. I lunge across the 
table and rake mine down Haymitch's face, causing 
blood to flow and damage to one eye. Then we are both 
screaming terrible, terrible things at each other, and 
Finnick is trying to drag me out, and I know it's all 
Haymitch can do not to rip me apart, but I'm the 
mockingjay. I'm the mockingjay and it's too hard 
keeping me alive as it is. 

Other hands help Finnick and I'm back on my table, 
my body restrained, my wrists tied down, so I slam my 
head in fury again and again against the table. A needle 
pokes my arm and my head hurts so badly I stop 

fighting and simply wail in a horrible, dying-animal 
way, until my voice gives out. 

The drug causes sedation, not sleep, so I am trapped in 
fuzzy, dully aching misery for what seems like always. 
They reinsert their tubes and talk to me in soothing 
voices that never reach me. All I can think of is Peeta, 
lying on a similar table somewhere, while they try to 
break him for information he doesn't even have. 

"Katniss. Katniss, I'm sorry." Finnick's voice comes 
from the bed next to me and slips into my 
consciousness. Perhaps because we're in the same kind 
of pain. "I wanted to go back for him and Johanna, but I 
couldn't move." 

I don't answer. Finnick Odair's good intentions mean 
less than nothing. 

"It's better for him than Johanna. They'll figure out he 
doesn't know anything pretty fast. And they won't kill 
him if they think they can use him against you," says 

"Like bait?" I say to the ceiling. "Like how they'll use 
Annie for bait, Finnick?" 

I can hear him weeping but I don't care. They 
probably won't even bother to question her, she's so far 

gone. Gone right off the deep end years ago in her 
Games. There's a good chance I'm headed in the same 
direction. Maybe I'm already going crazy and no one 
has the heart to tell me. I feel crazy enough. 

"I wish she was dead," he says. "I wish they were all 
dead and we were, too. It would be best." 

Well, there's no good response to that. I can hardly 
dispute it since I was walking around with a syringe to 
kill Peeta when I found them. Do I really want him 
dead? What I want ... what I want is to have him back. 
But I'll never get him back now. Even if the rebel forces 
could somehow overthrow the Capitol, you can be sure 
President Snow's last act would be to cut Peeta's throat. 
No. I will never get him back. So then dead is best. 

But will Peeta know that or will he keep fighting? 
He's so strong and such a good liar. Does he think he 
has a chance of surviving? Does he even care if he 
does? He wasn't planning on it, anyway. He had already 
signed off on life. Maybe, if he knows I was rescued, 
he's even happy. Feels he fulfilled his mission to keep 
me alive. 

I think I hate him even more than I do Haymitch. 

I give up. Stop speaking, responding, refuse food and 
water. They can pump whatever they want into my arm, 
but it takes more than that to keep a person going once 
she's lost the will to live. I even have a funny notion 
that if I do die, maybe Peeta will be allowed to live. Not 
as a free person but as an Avox or something, waiting 
on the future tributes of District 12. Then maybe he 
could find some way to escape. My death could, in fact, 
still save him. 

If it can't, no matter. It's enough to die of spite. To 
punish Haymitch, who, of all the people in this rotting 
world, has turned Peeta and me into pieces in his 
Games. I trusted him. I put what was precious in 
Haymitch's hands. And he has betrayed me. 

"See, this is why no one lets you make the plans, " he 

That's true. No one in their right mind would let me 
make the plans. Because I obviously can't tell a friend 
from an enemy. 

A lot of people come by to talk to me, but I make all 
their words sound like the clicking of the insects in the 
jungle. Meaningless and distant. Dangerous, but only if 
approached. Whenever the words start to become 

distinct, I moan until they give me more painkiller and 
that fixes things right up. 

Until one time, I open my eyes and find someone I 
cannot block out looking down at me. Someone who 
will not plead, or explain, or think he can alter my 
design with entreaties, because he alone really knows 
how I operate. 

"Gale," I whisper. 

"Hey, Catnip." He reaches down and pushes a strand 
of hair out of my eyes. One side of his face has been 
burned fairly recently. His arm is in a sling, and I can 
see bandages under his miner's shirt. What has 
happened to him? How is he even here? Something 
very bad has happened back home. 

It is not so much a question of forgetting Peeta as 
remembering the others. All it takes is one look at Gale 
and they come surging into the present, demanding to 
be acknowledged. 

'Trim?" I gasp. 

"She's alive. So is your mother. I got them out in 
time," he says. 

"They're not in District Twelve?" I ask. 

"After the Games, they sent in planes. Dropped 
firebombs." He hesitates. "Well, you know what 
happened to the Hob." 

I do know. I saw it go up. That old warehouse 
embedded with coal dust. The whole district's covered 
with the stuff. A new kind of horror begins to rise up 
inside me as I imagine firebombs hitting the Seam. 

"They're not in District Twelve?" I repeat. As if 
saying it will somehow fend off the truth. 

"Katniss," Gale says softly. 

I recognize that voice. It's the same one he uses to 
approach wounded animals before he delivers a 
deathblow. I instinctively raise my hand to block his 
words but he catches it and holds on tightly. 

"Don't," I whisper. 

But Gale is not one to keep secrets from me. "Katniss, 
there is no District Twelve."